Wuthering Heights
By Emily Brontë
Chapter
1
1801- I have just returned from a visit to
my landlord—the solitary neighbour that I shall be troubled with. This is
certainly a beautiful country! In all England, I do not believe that I could
have fixed on a situation so completely removed from the stir of society. A
perfect misanthropist's heaven; and Mr. Heathcliff and I are such a suitable
pair to divide the desolation between us. A capital fellow! He little imagined
how my heart warmed towards him when I beheld his black eyes withdraw so
suspiciously under their brows, as I rode up, and when his fingers sheltered
themselves, with a jealous resolution, still further in his waistcoat, as I
announced my name.
"Mr. Heathcliff!" I said.
A nod was the answer.
"Mr. Lockwood, your new tenant, sir. I
do myself the honour of calling as soon as possible after my arrival, to
express the hope that I have not inconvenienced you by my perseverance in
soliciting the occupation of Thrushcross Grange: I heard yesterday you had had
some thoughts-"
"Thrushcross Grange is my own,
sir," he interrupted wincing. "I should not allow any one to
inconvenience me, if I could hinder it- walk in!"
The "walk in" was uttered with
closed teeth, and expressed the sentiment, "Go to the deuce": even
the gate over which he leant manifested no sympathising movement to the words;
and I think that circumstance determined me to accept the invitation: I felt
interested in a man who seemed more exaggeratedly reserved than myself.
When he saw my horse's breast fairly
pushing the barrier, he did put out his hand to unchain it, and then suddenly
preceded me up the causeway, calling, as we entered the court- "Joseph,
take Mr. Lockwood's horse; and bring up some wine."
"Here we have the whole establishment
of domestics, I suppose," was the reflection suggested by this compound
order. "No wonder the grass grows up between the flags, and cattle are the
only hedge-cutters."
Joseph was an elderly, nay, an old man:
very old, perhaps, though hale and sinewy. "The Lord help us!" he
soliloquised in an undertone of peevish displeasure, while relieving me of my
horse: looking, meantime, in my face so sourly that I charitably conjectured he
must have need of divine aid to digest his dinner, and his pious ejaculation
had no reference to my unexpected advent.
Wuthering Heights is the name of Mr.
Heathcliff's dwelling. "Wuthering" being a significant provincial
adjective, descriptive of the atmospheric tumult to which its station is
exposed in stormy weather. Pure, bracing ventilation they must have up there at
all times, indeed; one may guess the power of the north wind blowing over the
edge, by the excessive slant of a few-stunted firs at the end of the house; and
by a range of gaunt thorns all stretching their limbs one way, as if craving
alms of the sun. Happily, the architect had foresight to build it strong: the
narrow windows are deeply set in the wall, and the corners defended with large
jutting stones.
Before passing the threshold, I paused to
admire a quantity of grotesque carving lavished over the front, and especially
about the principal door; above which, among a wilderness of crumbling griffins
and shameless little boys, I detected the date "1500," and the name
"Hareton Earnshaw." I would have made a few comments, and requested a
short history of the place from the surly owner; but his attitude at the door
appeared to demand my speedy entrance, or complete departure, and I had no
desire to aggravate his impatience previous to inspecting the penetralium.
One step brought us into the family
sitting-room, without any introductory lobby or passage: they call it here
"the house" preeminently. It includes kitchen and parlour, generally;
but I believe at Wuthering Heights the kitchen is forced to retreat altogether
into another quarter: at least I distinguished a chatter of tongues, and a
clatter of culinary utensils, deep within; and I observed no signs of roasting,
boiling, or baking, about the huge fire-place; nor any glitter of copper
saucepans and tin cullenders on the walls. One end, indeed, reflected
splendidly both light and heat from ranks of immense pewter dishes,
interspersed with silver jugs and tankards, towering row after row, on a vast
oak dresser, to the very roof. The latter had never been underdrawn: its entire
anatomy lay bare to an enquiring eye, except where a frame of wood laden with
oatcakes and clusters of legs of beef, mutton, and ham, concealed it. Above the
chimney were sundry villainous old guns, and a couple of horse pistols: and, by
way of ornament, three gaudily-painted canisters disposed along its ledge. The
floor was of smooth white stone; the chairs, high-backed, primitive structures,
painted green: one or two heavy black ones lurking in the shade. In an arch
under the dresser, reposed a huge, liver-coloured bitch pointer, surrounded by
a swarm of squealing puppies; and other dogs haunted other recesses.
The apartment and furniture would have been
nothing extraordinary as belonging to a homely, northern farmer, with a
stubborn countenance, and stalwart limbs set out to advantage in knee-breeches
and gaiters. Such an individual seated in his arm-chair, his mug of ale
frothing on the round table before him, is to be seen in any circuit of five or
six miles among these hills, if you go at the right time after dinner. But Mr.
Heathcliff forms a singular contrast to his abode and style of living. He is a
dark-skinned gipsy in aspect, in dress and manners a gentleman: that is, as
much a gentleman as many a country squire: rather slovenly, perhaps, yet not
looking amiss with his negligence, because he has an erect and handsome figure;
and rather morose. Possibly, some people might suspect him of a degree of
underbred pride; I have a sympathetic chord within that tells me it is nothing
of the sort: I know, by instinct, his reserve springs from an aversion to showy
displays of feeling- to manifestations of mutual kindliness. He'll love and
hate equally under cover, and esteem it a species of impertinence to be loved
or hated again. No, I'm running on too fast: I bestow my own attributes over
liberally on him. Mr. Heathcliff may have entirely dissimilar reasons for
keeping his hand out of the way when he meets a would-be acquaintance, to those
which actuate me. Let me hope my constitution is almost peculiar: my dear
mother used to say I should never have a comfortable home; and only last summer
I proved myself perfectly unworthy of one.
While enjoying a month of fine weather at
the seacoast, I was thrown into the company of a most fascinating creature: a
real goddess in my eyes, as long as she took no notice of me. I "never
told my love" vocally; still, if looks have language, the merest idiot
might have guessed I was over head and ears: she understood me at last, and
looked a return- the sweetest of all imaginable looks. And what did I do? I
confess it with shame- shrunk icily into myself, like a snail; at every glance
retired colder and farther; till finally the poor innocent was led to doubt her
own senses, and, overwhelmed with confusion at her supposed mistake, persuaded
her mamma to decamp. By this curious turn of disposition I have gained the
reputation of deliberate heartlessness; how undeserved I alone can appreciate.
I took a seat at the end of the hearthstone
opposite that towards which my landlord advanced, and filled up an interval of
silence by attempting to caress the canine mother, who had left her nursery,
and was sneaking wolfishly to the back of my legs, her lip curled up, and her
white teeth watering for a snatch. My caress provoked a long, guttural snarl.
"You'd better let the dog alone,"
growled Mr. Heathcliff in unison, checking fiercer demonstrations with a punch
of his foot. "She's not accustomed to be spoiled- not kept for a
pet." Then, striding to a side door, he shouted again, "Joseph!"
Joseph mumbled indistinctly in the depths
of the cellar, but gave no intimation of ascending; so his master dived down to
him, leaving me vis-a-vis the ruffianly bitch and a pair of grim shaggy
sheep-dogs, who shared with her a jealous guardianship over all my movements.
Not anxious to come in contact with their fangs, I sat still; but, imagining
they would scarcely understand tacit insults, I unfortunately indulged in
winking and making faces at the trio, and some turn of my physiognomy so irritated
madam, that she suddenly broke into a fury and leapt on my knees. I flung her
back, and hastened to interpose the table between us. This proceeding roused
the whole hive: half-a-dozen four-footed fiends, of various sizes and ages,
issued from hidden dens to the common centre. I felt my heels and coat-laps
peculiar subjects of assault; and parrying off the larger combatants as
effectually as I could with the poker, I was constrained to demand, aloud,
assistance from some of the household in re-establishing peace.
Mr. Heathcliff and his man climbed the
cellar steps with vexatious phlegm: I don't think they moved one second faster
than usual, though the hearth was an absolute tempest of worrying and yelping.
Happily, an inhabitant of the kitchen made more despatch: a lusty dame, with
tucked-up gown, bare arms, and fire-flushed cheeks, rushed into the midst of us
flourishing a frying-pan: and used that weapon, and her tongue, to such
purpose, that the storm subsided magically, and she only remained, heaving like
a sea after a high wind, when her master entered on the scene.
"What the devil is the matter?"
he asked, eyeing me in a manner that I could ill endure after this inhospitable
treatment.
"What the devil, indeed!" I
muttered. "The herd of possessed swine could have had no worse spirits in
them than those animals of yours, sir. You might as well leave a stranger with
a brood of tigers!"
"They won't meddle with persons who
touch nothing," he remarked, putting the bottle before me, and restoring
the displaced table. "The dogs do right to be vigilant. Take a glass of
wine?"
"No, thank you."
"Not bitten, are you?"
"If I had been, I would have set my
signet on the biter." Heathcliff's countenance relaxed into a grin.
"Come, come," he said, "you
are flurried, Mr. Lockwood. Here, take a little wine. Guests are so exceedingly
rare in this house that I and my dogs, I am willing to own, hardly know how to
receive them. Your health, sir!"
I bowed and returned the pledge; beginning
to perceive that it would be foolish to sit sulking for the misbehaviour of a
pack of curs: besides, I felt loath to yield the fellow further amusement at my
expense; since the humour took that turn. He- probably swayed by prudential
consideration of the folly of offending a good tenant- relaxed a little in the
laconic style of chipping off his pronouns and auxiliary verbs, and introduced
what he supposed would be a subject of interest to me- a discourse on the
advantages and disadvantages of my present place of retirement. I found him
very intelligent on the topics we touched; and before I went home, I was
encouraged so far as to volunteer another visit to-morrow. He evidently wished
no repetition of my intrusion. I shall go, notwithstanding. It is astonishing
how sociable I feel myself compared with him.
Chapter 2 -
YESTERDAY afternoon set in misty and cold.
I had half a mind to spend it by my study fire, instead of wading through heath
and mud to Wuthering Heights. On coming up from dinner however (N.B.- I dine
between twelve and one o'clock; the housekeeper, a matronly lady, taken as a
fixture along with the house, could not, or would not, comprehend my request
that I might be served at five), on mounting the stairs with this lazy
intention, and stepping into the room, I saw a servant-girl on her knees
surrounded by brushes and coalscuttles, and raising an infernal dust as she
extinguished the flames with heaps of cinders. This spectacle drove me back
immediately; I took my hat, and, after a four miles' walk arrived at Heathcliff's
garden gate just in time to escape the first feathery flakes of a snow-shower.
On that bleak hill-top the earth was hard
with a black frost, and the air made me shiver through every limb. Being unable
to remove the chain, I jumped over, and, running up the flagged causeway
bordered with straggling gooseberry bushes, knocked vainly for admittance, till
my knuckles tingled and the dogs howled.
"Wretched inmates!" I ejaculated
mentally, "you deserve perpetual isolation from your species for your
churlish inhospitality. At least, I would not keep my door barred in the
day-time. I don't care- I will get in!" So resolved, I grasped the latch
and shook it vehemently. Vinegar-faced Joseph projected his head from a round
window of the barn.
"What are ye for?" he shouted.
"T' maister's down i' t' fowld. Go round by th' end ot' laith, if ye went
to spake to him."
"Is there nobody inside to open the
door?" I hallooed, responsively.
"There's nobbut t' missis; and shoo'll
not oppen't an ye mak yer flaysome dins till neeght."
"Why? Cannot you tell her who I am,
eh, Joseph?"
"Nor-ne me! I'll hae no hend
wit," muttered the head, vanishing.
The snow began to drive thickly. I seized
the handle to essay another trial; when a young man without coat, and
shouldering a pitchfork, appeared in the yard behind. He hailed me to follow
him, and, after marching through a washhouse, and a paved area containing a
coal-shed, pump, and pigeon-cot, we at length arrived in the huge, warm
cheerful apartment, where I was formerly received. It glowed delightfully in
the radiance of an immense fire, compounded of coal, peat, and wood; and near
the table, laid for a plentiful evening meal, I was pleased to observe the
"missis," an individual whose existence I had never previously suspected.
I bowed and waited, thinking she would bid me take a seat. She looked at me,
leaning back in her chair, and remained motionless and mute.
"Rough weather!" I remarked.
"I'm afraid, Mrs. Heathcliff, the door must bear the consequence of your
servants' leisure attendance: I had hard work to make them hear me."
She never opened her mouth. I stared- she
stared also: at any rate, she kept her eyes on me in a cool, regardless manner,
exceedingly embarrassing and disagreeable.
"Sit down," said the young man
gruffly. "He'll be in soon."
I obeyed; and hemmed, and called the
villain Juno, who deigned, at this second interview, to move the extreme tip of
her tail, in token of owning my acquaintance.
"A beautiful animal!" I commented
again. "Do you intend parting with the little ones, madam?"
"They are not mine," said the
amiable hostess, more repellingly than Heathcliff himself could have replied.
"Ah, your favourites are among
these?" I continued, turning to an obscure cushion full of something like
cats.
"A strange choice of favourites!"
she observed scornfully.
Unluckily, it was a heap of dead rabbits. I
hemmed once more, and drew closer to the hearth, repeating my comment on the
wildness of the evening.
"You should not have come out,"
she said, rising and reaching from the chimney-piece two of the painted
canisters.
Her position before was sheltered from the
light; now, I had a distinct view of her whole figure and countenance. She was
slender, and apparently scarcely past girlhood: an admirable form, and the most
exquisite little face that I have ever had the pleasure of beholding; small
features, very fair; flaxen ringlets, or rather golden, hanging loose on her
delicate neck; and eyes, had they been agreeable in expression, that would have
been irresistible: fortunately for my susceptible heart, the only sentiment
they evinced hovered between scorn, and a kind of desperation, singularly
unnatural to be detected there. The canisters were almost out of her reach; I
made a motion to aid her; she turned upon me as a miser might turn if anyone
attempted to assist him in counting his gold.
"I don't want your help," she
snapped; "I can get them for myself."
"I beg your pardon!" I hastened
to reply.
"Were you asked to tea?" she
demanded, tying an apron over her neat black frock, and standing with a
spoonful of the leaf poised over the pot.
"I shall be glad to have a cup,"
I answered.
"Were you asked?" she repeated.
"No," I said, half smiling.
"You are the proper person to ask me."
She flung the tea back, spoon and all, and
resumed her chair in a pet; her forehead corrugated, and her red under-lip
pushed out, like a child's ready to cry.
Meanwhile, the young man had slung on to
his person a decidedly shabby upper garment, and, erecting himself before the blaze,
looked down on me from the corner of his eyes, for all the world as if there
were some mortal feud unavenged between us. I began to doubt whether he were a
servant or not: his dress and speech were both rude, entirely devoid of the
superiority observable in Mr. and Mrs. Heathcliff; his thick, brown curls were
rough and uncultivated, his whiskers encroached bearishly over his cheeks, and
his hands were embrowned like those of a common labourer: still his bearing was
free, almost haughty, and he showed none of a domestic's assiduity in attending
on the lady of the house. In the absence of clear proofs of his condition, I
deemed it best to abstain from noticing his curious conduct; and five minutes
afterwards, the entrance of Heathcliff relieved me, in some measure, from my
uncomfortable state.
"You see, sir, I am come, according to
promise!" I exclaimed, assuming the cheerful; "and I fear I shall be
weather-bound for half an hour, if you can afford me shelter during that
space."
"Half-an-hour?" he said, shaking
the white flakes from his clothes; "I wonder you should select the thick
of a snowstorm to ramble about in. Do you know that you run a risk of being
lost in the marshes? People familiar with these moors often miss their road on
such evenings; and I can tell you there is no chance of a change at
present."
"Perhaps I can get a guide among your
lads, and he might stay at the Grange till morning- could you spare me
one?"
"No, I could not."
"Oh, indeed! Well, then, I must trust
to my own sagacity."
"Umph!"
"Are you going to make th' tea?"
demanded he of the shabby coat, shifting his ferocious gaze from me to the
young lady.
"Is he to have any?" she asked,
appealing to Heathcliff.
"Get it ready, will you?" was the
answer, uttered so savagely that I started. The tone in which the words were
said revealed a genuine bad nature. I no longer felt inclined to call
Heathcliff a capital fellow. When the preparations were finished, he invited me
with- "Now, sir, bring forward your chair." And we all, including the
rustic youth, drew round the table: an austere silence prevailing while we
discussed our meal.
I thought, if I had caused the cloud, it
was my duty to make an effort to dispel it. They could not every day sit so
grim and taciturn; and it was impossible, however ill-tempered they might be,
that the universal scowl they wore was their everyday countenance.
"It is strange," I began, in the
interval of swallowing one cup of tea and receiving another- "It is
strange how custom can mould our tastes and ideas: many could not imagine the
existence of happiness in a life of such complete exile from the world as you
spend, Mr. Heathcliff; yet I'll venture to say, that, surrounded by your
family, and with your amiable lady as the presiding genius over your home and
heart-"
"My amiable lady!" he
interrupted, with an almost diabolical sneer on his face. "Where is she-
my amiable lady?"
"Mrs. Heathcliff, your wife, I
mean."
"Well, yes- Oh, you would intimate
that her spirit has taken the post of ministering angel, and guards the
fortunes of Wuthering Heights even when her body is gone. Is that it?"
Perceiving myself in a blunder, I attempted
to correct it. I might have seen there was too great a disparity between the
ages of the parties to make it likely that they were man and wife. One was
about forty: a period of mental vigour at which men seldom cherish the delusion
of being married for love by girls: that dream is reserved for the solace of
our declining years. The other did not look seventeen.
Then it flashed upon me- "The clown at
my elbow, who is drinking his tea out of a basin and eating his bread with
unwashed hands, may be her husband: Heathcliff, junior, of course. Here is the
consequence of being buried alive: she has thrown herself away upon that boor
from sheer ignorance that better individuals existed! A sad pity- I must beware
how I cause her to regret her choice." The last reflection may seem
conceited; it was not. My neighbour struck me as bordering on repulsive; I
knew, through experience, that I was tolerably attractive.
"Mrs. Heathcliff is my
daughter-in-law," said Heathcliff, corroborating my surmise. He turned, as
he spoke, a peculiar look in her direction: a look of hatred; unless he has a
most perverse set of facial muscles that will not, like those of other people,
interpret the language of his soul.
"Ah, certainly- I see now: you are the
favoured possessor of the beneficent fairy," I remarked, turning to my
neighbour.
This was worse than before: the youth grew
crimson, and clinched his fist, with every appearance of a meditated assault.
But he seemed to recollect himself presently, and smothered the storm in a
brutal curse, muttered on my behalf. which, however, I took care not to notice.
"Unhappy in your conjectures,
sir," observed my host; "we neither of us have the privilege of
owning your good fairy; her mate is dead. I said she was my daughter-in-law,
therefore, she must have married my son."
"And this young man is-"
"Not my son, assuredly."
Heathcliff smiled again, as if it were
rather too bold a jest to attribute the paternity of that bear to him.
"My name is Hareton Earnshaw,"
growled the other; "and I'd counsel you to respect it!"
"I've shown no disrespect," was
my reply, laughing internally at the dignity with which he announced himself.
He fixed his eye on me longer than I cared
to return the stare, for fear I might be tempted either to box his ears or
render my hilarity audible. I began to feel unmistakably out of place in that
pleasant family circle. The dismal spiritual atmosphere overcame, and more than
neutralised, the glowing physical comforts round me; and I resolved to be
cautious how I ventured under those rafters a third time.
The business of eating being concluded, and
no one uttering a word of sociable conversation, I approached a window to
examine the weather. A sorrowful sight I saw: dark night coming down
prematurely, and sky and hills mingled in one bitter whirl of wind and
suffocating snow.
"I don't think it possible for me to
get home now without a guide," I could not help exclaiming. "The
roads will be buried already; and, if they were bare, I could scarcely
distinguish a foot in advance."
"Hareton, drive those dozen sheep into
the barn porch. They'll be covered if left in the fold all night: and put a plank
before them," said Heathcliff.
"How must I do?" I continued,
with rising irritation.
There was no reply to my question; and on
looking round I saw only Joseph bringing in a pail of porridge for the dogs,
and Mrs. Heathcliff leaning over the fire, diverting herself with burning a
bundle of matches which had fallen from the chimney-piece as she restored the
tea canister to its place. The former, when he had deposited his burden, took a
critical survey of the room, and in cracked tones, grated out:
"Aw wonder how yah can faishion to
stand thear i' idleness un war, when all on em's goan out! Bud yah're a nowt,
and it's no use talking- yah'll niver mend o' yer ill ways, but goa raight to
t' devil, like yer mother afore ye!"
I imagined, for a moment, that this piece
of eloquence was addressed to me; and, sufficiently enraged, stepped towards
the aged rascal with an intention of kicking him out of the door. Mrs.
Heathcliff, however, checked me by her answer.
"You scandalous old hypocrite!"
she replied. "Are you not afraid of being carried away bodily, whenever
you mention the devil's name? I warn you to refrain from provoking me, or I'll
ask your abduction as a special favour. Stop! look here, Joseph," she
continued, taking a long, dark book from a shelf; "I'll show you how far
I've progressed in the Black Art: I shall soon be competent to make a clear
house of it. The red cow didn't die by chance; and your rheumatism can hardly
be reckoned among providential visitations!"
"Oh, wicked, wicked!" gasped the elder;
"may the Lord deliver us from evil!"
"No, reprobate! you are a castaway- be
off, or I'll hurt you seriously! I'll have you all modelled in wax and clay;
and the first who passes the limits I fix, shall- I'll not say what he shall be
done to- but, you'll see! Go, I'm looking at you!"
The little witch put a mock malignity into
her beautiful eyes, and Joseph, trembling with sincere horror, hurried out
praying and ejaculating "wicked" as he went. I thought her conduct
must be prompted by a species of dreary fun; and, now that we were alone, I
endeavoured to interest her in my distress.
"Mrs. Heathcliff," I said
earnestly, "you must excuse me for troubling you. I presume, because, with
that face, I'm sure you cannot help being good-hearted. Do point out some
landmarks by which I may know my way home: I have no more idea how to get there
than you would have how to get to London!"
"Take the road you came," she
answered, ensconcing herself in a chair, with a candle, and the long book open
before her. "It is brief advice, but as sound as I can give."
"Then, if you hear of me being
discovered dead in a bog or a pit full of snow, your conscience won't whisper
that it is partly your fault?"
"How so? I cannot escort you. They
wouldn't let me go to the end of the garden-wall."
"You! I should be sorry to ask you to
cross the threshold, for my convenience, on such a night," I cried.
"I want you to tell me my way, not to show it; or else to persuade Mr.
Heathcliff to give me a guide."
"Who? There is himself, Earnshaw,
Zillah, Joseph and I. Which would you have?"
"Are there no boys at the farm?"
"No; those are all."
"Then, it follows that I am compelled
to stay."
"That you may settle with your host. I
have nothing to do with it."
"I hope it will be a lesson to you to
make no more rash journeys on these hills," cried Heathcliff's stern voice
from the kitchen entrance. "As to staying here, I don't keep
accommodations for visitors: you must share a bed with Hareton or Joseph, if
you do."
"I can sleep on a chair in this
room," I replied.
"No, no! A stranger is a stranger, be
he rich or poor; it will not suit me to permit any one the range of the place
while I am off guard!" said the unmannerly wretch.
With this insult, my patience was at an
end. I uttered an expression of disgust and pushed past him into the yard,
running against Earnshaw in my haste. It was so dark that I could not see the
means of exit; and, as I wandered round, I heard another specimen of their
civil behaviour amongst each other. At first the young man appeared about to
befriend me.
"I'll go with him as far as the
park," he said.
"You'll go with him to hell!"
exclaimed his master, or whatever relation he bore. "And who is to look
after the horses, eh?"
"A man's life is of more consequence
than one evening's neglect of the horses: somebody must go," murmured Mrs.
Heathcliff, more kindly than I expected.
"Not at your command!" retorted
Hareton. "If you set store on him, you'd better be quiet."
"Then I hope his ghost will haunt you;
and I hope Mr. Heathcliff will never get another tenant till the Grange is a
ruin!" she answered sharply.
"Hearken, hearken, shoo's cursing on
'em!" muttered Joseph, towards whom I had been steering.
He sat within earshot, milking the cows by
the light of a lantern, which I seized unceremoniously, and, calling out that I
would send it back on the morrow, rushed to the nearest postern.
"Maister, maister, he's staling t'
lanthern!" shouted the ancient, pursuing my retreat. "Hey, Gnasher!
Hey dog! Hey, Wolf, holld him, holld him!"
On opening the little door, two hairy
monsters flew at my throat, bearing me down and extinguishing the light; while
a mingled guffaw from Heathcliff and Hareton, put the copestone on my rage and
humiliation. Fortunately, the beasts seemed more bent on stretching their paws
and yawning and flourishing their tails, than devouring me alive; but they
would suffer no resurrection, and I was forced to lie till their malignant
masters pleased to deliver me: then, hatless and trembling with wrath, I
ordered the miscreants to let me out- on their peril to keep me one minute
longer- with several incoherent threats of retaliation that, in their
indefinite depth of virulency, smacked of King Lear. The vehemence of my
agitation brought on a copious bleeding at the nose, and still Heathcliff
laughed, and still I scolded. I don't know what would have concluded the scene,
had there not been one person at hand rather more rational than myself, and
more benevolent than my entertainer. This was Zillah, the stout housewife; who
at length issued forth to enquire into the nature of the uproar. She thought
that some of them had been laying violent hands on me; and, not daring to
attack her master, she turned her vocal artillery against the younger
scoundrel.
"Well, Mr. Earnshaw," she cried,
"I wonder what you'll have agait next! Are we going to murder folk on our
very doorstones? I see this house will never do for me- look at t' poor lad,
he's fair choking! Wisht, wisht! you mun'n't go on so. Come in, and I'll cure that:
there now, hold ye still."
With these words she suddenly splashed a
pint of icy water down my neck, and pulled me into the kitchen. Mr. Heathcliff
followed, his accidental merriment expiring quickly in his habitual moroseness.
I was sick exceedingly, and dizzy and
faint; and thus compelled perforce to accept lodgings under his roof. He told
Zillah to give me a glass of brandy, and then passed on to the inner room;
while she condoled with me on my sorry predicament, and having obeyed his
orders, whereby I was somewhat revived, ushered me to bed.
Chapter 3 -
WHILE leading the way upstairs, she
recommended that I should hide the candle, and not make a noise; for her master
had an odd notion about the chamber she would put me in, and never let anybody lodge
there willingly. I asked the reason. She did not know, she answered: she had
only lived there a year or two; and they had so many queer goings on, she could
not begin to be curious.
Too stupefied to be curious myself, I
fastened the door and glanced round for the bed. The whole furniture consisted
of a chair, a clothespress, and a large oak case, with squares cut out near the
top resembling coach windows. Having approached this structure I looked inside,
and perceived it to be a singular sort of old-fashioned couch, very
conveniently designed to obviate the necessity for every member of the family
having a room to himself. In fact, it formed a little closet, and the ledge of
a window, which it enclosed, served as a table. I slid back the panelled sides,
got in with my light, pulled them together again, and felt secure against the
vigilance of Heathcliff, and every one else.
The ledge, where I placed my candle, had a
few mildewed books piled up in one corner; and it was covered with writing
scratched on the paint. This writing, however, was nothing but a name repeated
in all kinds of characters, large and small- Catherine Earnshaw, here and there
varied to Catherine Heathcliff, and then again to Catherine Linton.
In vapid listlessness I leant my head against
the window, and continued spelling over Catherine Earnshaw- Heathcliff- Linton,
till my eyes closed; but they had not rested five minutes when a glare of white
letters started from the dark as vivid as spectres- the air swarmed with
Catherines; and rousing myself to dispel the obtrusive name, I discovered my
candle wick reclining on one of the antique volumes, and perfuming the place
with an odour of roasted calf-skin. I snuffed it out, and, very ill at ease
under the influence of cold and lingering nausea, sat up and spread open the
injured tome on my knee. It was a Testament, in lean type, and smelling
dreadfully musty: a flyleaf bore the inscription- "Catherine Earnshaw, her
book," and a date some quarter of a century back. I shut it, and took up another,
and another, till I had examined all. Catherine's library was select, and its
state of dilapidation proved it to have been well used; though not altogether
for a legitimate purpose: scarcely one chapter had escaped a pen-and-ink
commentary- at least, the appearance of one- covering every morsel of blank
that the printer had left. Some were detached sentences; other parts took the
form of a regular diary, scrawled in an unformed childish hand. At the top of
an extra page (quite a treasure, probably, when first lighted on) I was greatly
amused to behold an excellent caricature of my friend Joseph,- rudely, yet
powerfully sketched. An immediate interest kindled within me for the unknown
Catherine, and I began forthwith to decipher her faded hieroglyphics.
"An awful Sunday!" commenced the
paragraph beneath. "I wish my father were back again. Hindley is a
detestable substitute- his conduct to Heathcliff is atrocious- H. and I are
going to rebel- we took our initiatory step this evening.
"All day had been flooding with rain;
we could not go to church, so Joseph must needs get up a congregation in the
garret; and, while Hindley and his wife basked downstairs before a comfortable
fire- doing anything but reading their Bibles, I'll answer for it- Heathcliff, myself,
and the unhappy plough-boy, were commanded to take our prayer-books, and mount:
were ranged in a row, on a sack of corn, groaning and shivering, and hoping
that Joseph would shiver too, so that he might give us a short homily for his
own sake. A vain idea! The service lasted precisely three hours; and yet my
brother had the face to exclaim, when he saw us descending, 'What, done
already?' On Sunday evenings we used to be permitted to play, if we did not
make much noise; now a mere titter is sufficient to send us into corners!
"'You forget you have a master here,'
says the tyrant. 'I'll demolish the first who puts me out of temper! I insist
on perfect sobriety and silence. Oh, boy! was that you? Frances, darling, pull
his hair as you go by: I heard him snap his fingers.' Frances pulled his hair
heartily, and then went and seated herself on her husband's knee; and there
they were, like two babies, kissing and talking nonsense by the hour- foolish
palaver that we should be ashamed of. We made ourselves as snug as our means
allowed in the arch of the dresser. I had just fastened our pinafores together,
and hung them up for a curtain, when in comes Joseph on an errand from the
stables. He tears down my handiwork, boxes my ears and croaks-
"'T' maister nobbut just buried, and
Sabbath no o'ered, und t' sound o' t' gospel still i' yer lugs, and ye darr be
laiking! Shame on ye! sit ye down, ill childer! there's good books enough if
ye'll read 'em! sit ye down, and think o' yer sowls!'
"Saying this, he compelled us to
square our positions that we might receive from the far-off fire a dull ray to
show us the text of the lumber he thrust upon us. I could not bear the
employment. I took my dingy volume by the scroop, and hurled it into the
dog-kennel, vowing I hated a good book. Heathcliff kicked his to the same
place. Then there was a hubbub!
"'Maister Hindley!' shouted our
chaplain. 'Maister, coom hither! Miss Cathy's riven th' back off "Th'
Helmet o'Salvation," un' Heathcliff's pawsed his fit into t' first part o'
"T' Brooad Way to Destruction!" It's fair flaysome that ye let 'em go
on this gait. Ech! th' owd man wad ha' laced 'em properly- but he's goan!'
"Hindley hurried up from his paradise
on the hearth, and seizing one of us by the collar, and the other by the arm,
hurled both into the back kitchen; where, Joseph asseverated, 'owd Nick' would
fetch us as sure as we were living: and, so comforted, we each sought a
separate nook to await his advent. I reached this book, and a pot of ink from a
shelf, and pushed the housedoor ajar to give me light, and I have got the time
on with writing for twenty minutes; but my companion is impatient, and proposes
that we should appropriate the dairywoman's cloak, and have a scamper on the
moors, under its shelter. A pleasant suggestion- and then, if the surly old man
come in, he may believe his prophecy verified- we cannot be damper, or colder,
in the rain than we are here." -
I suppose Catherine fulfilled her project,
for the next sentence took up another subject; she waxed lachrymose.
"How little did I dream that Hindley
would ever make me cry so!" she wrote. "My head aches, till I cannot
keep it on the pillow; and still I can't give over. Poor Heathcliff! Hindley
calls him a vagabond, and won't let him sit with us, nor eat with us any more;
and, he says, he and I must not play together, and threatens to turn him out of
the house if we break his orders. He has been blaming our father (how dared
he?) for treating H. too liberally; and he swears he will reduce him to his right
place-"
I began to nod drowsily over the dim page:
my eye wandered from manuscript to print. I saw a red ornamented title-
"Seventy Times Seven, and the First of the Seventy-First. A Pious
Discourse delivered by the Reverend Jabes Branderham, in the Chapel of
Gimmerdon Sough." And while I was, half consciously, worrying my brain to
guess what Jabes Branderham would make of his subject, I sank back in bed, and
fell asleep. Alas, for the effects of bad tea and bad temper! What else could
it be that made me pass such a terrible night? I don't remember another that I
can at all compare with it since I was capable of suffering.
I began to dream, almost before I ceased to
be sensible of my locality. I thought it was morning; and I had set out on my
way home, with Joseph for a guide. The snow lay yards deep in our road; and, as
we floundered on, my companion wearied me with constant reproaches that I had
not brought a pilgrim's staff: telling me that I could never get into the house
without one, and boastfully flourishing a heavyheaded cudgel, which I
understood to be so denominated. For a moment I considered it absurd that I
should need such a weapon to gain admittance into my own residence. Then a new
idea flashed across me. I was not going there: we were journeying to hear the
famous Jabes Branderham preach from the text- "Seventy Times Seven";
and either Joseph, the preacher, or I had committed the "First of the
Seventy-First," and were to be publicly exposed and excommunicated.
We came to the chapel. I have passed it
really in my walks, twice or thrice; it lies in a hollow, between two hills: an
elevated hollow, near a swamp, whose peaty moisture is said to answer all the
purposes of embalming on the few corpses deposited there. The roof has been
kept whole hitherto; but as the clergyman's stipend is only twenty pounds per
annum, and a house with two rooms, threatening speedily to determine into one,
no clergyman will undertake the duties of pastor: especially as it is currently
reported that his flock would rather let him starve than increase the living by
one penny from their own pockets. However, in my dream, Jabes had a full and
attentive congregation; and he preached- good God! what a sermon: divided into
four hundred and ninety parts, each fully equal to an ordinary address from the
pulpit, and each discussing a separate sin! Where he searched for them, I
cannot tell. He had his private manner of interpreting the phrase, and it
seemed necessary the brother should sin different sins on every occasion. They
were of the most curious character: odd transgressions that I never imagined
previously.
Oh, how weary I grew. How I writhed, and
yawned, and nodded, and revived! How I pinched and pricked myself, and rubbed
my eyes, and stood up, and sat down again, and nudged joseph to inform me if he
would ever have done. I was condemned to hear all out: finally, he reached the
"First of the Seventy-First." At that crisis a sudden inspiration
descended on me; I was moved to rise and denounce Jabes Branderham as the sinner
of the sin that no Christian need pardon.
"Sir," I exclaimed, "sitting
here within these four walls, at one stretch, I have endured and forgiven the
four hundred and ninety heads of your discourse. Seventy times seven times have
I plucked up my hat and been about to depart- Seventy times seven times have
you preposterously forced me to resume my seat. The four hundred and ninety
first is too much. Fellow-martyrs, have at him! Drag him down, and crush him to
atoms, that the place which knows him may know him no more!"
"Thou art the man!" cried Jabes,
after a solemn pause, leaning over his cushion. "Seventy times seven times
didst thou gapingly contort thy visage- seventy times seven did I take counsel
with my soul- Lo, this is human weakness: this also may be absolved! The First
of the Seventy-First is come. Brethren, execute upon him the judgment written.
Such honour have all His saints!"
With that concluding word, the whole
assembly, exalting their pilgrim's staves, rushed round me in a body; and I, having
no weapon to raise in self-defense, commenced grappling with Joseph, my nearest
and most ferocious assailant, for his. In the confluence of the multitude,
several clubs crossed; blows, aimed at me, fell on other sconces. Presently the
whole chapel resounded with rappings and counter-rappings: every man's hand was
against his neighbour; and Branderham, unwilling to remain idle, poured forth
his zeal in a shower of loud taps on the boards of the pulpit, which responded
so smartly that, at last, to my unspeakable relief, they woke me. And what was
it that had suggested the tremendous tumult? What had played Jabes's part in
the row? Merely, the branch of a fir-tree that touched my lattice, as the blast
wailed by, and rattled its dry cones against the panes! I listened doubtingly
an instant; detected the disturber, then turned and dozed, and dreamt again: if
possible, still more disagreeably than before.
This time, I remembered I was lying in the
oak closet, and I heard distinctly the gusty wind, and the driving of the snow;
I heard, also, the fir-bough repeat its teasing sound, and ascribed it to the
right cause: but it annoyed me so much, that I resolved to silence it, if
possible; and, I thought, I rose and endeavoured to unhasp the casement. The
hook was soldered into the staple: a circumstance observed by me when awake,
but forgotten. "I must stop it, nevertheless!" I muttered, knocking
my knuckles through the glass, and stretching an arm out to seize the
importunate branch; instead of which, my fingers closed on the fingers of a
little, ice-cold hand! The intense horror of nightmare came over me: I tried to
draw back my arm, but the hand clung to it, and a most melancholy voice sobbed,
"Let me in- let me in!" "Who are you?" I asked, struggling,
meanwhile, to disengage myself. "Catherine Linton," it replied,
shiveringly (why did I think of Linton? I had read Earnshaw twenty times for
Linton); "I'm come home: I'd lost my way on the moor!" As it spoke, I
discerned, obscurely, a child's face looking through the window. Terror made me
cruel; and, finding it useless to attempt shaking the creature off, I pulled
its wrist on to the broken pane, and rubbed it to and fro till the blood ran
down and soaked the bedclothes: still it wailed, "Let me in!" and
maintained its tenacious grip, almost maddening me with fear. "How can
I?" I said at length. "Let me go, if you want me to let you in!"
The fingers relaxed, I snatched mine through the hole, hurriedly piled the
books up in a pyramid against it, and stopped my ears to exclude the lamentable
prayer. I seemed to keep them closed above a quarter of an hour; yet, the
instant I listened again, there was the doleful cry moaning on!
"Begone!" I shouted, "I'll never let you in, not if you beg for
twenty years." "It is twenty years," mourned the voice:
"twenty years. I've been a waif for twenty years!" Thereat began a
feeble scratching outside, and the pile of books moved as if thrust forward. I
tried to jump up; but could not stir a limb; and so yelled aloud, in a frenzy
of fright. To my confusion, I discovered the yell was not ideal: hasty
footsteps approached my chamber door; somebody pushed it open, with a vigorous
hand, and a light glimmered through the squares at the top of the bed. I sat
shuddering yet, and wiping the perspiration from my forehead: the intruder
appeared to hesitate, and muttered to himself. At last, he said in a
half-whisper, plainly not expecting an answer, "Is anyone here?" I
considered it best to confess my presence; for I knew Heathcliff's accents, and
feared he might search further, if I kept quiet. With this intention, I turned
and opened the panels. I shall not soon forget the effect my action produced.
Heathcliff stood near the entrance in his
shirt and trousers: with a candle dripping over his fingers, and his face as
white as the wall behind him. The first creak of the oak startled him like an
electric shock! the light leaped from his hold to a distance of some feet, and
his agitation was so extreme, that he could hardly pick it up.
"It is only your guest, sir," I
called out, desirous to spare him the humiliation of exposing his cowardice
further. "I had the misfortune to scream in my sleep, owing to a frightful
nightmare. I'm sorry I disturbed you."
"Oh, God confound you, Mr. Lockwood! I
wish you were at the-" commenced my host, setting the candle on a chair,
because he found it impossible to hold it steady. "And who showed you up
into this room?" he continued, crushing his nails into his palms, and
grinding his teeth to subdue the maxillary convulsions. "Who was it? I've
a good mind to turn them out of the house this moment!"
"It was your servant, Zillah," I
replied, flinging myself on to the floor, and rapidly resuming my garments.
"I should not care if you did, Mr. Heathcliff; she richly deserves it. I
suppose that she wanted to get another proof that the place was haunted, at my
expense. Well, it is- swarming with ghosts and goblins! You have reason in
shutting it up, I assure you. No one will thank you for a doze in such a
den!"
"What do you mean?" asked
Heathcliff, "and what are you doing? Lie down and finish out the night,
since you are here; but, for Heaven's sake! don't repeat that horrid noise;
nothing could excuse it, unless you were having your throat cut!"
"If the little fiend had got in at the
window, she probably would have strangled me!" I returned. "I'm not
going to endure the persecutions of your hospitable ancestors again. Was not
the Reverend Jabes Branderham akin to you on the mother's side? And that minx,
Catherine Linton, or Earnshaw, or however she was called- she must have been a
changeling- wicked little soul! She told me she had been walking the earth
those twenty years: a just punishment for her mortal transgressions, I've no
doubt!"
Scarcely were these words uttered, when I
recollected the association of Heathcliff's with Catherine's name in the book,
which had completely slipped from my memory, till thus awakened. I blushed at
my inconsideration; but, without showing further consciousness of the offence,
I hastened to add- "The truth is, sir, I passed the first part of the
night in"- Here I stopped afresh- I was about to say "perusing those
old volumes," then it would have revealed my knowledge of their written,
as well as their printed contents: so, correcting myself, I went on, "in
spelling over the name scratched on that windowledge. A monotonous occupation,
calculated to set me asleep, like counting, or-"
"What can you mean by talking in this
way to me?" thundered Heathcliff with savage vehemence. "How- how
dare you, under my roof?- God! he's mad to speak so!" And he struck his
forehead with rage.
I did not know whether to resent this
language or pursue my explanation; but he seemed so powerfully affected that I
took pity and proceeded with my dreams; affirming I had never heard the
appellation of "Catherine Linton" before, but reading it often over
produced an impression which personified itself when I had no longer my
imagination under control. Heathcliff gradually fell back into the shelter of
the bed, as I spoke; finally sitting down almost concealed behind it. I
guessed, however, by his irregular and intercepted breathing, that he struggled
to vanquish an excess of violent emotion. Not liking to show him that I had
heard the conflict, I continued my toilette rather noisily, looked at my watch,
and soliloquised on the length of the night: "Not three o'clock yet! I
could have taken oath it had been six. Time stagnates here: we must surely have
retired to rest at eight!"
"Always at nine in winter, and rise at
four," said my host, suppressing a groan: and, as I fancied by the motion
of his arm's shadow, dashing a tear from his eyes. "Mr. Lockwood," he
added, "you may go into my room: you'll only be in the way, coming
downstairs so early; and your childish outcry has sent sleep to the devil for
me."
"And for me, too," I replied.
"I'll walk in the yard till daylight, and then I'll be off; and you need
not dread a repetition of my intrusion. I'm now quite cured of seeking pleasure
in society, be it country or town. A sensible man ought to find sufficient
company in himself."
"Delightful company!" muttered
Heathcliff. "Take the candle, and go where you please. I shall join you
directly. Keep out of the yard, though, the dogs are unchained; and the house-
Juno mounts sentinel there, and- nay, you can only ramble about the steps and
passages. But, away with you! I'll come in two minutes!"
I obeyed, so far as to quit the chamber;
when, ignorant where the narrow lobbies led, I stood still, and was witness,
involuntarily, to a piece of superstition on the part of my landlord, which
belied, oddly, his apparent sense. He got on to the bed, and wrenched open the
lattice, bursting, as he pulled at it, into an uncontrollable passion of tears.
"Come in! come in!" he sobbed. "Cathy, do come. Oh do- once
more! Oh! my heart's darling; hear me this time, Catherine, at last!" The
spectre showed a spectre's ordinary caprice: it gave no sign of being; but the
snow and wind whirled wildly through even reaching my station, and blowing out
the light.
There was such an anguish in the gush of
grief that accompanied this raving, that my compassion made me overlook its
folly, and I drew off, half angry to have listened at all, and vexed at having
related my ridiculous nightmare, since it produced that agony; though why, was
beyond my comprehension. I descended cautiously to the lower regions, and
landed in the back kitchen, where a gleam of fire, raked compactly together
enabled me to rekindle my candle. Nothing was stirring except a brindled, grey cat,
which crept from the ashes and saluted me with a querulous mew.
Two benches, shaped in sections of a
circle, nearly enclosed the hearth; on one of these I stretched myself, and
Grimalkin mounted the other. We were both of us nodding, ere any one invaded
our retreat, and then it was Joseph, shuffling down a wooden ladder that
vanished in the roof, through a trap: the ascent to his garret, I suppose. He
cast a sinister look at the little flame which I had enticed to play between
the ribs, swept the cat from its elevation, and bestowing himself in the
vacancy, commenced the operation of stuffing a three-inch pipe with tobacco. My
presence in his sanctum was evidently esteemed a piece of impudence too
shameful for remark: he silently applied the tube to his lips, folded his arms,
and puffed away. I let him enjoy the luxury unannoyed; and after sucking out
his last wreath, and heaving a profound sigh, he got up, and departed as
solemnly as he came.
A more elastic footstep entered next; and
now I opened my mouth for a "good morning," but closed it again, the
salutation unachieved; for Hareton Earnshaw was performing his orisons sotto
voce, in a series of curses directed against every object he touched, while he
rummaged a corner for a spade or shovel to dig through the drifts. He glanced
over the back of the bench dilating his nostrils, and thought as little of
exchanging civilities with me as with my companion the cat. I guessed, by his
preparations, that egress was allowed, and, leaving my hard couch, made a
movement to follow him. He noticed this, and thrust at an inner door with the
end of his spade, intimating by an inarticulate sound that there was the place
where I must go, if I changed my locality.
It opened into the house, where the females
were already astir. Zillah urging flakes of flame up the chimney with a
colossal bellows; and Mrs. Heathcliff, kneeling on the hearth reading a book by
the aid of the blaze. She held her hand interposed between the furnace-heat and
her eyes, and seemed absorbed in her occupation; desisting from it only to
chide the servant for covering her with sparks, or to push away a dog, now and
then, that snoozled its nose overforwardly into her face. I was surprised to
see Heathcliff there also. He stood by the fire, his back towards me, just
finishing a stormy scene to poor Zillah; who ever and anon interrupted her
labour to pluck up the corner of her apron, and heave an indignant groan.
"And you, you worthless"- he
broke out, as I entered, turning to his daughter-in-law, and employing an
epithet as harmless as duck, or sheep, but generally represented by a dash-.
"There you are, at your idle tricks again! The rest of them do earn their
bread- you live on my charity! put your trash away, and find something to do.
You shall pay me for the plague of having you eternally in my sight- do you
hear, damnable jade?"
"I'll put my trash away, because you
can make me, if I refuse," answered the young lady, closing her book, and
throwing it on a chair. "But I'll not do anything, though you should swear
your tongue out, except what I please!"
Heathcliff lifted his hand, and the speaker
sprang to a safer distance, obviously acquainted with its weight. Having no
desire to be entertained by a cat-and-dog combat, I stepped forward briskly, as
if eager to partake the warmth of the hearth, and innocent of any knowledge of
the interrupted dispute. Each had enough decorum to suspend further
hostilities: Heathcliff placed his fists, out of temptation, in his pockets;
Mrs. Heathcliff curled her lip, and walked to a seat far off, where she kept
her word by playing the part of a statue during the remainder of my stay. That
was not long. I declined joining their breakfast, and, at the first gleam of
dawn, took an opportunity of escaping into the free air, now clear, and still,
and cold as impalpable ice.
My landlord hallooed for me to stop, ere I
reached the bottom of the garden, and offered to accompany me across the moor.
It was well he did, for the whole hillback was one billowy, white ocean; the
swells and falls not indicating corresponding rises and depressions in the
ground: many pits, at least, were filled to a level; and entire ranges of
mounds, the refuse of the quarries, blotted from the chart which my yesterday's
walk left pictured in my mind. I had remarked on one side of the road, at
intervals of six or seven yards, a line of upright stones, continued through
the whole length of the barren: these were erected, and daubed with lime on
purpose to serve as guides in the dark; and also when a fall, like the present,
confounded the deep swamps on either hand with the firmer path: but, excepting
a dirty dot pointing up here and there, all traces of their existence had
vanished: and my companion found it necessary to warn me frequently to steer to
the right or left, when I imagined I was following, correctly, the windings of
the road. We exchanged little conversation, and he halted at the entrance of
Thrushcross Park, saying, I could make no error there. Our adieux were limited
to a hasty bow, and then I pushed forward, trusting to my own resources; for
the porter's lodge is untenanted as yet. The distance from the gate to the
Grange is two miles: I believe I managed to make it four; what with losing
myself among the trees, and sinking up to my neck in snow: a predicament which
only those who have experienced it can appreciate. At any rate, whatever were
my wanderings, the clock chimed twelve as I entered the house; and that gave
exactly an hour for every mile of the usual way from Wuthering Heights.
My human fixture and her satellites rushed
to welcome me; exclaiming, tumultuously, they had completely given me up;
everybody conjectured that I perished last night; and they were wondering how
they must set about the search for my remains. I bid them be quiet, now that
they saw me returned, and, benumbed to my very heart, I dragged upstairs;
whence, after putting on dry clothes, and pacing to and fro thirty or forty
minutes, to restore the animal heat, I am adjourned to my study, feeble as a
kitten: almost too much so to enjoy the cheerful fire and smoking coffee which
the servant has prepared for my refreshment.
Chapter 4 -
WHAT VAIN weather-cocks we are! I, who had
determined to hold myself independent of all social intercourse, and thanked my
stars that, at length, I had lighted on a spot where it was next to
impracticable- I, weak wretch, after maintaining till dusk a struggle with low
spirits and solitude, was finally compelled to strike my colours; and, under
pretence of gaining information concerning the necessities of my establishment,
I desired Mrs. Dean, when she brought in supper, to sit down while I ate it;
hoping sincerely she would prove a regular gossip, and either rouse me to
animation or lull me to sleep by her talk.
"You have lived here a considerable
time," I commenced; "did you not say sixteen years?"
"Eighteen, sir: I came, when the
mistress was married, to wait on her; after she died, the master retained me
for his housekeeper."
"Indeed."
There ensued a pause. She was not a gossip,
I feared; unless about her own affairs, and those could hardly interest me.
However, having studied for an interval, with a fist on either knee, and a
cloud of meditation over her ruddy countenance, she ejaculated: "Ah, times
are greatly changed since then!"
"Yes," I remarked, "you've
seen a good many alterations, I suppose?"
"I have: and troubles too," she
said.
"Oh, I'll turn the talk on my
landlord's family!" I thought to myself. "A good subject to start!
And that pretty girl-widow, I should like to know her history: whether she be a
native of the country, or, as is more probable, an exotic that the surly
indigenae will not recognise for kin." With this intention I asked Mrs.
Dean why Heathcliff let Thrushcross Grange, and preferred living in a situation
and residence so much inferior. "Is he not rich enough to keep the estate
in good order?" I enquired.
"Rich, sir!" she returned.
"He has, nobody knows what money, and every year it increases. Yes, yes,
he's rich enough to live in a finer house than this: but he's very near-
close-handed; and, if he had meant to flit to Thrushcross Grange, as soon as he
heard of a good tenant he could not have borne to miss the chance of getting a
few hundreds more. It is strange people should be so greedy, when they are
alone in the world!"
"He had a son, it seems?"
"Yes, he had one- he is dead."
"And that young lady, Mrs. Heathcliff,
is his widow?"
"Yes."
"Where did she come from
originally?"
"Why, sir, she is my late master's
daughter: Catherine Linton was her maiden name. I nursed her, poor thing! I did
wish Mr. Heathcliff would remove here, and then we might have been together
again."
"What! Catherine Linton?" I
exclaimed, astonished. But a minute's reflection convinced me it was not my
ghostly Catherine. "Then," I continued, "my predecessor's name
was Linton?"
"It was."
"And who is that Earnshaw: Hareton
Earnshaw, who lives with Mr. Heathcliff? are they relations?"
"No; he is the late Mrs. Linton's
nephew."
"The young lady's cousin, then?"
"Yes; and her husband was her cousin
also: one on the mother's, the other on the father's side: Heathcliff married
Mr. Linton's sister."
"I see the house at Wuthering Heights
has 'Earnshaw' carved over the front door. Are they an old family?"
"Very old, sir; and Hareton is the
last of them, as our Miss Cathy is of us- I mean of the Lintons. Have you been
to Wuthering Heights? I beg pardon for asking; but I should like to hear how
she is!"
"Mrs. Heathcliff? She looked very
well, and very handsome; yet, I think, not very happy."
"O dear, I don't wonder! And how did
you like the master?"
"A rough fellow, rather, Mrs. Dean. Is
not that his character?"
"Rough as a saw-edge, and hard as
whinstone! The less you meddle with him the better."
"He must have had some ups and downs
in life to make him such a churl. Do you know anything of his history?"
"It's a cuckoo's, sir- I know all
about it: except where he was born, and who were his parents, and how he got
his money, at first. And Hareton has been cast out like an unfledged dunnock!
The unfortunate lad is the only one in all this parish that does not guess how
he has been cheated."
"Well, Mrs. Dean, it will be a
charitable deed to tell me something of my neighbours: I feel I shall not rest,
if I go to bed; so be good enough to sit and chat an hour."
"Oh, certainly, sir! I'll just fetch a
little sewing, and then I'll sit as long as you please. But you've caught cold:
I saw you shivering, and you must have some gruel to drive it out."
The worthy woman bustled off, and I crouched
nearer the fire; my head felt hot, and the rest of me chill: moreover, I was
excited, almost to a pitch of foolishness, through my nerves and brain. This
caused me to feel, not uncomfortable, but rather fearful (as I am still) of
serious effects from the incidents of to-day and yesterday. She returned
presently, bringing a smoking basin and a basket of work; and, having placed
the former on the hob, drew in her seat, evidently pleased to find me so
companionable.
Before I came to live here, she commenced-
waiting no farther invitation to her story- I was almost always at Wuthering
Heights; because my mother had nursed Mr. Hindley Earnshaw, that was Hareton's
father, and I got used to playing with the children: I ran errands too, and
helped to make hay, and hung about the farm ready for anything that anybody
would set me to. One fine summer morning- it was the beginning of harvest, I
remember- Mr. Earnshaw, the old master, came downstairs, dressed for a journey;
and after he had told Joseph what was to be done during the day, he turned to
Hindley, and Cathy, and me- for I sat eating my porridge with them- and he
said, speaking to his son, "Now my bonny man, I'm going to Liverpool
today, what shall I bring you? You may choose what you like: only let it be little,
for I shall walk there and back: sixty miles each way, that is a long
spell!" Hindley named a fiddle, and then he asked Miss Cathy; she was
hardly six years old, but she could ride any horse in the stable, and she chose
a whip. He did not forget me; for he had a kind heart, though he was rather
severe sometimes. He promised to bring me a pocketful of apples and pears, and
then he kissed his children, said good-bye, and set off.
It seemed a long while to us all- the three
days of his absence- and often did little Cathy ask when he would be home. Mrs.
Earnshaw expected him by supper-time on the third evening, and she put the meal
off hour after hour; there were no signs of his coming, however, and at last
the children got tired of running down to the gate to look. Then it grew dark;
she would have had them to bed, but they begged sadly to be allowed to stay up;
and, just about eleven o'clock, the doorlatch was raised quietly and in stepped
the master. He threw himself into a chair, laughing and groaning, and bid them
all stand off, for he was nearly killed- he would not have such another walk
for the three kingdoms.
"And at the end of it, to be flighted
to death!" he said, opening his great-coat, which he held bundled up in
his arms. "See here, wife! I was never so beaten with anything in my life:
but you must e'en take it as a gift of God; though it's as dark almost as if it
came from the devil."
We crowded round, and over Miss Cathy's
head, I had a peep at a dirty, ragged, black-haired child; big enough both to
walk and talk: indeed, its face looked older than Catherine's; yet, when it was
set on its feet, it only stared round, and repeated over and over again some
gibberish, that nobody could understand. I was frightened, and Mrs. Earnshaw
was ready to fling it out of doors: she did fly up, asking how he could fashion
to bring that gypsy brat into the house, when they had their own bairns to feed
and fend for? What he meant to do with it, and whether he were mad? The master
tried to explain the matter; but he was really half dead with fatigue, and all
that I could make out, amongst her scolding, was a tale of his seeing it
starving, and houseless, and as good as dumb, in the streets of Liverpool,
where he picked it up and enquired for its owner. Not a soul knew to whom it
belonged, he said; and his money and time being both limited, he thought it
better to take it home with him at once, than run into vain expenses there:
because he was determined he would not leave it as he found it. Well, the
conclusion was that my mistress grumbled herself calm; and Mr. Earnshaw told me
to wash it, and give it clean things, and let it sleep with the children.
Hindley and Cathy contented themselves with
looking and listening till peace was restored: then, both began searching their
father's pockets for the presents he had promised them. The former was a boy of
fourteen, but when he drew out what had been a fiddle crushed to morsels in the
great-coat, he blubbered aloud; and Cathy, when she learned the master had lost
her whip in attending on the stranger, showed her humour by grinning and
spitting at the stupid little thing; earning for her pains a sound blow from
her father to teach her cleaner manners. They entirely refused to have it in
bed with them, or even in their room; and I had no more sense, so I put it on
the landing of the stairs, hoping it might be gone on the morrow. By chance, or
else attracted by hearing his voice, it crept to Mr. Earnshaw's door, and there
he found it on quitting his chamber. Enquiries were made as to how it got
there; I was obliged to confess, and in recompense for my cowardice and
inhumanity was sent out of the house.
This was Heathcliff's first introduction to
the family. On coming back a few days afterwards (for I did not consider my banishment
perpetual) I found they had christened him "Heathcliff": it was the
name of a son who died in childhood, and it has served him ever since, both for
Christian and surname. Miss Cathy and he were now very thick; but Hindley hated
him! and to say the truth I did the same; and we plagued and went on with him
shamefully: for I wasn't reasonable enough to feel my injustice, and the
mistress never put in a word on his behalf when she saw him wronged.
He seemed a sullen, patient child;
hardened, perhaps, to ill-treatment: he would stand Hindley's blows without a
wink or shedding a tear, and my pinches moved him only to draw in a breath and
open his eyes, as if he had hurt himself by accident and nobody was to blame.
This endurance made old Earnshaw furious, when he discovered his son
persecuting the poor, fatherless child, as he called him. He took to Heathcliff
strangely, believing all he said (for that matter, he said precious little, and
generally the truth), and petting him up far above Cathy, who was too
mischievous and wayward for a favourite.
So, from the very beginning, he bred bad
feeling in the house; and at Mrs. Earnshaw's death, which happened in less than
two years after, the young master had learned to regard his father as an
oppressor rather than a friend, and Heathcliff as a usurper of his parent's
affections and his privileges; and he grew bitter with brooding over these
injuries. I sympathised a while; but when the children fell ill of the measles,
and I had to tend them, and take on me the cares of a woman at once, I changed
my ideas. Heathcliff was dangerously sick: and while he lay at the worst he
would have me constantly by his pillow: I suppose he felt I did a good deal for
him, and he hadn't wit to guess that I was compelled to do it. However, I will
say this, he was the quietest child that ever nurse watched over. The
difference between him and the others forced me to be less partial. Cathy and
her brother harassed me terribly: he was as uncomplaining as a lamb; though
hardness, not gentleness, made him give little trouble.
He got through, and the doctor affirmed it
was in a great measure owing to me and praised me for my care. I was vain of
his commendations, and softened towards the being by whose means I earned them,
and thus Hindley lost his last ally: still I couldn't dote on Heathcliff, and I
wondered often what my master saw to admire so much in the sullen boy, who
never, to my recollection, repaid his indulgence by any sign of gratitude. He
was not insolent to his benefactor, he was simply insensible; though knowing
perfectly the hold he had on his heart, and conscious he had only to speak and
all the house would be obliged to bend to his wishes. As an instance, I
remember Mr. Earnshaw once bought a couple of colts at the parish fair, and
gave the lads each one. Heathcliff took the handsomest, but it soon fell lame,
and when he discovered it, he said to Hindley- "You must exchange horses
with me: I don't like mine; and if you won't I shall tell your father of the
three thrashings you've given me this week, and show him my arm, which is black
to the shoulder." Hindley put out his tongue and cuffed him over the ears.
"You'd better do it at once," he persisted, escaping to the porch
(they were in the stable): "you will have to; and if I speak of these
blows, you'll get them again with interest." "Off, dog!" cried
Hindley, threatening him with an iron weight used for weighing potatoes and
hay. "Throw it," he replied, standing still, "and then I'll tell
how you boasted that you would turn me out of doors as soon as he died, and see
whether he will not turn you out directly." Hindley threw it, hitting him
on the breast, and down he fell, but staggered up immediately, breathless and
white; and had not I prevented it, he would have gone just so to the master,
and got full revenge by letting his condition plead for him, intimating he had
caused it. "Take my colt, gypsy, then!" said young Earnshaw.
"And I pray that he may break your neck: take him, and be damned, you
beggarly interloper! and wheedle my father out of all he has: only afterwards
show him what you are, imp of Satan.- And take that, I hope he'll kick out your
brains!"
Heathcliff had gone to loose the beast, and
shift it to his own stall; he was passing behind it, when Hindley finished his
speech by knocking him under its feet, and without stopping to examine whether
his hopes were fulfilled, ran away as fast as he could. I was surprised to
witness how coolly the child gathered himself up, and went on with his
intention; exchanging saddles and all, and then sitting down on a bundle of hay
to overcome the qualm which the violent blow occasioned, before he entered the
house. I persuaded him easily to let me lay the blame of his bruises on the
horse: he minded little what tale was told since he had what he wanted. He
complained so seldom, indeed, of such stirs as these, that I really thought him
not vindictive: I was deceived completely, as you will hear.
Chapter 5 -
IN THE COURSE of time, Mr. Earnshaw began
to fail. He had been active and healthy, yet his strength left him suddenly;
and when he was confined to the chimney-corner he grew grievously irritable. A
nothing vexed him; and suspected slights of his authority nearly threw him into
fits. This was especially to be remarked if any one attempted to impose upon,
or domineer over, his favourite: he was painfully jealous lest a word should be
spoken amiss to him; seeming to have got into his head the notion that, because
he liked Heathcliff, all hated, and longed to do him an ill turn. It was a
disadvantage to the lad; for the kinder among us did not wish to fret the
master, so we humoured his partiality; and that humouring was rich nourishment
to the child's pride and black tempers. Still it became in a manner necessary;
twice, or thrice, Hindley's manifestation of scorn, while his father was near,
roused the old man to a fury: he seized his stick to strike him, and shook with
rage that he could not do it.
At last, our curate (we had a curate then
who made the living answer by teaching the little Lintons and Earnshaws, and
farming his bit of land himself) advised that the young man should be sent to
college; and Mr. Earnshaw agreed, though with a heavy spirit, for he said-
"Hindley was nought, and would never thrive as where he wandered."
I hoped heartily we should have peace now.
It hurt me to think the master should be made uncomfortable by his own good
deed. I fancied the discontent of age and disease arose from his family
disagreements: as he would have it that it did: really, you know, sir, it was
in his sinking frame. We might have got on tolerably, notwithstanding, but for
two people, Miss Cathy and Joseph, the servant: you saw him I daresay, up
yonder. He was, and is yet most likely, the wearisomest self-righteous Pharisee
that ever ransacked a Bible to rake the promises to himself and fling the
curses to his neighbours. By his knack of sermonising and pious discoursing, he
contrived to make a great impression on Mr. Earnshaw; and the more feeble the
master became, the more influence he gained. He was relentless in worrying him
about his soul's concerns, and about ruling his children rigidly. He encouraged
him to regard Hindley as a reprobate; and, night after night, he regularly
grumbled out a long string of tales against Heathcliff and Catherine: always
minding to flatter Earnshaw's weakness by heaping the heaviest blame on the
latter.
Certainly, she had ways with her such as I
never saw a child take up before; and she put all of us past our patience fifty
times and oftener in a day: from the hour she came downstairs till the hour she
went to bed, we had not a minute's security that she wouldn't be in mischief.
Her spirits were always at high-water mark, her tongue always going- singing,
laughing, and plaguing everybody who would not do the same. A wild, wicked slip
she was- but she had the bonniest eye, the sweetest smile, and lightest foot in
the parish; and, after all, I believe she meant no harm; for when once she made
you cry in good earnest, it seldom happened that she would not keep you
company, and oblige you to be quiet that you might comfort her. She was much
too fond of Heathcliff. The greatest punishment we could invent for her was to
keep her separate from him: yet she got chided more than any of us on his
account. In play, she liked exceedingly to act the little mistress; using her
hands freely, and commanding her companions: she did so to me, but I would not
bear shopping and ordering; and so I let her know.
Now, Mr. Earnshaw did not understand jokes
from his children: he had always been strict and grave with them; and
Catherine, on her part, had no idea why her father should be crosser and less
patient in his ailing condition, than he was in his prime. His peevish reproofs
awakened in her a naughty delight to provoke him: she was never so happy as
when we were all scolding her at once, and she defying us with her bold, saucy
look, and her ready words; turning Joseph's religious curses into ridicule,
baiting me, and doing just what her father hated most- showing how her
pretended insolence, which he thought real, had more power over Heathcliff than
his kindness: how the boy would do her bidding in anything, and his only when
it suited his own inclination. After behaving as badly as possibly all day, she
sometimes came fondling to make it up at night. "Nay, Cathy," the old
man would say, "I cannot love thee; thou'rt worse than thy brother. Go say
thy prayers, child, and ask God's pardon. I doubt thy mother and I must rue
that we ever reared thee!" That made her cry, at first: and then being
repulsed continually hardened her, and she laughed if I told her to say she was
sorry for her faults, and beg to be forgiven.
But the hour came, at last, that ended Mr.
Earnshaw's troubles on earth. He died quietly in his chair one October evening,
seated by the fireside. A high wind blustered round the house, and roared in
the chimney: it sounded wild and stormy, yet it was not cold, and we were all
together- I, a little removed from the hearth, busy at my knitting, and Joseph
reading his Bible near the table (for the servants generally sat in the house
then, after their work was done). Miss Cathy had been sick, and that made her
still; she leant against her father's knee, and Heathcliff was lying on the
floor with his head in her lap. I remember the master, before he fell into a
doze, stroking her bonny hair- It pleased him rarely to see her gentle- and
saying- "Why canst thou not always be a good lass, Cathy?" And she
turned her face up to his, and laughed, and answered, "Why cannot you
always be a good man, father?" But as soon as she saw him vexed again, she
kissed his hand, and said she would sing him to sleep. She began singing very
low, till his fingers dropped from hers, and his head sank on his breast. Then
I told her to hush, and not stir, for fear she should wake him. We all kept as
mute as mice a full half-hour, and should have done so longer, only Joseph,
having finished his chapter, got up and said that he must rouse the master for
prayers and bed. He stepped forward, and called him by name, and touched his
shoulder; but he would not move, so he took the candle and looked at him. I
thought there was something wrong as he set down the light; and seizing the
children each by an arm, whispered them to "frame upstairs, and make little
din- they might pray alone that evening- he had summut to do."
"I shall bid father good-night
first," said Catherine, putting her arms round his neck, before we could
hinder her. The poor thing discovered her loss directly- she screamed out-
"Oh, he's dead, Heacthcliff! he's dead!" And they both set up a
heart-breaking cry.
I joined my wail to theirs, loud and
bitter; but joseph asked what we could be thinking of to roar in that way over
a saint in heaven. He told me to put on my cloak and run to Gimmerton for the
doctor and the parson. I could not guess the use that either would be of, then.
However, I went, through wind and rain, and brought one, the doctor, back with
me; the other said he would come in the morning. Leaving Joseph to explain matters;
I ran to the children's room: their door was ajar, I saw they had never laid
down, though it was past midnight; but they were calmer, and did not need me to
console them. The little souls were comforting each other with better thoughts
than I could have hit on: no parson in the world ever pictured heaven so
beautifully as they did, in their innocent talk: and, while I sobbed and
listened, I could not help wishing we were all there safe together.
Chapter 6 -
MR. HINDLEY came home to the funeral; and-
a thing that amazed us, and set the neighbours gossiping right and left- he
brought a wife with him. What she was, and where she was born, he never
informed us: probably she had neither money nor name to recommend her, or he
would scarcely have kept the union from his father.
She was not one that would have disturbed
the house much on her own account. Every object she saw, the moment she crossed
the threshold, appeared to delight her; and every circumstance that took place
about her: except the preparing for the burial, and the presence of the
mourners. I thought she was half silly, from her behaviour while that went on:
she ran into her chamber, and made me come with her, though I should have been
dressing the children; and there she sat shivering and clasping her hands, and
asking repeatedly: "Are they gone yet?" Then she began describing
with hysterical emotion the effect it produced on her to see black and started,
and trembled, and, at last, fell aweeping- and when I asked what was the
matter? answered, she didn't know; but she felt so afraid of dying! I imagined
her as little likely to die as myself. She was rather thin, but young, and
fresh-complexioned, and her eyes sparkled as bright as diamonds. I did remark,
to be sure, that mounting the stairs made her breathe very quick: that the
least sudden noise set her all in a quiver, and that she coughed troublesomely
sometimes: but I knew nothing of what these symptoms portended, and had no
impulse to sympathize with her. We don't in general take to foreigners here,
Mr. Lockwood, unless they take to us first.
Young Earnshaw was altered considerably in
the three years of his absence. He had grown sparer, and lost his colour, and
spoke and dressed quite differently; and, on the very day of his return, he
told Joseph and me we must thenceforth quarter ourselves in the back-kitchen,
and leave the house for him. Indeed, he would have carpeted and papered a small
spare room for a parlour; but his wife expressed such pleasure at the white
floor and huge glowing fire-place, at the pewter dishes and delftcase, and
dog-kennel, and the wide space there was to move about in where they usually
sat, that he thought it unnecessary to her comfort, and so dropped the
intention.
She expressed pleasure, too, at finding a
sister among her new acquaintances; and she prattled to Catherine, and kissed
her, and ran about with her, and gave her quantities of presents, at the
beginning. Her affection tired very soon, however, and when she grew peevish,
Hindley became tyrannical. A few words from her, evincing a dislike to
Heathcliff, were enough to rouse in him all his old hatred of the boy. He drove
him from their company to the servants, deprived him of the instructions of the
curate, and insisted that he should labour out of doors instead; compelling him
to do so as hard as any other hand on the farm.
Heathcliff bore his degradation pretty well
at first, because Cathy taught him what she learnt, and worked or played with
him in the fields. They both promised fair to grow up as rude as savages; the
young master being entirely negligent how they behaved, and what they did, so
they kept clear of him. He would not even have seen after their going to church
on Sundays, only joseph and the curate reprimanded his carelessness when they
absented themselves; and that reminded him to order Heathcliff a flogging, and
Catherine a fast from dinner or supper. But it was one of their chief
amusements to run away to the moors in the morning and remain there all day,
and the after punishment grew a mere thing to laugh at. The curate might set as
many chapters as he pleased for Catherine to get by heart, and Joseph might
thrash Heathcliff till his arm ached; they forgot everything the minute they
were together again: at least the minute they had contrived some naughty plan
of revenge; and many a time I've cried to myself to watch them growing more
reckless daily, and I not daring to speak a syllable, for fear of losing the
small power I still retained over the unfriended creatures. One Sunday evening,
it chanced that they were banished from the sittingroom, for making a noise, or
a light offence of the kind; and when I went to call them to supper, I could
discover them nowhere. We searched the house, above and below, and the yard and
stables; they were invisible: and at last, Hindley in a passion told us to bolt
the doors, and swore nobody should let them in that night. The household went
to bed; and I, too anxious to lie down, opened my lattice and put my head out
to hearken, though it rained: determined to admit them in spite of the
prohibition, should they return. In a while, I distinguished steps coming up
the road, and the light of a lantern glimmered through the gate. I threw a
shawl over my head and ran to prevent them from waking Mr. Earnshaw by knocking.
There was Heathcliff by himself: it gave me a start to see him alone.
"Where is Miss Catherine?" I
cried hurriedly. "No accident, I hope?" "At Thrushcross
Grange," he answered; "and I would have been there too, but they had
not the manners to ask me to stay." "Well, you will catch it!" I
said: "you'll never be content till you're sent about your business. What
in the world led you wandering to Thrushcross Grange?" "Let me get
off my wet clothes, and I'll tell you all about it, Nelly," he replied. I
bid him beware of rousing the master, and while he undressed and I waited to
put out the candle, he continued- "Cathy and I escaped from the wash-house
to have a ramble at liberty, and getting a glimpse of the Grange lights, we
thought we would just go and see whether the Lintons passed their Sunday
evenings standing shivering in corners, while their father and mother sat
eating and drinking, and singing and laughing, and burning their eyes out
before the fire. Do you think they do? Or reading sermons, and being catechised
by their man-servant, and set to learn a column of Scripture names, if they
don't answer properly?" "Probably not," I responded. "They
are good children, no doubt, and don't deserve the treatment you receive, for
your bad conduct." "Don't cant, Nelly," he said: nonsense! We
ran from the top of the Heights to the park, without stopping- Catherine
completely beaten in the race; because she was barefoot. You'll have to seek
for her shoes in the bog tomorrow. We crept through a broken hedge, groped our
way up the path, and planted ourselves on a flower-plot under the drawing-room
window. The light came from thence; they had not put up the shutters, and the
curtains were only half closed. Both of us were able to look in by standing on
the basement, and clinging to the ledge, and we saw- ah! it was beautiful- a
splendid place carpeted with crimson, and crimson-covered chairs and tables,
and a pure white ceiling bordered by gold, a shower of glassdrops hanging in
silver chains from the centre, and shimmering with little soft tapers. Old Mr.
and Mrs. Linton were not there; Edgar and his sister had it entirely to
themselves. Shouldn't they have been happy? We should have thought ourselves in
heaven! And now, guess what your good children were doing? Isabella- I believe
she is eleven, a year younger than Cathy- lay screaming at the farther end of
the room, shrieking as if witches were running red-hot needles into her. Edgar
stood on the hearth weeping silently, and in the middle of the table sat a
little dog, shaking its paw and yelping; which, from their mutual accusation,
we understood they had nearly pulled in two between them. The idiots! That was
their pleasure! to quarrel who should hold a heap of warm hair, and each begin
to cry because both, after struggling to get it, refused to take it. We laughed
outright at the petted things; we did despise them! When would you catch me
wishing to have what Catherine wanted? to find us by ourselves, seeing
entertainment in yelling, and sobbing, and rolling on the ground, divided by
the whole room? I'd not exchange, for a thousand lives, my condition here, for
Edgar Linton's at Thrushcross Grange- not if I might have the privilege of
flinging joseph off the highest gable, and painting the housefront with
Hindley's blood!"
"Hush, hush!" I interrupted.
"Still you have not told me, Heathcliff, how Catherine is left
behind?"
"I told you we laughed," he
answered. "The Lintons heard us, and with one accord, they shot like
arrows to the door; there was silence, and then a cry, 'Oh, mamma, mamma! Oh,
papa! Oh, mamma, come here. Oh, papa, oh!' They really did howl out something
in that way. We made frightful noises to terrify them still more, and then we
dropped off the ledge, because somebody was drawing the bars, and we felt we
had better flee. I had Cathy by the hand, and was urging her on, when all at
once she fell down. 'Run, Heathcliff, run!' she whispered. 'They have left the
bull-dog loose, and he holds me!' The devil had seized her ankle, Nelly: I
heard his abominable snorting. She did not yell out- no! she would have scorned
to do it, if she had been spitted on the horns of a mad cow. I did, though! I
vociferated curses enough to annihilate any fiend in Christendom; and I got a
stone and thrust it between his jaws, and tried with all my might to cram it
down his throat. A beast of a servant came up with a lantern, at last,
shouting- 'Keep fast, Skulker, keep fast!' He changed his note, however, when
he saw Skulker's game. The dog was throttled off; his huge, purple tongue
hanging half a foot out of his mouth, and his pendent lips streaming with
bloody slaver. The man took Cathy up: she was sick: not from fear, I'm certain,
but from pain. He carried her in; I followed, grumbling execrations and
vengeance. 'What prey, Robert?' hallooed Linton from the entrance. 'Skulker has
caught a little girl, sir,'he replied; 'and there's a lad here, 'he added,
making a clutch at me, 'who looks an out-and-outer! Very like, the robbers were
putting them through the window to open the doors to the gang after all were
asleep, that they might murder us at their ease. Hold your tongue, you
foul-mouthed thief, you! you shall go to the gallows for this. Mr. Linton, sir,
don't lay by your gun.' 'No, no, Robert,' said the old fool. 'The rascals knew
that yesterday was my rent day: they thought to have me cleverly. Come in; I'll
furnish them a reception. There, John, fasten the chain. Give Skulker some
water, Jenny. To beard a magistrate in his stronghold, and on the Sabbath, too!
Where will their insolence stop? Oh, my dear Mary, look here! Don't be afraid,
it is but a boy- yet the villain scowls so plainly in his face; would it not be
a kindness to the country to hang him at once, before he shows his nature in
acts as well as features?' He pulled me under the chandelier, and Mrs. Linton
placed her spectacles on her nose and raised her hands in horror. The cowardly
children crept nearer also, Isabella lisping- 'Frightful thing! put him in the
cellar, papa. He's exactly like the son of the fortune-teller that stole my
tame pheasant. Isn't he, Edgar?'
"While they examined me, Cathy came
round; she heard the last speech, and laughed. Edgar Linton, after an
inquisitive stare, collected sufficient wit to recognise her. They see us at
church, you know, though we seldom meet them elsewhere. 'That's Miss Earnshaw!'
he whispered to his mother, 'and look how Skulker has bitten her- how her foot
bleeds!'
"'Miss Earnshaw? Nonsense!' cried the
dame; 'Miss Earnshaw scouring the country with a gypsy! And yet, my dear, the
child is in mourning- surely it is- and she may be maimed for life!'
"'What culpable carelessness in her
brother!' exclaimed Mr. Linton, turning from me to Catherine. 'I've understood
from Shielders' (that was the curate, sir) that he lets her grow up in absolute
heathenism. But who is this? Where did she pick up this companion? Oho! I
declare he is that strange acquisition my late neighbour made, in his journey
to Liverpool- a little Lascar, or an American or Spanish castaway.'
"'A wicked boy, at all events,'
remarked the old lady, 'and quite unfit for a decent house! Did you notice his
language, Linton? I'm shocked that my children should have heard it.'
"I recommenced cursing- don't be
angry, Nelly- and so Robert was ordered to take me off. I refused to go without
Cathy; he dragged me into the garden, pushed the lantern into my hand, assured
me that Mr. Earnshaw should be informed of my behaviour, and, bidding me march
directly, secured the door again. The curtains were still looped up at one
corner, and I resumed my station as spy; because, if Catherine had wished to
return, I intended shattering their great glass panes to a million of
fragments, unless they let her out. She sat on the sofa quietly. Mrs. Linton
took off the grey cloak of the dairymaid which we had borrowed for our
excursion, shaking her head and expostulating with her, I suppose: she was a
young lady, and they made a distinction between her treatment and mine. Then
the woman-servant brought a basin of warm water, and washed her feet; and Mr.
Linton mixed a tumbler of negus, and Isabella emptied a plateful of cakes into
her lap, and Edgar stood gaping at a distance. Afterwards, they dried and
combed her beautiful hair, and gave her a pair of enormous slippers, and
wheeled her to the fire; and I left her, as merry as she could be, dividing her
food between the little dog and Skulker, whose nose she pinched as he ate; and
kindling a spark of spirit in the vacant blue eyes of the Lintons- a dim
reflection from her own enchanting face. I saw they were full of stupid
admiration; she is so immeasurably superior to them- to everybody on earth, is
she not, Nelly?"
"There will more come of this business
than you reckon on," I answered, covering him up and extinguishing the
light. "You are incurable, Heathcliff; and Mr. Hindley will have to
proceed to extremities, see if he won't!" My words came truer than I
desired. The luckless adventure made Earnshaw furious. And then Mr. Linton, to
mend matters, paid us a visit himself on the morrow; and read the young master
such a lecture on the road he guided his family, that he was stirred to look
about him, in earnest. Heathcliff received no flogging, but he was told that
the first word he spoke to Miss Catherine should ensure a dismissal; and Mrs. Earnshaw
undertook to keep her sister-in-law in due restraint when she returned home;
employing art, not force: with force she would have found it impossible.
Chapter 7 -
CATHY stayed at Thrushcross Grange five
weeks: till Christmas. By that time her ankle was thoroughly cured, and her
manners much improved. The mistress visited her often in the interval, and
commenced her plan of reform by trying to raise her self-respect with fine
clothes and flattery, which she took readily; so that, instead of a wild,
hatless little savage jumping into the house, and rushing to squeeze us all
breathless, there 'lighted from a handsome black pony a very dignified person,
with brown ringlets falling from the cover of a feathered beaver, and a long
cloth habit, which she was obliged to hold up with both hands that she might
sail in. Hindley lifted her from her horse, exclaiming delightedly, "Why,
Cathy, you are quite a beauty! I should scarcely have known you: you look like
a lady now. Isabella Linton is not to be compared with her, is she,
Frances?" "Isabella has not her natural advantages," replied his
wife: "but she must mind and not grow wild again here. Ellen, help Miss
Catherine off with her things- stay, dear, you will disarrange your curls- let
me untie your hat."
I removed the habit, and there shone forth
beneath, a grand plaid silk frock, white trousers, and burnished shoes; and,
while her eyes sparkled joyfully when the dogs came bounding up to welcome her,
she dare hardly touch them lest they should fawn upon her splendid garments.
She kissed me gently: I was all flour making the Christmas cake, and it would
not have done to give me a hug; and, then, she looked round for Heathcliff. Mr.
and Mrs. Earnshaw watched anxiously their meeting; thinking it would enable them
to judge, in some measure, what grounds they had for hoping to succeed in
separating the two friends.
Heathcliff was hard to discover, at first.
If he were careless, and uncared for, before Catherine's absence, he had been
ten times more so, since. Nobody but I even did him the kindness to call him a
dirty boy, and bid him wash himself, once a week; and children of his age
seldom have a natural pleasure in soap and water. Therefore, not to mention his
clothes, which had seen three months' service in mire and dust, and his thick
uncombed hair, the surface of his face and hands was dismally beclouded. He
might well skulk behind the settle, on beholding such a bright, graceful damsel
enter the house, instead of a rough-headed counterpart of himself, as he expected.
"Is Heathcliff not here?" she demanded, pulling off her gloves, and
displaying fingers wonderfully whitened with doing nothing and staying indoors.
"Heathcliff, you may come
forward," cried Mr. Hindley, enjoying his discomfiture, and gratified to
see what a forbidding young black-guard he would be compelled to present
himself "You may come and wish Miss Catherine welcome, like the other
servants."
Cathy, catching a glimpse of her friend in
his concealment, flew to embrace him; she bestowed seven or eight kisses on his
cheek within the second, and then stopped, and drawing back, burst into a
laugh, exclaiming, "Why, how very black and cross you look! and how- how
funny and grim! But that's because I'm used to Edgar and Isabella Linton. Well,
Heathcliff, have you forgotten me?"
She had some reason to put the question,
for shame and pride threw double gloom over his countenance, and kept him
immovable.
"Shake hands, Heathcliff," said
Mr. Earnshaw, condescendingly; "once in a way, that is permitted."
"I shall not," replied the boy,
finding his tongue at last; "I shall not stand to be laughed at. I shall
not bear it!"
And he would have broken from the circle,
but Miss Cathy seized him again.
"I did not mean to laugh at you,"
she said; "I could not hinder myself: Heathcliff, shake hands at least!
What are you sulky for? It was only that you looked odd. If you wash your face
and brush your hair, it will be all right; but you are so dirty!"
She gazed concernedly at the dusky fingers
she held in her own, and also at her dress; which she feared had gained no
embellishment from its contact with his.
"You needn't have touched me!" he
answered, following her eye and snatching away his hand. "I shall be as
dirty as I please: and I like to be dirty, and I will be dirty." With that
he dashed head foremost out of the room, amid the merriment of the master and
mistress, and to the serious disturbance of Catherine; who could not comprehend
how her remarks should have produced such an exhibition of bad temper.
After playing lady's-maid to the newcomer,
and putting my cakes in the oven, and making the house and kitchen cheerful
with great fires, befitting Christmas eve, I prepared to sit down and amuse
myself by singing carols, all alone; regardless of Joseph's affirmations that
he considered the merry tunes I chose as next door to songs. He had retired to
private prayer in his chamber, and Mr. and Mrs. Earnshaw were engaging Missy's
attention by sundry gay trifles bought for her to present to the little
Lintons, as an acknowledgment of their kindness. They had invited them to spend
the morrow at Wuthering Heights, and the invitation had been accepted, on one
condition: Mrs. Linton begged that her darlings might be kept carefully apart
from that "naughty swearing boy."
Under these circumstances I remained
solitary. I smelt the rich scent of the heating spices; and admired the shining
kitchen utensils, the polished clock, decked in holly, the silver mugs ranged
on a tray ready to be filled with mulled ale for supper; and above all, the
speckless purity of my particular care- the scoured and well-swept floor. I
gave due inward applause to every object, and then I remembered how old
Earnshaw used to come in when all was tidied, and call me a cant lass, and slip
a shilling into my hand as a Christmas-box; and from that I went on to think of
his fondness for Heathcliff, and his dread lest he should suffer neglect after
death had removed him; and that naturally led me to consider the poor lad's
situation now, and from singing I changed my mind to crying. It struck me soon,
however, there would be more sense in endeavouring to repair some of his wrongs
than shedding tears over them: I got up and walked into the court to seek him.
He was not far; I found him smoothing the glossy coat of the new pony in the
stable, and feeding the other beasts, according to custom.
"Make haste, Heathcliff!" I said,
"the kitchen is so comfortable; and Joseph is upstairs: make haste, and
let me dress you smart before Miss Cathy comes out, and then you can sit
together, with the whole hearth to yourselves, and have a long chatter till
bedtime."
He proceeded with his task and never turned
his head towards me.
"Come- are you coming?" I
continued. "There's a little cake for each of you, nearly enough; and
you'll need half an hour's donning."
I waited five minutes, but getting no
answer, left him. Catherine supped with her brother and sister-in-law: Joseph
and I joined in an unsociable meal, seasoned with reproofs on one side and
sauciness on the other. His cake and cheese remained on the table all night for
the fairies. He managed to continue work till nine o'clock, and then marched
dumb and dour to his chamber. Cathy sat up late, having a world of things to
order for the reception of her new friends: she came into the kitchen once to
speak to her old one; but he was gone, and she only stayed to ask what was the
matter with him, and then went back. In the morning he rose early; and as it
was a holiday carried his ill-humour on to the moors; not reappearing till the
family were departed for church. Fasting and reflection seemed to have brought
him to a better spirit. He hung about me for a while, and having screwed up his
courage, exclaimed abruptly:
"Nelly, make me decent, I'm going to
be good."
"High time, Heathcliff," I said:
"you have grieved Catherine: she's sorry she ever came home, I dare say!
It looks as if you envied her, because she is more thought of than you."
The notion of envying Catherine was
incomprehensible to him, but the notion of grieving her he understood clearly
enough.
"Did she say she was grieved?" he
enquired, looking very serious.
"She cried when I told her you were
off again this morning."
"Well, I cried last night," he
returned, "and I had more reason to cry than she."
"Yes: you had the reason of going to
bed with a proud heart and an empty stomach," said I. "Proud people
breed sad sorrows for themselves. But, if you be ashamed of your touchiness,
you must ask pardon, mind, when she comes in. You must go up and offer to kiss
her, and say- you know best what to say; only do it heartily, and not as if you
thought her converted into a stranger by her grand dress. And now, though I
have dinner to get ready, I'll steal time to arrange you so that Edgar Linton
shall look quite a doll beside you: and that he does. You are younger, and yet,
I'll be bound, you are taller and twice as broad across the shoulders: you
could knock him down in a twinkling? don't you feel that you could?"
Heathcliff's face brightened a moment; then
it was overcast afresh, and he sighed.
"But, Nelly, if I knocked him down
twenty times, that wouldn't make him less handsome or me more so. I wish I had
light hair and a fair skin, and was dressed and behaved as well, and had a
chance of being as rich as he will be!"
"And cried for mamma at every
turn," I added, "and trembled if a country lad heaved his fist
against you, and sat at home all day for a shower of rain. Oh, Heathcliff, you
are showing a poor spirit! Come to the glass, and I'll let you see what you should
wish. Do you mark those two lines between your eyes; and those thick brows,
that instead of rising arched, sink in the middle; and that couple of black
friends, so deeply buried, who never open their windows boldly, but lurk
glinting under them, like devil's spies? Wish and learn to smooth away the
surly wrinkles, to raise your lids frankly, and change the fiends to confident,
innocent angels, suspecting and doubting nothing, and always seeing friends
where they are not sure of foes. Don't get the expression of a vicious cur that
appears to know the kicks it gets are its desert, and yet hates all the world
as well as the kicker, for what it suffers."
"In other words, I must wish for Edgar
Linton's great blue eyes and even forehead," he replied. "I do- and
that won't help me to them."
"A good heart will help you to a bonny
face, my lad," I continued, "if you were a regular black; and a bad
one will turn the bonniest into something worse than ugly. And now that we've
done washing, and combing, and sulking- tell me whether you don't think
yourself rather handsome? I'll tell you, I do. You're fit for a prince in
disguise. Who knows but your father was Emperor of China, and your mother an
Indian queen, each of them able to buy up, with one week's income, Wuthering
Heights and Thrushcross Grange together? And you were kidnapped by wicked
sailors and brought to England. Were I in your place, I would frame high
notions of my birth; and the thoughts of what I was should give me courage and
dignity to support the oppressions of a little farmer!"
So I chatted on; and Heathcliff gradually
lost his frown and began to look quite pleasant, when all at once our
conversation was interrupted by a rumbling sound moving up the road and
entering the court. He ran to the window and I to the door, just in time to
behold the two Lintons descend from the family carriage, smothered in cloaks
and furs, and the Earnshaws dismount from their horses: they often rode to
church in winter. Catherine took a hand of each of the children, and brought
them into the house and set them before the fire, which quickly put colour into
their white faces.
I urged my companion to hasten now and show
his amiable humour, and he willingly obeyed; but ill luck would have it that,
as he opened the door leading from the kitchen on one side, Hindley opened it
on the other. They met, and the master, irritated at seeing him clean and
cheerful; or, perhaps, eager to keep his promise to Mrs. Linton, shoved him
back with a sudden thrust, and angrily bade Joseph "keep the fellow out of
the room- send him into the garret till dinner is over. He'll be cramming his
fingers in the tarts and stealing the fruit, if left alone with them a
minute."
"Nay, sir," I could not avoid
answering, "he'll touch nothing, not he: and I suppose he must have his
share of the dainties as well as we."
"He shall have his share of my hand,
if I catch him downstairs till dark," cried Hindley. "Begone, you
vagabond! What! you are attempting the coxcomb, are you? Wait till I get hold
of those elegant locks- see if I won't pull them a bit longer."
"They are long enough, already,"
observed Master Linton, peeping from the doorway; "I wonder they don't
make his head ache. It's like a colt's mane over his eyes!"
He ventured this remark without any
intention to insult; but Heathcliff's violent nature was not prepared to endure
the appearance of impertinence from one whom he seemed to hate, even then, as a
rival. He seized a tureen of hot apple sauce (the first thing that came under
his gripe) and dashed it full against the speaker's face and neck; who
instantly commenced a lament that brought Isabella and Catherine hurrying to
the place. Mr. Earnshaw snatched up the culprit directly and conveyed him to
his chamber; where, doubtless, he administered a rough remedy to cool the fit
of passion, for he appeared red and breathless. I got the dishcloth, and rather
spitefully scrubbed Edgar's nose and mouth, affirming it served him right for
meddling. His sister began weeping to go home, and Cathy stood by confounded,
blushing for all.
"You should not have spoken to
him!" she expostulated with Master Linton. "He was in a bad temper,
and now you've spoilt your visit; and he'll be flogged: I hate him to be
flogged! I can't eat my dinner. Why did you speak to him, Edgar?"
"I didn't," sobbed the youth,
escaping from my hands, and finishing the remainder of the purification with
his cambric pocket-handkerchief. "I promised mamma that I wouldn't say one
word to him, and I didn't."
"Well, don't cry," replied Catherine,
contemptuously, "you're not killed. Don't make more mischief; my brother
is coming: be quiet! Hush! Isabella! Has anybody hurt you?"
"There, there, children- to your
seats!" cried Hindley, bustling in. "That brute of a lad has warmed
me nicely. Next time, Master Edgar, take the law into your own fists- it will
give you an appetite!"
The little party recovered its equanimity
at sight of the fragrant feast. They were hungry after their ride, and easily
consoled, since no real harm had befallen them. Mr. Earnshaw carved bountiful
platefuls, and the mistress made them merry with lively talk. I waited behind
her chair, and was fained to behold Catherine, with dry eyes and an indifferent
air, commence cutting up the wing of a goose before her. "An unfeeling
child," I thought to myself; "how lightly she dismisses her old
playmate's troubles. I could not have imagined her to be so selfish." She
lifted a mouthful to her lips; then she set it down again: her cheeks flushed,
and the tears gushed over them. She slipped her fork to the floor, and hastily
dived under the cloth to conceal her emotion. I did not call her unfeeling
long; for I perceived she was in purgatory throughout the day, and wearying to
find an opportunity of getting by herself, or paying a visit to Heathcliff, who
had been locked up by the master: as I discovered, on endeavouring to introduce
to him a private mess of victuals.
In the evening we had a dance. Cathy begged
that he might be liberated then, as Isabella Linton had no partner; her entreaties
were vain, and I was appointed to supply the deficiency. We got rid of all
gloom in the excitement of the exercise, and our pleasure was increased by the
arrival of the Gimerton band, mustering fifteen strong: a trumpet, a trombone,
clarionets, bassoons, French horns, and a bass viol, besides singers. They go
the rounds of all the respectable houses, and receive contributions every
Christmas, and we esteemed it a first-rate treat to hear them. After the usual
carols had been sung, we set them to songs and glees. Mrs. Earnshaw loved the
music, and so they gave us plenty.
Catherine loved it too; but she said it
sounded sweetest at the top of the steps, and she went up in the dark; I
followed. They shut the house door below, never noting our absence, it was so
full of people. She made no stay at the stair's head, but mounted farther, to
the garret where Heathcliff was confined, and called him. He stubbornly
declined answering for a while; she persevered, and finally persuaded him to
hold communion with her through the boards. I let the poor things converse
unmolested, till I suppose the songs were going to cease, and the singers to
get some refreshment; then, I clambered up the ladder to warn her. Instead of
finding her outside, I heard her voice within. The little monkey had crept by
the skylight of one garret, along the roof, into the skylight of the other, and
it was with the utmost difficulty I could coax her out again. When she did come
Heathcliff came with her, and she insisted that I should take him into the
kitchen, as my fellow-servant had gone to a neighbour's to be removed from the
sound of our "devil's psalmody," as it pleased him to call it. I told
them I intended by no means to encourage their tricks; but as the prisoner had
never broken his fast since yesterday's dinner, I would wink at his cheating
Mr. Hindley that once. He went down; I set him a stool by the fire, and offered
him a quantity of good things; but he was sick and could eat little, and my
attempts to entertain him were thrown away. He leant his two elbows on his
knees, and his chin on his hands, and remained wrapt in dumb meditation. On my
enquiring the subject of his thoughts, he answered gravely:
"I'm trying to settle how I shall pay
Hindley back. I don't care how long I wait, if I can only do it at last. I hope
he will not die before I do!"
"For shame, Heathcliff!" said I.
"It is for God to punish wicked people; we should learn to forgive."
"No, God won't have the satisfaction
that I shall," he returned. "I only wish I knew the best way! Let me
alone, and I'll plan it out: while I'm thinking of that I don't feel
pain."
"But Mr. Lockwood, I forget these
tales cannot divert you. I'm annoyed how I should dream of chattering on at
such a rate; and your gruel cold, and you nodding for bed! I could have told
Heathcliff's history, all that you need hear, in a half-a-dozen words."
Thus interrupting herself, the housekeeper rose, and proceeded to lay aside her
sewing; but I felt incapable of moving from the hearth, and I was very far from
nodding. "Sit still, Mrs. Dean," I cried, "do sit still, another
half-hour! You've done just right to tell the story leisurely. That is the
method I like; and you must finish it in the same style. I am interested in
every character you have mentioned, more or less."
"The clock is on the stroke of eleven,
sir."
"No matter- I'm unaccustomed to go to
bed in the long hours. One or two is early enough for a person who lies till
ten."
"You shouldn't lie till ten. There's
the very prime of the morning gone long before that time. A person who has not
done one half his day's work by ten o'clock, runs a chance of leaving the other
half undone."
"Nevertheless, Mrs. Dean, resume your
chair; because to-morrow I intend lengthening the night till afternoon. I prognosticate
for myself an obstinate cold, at least."
"I hope not, sir. Well, you must allow
me to leap over some three years; during that space Mrs. Earnshaw-"
"No, no, I'll allow nothing of the
sort! Are you acquainted with the mood of mind in which, if you were seated
alone, and the cat licking its kitten on the rug before you, you would watch
the operation so intently that puss's neglect of one ear would put you
seriously out of temper?"
"A terribly lazy mood, I should
say."
"On the contrary, a tiresomely active
one. It is mine, at present; and, therefore, continue minutely. I perceive that
people in these regions acquire over people in towns the value that the spider
in a dungeon does over a spider in a cottage, to their various occupants; and
yet the deepened attraction is not entirely owing to the situation of the
looker-on. They do live more in earnest, more in themselves, and less in
surface, change, and frivolous external things. I could fancy a love for life
here almost possible; and I was a fixed unbeliever in any love of a year's
standing. One state resembles setting a hungry man down to a single dish, on
which he may concentrate his entire appetite and do it justice; the other,
introducing him to a table laid out by French cooks: he can perhaps extract as
much enjoyment from the whole; but each part is a mere atom in his regard and
remembrance."
"Oh! here we are the same as anywhere
else, when you get to know us," observed Mrs. Dean, somewhat puzzled at my
speech.
"Excuse me," I responded; "you,
my good friend, are a striking evidence against that assertion. Excepting a few
provincialisms of slight consequence, you have no marks of the manners which I
am habituated to consider as peculiar to your class. I am sure you have thought
a great deal more than the generality of servants think. You have been
compelled to cultivate your reflective faculties for want of occasions for
frittering your life away in silly trifles." Mrs. Dean laughed.
"I certainly esteem myself a steady,
reasonable kind of body," she said; "not exactly from living among
the hills and seeing one set of faces, and one series of actions, from year's
end to year's end; but I have undergone sharp discipline, which has taught me
wisdom; and then, I have read more than you would fancy, Mr. Lockwood. You
could not open a book in this library that I have not looked into, and got
something out of also: unless it be that range of Greek and Latin, and that of
French; and those I know one from another: it is as much as you can expect of a
poor man's daughter. However, if I am to follow my story in true gossip's
fashion, I had better go on; and instead of leaping three years, I will be
content to pass to the next summer- the summer of 1778, that is, nearly
twenty-three years ago."
Chapter 8 -
ON THE MORNING of a fine June day, my first
bonny little nursling, and the last of the ancient Earnshaw stock, was born. We
were busy with the hay in a far away field, when the girl that usually brought
our breakfasts, came running an hour too soon, across the meadow and up the
lane, calling me as she ran.
"Oh, such a grand bairn!" she
panted out. "The finest lad that ever breathed! But the doctor says missis
must go: he says she's been in a consumption these many months. I heard him
tell Mr. Hindley: and now she has nothing to keep her, and she'll be dead
before winter. You must come home directly. You're to nurse it, Nelly: to feed
it with sugar and milk, and take care of it day and night. I wish I were you,
because it will be all yours when there is no missis!"
"But is she very ill?" I asked
flinging down my rake, and tying my bonnet.
"I guess she is; yet she looks
bravely," replied the girl, "and she talks as if she thought of
living to see it grow a man. She's out of her head for joy, it's such a beauty!
If I were her, I'm certain I should not die: I should get better at the bare
sight of it, in spite of Kenneth. I was fairly mad at him. Dame Archer brought
the cherub down to master, in the house, and his face just began to light up,
when the old croaker steps forward, and says he: 'Earnshaw, it's a blessing
your wife has been spared to leave you this son. When she came, I felt
convinced we shouldn't keep her long; and now, I must tell you, the winter will
probably finish her. Don't take on, and fret about it too much! it can't be
helped. And besides, you should have known better than to choose such a rush of
a lass!'"
"And what did the master answer?"
I enquired.
"I think he swore; but I didn't mind
him, I was straining to see the bairn," and she began again to describe it
rapturously. I, as zealous as herself, hurried eagerly home to admire, on my
part; though I was very sad for Hindley's sake. He had room in his heart only
for two idols- his wife and himself: he doted on both, and adored one, and I
couldn't conceive how he would bear the loss.
When we got to Wuthering Heights, there he
stood at the front door; and, as I passed in, I asked, "How was the
baby?"
"Nearly ready to run about"; he
replied, putting on a cheerful smile.
"And the mistress?" I ventured to
enquire; "the doctor says she's-"
"Damn the doctor!" he
interrupted, reddening. "Frances is quite right; she'll be perfectly well
by this time next week. Are you going upstairs? will you tell her that I'll
come, if she'll promise not to talk. I left her because she would not hold her
tongue; and she must- tell her Mr. Kenneth says she must be quiet."
I delivered this message to Mrs. Earnshaw;
she seemed in flighty spirits, and replied merrily: "I hardly spoke a
word, Ellen, and there he has gone out twice, crying. Well, say I promise I
won't speak: but that does not bind me not to laugh at him!"
Poor soul! Till within a week of her death
that gay heart never failed her, and her husband persisted doggedly, nay,
furiously, in affirming her health improved every day. When Kenneth warned him
that his medicines were useless at that stage of the malady, and he needn't put
him to further expense by attending her, he retorted:
"I know you need not- she's well- she
does not want any more attendance from you! She never was in a consumption. It
was a fever; and it is gone: her pulse is as slow as mine now, and her cheek as
cool."
He told his wife the same story, and she
seemed to believe him; but one night, while leaning on his shoulder, in the act
of saying she thought she should be able to get up to-morrow, a fit of coughing
took her- a very slight one- he raised her in his arms; she put her two hands
about his neck, her face changed, and she was dead.
As the girl had anticipated, the child
Hareton fell wholly into my hands. Mr. Earnshaw, provided he saw him healthy
and never heard him cry, was contented, as far as regarded him. For himself, he
grew desperate: his sorrow was of that kind that will not lament. He neither
wept nor prayed: he cursed and defied; execrated God and man, and gave himself
up to reckless dissipation. The servants could not bear his tyrannical and evil
conduct long: Joseph and I were the only two that would stay. I had not the
heart to leave my charge; and besides, you know I had been his foster-sister,
and excused his behaviour more readily than a stranger would. Joseph remained
to hector over tenants and labourers; and because it was his vocation to be
where he had plenty of wickedness to reprove.
The master's bad ways and bad companions
formed a pretty example for Catherine and Heathcliff. His treatment of the
latter was enough to make a fiend of a saint. And, truly, it appeared as if the
lad were possessed of something diabolical at that period. He delighted to
witness Hindley degrading himself past redemption; and became daily more
notable for savage sullenness and ferocity. I could not half tell what an
infernal house we had. The curate dropped calling, and nobody decent came near
us, at last; unless Edgar Linton's visits to Miss Cathy might be an exception.
At fifteen she was the queen of the country side; she had no peer; and she did
turn out a haughty, headstrong creature! I own I did not like her, after her
infancy was past; and I vexed her frequently by trying to bring down her
arrogance: she never took an aversion to me, though. She had a wondrous
constancy to old attachments: even Heathcliff kept his hold on her affections
unalterably; and young Linton, with all his superiority, found it difficult to
make an equally deep impression. He was my late master: that is his portrait
over the fireplace. It used to hang on one side, and his wife's on the other;
but hers has been removed, or else you might see something of what she was. Can
you make that out?
Mrs. Dean raised the candle, and I
discerned a softfeatured face, exceedingly resembling the young lady at the
Heights, but more pensive and amiable in expression. It formed a sweet picture.
The long light hair curled slightly on the temples; the eyes were large and
serious; the figure almost too graceful. I did not marvel how Catherine
Earnshaw could forget her first friend for such an individual. I marvelled much
how he, with a mind to correspond with his person, could fancy my idea of
Catherine Earnshaw.
"A very agreeable portrait," I
observed to the housekeeper. "Is it like?"
"Yes," she answered; "but he
looked better when he was animated; that is his everyday countenance: he wanted
spirit in general."
Catherine had kept up her acquaintance with
the Lintons since her five weeks' residence among them; and as she had no
temptation to show her rough side in their company, and had the sense to be
ashamed of being rude where she experienced such invariable courtesy, she
imposed unwittingly on the old lady and gentleman, by her ingenuous cordiality;
gained the admiration of Isabella, and the heart and soul of her brother:
acquisitions that flattered her from the first, for she was full of ambition,
and led her to adopt a double character without exactly intending to deceive any
one. In the place where she heard Heathcliff termed a "vulgar young
ruffian," and "worse than a brute," she took care not to act
like him; but at home she had small inclination to practise politeness that
would only be laughed at, and restrain an unruly nature when it would bring her
neither credit nor praise.
Mr. Edgar seldom mustered courage to visit
Wuthering Heights openly. He had a terror of Earnshaw's reputation, and shrunk
from encountering him; and yet he was always received with our best attempts at
civility: the master himself avoided offending him, knowing why he came; and if
he could not be gracious, kept out of the way. I rather think his appearance
there was distasteful to Catherine: she was not artful, never played the
coquette, and had evidently an objection to her two friends meeting at all; for
when Heathcliff expressed contempt of Linton in his presence, she could not
half coincide, as she did in his absence; and when Linton evinced disgust and
antipathy to Heathcliff, she dared not treat his sentiments with indifference,
as if depreciation of her playmate were of scarcely any consequence to her.
I've had many a laugh at her perplexities and untold troubles, which she vainly
strove to hide from my mockery. That sounds ill-natured: but she was so proud,
it became really impossible to pity her distresses, till she should be
chastened into more humility. She did bring herself, finally, to confess, and
to confide in me: there was not a soul else that she might fashion into an
adviser.
Mr. Hindley had gone from home one
afternoon, and Heathcliff presumed to give himself a holiday on the strength of
it. He had reached the age of sixteen then, I think, and without having bad
features, or being deficient in intellect, he contrived to convey an impression
of inward and outward repulsiveness that his present aspect retains no traces
of. In the first place, he had by that time lost the benefit of his early
education: continual hard work, begun soon and concluded late, had extinguished
any curiosity he once possessed in pursuit of knowledge, and any love for books
or learning. His childhood's sense of superiority, instilled into him by the
favours of old Mr. Earnshaw, was faded away. He struggled long to keep up an
equality with Catherine in her studies, and yielded with poignant though silent
regret: but he yielded completely; and there was no prevailing on him to take a
step in the way of moving upward, when he found he must, necessarily, sink
beneath his former level. Then personal appearance sympathised with mental
deterioration: he acquired a slouching gait, and ignoble look; his naturally
reserved disposition was exaggerated into an almost idiotic excess of
unsociable moroseness; and he took a grim pleasure, apparently, in exciting the
aversion rather than the esteem of his few acquaintances.
Catherine and he were constant companions
still at his seasons of respite and labour; but he had ceased to express his
fondness for her in words, and recoiled with angry suspicion from her girlish
caresses, as if conscious there could be no gratification in lavishing such
marks of affection on him. On the before-named occasion he came into the house
to announce his intention of doing nothing, while I was assisting Miss Cathy to
arrange her dress: she had not reckoned on his taking it into his head to be
idle; and imagining she would have the whole place to herself, she managed, by
some means, to inform Mr. Edgar of her brother's absence, and was then
preparing to receive him.
"Cathy, are you busy, this afternoon?"
asked Heathcliff. "Are you going anywhere?"
"No, it is raining," she
answered.
"Why have you that silk frock on,
then?" he said. "Nobody coming here, I hope?"
"Not that I know of," stammered
Miss: "but you should be in the field now, Heathcliff. It is an hour past
dinner time: I thought you were gone."
"Hindley does not often free us from
his accursed presence," observed the boy. "I'll not work any more
to-day: I'll stay with you."
"Oh, but Joseph will tell," she
sugested; "you'd better go!"
"Joseph is loading lime on the farther
side of Pennistow Crag; it will take him till dark, and he'll never know."
So saying, he lounged to the fire, and sat
down. Catherine reflected an instant, with knitted brows- she found it needful
to smooth the way for an intrusion. "Isabella and Edgar Linton talked of
calling this afternoon," she said, at the conclusion of a minute's
silence. "As it rains, I hardly expect them; but they may come, and if
they do, you run the risk of being scolded for no good."
"Order Ellen to say you are engaged,
Cathy," he persisted; "don't turn me out for those pitiful, silly
friends of yours! I'm on the point, sometimes, of complaining that they- but
I'll not- "
"That they what?" cried
Catherine, gazing at him with a troubled countenance. "Oh, Nelly!"
she added petulantly, jerking her head away from my hands, "you've combed
my hair quite out of curl! That's enough; let me alone. What are you on the
point of complaining about, Heathcliff?"
"Nothing- only look at the almanac on
that wall"; he pointed to a framed sheet hanging near the window, and
continued- "The crosses are for the evenings you have spent with the
Lintons, the dots for those spent with me. Do you see? I've marked every
day."
"Yes- very foolish: as if I took
notice!" replied Catherine in a peevish tone. "And where is the sense
of that?"
"To show that I do take notice,"
said Heathcliff.
"And should I always be sitting with
you?" she demanded, growing more irritated. "What good do I get? What
do you talk about? You might might be dumb, or a baby, for anything you say to
amuse me, or for anything you do, either!"
"You never told me before that I
talked too little, or that you disliked my company, Cathy!" exclaimed
Heathcliff, in much agitation.
"It's no company at all, when people
know nothing and say nothing," she muttered.
Her companion rose up, but he hadn't time
to express his feelings further, for a horse's feet were heard on the flags,
and having knocked gently, young Linton entered, his face brilliant with
delight at the unexpected summons he had received. Doubtless Catherine marked
the difference between her friends, as one came in and the other went out. The
contrast resembled what you see in exchanging a bleak, hilly, coal country for
a beautiful fertile valley; and his voice and greeting were as opposite as his
aspect. He had a sweet, low manner of speaking, and pronounced his words as you
do: that's less gruff than we talk here, and softer.
"I'm not come too soon, am I?" he
said, casting a look at me: I had begun to wipe the plate, and tidy some
drawers at the far end in the dresser.
"No," answered Catherine.
"What are you doing there, Nelly?"
"My work, miss," I replied. (Mr.
Hindley had given me directions to make a third party in any private visits
Linton chose to pay.)
She stepped behind me and whispered
crossly, "Take yourself and your dusters off; when company are in the
house, servants don't commence scouring and cleaning in the room where they
are!"
"It's a good opportunity, now that the
master is away," I answered aloud: "he hates me to be fidgeting over
these things in his presence. I'm sure Mr. Edgar will excuse me."
"I hate you to be fidgeting in my
presence," exclaimed the young lady imperiously, not allowing her guest
time to speak: she had failed to recover her equanimity since the little
dispute with Heathcliff.
"I'm sorry for it, Miss
Catherine," was my response; and I proceeded assiduously with my
occupation.
She, supposing Edgar could not see her,
snatched the cloth from my hand, and pinched me, with a prolonged wrench, very
spitefully on the arm. I've said I did not love her, and rather relished
mortifying her vanity now and then: besides, she hurt me extremely; so I
started up from my knees, and screamed out, "Oh, miss, that's a nasty
trick! You have no right to nip me, and I'm not going to bear it."
"I didn't touch you, you lying
creature!" cried she, her fingers tingling to repeat the act, and her ears
red with rage. She never had power to conceal her passion, it always set her
whole complexion in a blaze.
"What's that, then?" I retorted,
showing a decided purple witness to refute her.
She stamped her foot, wavered a moment, and
then irresistibly impelled by the naughty spirit within her, slapped me on the
cheek: a stinging blow that filled both eyes with water.
"Catherine, love! Catherine!"
interposed Linton, greatly shocked at the double fault of falsehood and
violence which his idol had committed.
"Leave the room, Ellen!" she
repeated, trembling all over.
Little Hareton, who followed me everywhere,
and was sitting near me on the floor, at seeing my tears commenced crying
himself, and sobbed out complaints against "wicked Aunt Cathy," which
drew her fury on to his unlucky head: she seized his shoulders, and shook him
till the poor child waxed livid, and Edgar thoughtlessly laid hold of her hands
to deliver him. In an instant one was wrung free, and the astonished young man
felt it applied over his own ear in a way that could not be mistaken for jest.
He drew back in consternation. I lifted Hareton in my arms, and walked off to
the kitchen with him, leaving the door of communication open, for I was curious
to watch how they would settle their disagreement. The insulted visitor moved
to the spot where he had laid his hat, pale and with a quivering lip.
"That's right!" I said to myself
"Take warning and begone! It's a kindness to let you have a glimpse of her
genuine disposition."
"Where are you going?" demanded
Catherine, advancing to the door.
He swerved aside, and tried to pass.
"You must not go!" she exclaimed
energetically.
"I must and shall!" he replied in
a subdued voice.
"No," she persisted, grasping the
handle: "not yet, Edgar Linton: sit down; you shall not leave me in that
temper. I should be miserable all night, and I won't be miserable for
you!"
"Can I stay after you have struck
me?" asked Linton.
Catherine was mute.
"You've made me afraid and ashamed of
you," he continued; "I'll not come here again!"
Her eyes began to glisten, and her lids to
twinkle.
"And you told a deliberate
untruth!" he said.
"I didn't!" she cried, recovering
her speech; "I did nothing deliberately. Well, go, if you please- get
away! And now I'll cry- I'll cry myself sick!"
She dropped down on her knees by a chair,
and set to weeping in serious earnest. Edgar persevered in his resolution as
far as the court; there he lingered. I resolved to encourage him.
"Miss is dreadfully wayward,
sir," I called out. "As bad as any marred child: you'd better be
riding home, or else she will be sick only to grieve us."
The soft thing looked askance through the
window: he possessed the power to depart, as much as a cat possesses the power
to leave a mouse half killed, or a bird half eaten. Ah, I thought, there will
be no saving him: he's doomed, and flies to his fate! And so it was: he turned
abruptly, hastened into the house again, shut the door behind him; and when I
went in a while after to inform them that Earnshaw had come home rabid drunk,
ready to pull the whole place about our ears (his ordinary frame of mind in
that condition), I saw the quarrel had merely effected a closer intimacy- had
broken the outworks of youthful timidity, and enabled them to forsake the
disguise of friendship, and confess themselves lovers.
Intelligence of Mr. Hindley's arrival drove
Linton speedily to his horse, and Catherine to her chamber. I went to hide
little Hareton, and to take the shot out of the master's fowling-piece, which
he was fond of playing with in his insane excitement, to the hazard of the
lives of any who provoked, or even attracted his notice too much; and I had hit
upon the plan of removing it, that he might do less mischief if he did go the
length of firing the gun.
Chapter 9 -
HE ENTERED, vociferating oaths dreadful to
hear; and caught me in the act of stowing his son away in the kitchen cupboard.
Hareton was impressed with a wholesome terror of encountering either his wild
beast's fondness or his madman's rage; for in one he ran a chance of being
squeezed and kissed to death, and in the other of being flung into the fire, or
dashed against the wall; and the poor thing remained perfectly quiet wherever I
chose to put him.
"There, I've found it out at
last!" cried Hindley, pulling me back by the skin of my neck, like a dog.
"By heaven and hell, you've sworn between you to murder that child! I know
how it is, now, that he is always out of my way. But, with the help of Satan, I
shall make you swallow the carving-knife, Nelly. You needn't laugh; for I've
just crammed Kenneth, head-downmost, in the Blackhorse marsh; and two is the
same as one- and I want to kill some of you: I shall have no rest till I
do!"
"But I don't like the carving-knife,
Mr. Hindey," I answered: "it has been cutting red herrings. I'd
rather be shot, if you please."
"You'd rather be damned!" he
said; "and so you shall. No law in England can hinder a man from keeping
his house decent, and mine's abominable! open your mouth."
He held the knife in his hand, and pushed
its point between my teeth: but, for my part, I was never much afraid of his vagaries.
I spat out, and affirmed it tasted detestably- I would not take it on any
account.
"Oh!" said he, releasing me,
"I see that hideous little villain is not Hareton: I beg your pardon,
Nell. If it be, he deserves flaying alive for not running to welcome me, and
for screaming as if I were a goblin. Unnatural cub, come hither! I'll teach
thee to impose on a good-hearted, deluded father. Now, don't you think the lad
would be handsomer cropped? It makes a dog fiercer, and I love something
fierce- get me a scissors- something fierce and trim! Besides, it's infernal
affectation- devilish conceit it is, to cherish our ears- we're asses enough
without them. Hush, child, hush! Well then, it is my darling! wisht, dry thy
eyes- there's a joy; kiss me. What! it won't? Kiss me, Hareton! Damn thee, kiss
me! By God, as if I would rear such a monster! As sure as I'm living, I'll
break the brat's neck."
Poor Hareton was squalling and kicking in
his father's arms with all his might, and redoubled his yells when he carried
him upstairs and lifted him over the banister. I cried out that he would
frighten the child into fits, and ran to rescue him. As I reached them, Hindley
leant forward on the rails to listen to a noise below; almost forgetting what
he had in his hands. "Who is that?" he asked, hearing some one
approaching the stair's foot. I leant forward also, for the purpose of signing
to Heathcliff, whose step I recognized, not to come further; and, at the
instant when my eye quitted Hareton, he gave a sudden spring, delivered himself
from the careless grasp that held him, and fell.
There was scarcely time to experience a
thrill of horror before we saw that the little wretch was safe. Heathcliff
arrived underneath just at the critical moment; by a natural impulse, he arrested
his descent, and setting him on his feet, looked up to discover the author of
the accident. A miser who has parted with a lucky lottery ticket for five
shillings, and finds next day he has lost in the bargain five thousand pounds,
could not show a blanker countenance than he did on beholding the figure of Mr.
Earnshaw above. It expressed, plainer than words could do, the intense anguish
at having made himself the instrument of thwarting his own revenge. Had it been
dark, I dare say, he would have tried to remedy the mistake by smashing
Hareton's skull on the steps; but we witnessed his salvation; and I was
presently below with my precious charge pressed to my heart. Hindley descended
more leisurely, sobered and abashed.
"It is your fault, Ellen," he
said; "you should have kept him out of sight: you should have taken him
from me! Is he injured anywhere?"
"Injured!" I cried angrily;
"if he's not killed, he'll be an idiot! Oh! I wonder his mother does not
rise from her grave to see how you use him. You're worse than a heathen-
treating your own flesh and blood in that manner!"
He attempted to touch the child, who, on
finding himself with me, sobbed off his terror directly. At the first finger
his father laid on him, however, he shrieked again louder than before, and
struggled as if he would go into convulsions.
"You shall not meddle with him!"
I continued. "He hates you- they all hate you- that's the truth! A happy
family you have: and a pretty state you've come to!"
"I shall come to a prettier, yet,
Nelly," laughed the misguided man, recovering his hardness. "At
present, convey yourself and him away. And, hark you, Heathcliff! clear you
too, quite from my reach and hearing. I wouldn't murder you to-night; unless,
perhaps, I set the house on fire: but that's as my fancy goes."
While saying this he took a pint bottle of
brandy from the dresser, and poured some into a tumbler.
"Nay, don't!" I entreated.
"Mr. Hindley, do take warning. Have mercy on this unfortunate boy, if you
care nothing for yourself!"
"Any one will do better for him than I
shall," he answered.
"Have mercy on your own soul!" I
said, endeavouring to snatch the glass from his hand.
"Not I! On the contrary, I shall have
great pleasure in sending it to perdition to punish its Maker," exclaimed
the blasphemer. "Here's to its hearty damnation!"
He drank the spirits and impatiently bade
us go; terminating his command with a sequel of horrid imprecations, too bad to
repeat or remember.
"It's a pity he cannot kill himself
with drink," observed Heathcliff, muttering an echo of curses back when
the door was shut. "He's doing his very utmost; but his constitution
defies him. Mr. Kenneth says he would wager his mare, that he'll outlive any
man on this side Gimmerton, and go to the grave a hoary sinner; unless some
happy chance out of the common course befall him."
I went into the kitchen, and sat down to
lull my little lamb to sleep. Heathcliff, as I thought, walked through to the
barn. It turned out afterwards that he only got as far as the other side the
settle, when he flung himself on a bench by the wall, removed from the fire,
and remained silent.
I was rocking Hareton on my knee, and
humming a song that began: -
It was far in the night, and the bairnies
grat,
The mither beneath the mools heard that- -
when Miss Cathy, who had listened to the hubbub from her room, put her head in,
and whispered: "Are you alone, Nelly?"
"Yes, miss," I replied.
She entered and approached the hearth. I,
supposing she was going to say something, looked up. The expression of her face
seemed disturbed and anxious. Her lips were half asunder, as if she meant to
speak, and she drew a breath; but it escaped in a sigh instead of a sentence. I
resumed my song; not having forgotten her recent behaviour.
"Where's Heathcliff?" she said,
interrupting me.
"About his work in the stable,"
was my answer.
He did not contradict me; perhaps he had
fallen into a doze. There followed another long pause, during which I perceived
a drop or two trickle from Catherine's cheek to the flags. Is she sorry for her
shameful conduct? I asked myself. That will be a novelty: but she may come to
the point as she will- I shan't help her! No, she felt small trouble regarding
any subject, save her own concerns.
"Oh, dear!" she cried at last. "I'm
very unhappy!"
"A pity," observed I.
"You're hard to please: so many friends and so few cares, and can't make
yourself content!"
"Nelly, will you keep a secret for
me?" she pursued, kneeling down by me, and lifting her winsome eyes to my
face with that sort of look which turns off bad temper, even when one has all
the right in the world to indulge it.
"Is it worth keeping?" I
enquired.
"Yes, and it worries me, and I must
let it out! I want to know what I should do. To-day, Edgar Linton has asked me
to marry him, and I've given him an answer. Now, before I tell you whether it
was a consent or denial, you tell me which it ought to have been."
"Really, Miss Catherine, how can I
know?" I replied. "To be sure, considering the exhibition you
performed in his presence this afternoon, I might say it would be wise to
refuse him: since he asked you after that, he must either be hopelessly stupid
or a venturesome fool."
"If you talk so, I won't tell you any
more," she returned, peevishly, rising to her feet. "I accepted him,
Nelly. Be quick, and say whether I was wrong!"
"You accepted him! then what good is
it discussing the matter? You have pledged your word, and cannot retract."
"But, say whether I should have done
so- do!" she exclaimed in an irritated tone; chafing her hands together,
and frowning.
"There are many things to be
considered before that question can be answered properly," I said
sententiously. "First and foremost, do you love Mr. Edgar?"
"Who can help it? Of course I
do," she answered.
Then I put her through the following
catechism: for a girl of twenty-two it was not injudicious.
"Why do you love him, Miss
Cathy?"
"Nonsense, I do- that's
sufficient."
"By no means; you must say why?"
"Well, because he is handsome, and
pleasant to be with."
"Bad!" was my commentary.
"Because he is young and
cheerful."
"Bad still."
"And because he loves me."
"Indifferent, coming there."
"And he will be rich, and I shall like
to be the greatest woman of the neighbourhood, and I shall be proud of having
such a husband."
"Worst of all. And now, say how you
love him?"
"As anybody loves- You're silly,
Nelly."
"Not at all- Answer."
"I love the ground under his feet, and
the air over his head, and everything he touches, and every word he says. I
love all his looks, and all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. There
now!"
"And why?"
"Nay; you are making a jest of it; it
is exceedingly ill-natured! It's no jest to me!" said the young lady,
scowling, and turning her face to the fire.
"I'm very far from jesting, Miss
Catherine," I replied. "You love Mr. Edgar because he is handsome,
and young, and cheerful, and rich, and loves you. The last, however, goes for
nothing: you would love him without that, probably; and with it you wouldn't, unless
he possessed the four former attractions."
"No, to be sure not: I should only
pity him- hate him, perhaps, if he were ugly, and a clown."
"But there are several other handsome,
rich young men in the world: handsomer, possibly, and richer than he is. What
should hinder you from loving them?"
"If there be any, they are out of my
way! I've seen none like Edgar."
"You may see some; and he won't always
he handsome, and young, and may not always be rich."
"He is now; and I have only to do with
the present. I wish you would speak rationally."
"Well, that settles it: if you have
only to do with the present, marry Mr. Linton."
"I don't want your permission for
that- I shall marry him: and yet you have not told me whether I'm right."
"Perfectly right; if people be right
to marry only for the present. And now, let us hear what you are unhappy about.
Your brother will be pleased; the old lady and gentleman will not object, I
think; you will escape from a disorderly, comfortless home into a wealthy,
respectable one; and you love Edgar, and Edgar loves you. All seems smooth and
easy: where is the obstacle?"
"Here! and here!" replied
Catherine, striking one hand on her forehead, and the other on her breast:
"in whichever place the soul lives. In my soul and in my heart, I'm
convinced I'm wrong!"
"That's very strange! I cannot make it
out."
"It's my secret. But if you will not
mock at me, I'll explain it: I can't do it distinctly: but I'll give you a
feeling of how I feel."
She seated herself by me again: her
countenance grew sadder and graver, and her clasped hands trembled.
"Nelly, do you never dream queer
dreams?" she said suddenly, after some minutes' reflection.
"Yes, now and then," I answered.
"And so do I. I've dreamt in my life
dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and changed my ideas: they've gone
through and through me, like wine through water, and altered the colour of my
mind. And this is one; I'm going to tell it- but take care not to smile at any
part of it."
"Oh! don't, Miss Catherine!" I
cried. "We're dismal enough without conjuring up ghosts and visions to
perplex us. Come, come, be merry and like yourself! Look at little Hareton-
he's dreaming nothing dreary. How sweetly he smiles in his sleep!"
"Yes; and how sweetly his father
curses in his solitude! You remember him, I dare say, when he was just such
another as that chubby thing: nearly as young and innocent. However, Nelly, I
shall oblige you to listen: it's not long; and I've no power to be merry
to-night."
"I won't hear it, I won't hear it!"
I repeated hastily.
I was superstitious about dreams then, and
am still; and Catherine had an unusual gloom in her aspect, that made me dread
something from which I might shape a prophecy, and foresee a fearful
catastrophe. She was vexed, but she did not proceed. Apparently taking up
another subject, she recommenced in a short time.
"If I were in heaven, Nelly, I should
be extremely miserable."
"Because you are not fit to go
there," I answered. "All sinners would be miserable in heaven."
"But it is not for that. I dreamt once
that I was there."
"I tell you I won't hearken to your
dreams, Miss Catherine! I'll go to bed," I interrupted again.
She laughed, and held me down; for I made a
motion to leave my chair.
"This is nothing," cried she.
"I was only going to say that heaven did not seem to be my home; and I
broke my heart with weeping to come back to earth; and the angels were so angry
that they flung me out into the middle of the heath on the top of Wuthering
Heights; where I woke sobbing for joy. That will do to explain my secret, as
well as the other. I've no more business to marry Edgar Linton than I have to
be in heaven; and if the wicked man in there had not brought Heathcliff so low,
I shouldn't have thought of it. It would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now; so
he shall never know how I love him: and that, not because he's handsome, Nelly,
but because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and
mine are the same; and Linton's is as different as a moonbeam from lightning,
or frost from fire."
Ere this speech ended, I became sensible to
Heathcliff's presence. Having noticed a slight movement, I turned my head, and
saw him rise from the bench, and steal out noiselessly. He had listened till he
heard Catherine say it would degrade her to marry him, and then he stayed to
hear no further. My companion, sitting on the ground, was prevented by the back
of the settle from remarking his presence or departure; but I started, and bade
her hush!
"Why?" she asked, gazing
nervously round.
"Joseph is here," I answered,
catching opportunely the roll of his cart-wheels up the road; "and
Heathcliff will come in with him. I'm not sure whether he were not at the door
this moment."
"Oh, he couldn't overhear me at the
door!" said she. "Give me Hareton, while you get the supper, and when
it is ready ask me to sup with you. I want to cheat my uncomfortable
conscience, and be convinced that Heathcliff has no notion of these things. He
has not, has he? He does not know what being in love is?"
"I see no reason that he should not
know, as well as you," I returned; "and if you are his choice, he
will be the most unfortunate creature that ever was born! As soon as you become
Mrs. Linton, he loses friend, and love, and all! Have you considered how you'll
bear the separation, and how he'll bear to be quite deserted in the world?
Because, Miss Catherine-"
"He quite deserted! we
separated!" she exclaimed with an accent of indignation. "Who is to
separate us, pray? They'll meet the fate of Milo! Not as long as I live, Ellen:
for no mortal creature. Every Linton on the face of the earth might melt into
nothing, before I could consent to forsake Heathcliff. Oh, that's not what I
intend- that's not what I mean! I shouldn't be Mrs. Linton were such a price demanded!
He'll be as much to me as he had been all his lifetime. Edgar must shake off
his antipathy, and tolerate him, at least. He will, when he learns my true
feelings towards him. Nelly, I see now, you think me a selfish wretch; but did
it never strike you that if Heathcliff and I married, we should be beggars?
whereas, if I marry Linton, I can aid Heathcliff to rise, and place him out of
my brother's power."
"With your husband's money, Miss
Catherine?" I asked. "You'll find him not so pliable as you calculate
upon: and, though I'm hardly a judge, I think that's the worst motive you've
given yet for being the wife of young Linton."
"It is not," retorted she;
"it is the best! The others were the satisfaction of my whims: and for
Edgar's sake, too, to satisfy him. This is for the sake of one who comprehends
in his person my feelings to Edgar and myself. I cannot express it; but surely
you and everybody have a notion that there is or should be an existence of
yours beyond you. What were the use of my creation, if I were entirely
contained here? My great miseries in this world have been Heathcliff's
miseries, and I watched and felt each from the beginning: my great thought in
living is himself. If all else perished, and he remained, I should still
continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe
would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it. My love for
Linton is like the foliage in the woods: time will change it, I'm well aware,
as winter changes the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks
beneath: a source of little visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I am
Heathcliff! He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I
am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being. So don't talk of our
separation again: it is impracticable; and-"
She paused, and hid her face in the folds
of my gown; but I jerked it forcibly away. I was out of patience with her
folly!
"If I can make any sense of your
nonsense, miss," I said, "it only goes to convince me that you are
ignorant of the duties you undertake in marrying; or else that you are a
wicked, unprincipled girl. But trouble me with no more secrets: I'll not
promise to keep them."
"You'll keep that?" she asked
eagerly.
"No, I'll not promise," I
repeated.
She was about to insist, when the entrance
of Joseph finished our conversation; and Catherine removed her seat to a
corner, and nursed Hareton, while I made the supper. After it was cooked, my
fellow servant and I began to quarrel who should carry some to Mr. Hindley; and
we didn't settle it till all was nearly cold. Then we came to the agreement
that we would let him ask, if he wanted any; for we feared particularly to go
into his presence when he had been some time alone.
"And how isn't that nowt comed in fro'
th' field, be this time? What is he about? girt idle seegh!" demanded the
old man, looking round for Heathcliff.
"I'll call him," I replied.
"He's in the barn, I've no doubt."
I went and called, but got no answer. On
returning, I whispered to Catherine that he had heard a good part of what she
said, I was sure; and told how I saw him quit the kitchen just as she
complained of her brother's conduct regarding him. She jumped up in a fine
fright, flung Hareton on to the settle, and ran to seek for her friend herself;
not taking leisure to consider why she was so flurried, or how her talk would
have affected him. She was absent such a while that Joseph proposed we should
wait no longer. He cunningly conjectured they were staying away in order to
avoid hearing his protracted blessing. They were "ill eneugh for ony fahl
manners," he affirmed. And on their behalf he added that night a special
prayer to the usual quarter of an hour's supplication before meat, and would
have tacked another to the end of the grace, had not his young mistress broken
in upon him with a hurried command that he must run down the road, and wherever
Heathcliff had rambled, find and make him re-enter directly!
"I want to speak to him, and I must,
before I go upstairs," she said. "And the gate is open: he is
somewhere out of hearing; for he would not reply, though I shouted at the top
of the fold as loud as I could."
Joseph objected at first; she was too much
in earnest, however, to suffer contradiction; and at last he placed his hat on
his head, and walked grumbling forth. Meantime, Catherine paced up and down the
floor, exclaiming:
"I wonder where he is- I wonder where
he can be? What did I say, Nelly? I've forgotten. Was he vexed at my bad humour
this afternoon? Dear! tell me what I've said to grieve him? I do wish he'd
come. I do wish he would!"
"What a noise for nothing!" I
cried, though rather uneasy myself. "What a trifle scares you! It's surely
no great cause of alarm that Heathcliff should take a moonlight saunter on the
moors, or even lie too sulky to speak to us in the hay-loft. I'll engage he's
lurking there. See if I don't ferret him out!"
I departed to renew my search; its result
was disappointment, and Joseph's quest ended in the same.
"Yon lad gets war unwar!"
observed he on re-entering. "He's left th' yate at t' full swing, and
Miss's pony has trodden dahn two rigs o' corn, and plottered through, raight
o'er into t' meadow! Hahsomdiver, t' maister 'ull play t' devil to-morn, and
he'll do weel. He's patience itsseln wi' sich careless, offald craters-
patience itsseln he is! Bud he'll not be soa allus- yah's see, all on ye! Yah
mumn't drive him out of his heead for nowt!"
"Have you found Heathcliff, you
ass?" interrupted Catherine. "Have you been looking for him, as I
ordered?"
"I sud more likker look for th'
horse," he replied. "It 'ud be to more sense. Bud, I can look for
norther horse nur man of a neeght loike this- as black as t' chimbley! und
Heathcliff's noan t' chap to coom at my whistle- happen he'll be les hard o'
hearing wi' ye!"
It was a very dark evening for summer: the
clouds appeared inclined to thunder, and I said we had better all sit down; the
approaching rain would be certain to bring him home without further trouble.
However, Catherine would not be persuaded into tranquillity. She kept wandering
to and fro, from the gate to the door, in a state of agitation which permitted
no repose; and at length took up a permanent situation on one side of the wall,
near the road: where, heedless of my expostulations and the growling thunder,
and the great drops that began to splash around her, she remained, calling at
intervals, and then listening, and then crying outright. She beat Hareton, or
any child, at a good passionate fit of crying.
About midnight, while we still sat up, the
storm came rattling over the Heights in full fury. There was a violent wind, as
well as thunder, and either one or the other split a tree off at the corner of
the building: a huge bough fell across the roof, and knocked down a portion of
the east chimney-stack, sending a clatter of stones and soot into the kitchen
fire. We thought a bolt had fallen in the middle of us; and Joseph swung on to
his knees beseeching the Lord to remember the patriarchs Noah and Lot, and, as
in former times, spare the righteous, though He smote the ungodly. I felt some
sentiment that it must be a judgment on us also. The Jonah, in my mind, was Mr.
Earnshaw; and I shook the handle of his den that I might ascertain if he were
yet living. He replied audibly enough, in a fashion which made my companion
vociferate, more clamorously than before, that a wide distinction might be
drawn between saints like himself and sinners like his master. But the uproar
passed away in twenty minutes, leaving us all unharmed; excepting Cathy, who
got thoroughly drenched for her obstinacy in refusing to take shelter, and
standing bonnetless and shawlless to catch as much water as she could with her
hair and clothes. She came in and lay down on the settle, all soaked as she
was, turning her face to the back, and putting her hands before it.
"Well, miss!" I exclaimed,
touching her shoulder; "you are not bent on getting your death, are you?
Do you know what o'clock it is? Half past twelve. Come, come to bed! there's no
use waiting longer on that foolish boy: he'll be gone to Gimmerton, and he'll
stay there now. He guesses we shouldn't wait for him this late hour: at least,
he guesses that only Mr. Hindley would be up; and he'd rather avoid having the
door opened by the master."
"Nay, nay, he's noan at
Gimmerton," said Joseph. "I's niver wonder but he's at t'bothom of a
bog-hoile. This visitation worn't for nowt, and I wod hev ye to look out, miss-
yah muh be t' next. Thank Hivin for all! All warks togither for gooid to them
as is chozzen, and piked out fro' th' rubbidge! Yah knaw whet t' Scripture
ses." And he began quoting several texts, referring us to chapters and
verses where we might find them.
I, having vainly begged the wilful girl to
rise and remove her wet things, left him preaching and her shivering, and
betook myself to bed with little Hareton, who slept as fast as if every one had
been sleeping round him. I heard Joseph read on a while afterwards; then I
distinguished his slow step on the ladder, and then I dropped asleep.
Coming down somewhat later than usual, I
saw, by the sunbeams piercing the chinks of the shutters, Miss Catherine still
seated near the fire-place. The house door was ajar, too; light entered from
its unclosed windows; Hindley had come out, and stood on the kitchen hearth,
haggard and drowsy.
"What ails you, Cathy?" he was
saying when I entered: "you look as dismal as a drowned whelp. Why are you
so damp and pale, child?"
"I've been wet," she answered
reluctantly, "and I'm cold, that's all."
"Oh, she is naughty!" I cried,
perceiving the master to be tolerably sober. "She got steeped in the
shower of yesterday evening, and there she has sat the night through, and I
couldn't prevail on her to stir."
Mr. Earnshaw stared at us in surprise.
"The night through," he repeated. "What kept her up? not fear of
the thunder, surely? That was over hours since."
Neither of us wished to mention
Heathcliff's absence, as long as we could conceal it; so I replied, I didn't
know how she took it into her head to sit up; and she said nothing. The morning
was fresh and cool; I threw back the lattice, and presently the room filled
with sweet scents from the garden; but Catherine called peevishly to me,
"Ellen, shut the window. I'm starving!" And her teeth chattered as
she shrunk closer to the almost extinguished embers.
"She's ill," said Hindley, taking
her wrist; "I suppose that's the reason she would not go to bed. Damn it!
I don't want to be troubled with more sickness here. What took you into the
rain!"
"Running after t' lads, as
usuald!" croaked joseph, catching an opportunity, from our hesitation, to
thrust in his evil tongue. "If I war yah, maister, I'd just slam t' boards
i' their faces all on 'em, gentle and simple! Never a day ut yah're off, but
yon cat o' Linton comes sneaking hither; and Miss Nelly, shoo's a fine lass!
shoo sits watching for ye i' t' kitchen; and as yah're in at one door, he's out
at t'other; and, then, wer grand lady goes a coorting of her side! It's bonny
behaviour, lurking amang t' fields, after twelve o' t'night, wi' that fahl,
flaysome divil of a gipsy, Heathcliff! They think I'm blind; but I'm noan: nowt
ut t' soart- I seed young Linton boath coming and going, and I seed yah"
(directing his discourse to me), "yah gooid fur nowt, slattenly witch! nip
up and bolt into th' house, t' minute yah heard t' maister's horse fit clatter
up t' road."
"Silence, eavesdropper!" cried
Catherine; "none of your insolence before me! Edgar Linton came yesterday
by chance, Hindley; and it was I who told him to be off because I knew you
would not like to have met him as you were."
"You lie, Cathy, no doubt,"
answered her brother, "and you are a confounded simpleton! But never mind
Linton at present: tell me, were you not with Heathcliff last night? Speak the
truth now. You need not be afraid of harming him: though I hate him as much as
ever, he did me a good turn a short time since, that will make my conscience
tender of breaking his neck. To prevent it, I shall send him about his
business, this very morning; and after he's gone, I'd advise you all to look
sharp: I shall only have the more humour for you."
"I never saw Heathcliff last
night," answered Catherine, beginning to sob bitterly: "and if you do
turn him out of doors, I'll go with him. But, perhaps you'll never have an
opportunity: perhaps he's gone." Here she burst into uncontrollable grief,
and the remainder of her words were inarticulate.
Hindley lavished on her a torrent of
scornful abuse, and bade her get to her room immediately, or she shouldn't cry
for nothing! I obliged her to obey; and I shall never forget what a scene she
acted when we reached her chamber: it terrified me. I though she was going mad,
and I begged joseph to run for the doctor. It proved the commencement of
delirium: Mr. Kenneth, as soon as he saw her, pronounced her dangerously ill;
she had a fever. He bled her, and he told me to let her live on whey and
water-gruel, and take care she did not throw herself downstairs or out of the
window; and then he left: for he had enough to do in the parish, where two or
three miles was the ordinary distance between cottage and cottage.
Though I cannot say I made a gentle nurse,
and Joseph and the master were no better; and though our patient was as
wearisome and headstrong as a patient could be, she weathered it through. Old
Mrs. Linton paid us several visits, to be sure, and set things to rights, and
scolded and ordered us all; and when Catherine was convalescent, she insisted
on conveying her to Thushcross Grange: for which deliverance we were very
grateful. But the poor dame had reason to repent of her kindness: she and her
husband both took the fever, and died within a few days of each other.
Our young lady returned to us, saucier and
more passionate, and haughtier than ever. Heathcliff had never been heard of
since the evening of the thunder-storm; and one day I had the misfortune, when
she had provoked me exceedingly, to lay the blame of his disappearance on her:
where indeed it belonged, as she well knew. From that period, for several
months, she ceased to hold any communication with me, save in the relation of a
mere servant. Joseph fell under a ban also: he would speak his mind, and
lecture her all the same as if she were a little girl; and she esteemed herself
a woman, and our mistress, and thought that her recent illness gave her a claim
to be treated with consideration. Then the doctor had said that she would not
bear crossing much; she ought to have her own way; and it was nothing less than
murder in her eyes for any one to presume to stand up and contradict her. From
Mr. Earnshaw and his companions she kept aloof; and tutored by Kenneth, and
serious threats of a fit that often attended her rages, her brother allowed her
whatever she pleased to demand, and generally avoided aggravating her fiery
temper. He was rather too indulgent in humouring her caprices; not from
affection, but from pride: he wished earnestly to see her bring honour to the
family by an alliance with the Lintons, and as long as she let him alone she
might trample on us like slaves, for aught he cared! Edgar Linton, as
multitudes have been before and will be after him, was infatuated; and believed
himself the happiest man alive on the day he led her to Gimmerton Chapel, three
years subsequent to his father's death.
Much against my inclination, I was
persuaded to leave Wuthering Heights and accompany her here. Little Hareton was
nearly five years old, and I had just begun to teach him his letters. We made a
sad parting; but Catherine's tears were more powerful than ours. When I refused
to go, and when she found her entreaties did not move me, she went lamenting to
her husband and brother. The former offered me munificent wages; the latter
ordered me to pack up: he wanted no women in the house, he said, now that there
was no mistress; and as to Hareton, the curate should take him in hand,
by-and-by. And so I had but one choice left: to do as I was ordered. I told the
master he got rid of all decent people only to run to ruin a little faster; I
kissed Hareton, said good-bye; and since then he has been a stranger: and it's
very queer to think it, but I've no doubt he has completely forgotten all about
Ellen Dean, and that he was ever more than all the world to her, and she to
him!
At this point of the housekeeper's story,
she chanced to glance towards the time-piece over the chimney; and was in
amazement on seeing the minute-hand measure half-past one. She would not hear
of staying a second longer: in truth, I felt rather disposed to defer the
sequel of her narrative, myself. And now that she is vanished to her rest, and
I have meditated for another hour or two, I shall summon courage to go, also,
in spite of aching laziness of head and limbs.
Chapter 10 -
A CHARMING introduction to a hermit's life!
Four weeks' torture, tossing, and sickness! Oh! these bleak winds and bitter
northern skies, and impassable roads, and dilatory country surgeons! And, oh,
this dearth of the human physiognomy! and, worse than all, the terrible
intimation of Kenneth that I need not expect to be out of doors till spring.
Mr. Heathcliff has just honoured me with a
call. About seven days ago he sent me a brace of grouse- the last of the
season. Scoundrel! He is not altogether guiltless in this illness of mine; and
that I had a great mind to tell him. But, alas! how could I offend a man who
was charitable enough to sit at my bedside a good hour, and talk on some other
subject than pills and draughts, blisters and leeches? This is quite an easy
interval. I am too weak to read; yet I feel as if I could enjoy something
interesting. Why not have up Mrs. Dean to finish her tale? I can recollect its
chief incidents as far as she had gone. Yes: I remember her hero had run off,
and never been heard of for three years; and the heroine was married. I'll ring:
she'll be delighted to find me capable of talking cheerfully. Mrs. Dean came.
"It wants twenty minutes, sir, to
taking the medicine," she commenced.
"Away, away with it!" I replied;
"I desire to have-"
"The doctor says you must drop the
powders."
"With all my heart! Don't interrupt
me. Come and take your seat here. Keep your fingers from that bitter phalanx of
vials. Draw your knitting out of your pocket- that will do- now continue the
history of Mr. Heathcliff, from where you left off, to the present day. Did he
finish his education on the Continent, and come back a gentleman? or did he get
a sizar's place at college, or escape to America, and earn honours by drawing
blood from his foster-country? or make a fortune more promptly on the English
highways?"
"He may have done a little in all
these vocations, Mr. Lockwood; but I couldn't give my word for any. I stated
before that I didn't know how he gained his money; neither am I aware of the
means she took to raise his mind from the savage ignorance into which it was
sunk: but, with your leave, I'll proceed in my own fashion, if you think it
will amuse and not weary you. Are you feeling better this morning?"
"Much."
"That's good news. I got Miss
Catherine and myself to Thrushcross Grange; and, to my agreeable
disappointment, she behaved infinitely better than I dared to expect. She
seemed almost over-fond of Mr. Linton; and even to his sister she showed plenty
of affection. They were both very attentive to her comfort, certainly. It was
not the thorn bending to the honeysuckles, but the honeysuckles embracing the
thorn. There were no mutual concessions; one stood erect, and the others
yielded: and who can be ill-natured and bad-tempered when they encounter
neither opposition nor indifference? I observed that Mr. Edgar had a
deep-rooted fear of ruffling her humour. He concealed it from her; but if ever
he heard me answer sharply, or saw any other servant grow cloudy at some
imperious order of hers, he would show his trouble by a frown of displeasure
that never darkened on his own account. He many a time spoke sternly to me
about my pertness; and averred that the stab of a knife could not inflict a
worse pang than he suffered at seeing his lady vexed. Not to grieve a kind
master, I learned to be less touchy; and, for the space of half a year, the
gunpowder lay as harmless as sand, because no fire came near to explode it.
Catherine had seasons of gloom and silence now and then: they were respected
with sympathising silence by her husband, who ascribed them to an alteration in
her constitution, produced by her perilous illness; as she was never subject to
depression of spirits before. The return of sunshine was welcomed by answering
sunshine from him. I believe I may assert that they were really in possession of
deep and growing happiness.
It ended. Well, we must be for ourselves in
the long run; the mild and generous are only more justly selfish than the
domineering; and it ended when circumstances caused each to feel that the one's
interest was not the chief consideration in the other's thoughts. On a mellow
evening in September, I was coming from the garden with a heavy basket of
apples which I had been gathering. It had got dusk, and the moon looked over
the high wall of the court, causing undefined shadows to lurk in the corners of
the numerous projecting portions of the building. I set my burden on the house
steps by the kitchen door, and lingered to rest, and drew in a few more breaths
of the soft, sweet air; my eyes were on the moon, and my back to the entrance,
when I heard a voice behind me say- "Nelly, is that you?"
It was a deep voice, and foreign in tone;
yet there was something in the manner of pronouncing my name which made it
sound familiar. I turned about to discover who spoke, fearfully; for the doors
were shut, and I had seen nobody on approaching the steps. Something stirred in
the porch; and, moving nearer, I distinguished a tall man dressed in dark
clothes, with dark face and hair. He leant against the side, and held his
fingers on the latch as if intending to open for himself. "Who can it
be?" I thought. "Mr. Earnshaw? Oh, no! The voice has no
resemblance."
"I have waited here an hour," he
resumed, while I continued staring; "and the whole of that time all round
has been as still as death. I dared not enter. You do not know me? Look, I'm
not a stranger!"
A ray fell on his features; the cheeks were
sallow, and half covered with black whiskers; the brows lowering, the eyes deep
set and singular. I remembered the eyes.
"What!" I cried, uncertain
whether to regard him as a worldly visitor, and I raised my hands in amazement.
"What! you come back? Is it really you? Is it?"
"Yes, Heathcliff," he replied,
glancing from me up to the windows, which reflected a score of glittering
moons, but showed no lights from within. "Are they at home? where is she?
Nelly, you are not glad! you needn't be so disturbed. Is she here? Speak! I
want to have one word with your mistress. Go, and say some person from
Gimmerton desires to see her."
"How will she take it?" I
exclaimed. "What will she do? The surprise bewilders me- it will put her
out of her head! And you are Heathcliff! But altered! Nay, there's no
comprehending it. Have you been for a soldier?"
"Go and carry my message," he
interrupted impatiently. "I'm in hell till you do!"
He lifted the latch, and I entered; but
when I got to the parlour where Mr. and Mrs. Linton were, I could not persuade
myself to proceed. At length, I resolved on making an excuse to ask if they
would have the candles lighted, and I opened the door.
They sat together in a window whose lattice
lay back against the wall, and displayed, beyond the garden trees and the wild
green park, the valley of Gimmerton, with a long line of mist winding nearly to
its top (for very soon after you pass the chapel, as you may have noticed, the
sough that runs from the marshes joins a beck which follows the bend of the
glen). Wuthering Heights rose above this silvery vapour; but our old house was
invisible; it rather dips down on the other side. Both the room and its
occupants, and the scene they gazed on, looked wondrously peaceful. I shrank
reluctantly from performing my errand; and was actually going away leaving it
unsaid, after having put my question about the candles, when a sense of my
folly compelled me to return, and mutter- "A person from Gimmerton wishes
to see you, ma'am."
"What does he want?" asked Mrs.
Linton.
"I did not question him," I
answered.
"Well, close the curtains,
Nelly," she said; "and bring up tea. I'll be back again directly."
She quitted the apartment; Mr. Edgar
enquired, carelessly, who it was.
"Some one mistress does not
expect," I replied. "That Heathcliff- you recollect him, sir,- who
used to live at Mr. Earnshaw's."
"What! the gypsy- the ploughboy?"
he cried. "Why did you not say so to Catherine?"
"Hush! you must not call him by those
names, master," I said. "She'd be sadly grieved to hear you. She was
nearly heartbroken when he ran off. I guess his return will make a jubilee to
her."
Mr. Linton walked to a window on the other
side of the room that overlooked the court. He unfastened it and leant out. I
suppose they were below, for he exclaimed quickly- "Don't stand there,
love! Bring the person in, if it be any one particular." Ere long I heard
the click of the latch, and Catherine flew upstairs, breathless and wild; too
excited to show gladness: indeed, by her face, you would rather have surmised
an awful calamity.
"Oh, Edgar, Edgar!" she panted,
flinging her arms round his neck. "Oh, Edgar, darling! Heathcliff's come
back- he is!" And she tightened her embrace to a squeeze.
"Well, well," cried her husband
crossly, "don't strangle me for that! He never struck me as such a
marvellous treasure. There is no need to be frantic!"
"I know you didn't like him," she
answered, repressing a little the intensity of her delight. "Yet, for my
sake, you must be friends now. Shall I tell him to come up?"
"Here?" he said, "into the
parlour?"
"Where else?" she asked.
He looked vexed, and suggested the kitchen
as a more suitable place for him. Mrs. Linton eyed him with a droll expression-
half angry, half laughing at his fastidiousness.
"No," she added after a while;
"I cannot sit in the kitchen. Set two tables here, Ellen: one for your
master and Miss Isabella, being gentry; the other for Heathcliff and myself,
being of the lower orders. Will that please you, dear? Or must I have a fire
lighted elsewhere? If so, give directions. I'll run down and secure my guest.
I'm afraid the joy is too great to be real!"
She was about to dart off again; but Edgar
arrested her.
"You bid him step up," he said,
addressing me; "and Catherine, try to be glad, without being absurd! the
whole household need not witness the sight of your welcoming a runaway servant
as a brother."
I descended and found Heathcliff waiting
under the porch, evidently anticipating an invitation to enter. He followed my
guidance without waste of words, and I ushered him into the presence of the
master and mistress, whose flushed cheeks betrayed signs of warm talking. But the
lady's glowed with another feeling when her friend appeared at the door: she
sprang forward, took both his hands, and led him to Linton; and then she seized
Linton's reluctant fingers and crushed them into his. Now fully revealed by the
fire and candlelight, I was amazed more than ever, to behold the transformation
of Heathcliff. He had grown a tall, athletic, well-formed man; beside whom, my
master seemed quite slender and youthlike. His upright carriage suggested the
idea of his having been in the army. His countenance was much older in
expression and decision of feature than Mr. Linton's; it looked intelligent,
and retained no marks of former degradation. A half-civilised ferocity lurked
yet in the depressed brows and eyes full of black fire, but it was subdued; and
his manner was even dignified: quite divested of roughness, though too stern
for grace. My master's surprise equalled or exceeded mine: he remained for a
minute at a loss how to address the ploughboy, as he had called him. Heathcliff
dropped his slight hand, and stood looking at him coolly till he chose to
speak.
"Sit down, sir," he said, at
length. "Mrs. Linton, recalling old times, would have me give you a
cordial reception; and, of course, I am gratified when anything occurs to
please her."
"And I also," answered
Heathcliff, "especially if it be anything in which I have a part. I shall
stay an hour or two willingly."
He took a seat opposite Catherine, who kept
her gaze fixed on him as if she feared he would vanish were she to remove it. He
did not raise his to her often: a quick glance now and then sufficed; but it
flashed back, each time more confidently, the undisguised delight he drank from
hers. They were too much absorbed in their mutual joy to suffer embarrassment.
Not so Mr. Edgar: he grew pale with pure annoyance: a feeling that reached its
climax when his lady rose, and stepping across the rug, seized Heathcliff's
hands again, and laughed like one beside herself.
"I shall think it a dream
to-morrow!" she cried. "I shall not be able to believe that I have
seen, and touched and spoken to you once more. And yet, cruel Heathcliff! you
don't deserve this welcome. To be absent and silent for three years, and never
to think of me!"
"A little more than you have thought
of me," he murmured. "I heard of your marriage, Cathy, not long
since; and, while waiting in the yard below, I meditated this plan:- just to
have one glimpse of your face, a stare of surprise, perhaps, and pretended
pleasure; afterwards settle my score with Hindley; and then prevent the law by
doing execution on myself. Your welcome has put these ideas out of my mind; but
beware of meeting me with another aspect next time! Nay, you'll not drive me
off again. You were really sorry for me, were you? Well, there was cause. I've fought
through a bitter life since I last heard your voice and you must forgive me for
I struggled only for you!"
"Catherine, unless we are to have cold
tea, please to come to the table," interrupted Linton, striving to
preserve his ordinary tone, and a due measure of politeness. "Mr.
Heathcliff will have a long walk, wherever he may lodge to-night; and I'm
thirsty."
She took her post before the urn; and Miss
Isabella came, summoned by the bell; then, having handed their chairs forward,
I left the room. The meal hardly endured ten minutes. Catherine's cup was never
filled: she could neither eat nor drink. Edgar had made a slop in his saucer,
and scarcely swallowed a mouthful. The guest did not protract his stay that
evening above an hour longer. I asked, as he departed, if he went to Gimmerton?
"No, to Wuthering Heights," he
answered: "Mr. Earnshaw invited me, when I called this morning."
Mr. Earnshaw invited him! and he called on
Mr. Earnshaw! I pondered this sentence painfully, after he was gone. Is he turning
out a bit of hypocrite, and coming into the country to work mischief under a
cloak? I mused: I had a presentiment in the bottom of my heart that he had
better have remained away.
About the middle of the night, I was
awakened from my first nap by Mrs. Linton gliding into my chamber, taking a
seat on my bedside, and pulling me by the hair to rouse me.
"I cannot rest, Ellen," she said,
by way of apology. "And I want some living creature to keep me company in
my happiness! Edgar is sulky, because I'm glad of a thing that does not
interest him: he refuses to open his mouth, except to utter pettish, silly
speeches; and he affirmed I was cruel and selfish for wishing to talk when he
was so sick and sleepy. He always contrives to be sick at the least cross! I
gave a few sentences of commendation to Heathcliff, and he, either for a
headache or a pang of envy, began to cry: so I got up and left him."
"What use is it praising Heathcliff to
him?" I answered. "As lads they had an aversion to each other, and
Heathcliff would hate just as much to hear him praised: it's human nature. Let
Mr. Linton alone about him, unless you would like an open quarrel between
them."
"But does it not show great
weakness?" pursued she. "I'm not envious: I never feel hurt at the
brightness of Isabella's yellow hair and the whiteness of her skin, at her
dainty elegance, and the fondness all the family exhibit for her. Even you,
Nelly, if we have a dispute sometimes, you back Isabella at once; and I yield
like a foolish mother: I call her a darling, and flatter her into a good
temper. It pleases her brother to see us cordial, and that pleases me. But they
are very much alike: they are spoiled children, and fancy the world was made
for their accommodation; and though I humour both, I think a smart chastisement
might improve them, all the same."
"You're mistaken, Mrs. Linton,"
said I. "They humour you: I know what there would be to do if they did
not. You can well afford to indulge their passing whims as long as their
business is to anticipate all your desires. You may, however, fall out, at
last, over something of equal consequence to both sides; and then those you
term weak are very capable of being as obstinate as you."
"And then we shall fight to the death,
shan't we, Nelly?" she returned, laughing. "No! I tell you, I have
such faith in Linton's love, that I believe I might kill him, and he wouldn't
wish to retaliate."
I advised her to value him the more for his
affection.
"I do," she answered, "but
he needn't resort to whining for trifles. It is childish; and, instead of
melting into tears because I said that Heathcliff was now worthy of any one's
regard, and it would honour the first gentleman in the county to be his friend,
he ought to have said it for me, and been delighted from sympathy. He must get
accustomed to him, and he may as well like him: considering how Heathcliff has
reason to object to him, I'm sure he behaved excellently!"
"What do you think of his going to
Wuthering Heights?" I enquired. "He is reforming in every respect,
apparently: quite a Christian: offering the right hand of fellowship to his
enemies all around!"
"He explained it," she replied.
"I wonder as much as you. He said he called to gather information
concerning me from you, supposing you resided there still; and Joseph told
Hindley, who came out and fell to questioning him of what he had been doing,
and how he had been living; and finally, desired him to walk in. There were
some persons sitting at cards; Heathcliff joined them; my brother lost some
money to him, and, finding him plentifully supplied, he requested that he would
come again in the evening: to which he consented. Hindley is too reckless to
select his acquaintance prudently: he doesn't trouble himself to reflect on the
causes he might have for mistrusting one whom he has basely injured. But
Heathcliff affirms his principal reason for resuming a connection with his
ancient persecutor is a wish to install himself in quarters at walking distance
from the Grange, and an attachment to the house where we lived together; and
likewise a hope that I shall have more opportunities of seeing him there than I
could have if he settled in Gimmerton. He means to offer liberal payment for
permission to lodge at the Heights; and doubtless my brother's covetousness
will prompt him to accept the terms: he was always greedy; though what he
grasps with one hand he flings away with the other."
"It's a nice place for a young man to
fix his dwelling in!" said I. "Have you no fear of the consequences,
Mrs. Linton?"
"None for my friend," she
replied: "his strong head will keep him from danger; a little for Hindley:
but he can't be made morally worse than he is; and I stand between him and
bodily harm. The event of this evening has reconciled me to God and humanity! I
had risen in angry rebellion against providence. Oh, I've endured very, very
bitter misery, Nelly! If that creature knew how bitter, he'd be ashamed to
cloud its removal with idle petulance. It was kindness for him which induced me
to bear it alone: had I expressed the agony I frequently felt, he would have
been taught to long for its alleviation as ardently as I. However, it's over,
and I'll take no revenge on his folly; I can afford to suffer anything
hereafter! Should the meanest thing alive slap me on the cheek, I'd not only
turn the other, but, I'd ask pardon for provoking it; and, as a proof, I'll go
make my peace with Edgar instantly. Good-night! I'm an angel!"
In this self-complacent conviction she
departed; and the success of her fulfilled resolution was obvious on the
morrow: Mr. Linton had not only abjured his peevishness (though his spirits
seemed still subdued by Catherine's exuberance of vivacity), but he ventured no
objection to her taking Isabella with her to Wuthering Heights in the
afternoon; and she rewarded him with such a summer of sweetness and affection
in return, as made the house a paradise for several days; both master and
servants profiting from the perpetual sunshine.
Heathcliff- Mr. Heathcliff I should say in
future- used the liberty of visiting at Thrushcross Grange cautiously, at
first: he seemed estimating how far its owner would bear his intrusion.
Catherine, also, deemed it judicious to moderate her expressions of pleasure in
receiving him; and he gradually established his right to be expected. He
retained a great deal of the reserve for which his boyhood was remarkable; and
that served to repress all startling demonstrations of feeling. My master's
uneasiness experienced a lull, and further circumstances diverted it into
another channel for a space.
His new source of trouble sprang from the
not-anticipated misfortune of Isabella Linton evincing a sudden and
irresistible attraction towards the tolerated guest. She was at that time a
charming young lady of eighteen; infantile in manners, though possessed of keen
wit, keen feelings, and a keen temper, too, if irritated. Her brother, who
loved her tenderly, was appalled at this fantastic preference. Leaving aside
the degradation of an alliance with a nameless man, and the possible fact that
his property, in default of heirs male, might pass into such a one's power, he
had sense to comprehend Heathcliff's disposition: to know that, though his
exterior was altered, his mind was unchangeable and unchanged. And he dreaded
that mind: it revolted him: he shrank forebodingly from the idea of committing
Isabella to his keeping. He would have recoiled still more had he been aware
that her attachment rose unsolicited, and was bestowed where it awakened no
reciprocation of sentiment; for the minute he discovered its existence, he laid
the blame on Heathcliff's deliberate designing.
We had all remarked, during some time, that
Miss Linton fretted and pined over something. She grew cross and wearisome;
snapping at and teasing Catherine continually, at the imminent risk of
exhausting her limited patience. We excused her, to a certain extent, on the
plea of ill-health: she was dwindling and fading before our eyes. But one day,
when she had been peculiarly wayward, rejecting her breakfast, complaining that
the servants did not do what she told them; that the mistress would allow her
to be nothing in the house, and Edgar neglected her; that she had caught a cold
with the doors being left open, and we let the parlour fire go out on purpose
to vex her, with a hundred yet more frivolous accusations, Mrs. Linton
peremptorily insisted that she should get to bed; and, having scolded her
heartily, threatened to send for the doctor. Mention of Kenneth caused her to
exclaim, instantly, that her health was perfect, and it was only Catherine's
harshness which made her unhappy.
"How can you say I am harsh, you
naughty fondling?" cried the mistress, amazed at the unreasonable
assertion. "You are surely losing your reason. When have I been harsh,
tell me?"
"Yesterday," sobbed Isabella,
"and now!"
"Yesterday!" said her
sister-in-law. "On what occasion?"
"In our walk along the moor: you told
me to ramble where I pleased, while you sauntered on with Mr. Heathcliff!"
"And that's your notion of
harshness?" said Catherine, laughing. "It was no hint that your
company was superfluous: we didn't care whether you kept with us or not; I
merely thought Heathcliff's talk would have nothing entertaining for your
ears."
"Oh, no," wept the young lady;
"you wished me away, because you knew I liked to be there!"
"Is she sane?" asked Mrs. Linton,
appealing to me. "I'll repeat our conversation, word for word, Isabella;
and you point out any charm it could have had for you."
"I don't mind the conversation,"
she answered: "I wanted to be with-"
"Well!" said Catherine,
perceiving her hesitate to complete the sentence.
"With him: and I won't be always sent
off!" she continued, kindling up. "You are a dog in the manger,
Cathy, and desire no one to be loved but yourself!"
"You are an impertinent little
monkey!" exclaimed Mrs. Linton, in surprise. "But I'll not believe
this idiocy! It is impossible that you can covet the admiration of Heathcliff-
that you consider him an agreeable person! I hope I have misunderstood you,
Isabella?"
"No, you have not," said the
infatuated girl. "I love him more than ever you loved Edgar; and he might
love me, if you would let him!"
"I wouldn't be you for a kingdom,
then!" Catherine declared emphatically: and she seemed to speak sincerely.
"Nelly, help me to convince her of her madness. Tell her what Heathcliff
is: an unreclaimed creature, without refinement, without cultivation: an arid
wilderness of furze and whinstone. I'd as soon put that little canary into the
park on a winter's day, as recommend you to bestow your heart on him! It is
deplorable ignorance of his character, child, and nothing else, which makes
that dream enter your head. Pray, don't imagine that he conceals depths of
benevolence and affection beneath a stern exterior! He's not a rough diamond- a
pearl-containing oyster of a rustic: he's a fierce, pitiless, wolfish man. I
never say to him, 'Let this or that enemy alone, because it would be ungenerous
or cruel to harm them'; I say, 'Let them alone, because I should hate them to
be wronged': and he'd crush you like a sparrow's egg, Isabella, if he found you
a troublesome charge. I know he couldn't love a Linton; and yet he'd be quite
capable of marrying your fortune and expectations! Avarice is growing with him
a besetting sin. There's my picture: and I'm his friend- so much so, that had
he thought seriously to catch you, I should, perhaps, have held my tongue, and
let you fall into his trap."
Miss Linton regarded her sister-in-law with
indignation.
"For shame! for shame!" she
repeated angrily, "you are worse than twenty foes, you poisonous
friend!"
"Ah, you won't believe me, then?"
said Catherine. "You think I speak from wicked selfishness?"
"I'm certain you do," retorted
Isabella; "and I shudder at you!"
"Good!" cried the other.
"Try for yourself if that be your spirit: I have done, and yield the
argument to your saucy insolence."
"And I must suffer for her
egotism!" she sobbed, as Mrs. Linton left the room. "All, all is
against me; she has blighted my single consolation. But she uttered falsehoods,
didn't she? Mr. Heathcliff is not a fiend: he has an honourable soul, and a
true one, or how could he remember her?"
"Banish him from your thoughts,
miss," I said. "He's a bird of bad omen: no mate for you. Mrs. Linton
spoke strongly, and yet I can't contradict her. She is better acquainted with
his heart than I, or any one besides; and she would never represent him as
worse than he is. Honest people don't hide their deeds. How has he been living?
how has he got rich? why is he staying at Wuthering Heights, the house of a man
whom he abhors? They say Mr. Earnshaw is worse and worse since he came. They
sit up all night together continually, and Hindley has been borrowing money on
his land, and does nothing but play and drink: I heard only a week ago- it was
Joseph who told me- I met him at Gimmerton: 'Nelly,' he said, 'we's hae a
crowner's 'quest enow, at ahr folks. One on 'em's a'most getten his fingers cut
off wi' hauding t'others fro' stickin hisseln loike a cawlf. That's maister,
yah knaw, 'at's soa up o' going tuh t' grand sizes. He's noan feared o' t'
bench o' judges, norther Paul, nur Peter, nur John, nur Matthew, nor noan on
'em, not he! He fair likes- he langs to set his brazened face agean 'em! And
yon bonny lad Heathcliff, yah mind, he's a rare'un! He can girn a laugh as
well's onybody at a raight divil's jest. Does he niver say nowt of his fine
living amang us, when he goes to t' Grange? This is t' way on't:- up at
sundown: dice, brandy, cloised shutters, und can'le-light till next day at noon:
then, t' fooil gangs banning un raving to his cham'er, makking dacent fowks dig
thur fingers i' thur lugs fur varry shame; un' the knave, why he can caint his
brass, un ate, un sleep, un off to his neighbour's to gossip wi' t' wife. I'
course, he tells Dame Catherine how her fathur's goold runs into his pocket,
and her father's son gallops down t' broad road, while he flees afore to oppen
t' pikes?' Now, Miss Linton, Joseph is an old rascal, but no liar; and, if his
account of Heathcliff's conduct be true, you would never think of desiring such
a husband, would you?"
"You are leagued with the rest,
Ellen!" she replied. "I'll not listen to your slanders. What
malevolence you must have to wish to convince me that there is no happiness in
the world!"
Whether she would have got over this fancy
if left to herself, or persevered in nursing it perpetually, I cannot say: she
had little time to reflect. The day after, there was a justice-meeting at the
next town; my master was obliged to attend; and Mr. Heathcliff, aware of his
absence, called rather earlier than usual. Catherine and Isabella were sitting
in the library, on hostile terms, but silent. The latter alarmed at her recent
indiscretion, and the disclosure she had made of her secret feelings in a transient
fit of passion; the former, on mature consideration, really offended with her
companion; and, if she laughed again at her pertness, inclined to make it no
laughing matter to her. She did laugh as she saw Heathcliff pass the window. I
was sweeping the hearth, and I noticed a mischievous smile on her lips.
Isabella, absorbed in her meditations, or a book, remained till the door
opened; and it was too late to attempt an escape, which she would gladly have
done had it been practicable.
"Come in, that's right!"
exclaimed the mistress gaily, pulling a chair to the fire. "Here are two
people sadly in need of a third to thaw the ice between them; and you are the
very one we should both of us choose. Heathcliff, I'm proud to show you, at
last, somebody that dotes on you more than myself. I expect you to feel
flattered. Nay, it's not Nelly; don't look at her! My poor little sister-in-law
is breaking her heart by mere contemplation of your physical and moral beauty.
It lies in your own power to be Edgar's brother! No, no, Isabella, you shan't
run off," she continued, arresting, with feigned playfulness, the
confounded girl, who had risen indignantly. "We were quarrelling like cats
about you, Heathcliff; and I was fairly beaten in protestations of devotion and
admiration: and moreover, I was informed that if I would but have the manners
to stand aside, my rival, as she will have herself to be, would shoot a shaft
into your soul that would fix you for ever, and send my image into eternal
oblivion!"
"Catherine!" said Isabella,
calling up her dignity, and disdaining to struggle from the tight grasp that
held her. "I'd thank you to adhere to the truth and not slander me, even
in joke! Mr. Heathcliff, be kind enough to bid this friend of yours release me:
she forgets that you and I are not intimate acquaintances; and what amuses her
is painful to me beyond expression."
As the guest answered nothing, but took his
seat, and looked thoroughly indifferent what sentiments she cherished
concerning him, she turned and whispered an earnest appeal for liberty to her
tormentor.
"By no means!" cried Mrs. Linton
in answer. "I won't be named a dog in the manger again. You shall stay:
now then! Heathcliff, why don't you evince satisfaction at my pleasant news?
Isabella swears that the love Edgar has for me is nothing to that she
entertains for you. I'm sure she made some speech of the kind; did she not,
Ellen? And she has fasted ever since the day before yesterday's walk, from
sorrow and rage that I despatched her out of your society under the idea of its
being unacceptable."
"I think you belie her," said
Heathcliff, twisting his chair to face them. "She wishes to be out of my
society now, at any rate!"
And he stared hard at the object of
discourse, as one might do at a strange repulsive animal: a centipede from the
Indies, for instance, which curiosity leads one to examine in spite of the
aversion it raises. The poor thing couldn't bear that: she grew white and red
in rapid succession, and, while tears beaded her lashes, bent the strength of
her small fingers to loosen the firm clutch of Catherine; and perceiving that
as fast as she raised one finger off her arm another closed down, and she could
not remove the whole together, she began to make use of her nails; and their
sharpness presently ornamented the detainer's with crescents of red.
"There's a tigress!" exclaimed
Mrs. Linton, setting her free, and shaking her hand with pain. "Begone,
for God's sake, and hide your vixen face! How foolish to reveal those talons to
him. Can't you fancy the conclusions he'll draw? Look, Heathcliff! they are
instruments that will do execution- you must beware of your eyes."
"I'd wrench them off her fingers, if
they ever menaced me," he answered brutally, when the door had closed
after her. "But what did you mean by teasing the creature in that manner,
Cathy? You were not speaking the truth, were you?"
"I assure you I was," she
returned. "She has been dying for your sake several weeks; and raving
about you this morning, and pouring forth a deluge of abuse, because I
represented your failings in a plain light, for the purpose of mitigating her
adoration. But don't notice it further: I wished to punish her sauciness,
that's all. I like her too well, my dear Heathcliff, to let you absolutely
seize and devour her up."
"And I like her too ill to attempt
it," said he, "except in a very ghoulish fashion. You'd hear of odd
things if I lived alone with that mawkish, waxen face: the most ordinary would
be painting on its white the colours of the rainbow, and turning the blue eyes
black, every day or two: they detestably resemble Linton's."
"Delectably!" observed Catherine.
"They are dove's eyes- angel's!"
"She's her brother's heir, is she
not?" he asked, after a brief silence.
"I should be sorry to think so,"
returned his companion. "Half-a-dozen nephews shall erase her title,
please Heaven! Abstract your mind from the subject at present: you are too
prone to covet your neighbour's goods; remember this neighbour's goods are
mine."
"If they were mine, they would be none
the less that," said Heathcliff; "but though Isabella Linton may be
silly, she is scarcely mad; and, in short, we'll dismiss the matter, as you
advise."
From their tongues they did dismiss it; and
Catherine, probably, from her thoughts. The other, I felt certain, recalled it
often in the course of the evening. I saw him smile to himself- grin rather-
and lapse into ominous musing whenever Mrs. Linton had occasion to be absent
from the apartment.
I determined to watch his movements. My
heart invariably cleaved to the master's, in preference to Catherine's side:
with reason I imagined, for he was kind, and trustful, and honourable; and she-
she could not be called the opposite, yet she seemed to allow herself such wide
latitude, that I had little faith in her principles, and still less sympathy
for her feelings. I wanted something to happen which might have the effect of
freeing both Wuthering Heights and the Grange of Mr. Heathcliff, leaving us as
we had been prior to his advent. His visits were a continual nightmare to me;
and, I suspected, to my master also. His abode at the Heights was an oppression
past explaining. I felt that God had forsaken the stray sheep there to its own
wicked wanderings, and an evil beast prowled between it and the fold, waiting
his time to spring and destroy.
Chapter 11 -
SOMETIMES, while meditating on these things
in solitude, I've got up in a sudden terror, and put on my bonnet to go see how
all was at the farm. I've persuaded my conscience that it was a duty to warn
him how people talked regarding his ways; and then I've recollected his
confirmed bad habits, and, hopeless of benefiting him, have flinched from
re-entering the dismal house, doubting if I could bear to be taken at my word.
One time I passed the old gate, going out
of my way, on a journey to Gimmerton. It was about the period that my narrative
has reached: a bright frosty afternoon; the ground bare, and the road hard and
dry. I came to a stone where the highway branches off on to the moor at your
left hand; a rough sand-pillar, with the letters W H. cut on its north side, on
the east, G., and on the south-west, T. G. It serves as a guide post to the
Grange, the Heights, and village. The sun shone yellow on its grey head,
reminding me of summer; and I cannot say why, but all at once, a gush of
child's sensations flowed into my heart. Hindley and I held it a favourite spot
twenty years before. I gazed long at the weather-worn block, and, stooping
down, perceived a hole near the bottom still full of snail-shells and pebbles,
which we were fond of storing there with more perishable things; and, as fresh
as reality, it appeared that I beheld my early playmate seated on the withered
turf: his dark, square head bent forward, and his little hand scooping out the
earth with a piece of slate. "Poor Hindley!" I exclaimed
involuntarily. I started: my bodily eye was cheated into a momentary belief
that the child lifted its face and stared straight into mine! It vanished in a
twinkling; but immediately I felt an irresistible yearning to be at the
Heights. Superstition urged me to comply with this impulse: supposing he should
be dead! I thought- or should die soon!- supposing it were a sign of death! The
nearer I got to the house the more agitated I grew; and on catching sight of it
I trembled in every limb. The apparition had outstripped me: it stood looking
through the gate. That was my first idea on observing an elf-locked, brown-eyed
boy setting his ruddy countenance against the bars. Further reflection
suggested this must be Hareton, my Hareton, not altered greatly since I left
him, ten months since.
"God bless thee, darling!" I
cried, forgetting instantaneously my foolish fears. "Hareton, it's Nelly!
Nelly, thy nurse."
He retreated out of arm's length, and
picked up a large flint.
"I am come to see thy father,
Hareton," I added guessing from the action that Nelly, if she lived in his
memory at all, was not recognized as one with me.
He raised his missile to hurl it; I
commenced a soothing speech, but could not stay his hand: the stone struck my
bonnet; and then ensued, from the stammering lips of the little fellow, a
string of curses, which, whether he comprehended them or not, were delivered
with practised emphasis, and distorted his baby features into a shocking expression
of malignity. You may be certain this grieved more than angered me. Fit to cry,
I took an orange from my pocket, and offered it to propitiate him. He
hesitated, and then snatched it from my hold; as if he fancied I only intended
to tempt and disappoint him. I showed him another, keeping it out of his reach.
"Who has taught you those fine words,
my bairn?" I enquired. "The curate?"
"Damn the curate, and thee! Gie me
that," he replied.
"Tell us where you got your lessons,
and you shall have it," said I. "Who's your master?"
"Devil daddy," was his answer.
"And what do you learn from
daddy?" I continued.
He jumped at the fruit; I raised it higher.
"What does he teach you?" I asked.
"Naught," said he, "but to
keep out of his gait. Daddy cannot bide me, because I swear at him."
"Ah! and the devil teaches you to
swear at daddy?" I observed.
"Ah- nay," he drawled.
"Who then?"
"Heathcliff."
I asked if he liked Mr. Heathcliff.
"Ay!" he answered again.
Desiring to have his reasons for liking
him, I could only gather the sentences- "I known't: he pays dad back what
he gies to me- he curses daddy for cursing me. He says I mun do as I
will."
"And the curate does not teach you to
read and write then?" I pursued.
"No, I was told the curate should have
his- teeth dashed down his- throat, if he stepped over the threshold-
Heathcliff had promised that!"
I put the orange in his hand, and bade him
tell his father that a woman called Nelly Dean was waiting to speak with him,
by the garden gate. He went up the walk, and entered the house; but, instead of
Hindley, Heathcliff appeared on the door stones; and I turned directly and ran
down the road as hard as ever I could race, making no halt till I gained the
guide-post, and feeling as scared as if I had raised a goblin. This is not much
connected with Miss Isabella's affair: except that it urged me to resolve
further on mounting vigilant guard, and doing my utmost to check the spread of
such bad influence at the Grange: even though I should wake a domestic storm, by
thwarting Mrs. Linton's pleasure.
The next time Heathcliff came, my young
lady chanced to be feeding some pigeons in the court. She had never spoken a
word to her sister-in-law for three days; but she had likewise dropped her
fretful complaining, and we found it a great comfort. Heathcliff had not the
habit of bestowing a single unnecessary civility on Miss Linton, I knew. Now,
as soon as he beheld her, his first precaution was to take a sweeping survey of
the house-front. I was standing by the kitchen window, but I drew out of sight.
He then stepped across the pavement to her, and said something: she seemed
embarrassed, and desirous of getting away; to prevent it, he laid his hand on
her arm. She averted her face: he apparently put some question which she had no
mind to answer. There was another rapid glance at the house, and supposing
himself unseen, the scoundrel had the impudence to embrace her.
"Judas! traitor!" I ejaculated.
"You are a hypocrite, too, are you? A deliberate deceiver."
"Who is, Nelly?" said Catherine's
voice at my elbow: I had been over intent on watching the pair outside to mark
her entrance.
"Your worthless friend!" I
answered warmly: "the sneaking rascal yonder. Ah, he has caught a glimpse
of us- he is coming in! I wonder will he have the heart to find a plausible
excuse for making love to Miss, when he told you he hated her?"
Mrs. Linton saw Isabella tear herself free,
and run into the garden; and a minute after, Heathcliff opened the door. I
couldn't withhold giving some loose to my indignation; but Catherine angrily
insisted on silence, and threatened to order me out of the kitchen, if I dared
to be so presumptuous as to put in my insolent tongue.
"To hear you, people might think you
were the mistress!" she cried. "You want setting down in your right
place! Heathcliff, what are you about, raising this stir? I said you must let
Isabella alone!- I beg you will, unless you are tired of being received here,
and wish Linton to draw the bolts against you!"
"God forbid that he should try!"
answered the black villian. I detested him just then. "God keep him meek
and patient! Every day I grow madder after sending him to heaven!"
"Hush!" said Catherine, shutting
the inner door. "Don't vex me. Why have you disregarded my request? Did
she come across you on purpose?"
"What is it to you?" he growled.
"I have a right to kiss her, if she chooses; and you have no right to
object. I am not your husband; you needn't be jealous of me!"
"I'm not jealous of you," replied
the mistress, "I'm jealous for you. Clear your face: you shan't scowl at
me! If you like Isabella, you shall marry her. But do you like her? Tell the
truth, Heathcliff! There, you won't answer. I'm certain you don't!"
"And would Mr. Linton approve of his
sister marrying that man?" I enquired.
"Mr. Linton should approve,"
returned my lady, decisively.
"He might spare himself the
trouble," said Heathcliff "I could do as well without his
approbation. And as to you, Catherine, I have a mind to speak a few words now,
while we are at it. I want you to be aware that I know you have treated me
infernally- infernally! Do you hear? And if you flatter yourself that I don't
perceive it, you are a fool; and if you think I can be consoled by sweet words,
you are an idiot; and if you fancy I'll suffer unrevenged, I'll convince you of
the contrary, in a very little while! Meantime, thank you for telling me your
sister-in-law's secret: I swear I'll make the most of it. And stand you
aside!"
"What new phase of his character is
this?" exclaimed Mrs. Linton, in amazement. "I've treated you
infernally- and you'll take your revenge! How will you take it, ungrateful
brute? How have I treated you infernally?"
"I seek no revenge on you,"
replied Heathcliff less vehemently. "That's not the plan. The tyrant grinds
down his slaves and they don't turn against him; they crush those beneath them.
You are welcome to torture me to death for your amusement, only allow me to
amuse myself a little in the same style, and refrain from insult as much as you
are able. Having levelled my palace, don't erect a hovel and complacently
admire your own charity in giving me that for a home. If I imagined you really
wished me to marry Isabel, I'd cut my throat!"
"Oh, the evil is that I am not
jealous, is it?" cried Catherine. "Well, I won't repeat my offer of a
wife: it is as bad as offering Satan a lost soul. Your bliss lies, like his, in
inflicting misery. You prove it. Edgar is restored from the ill-temper he gave
way to at your coming; I begin to be secure and tranquil; and you, restless to
know us at peace, appear resolved on exciting a quarrel. Quarrel with Edgar, if
you please, Heathcliff, and deceive his sister: you'll hit on exactly the most
efficient method of revenging yourself on me."
The conversation ceased. Mrs. Linton sat
down by the fire, flushed and gloomy. The spirit which served her was growing
intractable: she could neither lay nor control it. He stood on the hearth with
folded arms, brooding on his evil thoughts; and in this position I left them to
seek the master, who was wondering what kept Catherine below so long.
"Ellen," said he, when I entered,
"have you seen your mistress?"
"Yes; she's in the kitchen, sir,"
I answered. "She's sadly put out by Mr. Heathcliff's behaviour: and,
indeed, I do think it's time to arrange his visits on another footing. There's
harm in being too soft, and now it's come to this." I related the scene in
the court, and, as near as I dared, the whole subsequent dispute. I fancied it
could not be very prejudicial to Mrs. Linton; unless she made it so afterwards,
by assuming the defensive for her guest. Edgar Linton had difficulty in hearing
me to the close. His first words revealed that he did not clear his wife of
blame.
"This is unsufferable!" he
exclaimed. "It is disgraceful that she should own him for a friend, and
force his company on me! Call me two men out of the hall, Ellen. Catherine
shall linger no longer to argue with the low ruffian- I have humoured her
enough."
He descended, and bidding the servants wait
in the passage, went, followed by me, to the kitchen. Its occupants had
recommended their angry discussion: Mrs. Linton, at least, was scolding with
renewed vigour; Heathcliff had moved to the window, and hung his head, somewhat
cowed by her violent rating apparently. He saw the master first, and made a
hasty motion that she should be silent; which she obeyed, abruptly, on
discovering the reason of his intimation.
"How is this?" said Linton,
addressing her; "what notion of propriety must you have to remain here,
after the language which has been held to you by that blackguard? I suppose,
because it is his ordinary talk, you think nothing of it; you are habituated to
his baseness, and, perhaps, imagine I can get used to it too!"
"Have you been listening at the door,
Edgar?" asked the mistress, in a tone particularly calculated to provoke
her husband, implying both carelessness and contempt of his irritation.
Heathcliff, who had raised his eyes at the former speech, gave a sneering laugh
at the latter; on purpose, it seemed, to draw Mr. Linton's attention to him. He
succeeded; but Edgar did not mean to entertain him with any high flights of
passion.
"I have been so far forbearing with
you, sir," he said quietly; "not that I was ignorant of your
miserable, degraded character, but I felt you were only partly responsible for
that; and Catherine wishing to keep up your acquaintance, I acquiesced-
foolishly. Your presence is a moral poison that would contaminate the most
virtuous: for that cause, and to prevent worse consequences, I shall deny you
hereafter admission into this house, and give notice now that I require your
instant departure. Three minutes' delay will render it involuntary and
ignominious."
Heathcliff measured the height and breadth
of the speaker with an eye full of derision.
"Cathy, this lamb of yours threatens
like a bull!" he said. "It is in danger of splitting its skull
against my knuckles. By God! Mr. Linton, I'm mortally sorry that you are not
worth knocking down!"
My master glanced towards the passage, and signed
me to fetch the men: he had no intention of hazarding a personal encounter. I
obeyed the hint; but Mrs. Linton, suspecting something, followed; and when I
attempted to call them, she pulled me back, slammed the door to, and locked it.
"Fair means!" she said, in answer
to her husband's look of angry surprise. "If you have not courage to
attack him, make an apology, or allow yourself to be beaten. It will correct
you of feigning more valour than you possess. No, I'll swallow the key before
you shall get it! I'm delightfully rewarded for my kindness to each! After
constant indulgence of one's weak nature, and the other's bad one, I earn for
thanks two samples of blind ingratitude, stupid to absurdity! Edgar, I was
defending you and yours; and I wish Heathcliff may flog you sick, for daring to
think an evil thought of me!"
It did not need the medium of a flogging to
produce that effect on the master. He tried to wrest the key from Catherine's
grasp, and for safety she flung it into the hottest part of the fire; whereupon
Mr. Edgar was taken with a nervous trembling, and his countenance grew deadly
pale. For his life he could not avert that excess of emotion, mingled anguish
and humiliation overcame him completely. He leant on the back of a chair, and
covered his face.
"Oh, heavens! In old days, this would
win you knighthwood!" exclaimed Mrs. Linton. "We are vanquished! we
are vanquished! Heathcliff would as soon lift a finger at you as a king would
march his army against a colony of mice. Cheer up! you shan't be hurt! Your
type is not a lamb, it's a suckling leveret."
"I wish you joy of the milk-blooded
coward, Cathy!" said her friend. "I compliment you on your taste. And
that is the slavering, shivering thing you preferred to me! I would not strike
him with my fist, but I'd kick him with my foot, and experience considerable
satisfaction. Is he weeping, or is he going to faint for fear?"
The fellow approached and gave the chair on
which Linton rested a push. He'd better have kept his distance; my master quickly
sprang erect, and struck him full on the throat a blow that would have levelled
a slighter man. It took his breath for a minute; and while he choked, Mr.
Linton walked out by the back door into the yard, and from thence to the front
entrance.
"There! you've done with coming
here," cried Catherine. "Get away, now; he'll return with a brace of
pistols, and half-a-dozen assistants. If he did overhear us, of course he'd
never forgive you. You've played him an ill turn, Heathcliff! But go- make
haste! I'd rather see Edgar at bay than you."
"Do you suppose I'm going with that
blow burning in my gullet?" he thundered. "By hell, no! I'll crush
his ribs in like a rotten hazel-nut before I cross the threshold! If I don't
floor him now, I shall murder him sometime; so, as you value his existence, let
me get at him!"
"He's not coming," I interposed,
framing a bit of a lie. "There's the coachman and the two gardeners;
you'll surely not wait to be thrust into the road by them! Each has a bludgeon;
and master will, likely, be watching from the parlour windows, to see that they
fulfill his orders."
The gardeners and coachman were there; but
Linton was with them. They had already entered the court. Heathcliff, on second
thoughts, resolved to avoid a struggle against the three underlings; he seized
the poker, smashed the lock from the inner door, and made his escape as they
tramped in.
Mrs. Linton, was very much excited, bade me
accompany her upstairs. She did not know my share in contributing to the
disturbance, and I was anxious to keep her in ignorance.
"I'm nearly distracted, Nelly!"
she exclaimed, throwing herself on the sofa. "A thousand smiths' hammers
are beating in my head! Tell Isabella to shun me; this uproar is owing to her;
and should she or any one else aggravate my anger at present, I shall get wild.
And, Nelly, say to Edgar, if you see him again to-night, that I'm in danger of
being seriously ill. I wish it may prove true. He has startled and distressed
me shockingly! I want to frighten him. Besides, he might come and begin a
string of abuse or complainings; I'm certain I should recriminate, and God
knows where we should end! Will you do so, my good Nelly? You are aware that I
am in no way blameable in this matter. What possessed him to turn listener? Heathcliff's
talk was outrageous, after you left us; but I could soon have diverted him from
Isabella, and the rest meant nothing. Now all is dashed wrong; by the fool's
craving to hear evil of self, that haunts some people like a demon! Had Edgar
never gathered our conversation, he would never have been the worse for it.
Really, when he opened on me in that unreasonable tone of displeasure after I
had scolded Heathcliff till I was hoarse for him, I did not care, hardly, what
they did to each other; especially as I felt that, however the scene closed, we
should all be driven asunder for nobody knows how long! Well, if I cannot keep
Heathcliff for my friend- if Edgar will be mean and jealous, I'll try to break
their hearts by breaking my own. That will be a prompt way of finishing all,
when I am pushed to extremity! But it's a deed to be reserved for a forlorn
hope; I'd not take Linton by surprise with it. To this point he has been
discreet in dreading to provoke me; you must represent the peril of quitting that
policy, and remind him of my passionate temper, verging, when kindled, on
frenzy. I wish you could dismiss that apathy out of that countenance, and look
rather more anxious about me."
The stolidity with which I received these
instructions was, no doubt, rather exasperating: for they were delivered in
perfect sincerity; but I believed a person who could plan the turning of her
fits of passion to account, beforehand, might, by exerting her will, manage to
control herself tolerably, even while under their influence; and I did not wish
to "frighten" her husband, as she said, and multiply his annoyances
for the purpose of serving her selfishness. Therefore, I said nothing when I
met the master coming towards the parlour; but I took the liberty of turning
back to listen whether they would resume their quarrel together. He began to
speak first.
"Remain where you are,
Catherine," he said; without any anger in his voice, but with much
sorrowful despondency. "I shall not stay. I am neither come to wrangle nor
be reconciled; but I wish just to learn whether, after this evening's events,
you intend to continue your intimacy with-"
"Oh, for mercy's sake,"
interrupted the mistress, stamping her foot, "for mercy's sake, let us
hear no more of it now! Your cold blood cannot be worked into a fever: your
veins are full of ice-water; but mine are boiling, and the sight of such
chillness makes them dance."
"To get rid of me, answer my
question," persevered Mr. Linton. "You must answer it; and that
violence does not alarm me. I have found that you can be as stoical as any one,
when you please. Will you give up Heathcliff hereafter, or will you give up me?
It is impossible for you to be my friend and his at the same time; and I
absolutely require to know which you choose."
"I require to be let alone!"
exclaimed Catherine furiously, "I demand it! Don't you see I can scarcely
stand? Edgar, you- you leave me!"
She rang the bell till it broke with a
twang; I entered leisurely. It was enough to try the temper of a saint, such
senseless, wicked rages! There she lay dashing her head against the arm of the
sofa, and grinding her teeth, so that you might fancy she would crash them to
splinters! Mr. Linton stood looking at her in sudden compunction and fear. He
told me to fetch some water. She had no breath for speaking. I brought a glass
full; and as she would not drink, I sprinkled it on her face. In a few seconds
she stretched herself out stiff, and turned up her eyes, while her cheeks, at
once blanched and livid, assumed the aspect of death, Linton looked terrified.
"There is nothing in the world the
matter," I whispered. I did not want him to yield, though I could not help
being afraid in my heart.
"She has blood on her lips!" he
said, shuddering.
"Never mind!" I answered tartly.
And I told him how she had resolved, previous to his coming, on exhibiting a
fit of frenzy, I incautiously gave the account aloud. and she heard me; for she
started up- her hair flying over her shoulders, her eyes flashing, the muscles
of her neck and arms standing out preternaturally. I made up my mind for broken
bones, at least; but she only glared about her for an instant, and then rushed
from the room. The master directed me to follow; I did, to her chamber door:
she hindered me from going further by securing it against me.
As she never offered to descend to
breakfast next morning, I went to ask whether she would have some carried up.
"No!" she replied peremptorily. The same question was repeated at
dinner and tea; and again on the morrow after, and received the same answer.
Mr. Linton, on his part, spent his time in the library, and did not enquire
concerning his wife's occupations. Isabella and he had had an hour's interview,
during which he tried to elicit from her some sentiment of proper horror for Heathcliff's
advances: but he could make nothing of her evasive replies, and was obliged to
close the examination unsatisfactorily; adding, however, a solemn warning, that
if she were so insane as to encourage that worthless suitor, it would dissolve
all bonds of relationship between herself and him.
Chapter 12 -
WHILE MISS LINTON moped about the park and
garden, always silent, and almost always in tears; and her brother shut himself
up among the books that he never opened- wearying, I guessed, with a continual
vague expectation that Catherine, repenting her conduct, would come of her own
accord to ask pardon, and seek a reconciliation- and she fasted pertinaciously,
under the idea, probably, that at every meal, Edgar was ready to choke for her
absence, and pride alone held him from running to cast himself at her feet: I
went about my household duties, convinced that the Grange had but one sensible
soul in its walls, and that lodged in my body. I wasted no condolences on Miss,
nor any expostulations on my mistress; nor did I pay much attention to the
sighs of my master, who yearned to hear his lady's name, since he might not
hear her voice. I determined they should come about as they pleased for me; and
though it was a tiresomely slow process, I began to rejoice at length in a
faint dawn of its progress: as I thought at first.
Mrs. Linton, on the third day, unbarred her
door, and having finished the water in her pitcher and decanter, desired a
renewed supply, and a basin of gruel, for she believed she was dying. That I
set down as a speech meant for Edgar's ears; I believed no such thing, so I
kept it to myself and brought her some tea and dry toast. She ate and drank
eagerly; and sank back on her pillow again clenching her hands and groaning.
"Oh, I will die," she exclaimed, "since no one cares anything
about me. I wish I had not taken that." Then a good while after I heard
her murmur, "No, I'll not die- he'd be glad- he does not love me at all-
he would never miss me!"
"Did you want anything, ma'am?" I
enquired, still preserving my external composure, in spite of her ghastly
countenance and strange exaggerated manner.
"What is that apathetic being
doing?" she demanded, pushing her thick entangled locks from her wasted
face. "Has he fallen into a lethargy, or is he dead?"
"Neither," replied I; "if
you mean Mr. Linton. He's tolerably well, I think, though his studies occupy
him rather more than they ought: he is continually among his books, since he
has no other society."
I should not have spoken so, if I had known
her true condition, but I could not get rid of the notion that she acted a part
of her disorder.
"Among his books!" she cried,
confounded. "And I dying! I on the brink of the grave! My God! does he
know how I'm altered?" continued she, staring at her reflection in a
mirror hanging against the opposite wall. "Is that Catherine Linton! He
imagines me in a pet- in play, perhaps. Cannot you inform him that it is
frightful earnest? Nelly, if it be not too late, as soon as I learn how he
feels, I'll choose between these two; either to starve at once- that would be
no punishment unless he had a heart- or to recover, and leave the country. Are
you speaking the truth about him now? Take care. Is he actually so utterly
indifferent for my life?"
"Why, ma'am," I answered,
"the master has no idea of your being deranged; and of course he does not
fear that you will let yourself die of hunger."
"You think not? Cannot you tell him I
will?" she returned. "Persuade him! speak of your own mind: say you
are certain I will!"
"No, you forget, Mrs. Linton," I
suggested, "that you have eaten some food with a relish this evening, and
tomorrow you will perceive its good effects."
"If I were only sure it would kill
him," she interrupted. "I'd kill myself directly! These three awful
nights, I've never closed my lids- and oh, I've been tormented! I've been
haunted, Nelly! But I begin to fancy you don't like me. How strange! I thought,
though everybody hated and despised each other, they could not avoid loving me.
And they have all turned to enemies in a few hours: they have, I'm positive;
the people here. How dreary to meet death, surrounded by their cold faces.
Isabella terrified and repelled, afraid to enter the room, it would be so
dreadful to watch Catherine go. And Edgar standing solemnly by to see it over;
then offering prayers of thanks to God for restoring peace to his house, and
going back to his books! What in the name of all that feels has he to do with
books, when I am dying?"
She could not bear the notion which I had
put into her head of Mr. Linton's philosophical resignation. Tossing about, she
increased her feverish bewilderment to madness, and tore the pillow with her
teeth; then raising herself up all burning, desired that I would open the
window. We were in the middle of winter, the wind blew strong from the
north-east, and I objected. Both the expressions flitting over her face, and
the changes of her moods, began to alarm me terribly; and brought to my
recollection her former illness, and the doctor's injunction that she should
not be crossed. A minute previously she was violent; now, supported on one arm,
and not noticing my refusal to obey her, she seemed to find childish diversion
in pulling the feathers from the rents she had just made, and ranging them on the
sheet according to their different species: her mind had strayed to other
associations.
"That's a turkey's," she murmured
to herself; "and this is a wild duck's; and this is a pigeon's. Ah, they
put pigeons' feathers in the pillows- no wonder I couldn't die! Let me take
care to throw it on the floor when I lie down! And here is a moor-cock's; and
this- I should know it among a thousand- it's a lapwing's. Bonny bird; wheeling
over our heads in the middle of the moor. It wanted to get to its nest, for the
clouds had touched the swells, and it felt rain coming. This feather was picked
up from the heath, the bird was not shot: we saw its nest in the winter, full
of little skeletons. Heathcliff set a trap over it, and the old ones dare not
come. I made him promise he'd never shoot a lapwing after that, and he didn't.
Yes, here are more! Did he shoot my lapwings, Nelly? Are they red, any of them!
Let me look."
"Give over with that baby-work!"
I interrupted, dragging the pillow away, and turning the holes towards the
mattress, for she was removing its contents by handfuls. "Lie down and
shut your eyes: you're wandering. There's a mess! The down is flying about like
snow."
I went here and there collecting it.
"I see in you, Nelly," she
continued dreamily, "an aged woman: you have grey hair and bent shoulders.
This bed is the fairy cave under Penistone Crag, and you are gathering
elf-bolts to hurt our heifers; pretending, while I am near, that they are only
locks of wool. That's what you'll come to fifty years hence: I know you are not
so now. I'm not wandering: you're mistaken, or else I should believe you really
were that withered hag, and I should think I was under Penistone Crag; and I'm
conscious it's night; and there are two candles on the table making the black
press shine like jet."
"The black press? where is that?"
I asked. "You are talking in your sleep!"
"It's against the wall, as it always
is," she replied. "It does appear odd- I see a face in it!"
"There's no press in the room, and
never was," said I, resuming my seat, and looping up the curtains that I
might watch her.
"Don't you see that face?" she
enquired, gazing earnestly at the mirror.
And say what I could, I was incapable of
making her comprehend it to be her own; so I rose and covered it with a shawl.
"It's behind there still!" she
pursued anxiously. "And it stirred. Who is it? I hope it will not come out
when you are gone! Oh! Nelly, the room is haunted! I'm afraid of being
alone!"
I took her hand in mine, and bid her be
composed: for a succession of shudders convulsed her frame, and she would keep
straining her gaze towards the glass.
"There's nobody here!" I
insisted. "It was yourself Mrs. Linton: you knew it a while since."
"Myself!" she gasped, "and
the clock is striking twelve! It's true, then! that's dreadful!"
Her fingers clutched the clothes, and
gathered them over her eyes. I attempted to steal to the door with an intention
of calling her husband; but I was summoned back by a piercing shriek- the shawl
had dropped from the frame.
"Why, what is the matter?" cried
I. "Who is coward now? Wake up! That is the glass- the mirror, Mrs.
Linton; and you see yourself in it, and there am I too, by your side."
Trembling and bewildered, she held me fast,
but the horror gradually passed from her countenance; its paleness gave place
to a glow of shame.
"Oh, dear! I thought I was at
home," she sighed. "I thought I was lying in my chamber at Wuthering
Heights. Because I'm weak, my brain got confused, and I screamed unconsciously.
Don't say anything; but stay with me. I dread sleeping: my dreams appall
me."
"A sound sleep would do you good,
ma'am," I answered; "and I hope this suffering will prevent your
trying starving again."
"Oh, if I were put in my own bed in
the old house!" she went on bitterly, wringing her hands, "And that
wind sounding in the firs by the lattice. Do let me feel it- it comes straight
down the moor- do let me have one breath!"
To pacify her, I held the casement ajar a
few seconds. A cold blast rushed through; I closed it, and returned to my post.
She lay still now, her face bathed in tears. Exhaustion of body had entirely
subdued her spirit: our fiery Catherine was no better than a wailing child.
"How long is it since I shut myself in
here?" she asked, suddenly reviving.
"It was Monday evening," I
replied, "and this is Thursday night, or rather Friday morning, at
present."
"What! of the same week?" she
exclaimed. "Only that brief time?"
"Long enough to live on nothing but
cold water and ill-temper," observed I.
"Well, it seems a weary number of
hours," she muttered doubtfully: "it must be more. I remember being
in the parlour after they had quarrelled, and Edgar being cruelly provoking,
and me running into this room desperate. As soon as ever I had barred the door,
utter blackness overwhelmed me, and I fell on the floor. I couldn't explain to
Edgar how certain I felt of having a fit, or going raging mad, if he persisted
in teasing me! I had no command of tongue, or brain, and he did not guess my
agony, perhaps: it barely left me sense to try to escape from him and his
voice. Before I recovered sufficiently to see and hear, it began to be dawn,
and, Nelly, I'll tell you what I thought, and what has kept recurring and
recurring till I feared for my reason. I thought as I lay there, with my head
against that table leg, and my eyes dimly discerning the grey square of the
window, that I was enclosed in the oak-panelled bed at home; and my heart ached
with some great grief which, just waking, I could not recollect. I pondered, and
worried myself to discover what it could be, and, most strangely, the whole
last seven years of my life grew a blank! I did not recall that they had been
at all. I was a child; my father was just buried, and my misery arose from the
separation that Hindley had ordered between me and Heathcliff. I was laid
alone, for the first time; and, rousing from a dismal doze after a night of
weeping, I lifted my hand to push the panels aside: it struck the table-top! I
swept it along the carpet, and then memory burst in: my late anguish was
swallowed in a paroxysm of despair. I cannot say why I felt so wildly wretched:
it must have been temporary derangement; for there is scarcely cause. But,
supposing at twelve years old I had been wrenched from the Heights, and every
early association, and my all in all, as Heathcliff was at that time, and been
converted at a stroke into Mrs. Linton, the lady of Thrushcross Grange, and the
wife of a stranger: an exile, and outcast, thenceforth, from what had been my
world. You may fancy a glimpse of the abyss where I grovelled! Shake your head
as you will, Nelly, you have helped to unsettle me! You should have spoken to
Edgar, indeed you should, and compelled him to leave me quiet! Oh, I'm burning!
I wish I were out of doors! I wish I were a girl again, half savage and hardy,
and free; and laughing at injuries, not maddening under them! Why am I so
changed? why does my blood rush into a hell of tumult at a few words? I'm sure
I should be myself were I once among the heather on those hills. Open the
window again wide: fasten it open! Quick, why don't you move?"
"Because I won't give you your death
of cold," I answered.
"You won't give me a chance of life,
you mean," she said sullenly. "However, I'm not helpless, yet: I'll
open it myself."
And sliding from the bed before I could
hinder her, she crossed the room, walking very uncertainly, threw it back, and
bent out, careless of the frosty air that cut about her shoulders as keen as a
knife. I entreated, and finally attempted to force her to retire. But I soon
found her delirious strength much surpassed mine (she was delirious, I became
convinced by her subsequent actions and ravings). There was no moon, and
everything beneath lay in misty darkness: not a light gleamed from any house, far
or near- all had been extinguished long ago; and those at Wuthering Heights
were never visible- still she asserted she caught their shining.
"Look!" she cried eagerly,
"that's my room with the candle in it, and the trees swaying before it:
and the other candle is in Joseph's garret. Joseph sits up late, doesn't he?
He's waiting till I come home that he may lock the gate. Well, he'll wait a
while yet. It's a rough journey, and a sad heart to travel it; and we must pass
by Gimmerton Kirk, to go that journey! We've braved its ghosts often together,
and dared each other to stand among the graves and ask them to come. But,
Heathcliff, if I dare you now, will you venture? If you do, I'll keep you. I'll
not lie there by myself: they may bury me twelve feet deep, and throw the
church down over me, but I won't rest till you are with me. I never will!"
She paused, and resumed with a strange
smile. "He's considering- he'd rather I'd come to him! Find a way, then!
not through that kirkyard. You are slow! Be content, you always followed
me!"
Perceiving it vain to argue against her
insanity, I was planning how I could reach something to wrap about her, without
quitting my hold of herself, for I could not trust her alone by the gaping
lattice), when, to my consternation, I heard the rattle of the door-handle, and
Mr. Linton entered. He had only then come from the library; and, in passing
through the lobby, had noticed our talking and been attracted by curiosity, or
fear, to examine what it signified, at that late hour.
"Oh, sir!" I cried, checking the
exclamation risen to his lips at the sight which met him, and the bleak
atmosphere of the chamber. "My poor mistress is ill, and she quite masters
me: I cannot manage her at all; pray, come and persuade her to go to bed. Forget
your anger, for she's hard to guide any way but her own."
"Catherine ill?" he said,
hastening to us. "Shut the window, Ellen! Catherine! why-"
He was silent. The haggardness of Mrs.
Linton's appearance smote him speechless, and he could only glance from her to
me in horrified astonishment.
"She's been fretting here" I
continued, "and eating scarcely anything, and never complaining; she would
admit none of us till this evening, and so we couldn't inform you of her state
as we were not aware of it ourselves; but it is nothing."
I felt I uttered my explanations awkwardly;
the master frowned. "It is nothing, is it, Ellen Dean?" he said
sternly. "You shall account more clearly for keeping me ignorant of
this!" And he took his wife in his arms, and looked at her with anguish.
At first she gave him no glance of
recognition; he was invisible to her abstracted gaze. The delirium was not
fixed, however; having weaned her eyes from contemplating the outer darkness,
by degrees she centered her attention on him, and discovered who it was that
held her.
"Ah! you are come, are you, Edgar
Linton?" she said, with angry animation. "You are one of those things
that are ever found when least wanted, and when you are wanted, never! I
suppose we shall have plenty of lamentations now- I see we shall- but they
can't keep me from my narrow home out yonder: my resting-place, where I'm bound
before spring is over! There it is: not among the Lintons, mind, under the
chapel-roof, but in the open air, with a headstone; and you may please
yourself, whether you go to them or come to me!"
"Catherine, what have you done?"
commenced the master. "Am I nothing to you any more? Do you love that
wretch Heath-"
"Hush!" cried Mrs. Linton.
"Hush, this moment! You mention that name and I end the matter instantly,
by a spring from the window! What you touch at present you may have; but my
soul will be on that hill-top before you lay hands on me again. I don't want
you. Edgar: I'm past wanting you. Return to your books. I'm glad you possess a
consolation, for all you had in me is gone."
"Her mind wanders, sir," I
interposed. "She has been talking nonsense the whole evening; but let her
have quiet, and proper attendance, and she'll rally. Hereafter, we must be
cautious how we vex her."
"I desire no further advice from
you," answered Mr. Linton. "You know your mistress's nature, and you
encouraged me to harass her. And not to give me one hint of how she had been
these three days! It was heartless! Months of sickness could not cause such a
change!"
I began to defend myself, thinking it too
bad to be blamed for another's wicked waywardness. "I knew Mrs. Linton's
nature to be headstrong and domineering," cried I; "but I didn't know
that you wished to foster her fierce temper! I didn't know that, to humour her,
I should wink at Mr. Heathcliff. I performed the duty of a faithful servant in
telling you, and I have got a faithful servant's wages! Well, it will teach me
to be careful next time. Next time you may gather intelligence for
yourself!"
"The next time you bring a tale to me,
you shall quit my service, Ellen Dean," he replied.
"You'd rather hear nothing about it, I
suppose, then, Mr. Linton?" said I. "Heathcliff has your permission
to come a courting to miss, and to drop in at every opportunity your absence
offers, on purpose to poison the mistress against you?"
Confused as Catherine was, her wits were
alert at applying our conversation.
"Ah! Nelly has played traitor,"
she exclaimed passionately. "Nelly is my hidden enemy. You witch! So you
do seek elfbolts to hurt us! Let me go, I'll make her rue! I'll make her howl a
recantation!"
A maniac's fury kindled under her brows;
she struggled desperately to disengage herself from Linton's arms. I felt no
inclination to tarry the event; and, resolving to seek medical aid on my own
responsibility, I quitted the chamber.
In passing the garden to reach the road, at
a place where a bridle hook is driven into the wall, I saw something white
moved irregularly, evidently by another agent than the wind. Notwithstanding my
hurry, I stayed to examine it, lest ever after I should have the conviction
impressed on my imagination that it was a creature of the other world. My
surprise and perplexity were great on discovering, by touch more than vision,
Miss Isabella's springer, Fanny, suspended by a handkerchief, and nearly at its
last gasp. I quickly released the animal, and lifted it into the garden. I had
seen it follow its mistress upstairs when she went to bed; and wondered much
how it could have got out there, and what mischievous person had treated it so.
While untying the knot round the hook, it seemed to me that I repeatedly caught
the beat of horses' feet galloping at some distance; but there were such a
number of things to occupy my reflections that I hardly gave the circumstance a
thought: though it was a strange sound, in that place, at two o'clock in the
morning.
Mr. Kenneth was fortunately just issuing
from his house to see a patient in the village as I came up the street; and my
account of Catherine Linton's malady induced him to accompany me back
immediately. He was a plain rough man; and he made no scruple to speak his
doubts of her surviving this second attack; unless she were more submissive to
his directions than she had shown herself before.
"Nelly Dean," said he, "I
can't help fancying there's an extra cause for this. What has there been to do
at the Grange? We've odd reports up here. A stout, hearty lass like Catherine,
does not fall ill for a trifle; and that sort of people should not either. It's
hard work bringing them through fevers, and such things. How did it
begin?"
"The master will inform you," I
answered; "but you are acquainted with the Earnshaws' violent
dispositions, and Mrs. Linton caps them all. I may say this: it commenced in a
quarrel. She was struck during a tempest of passion with a kind of fit. That's
her account, at least; for she flew off in the height of it, and locked herself
up. Afterwards, she refused to eat, and now she alternately raves and remains
in a half dream; knowing those about her, but having her mind filled with all
sorts of strange ideas and illusions."
"Mr. Linton will be sorry?"
observed Kenneth, interrogatively.
"Sorry? he'll break his heart should
anything happen!" I replied. "Don't alarm him more than necessary."
"Well, I told him to beware,"
said my companion; "and he must bide the consequences of neglecting my
warning! Hasn't he been intimate with Mr. Heathcliff, lately?"
"Heathcliff frequently visits at the
Grange," answered I, "though more on the strength of the mistress
having known him when a boy, than because the master likes his company. At
present, he's discharged from the trouble of calling; owing to some
presumptuous aspirations after Miss Linton which he manifested. I hardly think
he'll be taken in again."
"And does Miss Linton turn a cold
shoulder on him?" was the doctor's next question.
"I'm not in her confidence,"
returned I, reluctant to continue the subject.
"No, she's a sly one," he
remarked, shaking his head. "She keeps her own counsel! But she's a real
little fool. I have it from good authority, that, last night (and a pretty
night it was!) she and Heathcliff were walking in the plantation at the back of
your house, above two hours; and he pressed her not to go in again, but just mount
his horse and away with him! My informant said she could only put him off by
pledging her word of honour to be prepared on their first meeting after that:
when it was to be, he didn't hear; but you urge Mr. Linton to look sharp!"
This news filled me with fresh fears: I
outstripped Kenneth, and ran most of the way back. The little dog was yelping
in the garden yet. I spared a minute to open the gate for it, but instead of
going to the house door, it coursed up and down snuffing the grass, and would
have escaped to the road, had I not seized and conveyed it in with me. On
ascending to Isabella's room, my suspicions were confirmed: it was empty. Had I
been a few hours sooner, Mrs. Linton's illness might have arrested her rash
step. But what could be done now? There was a bare possibility of overtaking
them if pursued instantly. I could not pursue them, however; and I dare not
rouse the family, and fill the place with confusion; still less unfold the
business to my master, absorbed as he was in his present calamity, and having
no heart to spare for a second grief! I saw nothing for it but to hold my
tongue, and suffer matters to take their course; and Kenneth being arrived, I
went with a badly composed countenance to announce him. Catherine lay in a
troubled sleep: her husband had succeeded in soothing the excess of frenzy: he
now hung over her pillow, watching every shade, and every change of her
painfully expressive features.
The doctor, on examining the case for
himself, spoke hopefully to him of its having a favourable termination, if we
could only preserve around her perfect and constant tranquillity. To me, he
signified the threatening danger was not so much death, as permanent alienation
of intellect.
I did not close my eyes that night, nor did
Mr. Linton: indeed, we never went to bed; and the servants were all up long
before the usual hour, moving through the house with stealthy tread, and
exchanging whispers as they encountered each other in their vocations. Every
one was active, but Miss Isabella; and they began to remark how sound she
slept: her brother, too, asked if she had risen, and seemed impatient for her
presence, and hurt that she showed so little anxiety for her sister-in-law. I
trembled lest he should send me to call her; but I was spared the pain of being
the first proclamation of her flight. One of the maids, a thoughtless girl, who
had been on an early errand to Gimmerton, came panting upstairs, open mouthed,
and dashed into the chamber, crying:
"Oh, dear, dear! What mun we have
next? Master, master, our young lady!"
"Hold your noise!" cried I
hastily, enraged at her clamorous manner.
"Speak lower, Mary- What is the
matter?" said Mr. Linton. "What ails your young lady?"
"She's gone, she's gone! Yon'
Heathcliff's run off wi' her!" gasped the girl.
"That is not true!" exclaimed
Linton, rising in agitation. "It cannot be: how has the idea entered your
head? Ellen Dean, go and seek her. It is incredible: it cannot be."
As he spoke he took the servant to the
door, and then repeated his demand to know her reasons for such an assertion.
"Why, I met on the road a lad that
fetches milk here." she stammered, "and he asked whether we weren't
in trouble at the Grange. I thought he meant for missis's sickness, so I
answered, yes. Then says he, 'There's somebody gone after 'em, I guess!' I
stared. He saw I knew nought about it, and he told how a gentleman and lady had
stopped to have a horse's shoe fastened at a blacksmith's shop, two miles out
of Gimmerton, not very long after midnight! and how the blacksmith's lass had
got up to spy who they were: she knew them both directly. And she noticed the
man- Heathcliff it was, she felt certain: nob'dy could mistake him besides- put
a sovereign in her father's hand for payment. The lady had a cloak about her face;
but having desired a sup of water, while she drank, it fell back, and she saw
her very plain. Heathcliff held both bridles as they rode on, and they set
their faces from the village, and went as fast as the rough roads would let
them. The lass said nothing to her father, but she told it all over Gimmerton
this morning."
I ran and peeped, for form's sake, into
Isabella's room; confirming, when I returned, the servant's statement. Mr.
Linton had resumed his seat by the bed; on my re-entrance, he raised his eyes,
read the meaning of my blank aspect, and dropped them without giving an order,
or uttering a word.
"Are we to try any measures for
overtaking and bringing her back?" I enquired. "How should we
do?"
"She went of her own accord,"
answered the master; "she had a right to go if she pleased. Trouble me no
more about her. Hereafter she is only my sister in name: not because I disown
her, but because she has disowned me."
And that was all he said on the subject: he
did not make a single enquiry further, or mention her in any way, except
directing me to send what property she had in the house to her fresh home,
wherever it was, when I knew it.
Chapter 13 -
FOR TWO MONTHS the fugitives remained
absent; in those two months, Mrs. Linton encountered and conquered the worst
shock of what was denominated a brain fever. No mother could have nursed an
only child more devotedly than Edgar tended her. Day and night he was watching,
and patiently enduring all the annoyances that irritable nerves and a shaken reason
could inflict; and, though Kenneth remarked that what he saved from the grave
would only recompense his care by forming the source of constant future
anxiety- in fact, that his health and strength were being sacrificed to
preserve a mere ruin of humanity- he knew no limits in gratitude and joy when
Catherine's life was declared out of danger; and hour after hour he would sit
beside her, tracing the gradual return to bodily health, and flattering his too
sanguine hopes with the illusion that her mind would settle back to its right
balance also, and she would soon be entirely her former self.
The first time she left her chamber was at
the commencement of the following March. Mr. Linton had put on her pillow, in
the morning, a handful of golden crocuses; her eye, long stranger to any gleam
of pleasure, caught them in waking, and shone delighted as she gathered them
eagerly together.
"These are the earliest flowers at the
Heights," she exclaimed. "They remind me of soft thaw winds, and warm
sunshine, and nearly melted snow. Edgar, is there not a south wind, and is not
the snow almost gone?"
"The snow is quite gone down here,
darling," replied her husband; "and I only see two white spots on the
whole range of moors: the sky is blue, and the larks are singing, and the becks
and brooks are all brim full. Catherine, last spring at this time, I was
longing to have you under this roof, now, I wish you were a mile or two up
those hills: the air blows so sweetly, I feel that it would cure you."
"I shall never be there but once
more," said the invalid; "and then you'll leave me, and I shall
remain for ever. Next spring you'll long again to have me under this roof, and
you'll look back and think you were happy to-day."
Linton lavished on her the kindest
caresses, and tried to cheer her by the fondest words; but, vaguely regarding
the flowers, she let the tears collect on her lashes and stream down her cheeks
unheeding. We knew she was really better, and, therefore, decided that long
confinement to a single place produced much of this despondency, and it might
be partially removed by a change of scene. The master told me to light a fire
in the many-weeks-deserted parlour, and to set an easy-chair in the sunshine by
the window; and then he brought her down, and she sat a long while enjoying the
genial heat, and, as we expected, revived by the objects round her: which,
though familiar, were free from the dreary associations investing her hated
sick chamber. By evening, she seemed greatly exhausted; yet no arguments could
persuade her to return to that apartment, and I had to arrange the parlour sofa
for her bed, till another room could be prepared. To obviate the fatigue of
mounting and descending the stairs, we fitted up this, where you lie at
present: on the same floor with the parlour; and she was soon strong enough to
move from one to the other, leaning on Edgar's arm. Ah, I thought myself she
might recover, so waited on as she was. And there was double cause to desire
it, for on her existence depended that of another: we cherished the hope that
in a little while, Mr. Linton's heart would be gladdened, and his lands secured
from a stranger's gripe, by the birth of an heir.
I should mention that Isabella sent to her
brother, some six weeks from her departure, a short note, announcing her
marriage with Heathcliff. It appeared dry and cold; but at the bottom was
dotted in with pencil an obscure apology, and an entreaty for kind remembrance
and reconciliation, if her proceeding had offended him: asserting that she
could not help it then, and being done, she had now no power to repeal it.
Linton did not reply to this, I believe; and, in a fortnight more, I got a long
letter which I considered odd, coming from the pen of a bride just out of the
honeymoon. I'll read it: for I keep it yet. Any relic of the dead is precious,
if they were valued living. -
DEAR ELLEN, it begins:-
I came last night to Wuthering Heights, and
heard, for the first time, that Catherine has been, and is yet, very ill. I
must not write to her, I suppose, and my brother is either too angry or too
distressed to answer what I sent him. Still, I must write to somebody, and the
only choice left me is you.
Inform Edgar that I'd give the world to see
his face again- that my heart returned to Thrushcross Grange in twenty-four
hours after I left it, and is there at this moment, full of warm feelings for
him, and Catherine! I can't follow it, though- (those words are underlined)
they need not expect me, and they may draw what conclusions they please; taking
care, however, to lay nothing at the door of my weak will or deficient
affection.
The remainder of the letter is for yourself
alone. I want to ask you two questions: the first is- How did you contrive to
preserve the common sympathies of human nature when you resided here? I cannot
recognise any sentiment which those around share with me.
The second question, I have great interest
in,- Is Mr. Heathcliff a man? If so, is he mad? And if not, is he a devil? I
shan't tell my reasons for making this enquiry; but, I beeseech you to explain,
if you can, what I have married: that is, when you call to see me; and you must
call, Ellen, very soon. Don't write, but come, and bring me something from
Edgar.
Now, you shall hear how I have been
received in my new home, as I am led to imagine the Heights will be. It is to
amuse myself that I dwell on such subjects as the lack of external comforts:
they never occupy my thoughts, except at the moment when I miss them. I should
laugh and dance for joy, if I found their absence was the total of my miseries,
and the rest was an unnatural dream!
The sun set behind the Grange, as we turned
on to the moors; by that, I judge it to be six o'clock; and my companion halted
half-an-hour, to inspect the park, and the gardens, and, probably, the place
itself, as well as he could; so it was dark when we dismounted in the paved
yard of the farm-house, and your old fellow-servant, Joseph, issued out to
receive us by the light of a dip candle. He did it with a courtesy that
redounded to his credit. His first act was to elevate his torch to a level with
my face, squint malignantly, project his under lip, and turn away. Then he took
the two horses, and led them into the stables; reappearing for the purpose of
locking the outer gate, as if we lived in an ancient castle.
Heathcliff stayed to speak to him, and I
entered the kitchen- a dingy, untidy hole; I daresay you would not know it, it
is so changed since it was in your charge. By the fire stood a ruffianly child,
strong in limb and dirty in garb, with a look of Catherine in his eyes and
about his mouth.
"This is Edgar's legal nephew," I
reflected- "mine in a manner; I must shake hands, and- yes- I must kiss
him. It is right to establish a good understanding at the beginning."
I approached, and, attempting to take his
chubby fist, said:
"How do you do, my dear?"
He replied in a jargon I did not
comprehend.
"Shall you and I be friends,
Hareton?" was my next essay at conversation.
An oath, and a threat to set Throttler on
me if I did not "frame off," rewarded my perseverance.
"Hey, Throttler, lad!" whispered
the little wretch, rousing a half-bred bull-dog from its lair in a corner.
"Now, wilt thou be ganging?" he asked authoritatively.
Love for my life urged a compliance; I
stepped over the threshold to wait till the others should enter. Mr. Heathcliff
was nowhere visible; and Joseph, whom I followed to the stables, and requested
to accompany me in, after staring and muttering to himself, screwed up his
nose, and replied:
"Mim! mim! mim! Did iver Christian
body hear aught like it? Minching un' munching! How can I tell whet ye
say?"
"I say, I wish you to come with me
into the house!" I cried, thinking him deaf, yet highly disgusted at his
rudeness.
"None o' me! I getten summut else to
do," he answered, and continued his work; moving his lantern jaws
meanwhile, and surveying my dress and countenance (the former a great deal too
fine, but the latter, I'm sure, as sad as he could desire) with sovereign
contempt.
I walked round the yard, and through a wicket,
to another door, at which I took the liberty of knocking, in hopes some more
civil servant might show himself. After a short suspense, it was opened by a
tall, gaunt man, without neckerchief, and otherwise extremely slovenly; his
features were lost in masses of shaggy hair that hung on his shoulders; and his
eyes, too, were like a ghostly Catherine's with all their beauty annihilated.
"What's your business here?" he
demanded grimly. "Who are you?"
"My name was Isabella Linton," I
replied. "You've seen me before, sir. I'm lately married to Mr.
Heathcliff, and he has brought me here- I suppose by your permission."
"Is he come back, then?" asked
the hermit, glaring like a hungry wolf.
"Yes- we came just now," I said;
"but he left me by the kitchen door; and when I would have gone in, your
little boy played sentinel over the place, and frightened me off by the help of
a bull-dog."
"It's well the hellish villain has
kept his word!" growled my future host, searching the darkness beyond me
in expectation of discovering Heathcliff; and then he indulged in a soliloquy
of execrations, and threats of what he would have done had the
"fiend" deceived him.
I repented having tried this second
entrance, and was almost inclined to slip away before he finished cursing, but
ere I could execute that intention, he ordered me in, and shut and re-fastened
the door. There was a great fire, and that was all the light in the huge
apartment, whose floor had grown a uniform grey; and the once brilliant pewter
dishes, which used to attract my gaze when I was a girl, partook of a similar
obscurity, created by tarnish and dust. I enquired whether I might call the
maid, and be conducted to a bed-room? Mr. Earnshaw vouchsafed no answer. He
walked up and down, with his hands in his pockets, apparently quite forgetting
my presence; and his abstraction was evidently so deep, and his whole aspect so
misanthropical, that I shrank from disturbing him again.
You'll not be surprised, Ellen, at my
feeling particularly cheerless, seated in worse than solitude on that
inhospitable hearth, and remembering that four miles distant lay my delightful
home, containing the only people I loved on earth; and there might as well be
the Atlantic to part us, instead of those four miles: I could not overpass
them! I questioned with myself- where must I turn for comfort? and- mind you,
don't tell Edgar, or Catherine- above every sorrow beside, this rose
pre-eminent: despair at finding nobody who could or would be my ally against
Heathcliff! I had sought shelter at Wuthering Heights, almost gladly, because I
was secured by that arrangement from living alone with him; but he knew the
people we were coming amongst, and he did not fear their intermeddling.
I sat and thought a doleful time: the clock
struck eight, and nine, and still my companion paced to and fro, his head bent
on his breast, and perfectly silent, unless a groan or a bitter ejaculation
forced itself out at intervals. I listened to detect a woman's voice in the
house, and filled the interim with wild regrets and dismal anticipations,
which, at last, spoke audibly in irrepressible sighing and weeping. I was not
aware how openly I grieved, till Earnshaw halted opposite, in his measured
walk, and gave me a stare of newly-awakened surprise. Taking advantage of his
recovered attention, I exclaimed:
"I'm tired with my journey, and I want
to go to bed! Where is the maid-servant? Direct me to her, as she won't come to
me!"
"We have none," he answered,
"you must wait on yourself!"
"Where must I sleep, then?" I
sobbed: I was beyond regarding self-respect, weighed down by fatigue and
wretchedness.
"Joseph will show you Heathcliff's
chamber," said he; "open that door- he's in there."
I was going to obey, but he suddenly
arrested me, and added in the strangest tone:
"Be so good as to turn your lock, and
draw your bolt- don't omit it!"
"Well!" I said. "But why,
Mr. Earnshaw?" I did not relish the notion of deliberately fastening
myself in with Heathcliff.
"Look here!" he replied, pulling
from his waist-coat a curiously constructed pistol, having a double-edged
spring knife attached to the barrel. "That's a great tempter to a
desperate man, is it not? I cannot resist going up with this every night, and
trying his door. If once I find it open he's done for! I do it invariably, even
though the minute before I have been recalling a hundred reasons that should
make me refrain: it is some devil that urges me to thwart my own schemes by
killing him. You fight against that devil for love as long as you may; when the
time comes, not all the angels in heaven shall save him!"
I surveyed the weapon inquisitively. A
hideous notion struck me: how powerful I should be possessing such an
instrument! I took it from his hand, and touched the blade. He looked
astonished at the expression my face assumed during a brief second: it was not
horror, it was covetousness. He snatched the pistol back, jealously; shut the
knife, and returned it to its concealment.
"I don't care if you tell him,"
said he. "put him on his guard, and watch for him. You know the terms we
are on, I see: his danger does not shock you."
"What has Heathcliff done to
you?" I asked. "In what has he wronged you, to warrant this appalling
hatred? Wouldn't it be wiser to bid him quit the house?"
"No!" thundered Earnshaw,
"should he offer to leave me, he's a dead man: persuade him to attempt it,
and you are a murderess! Am I to lose all, without a chance of retrieval? Is
Hareton to be a beggar? Oh, damnation! I will have it back; and I'll have his
gold too; and then his blood; and hell shall have his soul! It will be ten
times blacker with that guest than ever it was before!"
You've acquainted me, Ellen, with your old
master's habits. He is clearly on the verge of madness: he was so last night at
least. I shuddered to be near him, and thought on the servant's ill-bred
moroseness as comparatively agreeable. He now recommenced his moody walk, and I
raised the latch, and escaped into the kitchen. Joseph was bending over the
fire, peering into a large pan that swung above it; and a wooden bowl of
oatmeal stood on the settle close by. The contents of the pan began to boll,
and he turned to plunge his hand into the bowl; I conjectured that this
preparation was probably for our supper, and, being hungry, I resolved it
should be eatable; so, crying out sharply, "I'll make the porridge!"
I removed the vessel out of his reach, and proceeded to take off my hat and
riding habit. "Mr. Earnshaw," I continued, "directs me to wait
on myself: I will. I'm not going to act the lady among you, for fear I should
starve."
"Gooid Lord!" he muttered,
sitting down, and stroking his ribbed stockings from the knee to the ankle.
"If there's to be fresh otherings- just when I getten used to two
maisters, if I mun hev a mistress set o'er my heead, it's like time to be
flitting. I niver did think to see t' day that I mud lave th' owld place- but I
doubt it's night at hand!"
This lamentation drew no notice from me: I
went briskly to work, sighing to remember a period when it would have been all
merry fun; but compelled speedily to drive off the remembrance. It racked me to
recall past happiness, and the greater peril there was of conjuring up its
apparition, the quicker the thible ran round, and the faster the handfuls of
meal fell into the water. Joseph beheld my style of cookery with growing
indignation.
"Thear!" he ejaculated,
"Hareton, thou willn't sup thy porridge toneeght; they'll be naught but
lumps as big as my neive. Thear, agean! I'd fling in bowl un all, if I wer ye!
There, pale t' gulip off, un' then ye'll hae done wi't. Bang, bang. It's a
mercy t' bothom isn't deaved out!"
It was rather a rough mess, I own, when
poured into the basins; four had been provided, and a gallon pitcher of new
milk was brought from the dairy, which Hareton seized and comenced drinking and
spilling from the expansive lip. I expostulated, and desired that he should
have his in a mug; affirming that I could not taste the liquid treated so
dirtily. The old cynic chose to be vastly offended at this nicety; assuring me,
repeatedly, that "the bairn was every bit as good" as I, "and
every bit as wollsome," and wondering how I could fashion to be so
conceited. Meanwhile, the infant ruffian continued sucking; and glowered at me
defyingly, as he slavered into the jug.
"I shall have my supper in another
room," I said. "Have you no place you call a parlour?"
"Parlour!" he echoed sneeringly,
"parlour! Nay, we've noa parlours. If yah dunnut loike wer company,
there's maister's; un' if yah dunnot loike maister, there's us."
"Then I shall go upstairs!" I
answered; "show me a chamber."
I put my basin on a tray, and went myself
to fetch some more milk. With great grumblings, the fellow rose, and preceded
me in my ascent: we mounted to the garrets; he opened a door, now and then, to
look into the apartments we passed.
"Here's a rahm," he said, at
last, flinging back a cranky board on hinges. "It's weel eneugh to ate a
few porridge in. There's a pack o' corn i' t' corner, thear, meeterly clane; if
ye're feard o' muckying yer grand silk cloes, spread yer hankerchir o' t' top
on't."
The "rahm" was a kind of
lumberhole smelling strong of malt and grain; various sacks of which articles
were piled around, leaving a wide, bare space in the middle.
"Why, man!" I exclaimed, facing
him angrily, "this is not a place to sleep in. I wish to see my
bedroom."
"Bed-rume!" lie repeated, in a
tone of mockery. "Yah's see all t' bed-rumes thear is- yon's mine."
He pointed into the second garret, only
differing from the first in being more naked about the walls, and having a
large low, curtained bed, with an indigo-coloured quilt at one end.
"What do I want with yours?" I
retorted. "I suppose Mr. Heathcliff does not lodge at the top of the
house, does he?"
"Oh! it's Maister Hathecliff's ye're
wanting!" cried he, as if making a new discovery. "Couldn't ye ha'
said soa, at onst? un then, I mud ha' telled ye, baht all this wark, that
that's just one ye cannut see- he allas keeps it locked, un nob'dy iver mells
on't but hisseln."
"You've a nice house, Joseph," I
could not refrain from observing, "and pleasant inmates; and I think the
concentrated essence of all the madness in the world took up its abode in my
brain the day I linked my fate with theirs! However, that is not to the present
purpose- there are other rooms. For heaven's sake be quick, and let me settle
somewhere!"
He made no reply to this adjuration; only
plodding doggedly down the wooden steps, and halting before an apartment which,
from that halt and the superior quality of its furniture, I conjectured to be
the best one. There was a carpet: a good one, but the pattern was obliterated
by dust; a fireplace hung with cut paper, dropping to pieces, a handsome oak
bedstead with ample crimson curtains of rather expensive material and modern
make; but they had evidently experienced rough usage: the valances hung in
festoons, wrenched from their rings, and the iron rod supporting them was bent
in an arc on one side, causing the drapery to trail upon the floor. The chairs
were also damaged, many of them severely; and deep indentations deformed the
panels of the walls. I was endeavouring to gather resolution for entering and
taking possession, when my fool of a guide announced, "This here is t'
maister's." My supper by this time was cold, my appetite gone, and my
patience exhausted. I insisted on being provided instantly with a place of
refuge, and means of repose.
"Whear the divil?" began the
religious elder. "The Lord bless us! The Lord forgie us! Whear the hell
wold ye gang? ye married, wearisome nowt! Ye've seen all but Hareton's bit of
cham'er. There's not another hoile to lig down in i' th' hahse!"
I was so vexed, I flung my tray and its
contents on the ground; and then seated myself at the stairs-head, hid my face
in my hands, and cried.
"Ech! ech!" exclaimed Joseph.
"Weel done, Miss Cathy! weel done, Miss Cathy! Howsiver, t' maister sall
just tum'le o'er them brocken pots; un' then we's hear summut; we's hear how
it's to be. Gooid-for-naught madling! ye desarve pining fro' this to Churstmas,
flinging t' precious gifts o' God under fooit i' yer flaysome rages! But, I'm
mista'en if ye show yer sperrit lang. Will Hathecliff bide sich bonny ways,
think ye? I nobbut wish he may catch ye i'that plisky. I nobbut wish he
may."
And so he went on scolding to his den
beneath, taking the candle with him; and I remained in the dark. The period of
reflection succeeding this silly action, compelled me to admit the necessity of
smothering my pride and choking my wrath, and bestirring myself to remove its
effects. An unexpected aid presently appeared in the shape Throttler, whom I
now recognized as a son of our old Skulker: it had spent its whelphood at the
Grange, and was given by my father to Mr. Hindley. I fancy it knew me: it
pushed its nose against mine by way of salute, and then hastened to devour the
porridge; while I groped from step to step, collecting the shattered
earthenware, and drying the spatters of milk from the banister with my
pocket-handkerchief. Our labours were scarcely over when I heard Earnshaw's
tread in the passage; my assistant tucked in his tail, and pressed to the wall;
I stole into the nearest doorway. The dog's endeavour to void him was
unsuccessful; as I guessed by a scutter downstairs, and a prolonged, piteous
yelping. I had better luck! he passed on, entered his chamber, and shut the
door. Directly after Joseph came up with Hareton, to put him to bed. I had
found shelter in Hareton's room, and the old man, on seeing me, said:
"They's rahm for boath ye un yer
pride, now, I sud think, i' the hahse. It's empty; ye may hev it all to
yerseln, un Him as allas makes a third, i' sich ill company!"
Gladly did I take advantage of this
intimation; and the minute I flung myself into a chair, by the fire, I nodded,
and slept. My slumber was deep and sweet, though over far too soon. Mr.
Heathcliff awoke me; he had just come in, and demanded, in his loving manner,
what I was doing there? I told him the cause of my staying up so late- that he
had the key of our room in his pocket. The adjective our gave mortal offence.
He swore it was not, nor ever should be, mine; and he'd- But I'll not repeat
his language, nor describe his habitual conduct. He is ingenious and unresting
in seeking to gain my abhorrence! I sometimes wonder at him with an intensity
that deadens my fear: yet, I assure you, a tiger or a venomous serpent could
not rouse terror in me equal to that which he wakens. He told me of Catherine's
illness, and accused my brother of causing it; promising that I should be
Edgar's proxy in suffering, till he could get hold of him.
I do hate him- I am wretched- I have been a
fool! Beware of uttering one breath of this to any one at the Grange. I shall
expect you every day- don't disappoint me! -
ISABELLA
Chapter 14 -
AS SOON as I had perused this epistle, I
went to the master, and informed him that his sister had arrived at the
Heights, and sent me a letter expressing her sorrow for Mrs. Linton's
situation, and her ardent desire to see him; with a wish that he would transmit
to her, as early as possible, some token of forgiveness by me.
"Forgiveness!" said Linton.
"I have nothing to forgive her, Ellen. You may call at Wuthering Heights
this afternoon, if you like, and say that I am not angry, but I'm sorry to have
lost her; especially as I can never think she'll be happy. It is out of the
question my going to see her, however: we are eternally divided; and should she
really wish to oblige me, let her persuade the villain she has married to leave
the country."
"And you won't write her a little
note, sir?" I asked imploringly.
"No," he answered. "It is
needless. My communication with Heathcliff's family shall be as sparing as his
with mine. It shall not exist!"
Mr. Edgar's coldness depressed me
exceedingly; and all the way from the Grange I puzzled my brains how to put
more heart into what he said, when I repeated it; and how to soften his refusal
of even a few lines to console Isabella. I dare say she had been on the watch
for me since morning: I saw her looking through the lattice, as I came up the garden
causeway, and I nodded to her; but she drew back, as if afraid of being
observed. I entered without knocking. There never was such a dreary, dismal
scene as the formerly cheerful house presented! I must confess, that if I had
been in the young lady's place, I would, at least, have swept the hearth, and
wiped the tables with a duster. But she already partook of the pervading spirit
of neglect which encompassed her. Her pretty face was wan and listless; her
hair uncurled: some locks hanging lankly down, and some carelessly twisted
round her head. Probably she had not touched her dress since yester evening.
Hindley was not there. Mr. Heathcliff sat at a table, turning over some papers
in his pocket-book; but he rose when I appeared, asked me how I did, quite
friendly, and offered me a chair. He was the only thing there that seemed
decent: and I thought he never looked better. So much had circumstances altered
their positions, that he would certainly have struck a stranger as a born and
bred gentleman; and his wife as a thorough little slattern! She came forward
eagerly to greet me; and held out one hand to take the expected letter. I shook
my head. She wouldn't understand the hint, but followed me to a sideboard,
where I went to lay my bonnet, and importuned me in a whisper to give her
directly what I had brought. Heathcliff guessed the meaning of her manoeuvres,
and said:
"If you have got anything for Isabella
(as no doubt you have, Nelly), give it to her. You needn't make a secret of it!
we have no secrets between us."
"Oh, I have nothing," I replied,
thinking it best to speak the truth at once. "My master bid me tell his
sister that she must not expect either a letter or a visit from him at present.
He sends his love, ma'am, and his wishes for your happiness, and his pardon for
the grief you have occasioned; but he thinks that after this time, his
household and the household here should drop intercommunication, as nothing
could come of keeping it up."
Mrs. Heathcliff's lip quivered slightly,
and she returned to her seat in the window. Her husband took his stand on the
hearthstone, near me, and began to put questions concerning Catherine. I told
him as much as I thought proper of her illness, and he extorted from me, by
cross-examination, most of the facts connected with its origin. I blamed her,
as she deserved, for bringing it all on herself; and ended by hoping that he
would follow Mr. Linton's example and avoid future interference with his
family, for good or evil.
"Mrs. Linton is now just
recovering," I said; "she'll never be like she was, but her life is
spared; and if you really have a regard for her, you'll shun crossing her way
again: nay, you'll move out of this country entirely; and that you may not
regret it, I'll inform you Catherine Linton is as different now from your old
friend Catherine Earnshaw, as that young lady is different from me. Her
appearance is changed greatly, her character much more so; and the person who
is compelled, of necessity, to be her companion, will only sustain his affection
hereafter by the remembrance of what she once was, by common humanity, and a
sense of duty!"
"That is quite possible,"
remarked Heathcliff, forcing himself to seem calm: "quite possible that
your master should have nothing but common humanity and a sense of duty to fall
back upon. But do you imagine that I shall leave Catherine to his duty and
humanity? and can you compare my feelings respecting Catherine to his? Before
you leave this house, I must exact a promise from you, that you'll get me an
interview with her: consent or refuse, I will see her! What do you say?"
"I say, Mr. Heathcliff," I
replied, "you must not: you never shall, through my means. Another
encounter between you and the master would kill her altogether."
"With your aid, that may be
avoided," he continued; "and should there be danger of such an event-
should he be the cause of adding a single trouble more to her existence- why, I
think I shall be justified in going to extremes! I wish you had sincerity
enough to tell me whether Catherine would suffer greatly from his loss: the
fear that she would restrains me. And there you see the distinctions between
our feelings: had he been in my place, and I in his, though I hated him with a
hatred that turned my life to gall, I never would have raised a hand against
him. You may look incredulous, if you please! I never would have banished him
from her society as long as she desired his. The moment her regard ceased, I
would have torn his heart out, and drunk his blood! But, till then- if you don't
believe me, you don't know me- till then, I would have died by inches before I
touched a single hair of his head!"
"And yet," I interrupted,
"you have no scruples in completely ruining all hopes of her perfect
restoration, by thrusting yourself into her remembrance now, when she has
nearly forgotten you, and involving her in a new tumult of discord and
distress."
"You suppose she has merely forgotten
me?" he said. "Oh, Nelly! you know she has not! You know as well as I
do, that for every thought she spends on Linton, she spends a thousand on me!
At a most miserable period of my life, I had a notion of the kind: it haunted
me on my return to the neighborhood last summer; but only her own assurance
could make me admit the horrible idea again. And then, Linton would be nothing,
nor Hindley, nor all the dreams that ever I dreamt. Two words would comprehend
my future- death and hell: existence, after losing her, would be hell. Yet I
was a fool to fancy for a moment that she valued Edgar Linton's attachment more
than mine. If he loved with all the powers of his puny being, he couldn't love
as much in eighty years as I could in a day. And Catherine has a heart as deep
as I have: the sea could be as readily contained in that horse-trough, as her
whole affection be monopolised by him! Tush! He is scarcely a degree dearer to
her than her dog, or her horse. It is not in him to be loved like me: how can
she love in him what he has not?"
"Catherine and Edgar are as fond of
each other as any two people can be," cried Isabella, with sudden
vivacity. "No one has a right to talk in that manner, and I won't hear my
brother depreciated in silence!"
"Your brother is wondrous fond of you
too, isn't he?" observed Heathcliff scornfully. "He turns you adrift
on the world with surprising alacrity."
"He is not aware of what I
suffer," she replied. "I didn't tell him that."
"You have been telling him something,
then: you have written, have you?"
"To say that I was married, I did
write- you saw the note."
"And nothing since?"
"No."
"My young lady is looking sadly the
worse for her change of condition," I remarked. "Somebody's love
comes short in her case, obviously: whose, I may guess; but, perhaps, I
shouldn't say."
"I should guess it was her own,"
said Heathcliff. "She degenerates into a mere slut! She is tired of trying
to please me uncommonly early. You'd hardly credit it, but the very morrow of
our wedding, she was weeping to go home. However, she'll suit this house so
much the better for not being over nice, and I'll take care she does not
disgrace me by rambling abroad."
"Well, sir," returned I, "I
hope you'll consider that Mrs. Heathcliff is accustomed to be looked after and
waited on; and that she has been brought up like an only daughter, whom every
one was ready to serve. You must let her have a maid to keep things tidy about
her, and you must treat her kindly. Whatever be your notion of Mr. Edgar, you
cannot doubt that she has a capacity for strong attachments, or she wouldn't
have abandoned the elegances, and comforts, and friends of her former home, to
fix contentedly, in such a wilderness as this, with you."
"She abandoned them under a
delusion," he answered; "picturing in me a hero of romance, and
expecting unlimited indulgences from my chivalrous devotion. I can hardly
regard her in the light of a rational creature, so obstinately has she
persisted in forming a fabulous notion of my character and acting on the false
impressions she cherished. But, at last, I think she begins to know me: I don't
perceive the silly smiles and grimaces that provoked me at first; and the
senseless incapability of discerning that I was in earnest when I gave her my
opinion of her infatuation and herself. It was a marvellous effort of
perspicacity to discover that I did not love her. I believed, at one time, no
lessons could teach her that! And yet it is poorly learnt; for this morning she
announced, as a piece of appalling intelligence, that I had actually succeeded
in making her hate me! A positive labour of Hercules, I assure you! If it be
achieved, I have cause to return thanks. Can I trust your assertion, Isabella?
Are you sure you hate me? If I let you alone for half a day, won't you come
sighing and wheedling to me again? I dare say she would rather I had seemed all
tenderness before you: it wounds her vanity to have the truth exposed. But I
don't care who knows that the passion was wholly on one side; and I never told
her a lie about it. She cannot accuse me of showing one bit of deceitful
softness. The first thing she saw me do, on coming out of the Grange, was to
hang up her little dog; and when she pleaded for it, the first words I uttered
were a wish that I had the hanging of every being belonging to her, except one:
possibly she took that exception for herself. But no brutality disgusted her: I
suppose she has an innate admiration of it, if only her precious person were
secure from injury! Now, was it not the depth of absurdity- of genuine idiocy,
for that pitiful, slavish, mean-minded brach to dream that I could love her?
Tell your master, Nelly, that I never, in all my life, met with such an abject
thing as she is. She even disgraces the name of Linton; and I've sometimes
relented, from pure lack of invention, in my experiments on what she could
endure, and still creep shamefully cringing back! But tell him, also, to set
his fraternal and magisterial heart at ease: that I keep strictly within the
limits of the law. I have avoided, up to this period, giving her the slightest
right to claim a separation; and, what's more, she'd thank nobody for dividing
us. If she desired to go, she might: the nuisance of her presence outweighs the
gratification to be derived from tormenting her!"
"Mr. Heathcliff," said I,
"this is the talk of a madman; your wife, most likely, is convinced you
are mad; and, for that reason, she has borne with you hitherto: but now that
you say she may go, she'll doubtless avail herself of the permission. You are
not so bewitched ma'am, are you, as to remain with him of your own
accord?"
"Take care, Ellen!" answered Isabella,
her eyes sparkling irefully; there was no misdoubting by their expression the
full success of her partner's endeavours to make himself detested. "Don't
put faith in a single word he speaks. He's a lying fiend! a monster, and not a
human being! I've been told I might leave him before; and I've made the
attempt, but I dare not repeat it! Only, Ellen, promise you'll not mention a
syllable of his infamous conversation to my brother or Catherine. Whatever he
may pretend, he wishes to provoke Edgar to desperation: he says he has married
me on purpose to obtain power over him; and he shan't obtain it- I'll die
first! I just hope, I pray, that he may forget his diabolical prudence and kill
me! The single pleasure I can imagine is to die or see him dead!"
"There- that will do for the
present!" said Heathcliff "If you are called upon in a court of law,
you'll remember her language, Nelly! And take a good look at that countenance:
she's near the point which would suit me. No; you're not fit to be your own guardian,
Isabella, now; and I, being your legal protector, must detain you in my
custody, however distasteful the obligation may be. Go upstairs; I have
something to say to Ellen Dean in private. That's not the way: upstairs, I tell
you! Why, this is the road upstairs, child!"
He seized, and thrust her from the room:
and returned muttering:
"I have no pity! I have no pity! The
more the worms writhe, the more I yearn to crush out their entrails! It is a
moral teething; and I grind with greater energy, in proportion to the increase
of pain."
"Do you understand what the word pity
means?" I said, hastening to resume my bonnet. "Did you ever feel a
touch of it in your life?"
"Put that down!" he interrupted,
perceiving my intention to depart. "You are not going yet. Come here now,
Nelly; I must either persuade or compel you to aid me in fulfilling my
determination to see Catherine, and that without delay. I swear that I meditate
no harm: I don't desire to cause any disturbance, or to exasperate or insult
Mr. Linton; I only wish to hear from herself how she is, and why she has been
ill; and to ask if anything that I could do would be of use to her. Last night,
I was in the Grange garden six hours, and I'll return there tonight; and every
night I'll haunt the place, and every day, till I find an opportunity of
entering. If Edgar Linton meets me, I shall not hesitate to knock him down, and
give him enough to insure his quiescence while I stay. If his servants oppose
me, I shall threaten them off with these pistols. But wouldn't it be better to
prevent my coming in contact with them, or their master? And you could do it so
easily. I'd warn you when I came, and then you might let me in unobserved, as
soon as she was alone, and watch till I departed, your conscience quite calm:
you would be hindering mischief."
I protested against playing that
treacherous part in my employer's house: and, besides, I urged the cruelty and
selfishness of his destroying Mrs. Linton's tranquility for his satisfaction.
"The commonest occurrence startles her painfully," I said.
"She's all nerves, and she couldn't bear the surprise, I'm positive. Don't
persist, sir! or else, I shall be obliged to inform my master of your designs;
and he'll take measures to secure his house and its inmates from any such
unwarrantable intrusions!"
"In that case, I'll take measures to
secure you, woman!" exclaimed Heathcliff; "you shall not leave
Wuthering Heights till to-morrow morning. It is a foolish story to assert that
Catherine could not bear to see me; and as to suprising her, I don't desire it:
you must prepare her- ask her if I may come. You say she never mentioned my
name, and that I am never mentioned to her. To whom should she mention me if I
am a forbidden topic in the house? She thinks you are all spies for her
husband. Oh, I've no doubt she's in hell among you! I guess by her silence, as
much as anything, what she feels. You say she is often restless, and
anxious-looking; is that a proof of tranquillity? You talk of her mind being
unsettled. How the devil could it be otherwise in her frightful isolation? And
that insipid, paltry creature attending her from duty and humanity! From pity
and charity! He might as well plant an oak in a flowerpot, and expect it to
thrive, as imagine he can restore her to vigour in the soil of his shallow
cares! Let us settle it at once: will you stay here, and am I to fight my way
to Catherine over Linton and his footman? Or will you be my friend, as you have
been hitherto, and do what I request? Decide! because there is no reason for my
lingering another minute, if you persist in your stubborn ill-nature!"
Well, Mr. Lockwood, I argued and
complained, and flatly refused him fifty times; but in the long run he forced
me to an agreement. I engaged to carry a letter from him to my mistress; and
should she consent, I promised to let him have intelligence of Linton's next
absence from home, when he might come, and get in as he was able: I wouldn't be
there, and my fellow-servants should be equally out of the way. Was it right or
wrong? I fear it was wrong, though expedient. I thought I prevented another
explosion by my compliance; and I thought, too, it might create a favourable
crisis in Catherine's mental illness: and then I remembered Mr. Edgar's stern
rebuke of my carrying tales; and I tried to smooth away all disquietude on the
subject, by affirming, with frequent iteration, that that betrayal of trust, if
it merited so harsh an appellation, should be the last. Notwithstanding, my
journey homeward was sadder than my journey thither; and many misgivings I had,
ere I could prevail on myself to put the missive into Mrs. Linton's hand.
But here is Kenneth; I'll go down, and tell
him how much better you are. My history is dree, as we say, and will serve to
while away another morning.
Dree, and dreary! I reflected as the good
woman descended to receive the doctor; and not exactly of the kind which I
should have chosen to amuse me. But never mind! I'll extract wholesome
medicines from Mrs. Dean's bitter herbs; and firstly, let me beware of the
fascination that lurks in Catherine Heathcliff's brilliant eyes. I should be in
a curious taking if I surrendered my heart to that young person, and the
daughter turned out a second edition of the mother!
Chapter 15 -
ANOTHER week over- and I am so many days
nearer health, and spring! I have now heard all my neighbour's history, at
different sittings, as the housekeeper could spare time from more important
occupations. I'll continue it in her own words, only a little condensed. She
is, on the whole, a very fair narrator, and I don't think I could improve her
style.
In the evening, she said, the evening of my
visit to the Heights, I knew, as well as if I saw him, that Mr. Heathcliff was
about the place; and I shunned going out, because I still carried his letter in
my pocket, and didn't want to be threatened or teased any more. I had made up
my mind not to give it till my master went somewhere, as I could not guess how
its receipt would affect Catherine. The consequence was, that it did not reach her
before the lapse of three days. The fourth was Sunday, and I brought it into
her room after the family were gone to church. There was a man-servant left to
keep the house with me, and we generally made a practice of locking the doors
during the hours of service; but on that occasion the weather was so warm and
pleasant that I set them wide open, and, to fulfil my engagement, as I knew who
would be coming, I told my companion that the mistress wished very much for
some oranges, and he must run over to the village and get a few, to be paid for
on the morrow. He departed, and I went upstairs.
Mrs. Linton sat in a loose, white dress,
with a light shawl over her shoulders, in the recess of the open window, as
usual. Her thick, long hair had been partly removed at the beginning of her
illness, and now she wore it simply combed in its natural tresses over her
temples and neck. Her appearance was altered, as I had told Heathcliff; but
when she was calm, there seemed unearthly beauty in the change. The flash of her
eyes had been succeeded by a dreamy and melancholy softness; they no longer
gave the impression of looking at the objects around her: they appeared always
to gaze beyond, and far beyond- you would have said out of this world. Then the
paleness of her face- its haggard aspect having vanished as she recovered
flesh- and the peculiar expression arising from her mental state, though
painfully suggestive of their causes, added to the touching interest which she
awakened; and- invariably to me, I know, and to any person who saw her, I
should think- refuted more tangible proofs of convalescence, and stamped her as
one doomed to decay.
A book lay spread on the sill before her,
and the scarcely perceptible wind fluttered its leaves at intervals. I believe
Linton had laid it there: for she never endeavoured to divert herself with
reading, or occupation of any kind, and he would spend many an hour in trying
to entice her attention to some subject which had formerly been her amusement.
She was conscious of his aim, and in her better moods endured his efforts
placidly, only showing their uselessness by now and then suppressing a wearied
sigh, and checking him at last with the saddest of smiles and kisses. At other
times, she would turn petulantly away, and hide her face in her hands, or even
push him off angrily; and then he took care to let her alone, for he was
certain of doing no good.
Gimmerton chapel bells were still ringing;
and the full, mellow flow of the beck in the valley came soothingly on the ear.
It was a sweet substitute for the yet absent murmur of the summer foliage,
which drowned that music about the Grange when the trees were in leaf. At
Wuthering Heights it always sounded on quiet days following a great thaw or a
season of steady rain. And of Wuthering Heights Catherine was thinking as she
listened: that is, if she thought or listened at all; but she had the vague,
distant look I mentioned before, which expressed no recognition of material
things either by ear or eye.
"There's a letter for you, Mrs. Linton,"
I said gently inserting it in one hand that rested on her knee. "You must
read it immediately, because it wants an answer. Shall I break the seal?"
"Yes," she answered, without altering the direction of her eyes. I
opened it- it was very short. "Now," I continued, "read
it." She drew away her hand, and let it fall. I replaced it in her lap,
and stood waiting till it should please her to glance down; but that movement
was so long delayed that at last I resumed:
"Must I read it, ma'am? It is from Mr.
Heathcliff."
There was a start and a troubled gleam of
recollection, and a struggle to arrange her ideas. She lifted the letter, and
seemed to peruse it; and when she came to the signature she sighed; yet still I
found she had not gathered its import, for, upon my desiring to hear her reply,
she merely pointed to the name, and gazed at me with mournful and questioning
eagerness.
"Well, he wishes to see you,"
said I, guessing her need of an interpreter. "He's in the garden by this
time, and impatient to know what answer I shall bring."
As I spoke, I observed a large dog lying on
the sunny grass beneath raise its ears as if about to bark, and then smoothing
them back, announce, by a wag of the tail, that some one approached whom it did
not consider a stranger. Mrs. Linton bent forward, and listened breathlessly.
The minute after a step traversed the hall; the open house was too tempting for
Heathcliff to resist walking in: most likely he supposed that I was inclined to
shirk my promise, and so resolved to trust to his own audacity. With straining
eagerness Catherine gazed towards the entrance of her chamber. He did not hit
the right room directly, she motioned me to admit him, but he found it out ere
I could reach the door, and in a stride or two was at her side, and had her
grasped in his arms.
He neither spoke nor loosed his hold for
some five minutes, during which period he bestowed more kisses than ever he
gave in his life before, I dare say: but then my mistress had kissed him first,
and I plainly saw that he could hardly bear, for downright agony, to look into
her face! The same conviction had stricken him as me, from the instant he
beheld her, that there was no prospect of ultimate recovery there- she was
fated, sure to die.
"Oh, Cathy! Oh, my life! how can I
bear it?" was the first sentence he uttered, in a tone that did not seek
to disguise his despair. And now he stared at her so earnestly that I thought
the very intensity of his gaze would bring tears into his eyes; but they burned
with anguish: they did not melt.
"What now?" said Catherine,
leaning back, and returning his look with a suddenly clouded brow: her humour
was a mere vane for constantly varying caprices. "You and Edgar have
broken my heart, Heathcliff! And you both came to bewail the deed to me, as if
you were the people to be pitied! I shall not pity you, not I. You have killed
me- and thriven on it, I think. How strong you are! How many years do you mean
to live after I am gone?"
Heathcliff had knelt on one knee to embrace
her; he attempted to rise, but she seized his hair, and kept him down.
"I wish I could hold you," she
continued bitterly, "till we were both dead! I shouldn't care what you
suffered. I care nothing for your sufferings. Why shouldn't you suffer? I do!
Will you forget me? Will you be happy when I am in the earth? Will you say
twenty years hence, 'That's the grave of Catherine Earnshaw. I loved her long
ago, and was wretched to lose her; but it is past. I've loved many others
since: my children are dearer to me than she was; and at death, I shall not
rejoice that I am going to her; I shall be sorry that I must leave them! Will
you say so, Heathcliff?"
"Don't torture me till I am as mad as
yourself," cried he, wrenching his head free, and grinding his teeth.
The two, to a cool spectator, made a
strange and fearful picture. Well might Catherine deem that heaven would be a
land of exile to her, unless with her mortal body she cast away her moral
character also. Her present countenance had a wild vindictiveness in its white
cheek, and a bloodless lip and scintillating eye; and she retained in her
closed fingers a portion of the locks she had been grasping. As to her
companion, while raising himself with one hand, he had taken her arm with the
other; and so inadequate was his stock of gentleness to the requirements of her
condition, that on his letting go I saw four distinct impressions left blue in
the colourless skin.
"Are you possessed with a devil,"
he pursued savagely. "to talk in that manner to me when you are dying? Do
you reflect that all those words will be branded on my memory, and eating
deeper eternally after you have left me? You know you lie to say I have killed
you: and, Catherine, you know that I could as soon forget you as my existence!
Is it not sufficient for your infernal selfishness, that while you are at peace
I shall writhe in the torments of hell?"
"I shall not be at peace," moaned
Catherine, recalled to a sense of physical weakness by the violent, unequal
throbbing of her heart, which beat visibly and audibly under this excess of
agitation. She said nothing further till the paroxysm was over; then she
continued, more kindly- "I'm not wishing you greater torment than I have,
Heathcliff. I only wish us never to be parted: and should a word of mine distress
you hereafter, think I feel the same distress underground, and for my own sake,
forgive me! Come here and kneel down again! You never harmed me in your life.
Nay, if you nurse anger, that will be worse to remember than my harsh words!
Won't you come here again? Do!"
Heathcliff went to the back of her chair,
and leant over, but not so far as to let her see his face, which was livid with
emotion. She bent round to look at him; he would not permit it: turning
abruptly, he walked to the fireplace, where he stood, silent, with his back
towards us. Mrs. Linton's glance followed him suspiciously: every movement woke
a new sentiment in her. After a pause and a prolonged gaze, she resumed;
addressing me in accents of indignant disappointment-
"Oh, you see, Nelly, he would not
relent a moment to keep me out of the grave. That is how I'm loved! Well, never
mind. That is not my Heathcliff. I shall love mine yet; and take him with me:
he's in my soul. And," added she, musingly, "the thing that irks me
most is this shattered prison, after all. I'm tired of being enclosed here. I'm
wearying to escape into that glorious world, and to be always there: not seeing
it dimly through tears, and yearning for it through the walls of an aching
heart; but really with it, and in it. Nelly, you think you are better and more
fortunate than I; in full health and strength: you are sorry for me- very soon
that will be altered. I shall be sorry for you. I shall be incomparably beyond
and above you all. I wonder he won't be near me!" She went on to herself.
"I thought he wished it. Heathcliff, dear! you should not be sullen now.
Do come to me, Heathcliff."
In her eagerness she rose and supported
herself on the arm of the chair. At that earnest appeal he turned to her,
looking absolutely desperate. His eyes, wide and wet, at last flashed fiercely
on her; his breast heaved convulsively. An instant they held asunder, and then
how they met I hardly saw, but Catherine made a spring, and he caught her, and
they were locked in an embrace from which I thought my mistress would never be
released alive: in fact, to my eyes, she seemed directly insensible. He flung
himself into the nearest seat, and on my approaching hurriedly to ascertain if
she had fainted, he gnashed at me, and foamed like a mad dog, and gathered her
to him with greedy jealousy. I did not feel as if I were in the company of a
creature of my own species: it appeared that he would not understand, though I
spoke to him; so I stood off, and held my tongue, in great perplexity.
A movement of Catherine's relieved me a
little presently: she put up her hand to clasp his neck, and bring her cheek to
his as he held her; while he, in return, covering her with frantic caresses,
said wildly-
"You teach me now how cruel you've
been- cruel and false. Why did you despise me? Why did you betray your own
heart, Cathy? I have not one word of comfort. You deserve this. You have killed
yourself. Yes, you may kiss me, and cry; and wring out my kisses and tears:
they'll blight you- they'll damn you. You loved me- then what right had you to
leave me? What right- answer me- for the poor fancy you felt for Linton?
Because misery and degradation, and death, and nothing that God or Satan could
inflict would have parted us, you, of your own will, did it. I have not broken
your heart- you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine. So
much the worse for me, that I am strong. Do I want to live? What kind of living
will it be when you- oh, God! would you like to live with your soul in the
grave?':
"Let me alone. Let me alone,"
sobbed Catherine. "If I have done wrong, I'm dying for it. It is enough!
You left me too: but I won't upbraid you! I forgive you, Forgive me!"
"It is hard to forgive, and to look at
those eyes, and feel those wasted hands," he answered. "Kiss me
again; and don't let me see your eyes! I forgive what you have done to me. I
love my murderer- but yours! How can I?"
They were silent- their faces hid against
each other, and washed by each other's tears. At least, I suppose the weeping
was on both sides; as it seemed Heathcliff could weep on a great occasion like
this.
I grew very uncomfortable, meanwhile; for
the afternoon wore fast away, the man whom I had sent off returned from his
errand, and I could distinguish, by the shine of the western sun up the valley,
a concourse thickening outside Gimmerton chapel porch.
"Service is over," I announced.
"My master will be here in half-an-hour."
Heathcliff groaned a curse, and strained
Catherine closer; she never moved.
Ere long I perceived a group of the
servants passing up the road towards the kitchen wing. Mr. Linton was not far
behind; he opened the gate himself and sauntered slowly up, probably enjoying
the lovely afternoon that breathed as soft as summer.
"Now he is here," I exclaimed.
"For Heaven's sake, hurry down! You'll not meet any one on the front
stairs. Do be quick; and stay among the trees till he is fairly in."
"I must go, Cathy," said
Heathcliff, seeking to extricate himself from his companion's arms. "But
if I live, I'll see you again before you are asleep. I won't stray five yards
from your window."
"You must not go!" she answered,
holding him as firmly as her strength allowed. "You shall not, I tell
you."
"For one hour," he pleaded
earnestly.
"Not for one minute," she replied.
"I must- Linton will be up
immediately," persisted the alarmed intruder.
He would have risen, and unfixed her
fingers by the act- she clung fast, grasping: there was mad resolution in her
face.
"No!" she shrieked. "Oh,
don't, don't go. It is the last time! Edgar will not hurt us. Heathcliff, I
shall die! I shall die!"
"Damn the fool! There he is,"
cried Heathcliff, sinking back into his seat. "Hush, my darling! Hush,
hush, Catherine! I'll stay. If he shot me so, I'd expire with a blessing on my
lips."
And there they were fast again. I heard my
master mounting the stairs- the cold sweat ran from my forehead: I was
horrified.
"Are you going to listen to her
ravings?" I said passionately. "She does not know what she says. Will
you ruin her, because she has not wit to help herself? Get up! You could be
free instantly. That is the most diabolical deed that ever you did. We are all
done for- master, mistress, and servant."
I wrung my hands, and cried out; and Mr.
Linton hastened his step at the noise. In the midst of my agitation, I was
sincerely glad to observe that Catherine's arms had fallen relaxed and her head
hung down.
"She's fainted or dead," I
thought: "so much the better. Far better that she should be dead, than
lingering a burden and a misery-maker to all about her."
Edgar sprang to his unbidden guest,
blanched with astonishment and rage. What he meant to do, I cannot tell;
however, the other stopped all demonstrations, at once, by placing the
lifeless-looking form in his arms.
"Look there!" he said;
"unless you be a fiend, help her first- then you shall speak to me!"
He walked into the parlour, and sat down.
Mr. Linton summoned me, and with great difficulty, and after resorting to many
means, we managed to restore her to sensation; but she was all bewildered; she
sighed, and moaned, and knew nobody. Edgar, in his anxiety for her, forgot her
hated friend. I did not. I went, at the earliest opportunity, and besought him
to depart; affirming that Catherine was better, and he should hear from me in
the morning how she passed the night.
"I shall not refuse to go out of
doors," he answered; "but I shall stay in the garden: and, Nelly,
mind you keep your word to-morrow. I shall be under those larch trees. Mind! or
I pay another visit, whether Linton be in or not."
He sent a rapid glance through the
half-open door of the chamber, and ascertaining that what I stated was
apparently true, delivered the house of his luckless presence.
Chapter 16 -
ABOUT TWELVE o'clock that night, was born
the Catherine you saw at Wuthering Heights: a puny, seven months' child; and
two hours after the mother died, having never recovered sufficient
consciousness to miss Heathcliff, or know Edgar. The latter's distraction at
his bereavement is a subject too painful to be dwelt on; its after effects
showed how deep the sorrow sunk. A great addition, in my eyes, was his being
left without an heir. I bemoaned that, as I gazed on the feeble orphan; and I
mentally abused old Linton for (what was only natural partiality) the securing
his estate to his own daughter, instead of his son's. An unwelcomed infant it
was, poor thing! It might have wailed out of life, and nobody cared a morsel,
during those first hours of existence. We redeemed the neglect afterwards; but
its beginning was as friendless as its end is likely to be.
Next morning- bright and cheerful out of
doors- stole softened in through the blinds of the silent room, and suffused
the couch and its occupant with a mellow, tender glow. Edgar Linton had his
head laid on the pillow, and his eyes shut. His young and fair features were
almost as deathlike as those of the form beside him, and almost as fixed: but
his was the hush of exhausted anguish, and hers of perfect peace. Her brow
smooth, her lids closed, her lips wearing the expression of a smile; no angel
in heaven could be more beautiful than she appeared. And I partook of the
infinite calm in which she lay: my mind was never in a holier frame than while
I gazed on that untroubled image of Divine rest. I instinctively echoed the
words she had uttered a few hours before: "Incomparably beyond and above
us all! Whether still on earth or now in heaven, her spirit is at home with
God!"
I don't know if it be a peculiarity in me,
but I am seldom otherwise than happy while watching in the chamber of death,
should no frenzied or despairing mourner share the duty with me. I see a repose
that neither earth nor hell can break, and I feel an assurance of the endless
and shadowless hereafter- the Eternity they have entered- where life is
boundless in its duration, and love in its sympathy, and joy in its fulness. I
noticed on that occasion how much selfishness there is even in a love like Mr.
Linton's, when he so regretted Catherine's blessed release! To be sure, one
might have doubted, after the wayward and impatient existence she had led,
whether, she merited a haven of peace at last. One might doubt in seasons of
cold reflection; but not then, in the presence of her corpse. It asserted its
own tranquillity, which seemed a pledge of equal quiet to its former
inhabitants.
Do you believe such people are happy in the
other world, sir? I'd give a great deal to know.
I declined answering Mrs. Dean's question,
which struck me as something very heterodox. She proceeded-
Retracing the course of Catherine Linton, I
fear we have no right to think she is; but we'll leave her with her Maker.
The master looked asleep, and I ventured
soon after sunrise to quit the room and steal out to the pure refreshing air.
The servants thought me gone to shake off the drowsiness of my protracted
watch; in reality, my chief motive was seeing Mr. Heathcliff. If he had
remained among the larches all night, he would have heard nothing of the stir
at the Grange; unless, perhaps, he might catch the gallop of the messenger
going to Gimmerton. If he had come nearer, he would probably be aware, from the
lights flitting to and fro, and the opening and shutting of the outer doors,
that all was not right within. I wished, yet feared, to find him. I felt the
terrible news must be told, and I longed to get it over; but how to do it, I
did not know. He was there- at least a few yards further in the park; leant
against an old ash tree, his hat off, and his hair soaked with the dew that had
gathered on the budded branches, and fell pattering round him. He had been
standing a long time in that position, for I saw a pair of ousels passing and
repassing scarcely three feet from him, busy in building their nest and
regarding his proximity no more than that of a piece of timber. They flew off
at my approach, and he raised his eyes and spoke-
"She's dead!" he said; "I've
not waited for you to learn that. Put your handkerchief away- don't snivel
before me. Damn you all! she wants none of your tears!"
I was weeping as much for him as her; we do
sometimes pity creatures that have none of the feeling either for themselves or
others. When I first looked into his face, I perceived that he had got
intelligence of the catastrophe; and a foolish notion struck me that his heart
was quelled and he prayed, because his lips moved and his gaze was bent on the
ground.
"Yes, she's dead!" I answered,
checking my sobs and drying my cheeks. "Gone to heaven, I hope; where we
may, every one, join her, if we take due warning and leave our evil ways to
follow good!"
"Did she take due warning, then?"
asked Heathcliff, attempting a sneer. "Did she die like a saint? Come,
give me a true history of the event. How did-"
He endeavored to pronounce the name, but
could not manage it; and compressing his mouth he held a silent combat with his
inward agony, defying, meanwhile, my sympathy with an unflinching ferocious
stare. "How did she die?" he resumed at last- fain, notwithstanding
his hardihood, to have a support behind him; for, after the struggle, he
trembled, in spite of himself, to his very finger-ends.
"Poor wretch!" I thought;
"you have a heart and nerves the same as your brother men! Why should you
be anxious to conceal them? Your pride cannot blind God! You tempt Him to wring
them, till He forces a cry of humiliation."
"Quietly as a lamb!" I answered
aloud. "She drew a sigh, and stretched herself, like a child reviving, and
sinking again to sleep; and five minutes after I felt one little pulse at her
heart, and nothing more!"
"And- did she ever mention me?"
he asked, hesitating, as if he dreaded the answer to his question would
introduce details that he could not bear to hear.
"Her senses never returned; she
recognized nobody from the time you left her," I said. "She lies with
a sweet smile on her face; and her latest ideas wandered back to pleasant early
days. Her life closed in a gentle dream- may she wake as kindly in the other
world!"
"May she wake in torment!" he
cried, with frightful vehemence, stamping his foot, and groaning in a sudden
paroxysm of ungovernable passion. "Why, she's a liar to the end! Where is
she? Not there- not in heaven- not perished- where? Oh, you said you care
nothing for my sufferings! And I pray one prayer- I repeat it till my tongue
stiffens- Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I am living! You said
I killed you- haunt me, then! The murdered do haunt their murderers, I believe.
I know that ghosts have wandered on earth. Be with me always- take any form-
drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh,
God! it is unutterable! I cannot live without my life! I cannot live without my
soul!"
He dashed his head against the knotted
trunk; and, lifting up his eyes, howled, not like a man, but like a savage
beast being goaded to death with knives and spears. I observed several splashes
of blood about the bark of the tree, and his hand and forehead were both
stained; probably the scene I witnessed was a repetition of others acted during
the night. It hardly moved my compassion- it appalled me: still, I felt
reluctant to quit him so. But the moment he recollected himself enough to
notice me watching, he thundered a command for me to go, and I obeyed. He was
beyond my skill to quiet or console!
Mrs. Linton's funeral was appointed to take
place on the Friday following her decease; and till then her coffin remained
uncovered, and strewn with flowers and scented leaves, in the great
drawing-room. Linton spent his days and nights there, a sleepless guardian;
and- a circumstance concealed from all but me- Heathcliff spent his nights, at
least, outside, equally a stranger to repose. I held no communication with him;
still, I was conscious of his design to enter, if he could; and on the Tuesday,
a little after dark, when my master, from sheer fatigue, had been compelled to
retire a couple of hours, I went and opened one of the windows; moved by his
perseverance, to give him a chance of bestowing on the faded image of his idol
one final adieu. He did not omit to avail himself of the opportunity,
cautiously and briefly: too cautiously to betray his presence by the slightest
noise. Indeed, I shouldn't have discovered that he had been there, except for
the disarrangement of the drapery about the corpse's face, and for observing on
the floor a curl of light hair, fastened with a silver thread; which, on
examination, I ascertained to have been taken from a locket hung round
Catherine's neck. Heathcliff had opened the trinket and cast out its contents,
replacing them by a black lock of his own. I twisted the two, and enclosed them
together.
Mr. Earnshaw was, of course, invited to
attend the remains of his sister to the grave; he sent no excuse, but he never
came; so that, besides her husband, the mourners were wholly composed of
tenants and servants. Isabella was not asked.
The place of Catherine's interment, to the
surprise of the villagers, was neither in the chapel under the carved monument
of the Lintons, nor yet by the tombs of her own relations, outside. It was dug
on a green slope in a corner of the kirkyard, where the wall is so low that
heath and bilberry plants have climbed over it from the moor; and peat mould
almost buries it. Her husband lies in the same spot now; and they have each a
simple headstone above, and a plain grey block at their feet, to mark the
graves.
Chapter 17 -
THAT FRIDAY made the last of our fine days
for a month. In the evening, the weather broke: the wind shifted from south to
north-east, and brought rain first, and then sleet and snow. On the morrow one
could hardly imagine that there had been three weeks of summer: the primroses
and crocuses were hidden under wintry drifts; the larks were silent, the young
leaves of the early trees smitten and blackened. And dreary, and chill, and
dismal, that morrow did creep over! My master kept his room; I took possession
of the lonely parlour, converting it into a nursery: and there I was, sitting
with the moaning doll of a child laid on my knee; rocking it to and fro, and
watching, meanwhile, the still driving flakes build up the uncurtained window,
when the door opened, and some person entered, out of breath and laughing! My
anger was greater than my astonishment for a minute. I supposed it one of the
maids, and I cried- "Have done! How dare you show your giddiness here?
What would Mr. Linton say if he heard you?"
"Excuse me!" answered a familiar
voice; "but I know Edgar is in bed, and I cannot stop myself."
With that the speaker came forward to the
fire, panting and holding her hand to her side.
"I have run the whole way from
Wuthering Heights!" she continued, after a pause; "except where I've
flown. I couldn't count the number of falls I've had. Oh, I'm aching all over!
Don't be alarmed! There shall be an explanation as soon as I can give it; only
just have the goodness to step out and order the carriage to take me on to
Gimmerton, and tell a servant to seek up a few clothes in my wardrobe."
The intruder was Mrs. Heathcliff. She
certainly seemed in no laughing predicament; her hair streamed on her
shoulders, dripping with snow and water; she was dressed in the girlish dress
she commonly wore, befitting her age more than her position: a low frock with
short sleeves, and nothing on either head or neck. The frock was of light silk,
and clung to her with wet, and her feet were protected merely by thin slippers;
add to this a deep cut under one ear, which only the cold prevented from
bleeding profusely, a white face scratched and bruised, and a frame hardly able
to support itself, through fatigue; and you may fancy my first fright was not
much allayed when I had had leisure to examine her.
"My dear young lady," I
exclaimed, "I'll stir nowhere, and hear nothing, till you have removed
every article of your clothes, and put on dry things; and certainly you shall
not go to Gimmerton tonight, so it is needless to order the carriage."
"Certainly, I shall," she said;
"walking or riding: yet I've no objection to dress myself decently. And-
ah, see how it flows down my neck now! The fire does make it smart."
She insisted on my fulfilling her
directions, before she would let me touch her; and not till after the coachman
had been instructed to get ready, and a maid set to pack up some necessary
attire, did I obtain her consent for binding the wound and helping to change
her garments.
"Now, Ellen," she said, when my
task was finished and she was seated in an easy chair on the hearth, with a cup
of tea before her, "you sit down opposite me, and put poor Catherine's
baby away: I don't like to see it! You mustn't think I care little for
Catherine, because I behaved so foolishly on entering: I've cried, too,
bitterly- yes, more than any one else has reason to cry. We parted
unreconciled, you remember, and I shan't forgive myself. But, for all that, I
was not going to sympathise with him- the brute beast! Oh, give me the poker!
This is the last thing of his I have about me": she slipped the gold ring
from her third finger, and threw it on the floor. "I'll smash it!"
she continued, striking it with childish spite, "and then I'll burn
it!" and she took and dropped the misused article among the coals.
"There! he shall buy another, if he gets me back again. He'd be capable of
coming to seek me, to tease Edgar. I dare not stay, lest that notion should
possess his wicked head! And besides, Edgar has not been kind, has he? And I
won't come suing for his assistance; nor will I bring him into more trouble.
Necessity compelled me to seek shelter here; though, if I had not learned he
was out of the way, I'd have halted at the kitchen, washed my face, warmed
myself, got you to bring what I wanted, and departed again to anywhere out of
the reach of my accursed- of that incarnate goblin! Ah! he was in such a fury!
If he had caught me! It's a pity Earnshaw is not his match in strength: I
wouldn't have run till I'd seen him all but demolished, had Hindley been able
to do it!"
"Well don't talk so fast miss!" I
interrupted; "you'll disorder the handkerchief I have tied round your
face, and make the cut bleed again. Drink your tea, and take breath, and give
over laughing: laughter is sadly out of place under this roof, and in your
condition!"
"An undeniable truth," she
replied. "Listen to that child! It maintains a constant wail- send it out
of my hearing for an hour; I shan't stay any longer."
I rang the bell, and committed it to a servant's
care; and then I enquired what had urged her to escape from Wuthering Heights
in such an unlikely plight, and where she meant to go, as she refused remaining
with us.
"I ought, and I wish to remain,"
answered she, "to cheer Edgar and take care of the baby, for two things,
and because the Grange is my right home. But I tell you he wouldn't let me! Do
you think he could bear to see me grow fat and merry- could bear to think that
we were tranquil, and not resolve on poisoning our comfort? Now, I have the
satisfaction of being sure that he detests me, to the point of its annoying him
seriously to have me within earshot or eye-sight: I notice, when I enter his
presence, the muscles of his countenance are involuntarily distorted into an
expression of hatred; partly arising from his knowledge of the good causes I
have to feel that sentiment for him, and partly from original aversion. It is
strong enough to make me feel pretty certain that he would not chase me over
England, supposing I contrived a clear escape; and therefore I must get quite
away. I've recovered from my first desire to be killed by him: I'd rather he'd
kill himself! He has extinguished my love effectually, and so I'm at my ease. I
can recollect yet how I loved him; and can dimly imagine that I could still be
loving him, if- no, no! Even if he had doted on me, the devilish nature would
have revealed its existence somehow. Catherine had an awfully perverted taste
to esteem him so dearly, knowing him so well, Monster! would that he could be
blotted out of creation, and out of my memory!"
"Hush, hush! He's a human being,"
I said. "Be more charitable: there are worse men than he is yet!"
"He's not a human being," she
retorted; "and he has no claim on my charity. I gave him my heart, and he
took and pinched it to death, and flung it back to me. People feel with their
hearts, Ellen: and since he has destroyed mine, I have not power to feel for
him: and I would not, though he groaned from this to his dying day, and wept
tears of blood for Catherine. No, indeed, indeed, I wouldn't." And here
Isabella began to cry; but, immediately dashing the water from her lashes, she
recommenced. "You asked, what has driven me to flight at last? I was
compelled to attempt it, because I had succeeded in rousing his rage a pitch
above his malignity. Pulling out the nerves with red-hot pincers requires more
coolness than knocking on the head. He was worked up to forget the fiendish
prudence he boasted of, and proceeded to murderous violence. I experienced
pleasure in being able to exasperate him; the sense of pleasure woke my
instinct of self-preservation, so I fairly broke free; and if ever I come into
his hands again he is welcome to a signal revenge.
"Yesterday, you know, Mr. Earnshaw
should have been at the funeral. He kept himself sober for the purpose-
tolerably sober; not going to bed mad at six o'clock and getting up drunk at
twelve. Consequently he rose, in suicidal low spirits, as fit for the church as
for a dance; and instead, he sat down by the fire and swallowed gin or brandy
by tumblerfuls.
"Heathcliff- I shudder to name him!
has been a stranger in the house from last Sunday till to-day. Whether the
angels have fed him, or his kin beneath, I cannot tell; but he has not eaten a
meal with us for nearly a week. He has just come home at dawn, and gone
upstairs to his chamber; locking himself in- as if anybody dreamt of coveting
his company! There he has continued, praying like a Methodist: only the deity
he implored is senseless dust and ashes; and God, when addressed, was curiously
confounded with his own black father! After concluding the precious orisons-
and they lasted generally till he grew hoarse and his voice was strangled in
his throat- he would be off again; always straight down to the Grange! I wonder
Edgar did not send for a constable, and give him into custody! For me, grieved
as I was about Catherine, it was impossible to avoid regarding this season of
deliverance from degrading oppression as a holiday.
"I recovered spirits sufficient to
hear Joseph's eternal lectures without weeping, and to move up and down the
house less with the foot of a frightened thief than formerly. You wouldn't
think that I should cry at anything Joseph could say; but he and Hareton are
detestable companions. I'd rather sit with Hindley, and hear his awful talk,
than with t' little maister and his staunch supporter, that odious old man!
When Heathcliff is in I'm often obliged to seek the kitchen with their society
or starve among the damp uninhabited chambers; when he is not, as was the case
this week, I establish a table and chair at one corner of the house fire, and
never mind how Mr. Earnshaw may occupy himself; and he does not interfere with
my arrangements. He is quieter now than he used to be, if no one provokes him:
more sullen and depressed, and less furious. Joseph affirms he's sure he's an
altered man: that the Lord has touched his heart, and he is saved 'so as by
fire.' I'm puzzled to detect signs of the favorable change: but it is not my
business.
"Yester-evening I sat in my nook
reading some old books till late on towards twelve. It seemed so dismal to go
upstairs, with the wild snow blowing outside, and my thoughts continually
reverting to the kirkyard and the new-made grave! I dared hardly lift my eyes
from the page before me, that melancholy scene so instantly usurped its place.
Hindley sat opposite, his head leant on his hand; perhaps meditating on the
same subject. He had ceased drinking at a point below irrationality, and had
neither stirred nor spoken during two or three hours. There was no sound
through the house but the moaning wind, which shook the windows every now and
then, the faint crackling of the coals, and the click of my snuffers as I
removed at intervals the long wick of the candle. Hareton and Joseph were
probably fast asleep in bed. It was very, very sad: and while I read I sighed,
for it seemed as if all joy had vanished from the world, never to be restored.
"The doleful silence was broken at
length by the sound of the kitchen latch: Heathcliff had returned from his
watch earlier than usual; owing, I suppose, to the sudden storm. That entrance
was fastened, and we heard him coming round to get in by the other. I rose with
an irrepressible expression of what I felt on my lips, which induced my companion,
who had been staring towards the door, to turn and look at me.
"'I'll keep him out five minutes,' he
exclaimed. 'You won't object?'
"'No, you may keep him out the whole
night for me,' I answered. 'Do! put the key in the lock, and draw the bolts.'
"Earnshaw accomplished this ere his
guest reached the front; he then came and brought his chair to the other side
of my table, leaning over it, and searching in my eyes for a sympathy with the
burning hate that gleamed from his: as he both looked and felt like an
assassin, he couldn't exactly find that; but he discovered enough to encourage
him to speak.
"'You and I,' he said, 'have each a
great debt to settle with the man out yonder! If we were neither of us cowards,
we might combine to discharge it. Are you as soft as your brother? Are you
willing to endure to the last, and not once attempt a repayment?'
"'I'm weary of enduring now,' I
replied; 'and I'd be glad of a retaliation that wouldn't recoil on myself; but
treachery and violence are spears pointed at both ends: they wound those who
resort to them worse than their enemies.'
"'Treachery and violence are a just
return for treachery and violence!' cried Hindley. 'Mrs. Heathcliff, I'll ask
you to do nothing; but sit still and be dumb. Tell me now, can you? I'm sure
you would have as much pleasure as I in witnessing the conclusion of the
fiend's existence: he'll be your death unless you overreach him; and he'll be
my ruin. Damn the hellish villain! He knocks at the door as if he were master
here already! Promise to hold your tongue, and before that clock strikes- it
wants three minutes of one- you're a free woman!'
"He took the implements which I
described to you in my letter from his breast, and would have turned down the
candle. I snatched it away, however, and seized his arm. 'I'll not hold my
tongue!' I said; 'you mustn't touch him. Let the door remain shut, and be
quiet!'
"'No! I've formed my resolution, and
by God I'll execute it!' cried the desperate being. 'I'll do you a kindness in
spite of yourself, and Hareton justice! And you needn't trouble your head to
screen me; Catherine is gone. Nobody alive would regret me or be ashamed,
though I cut my throat this minute- and it's time to make an end!'
"I might as well have struggled with a
bear, or reasoned with a lunatic. The only resource left me was to run to a
lattice and warn his intended victim of the fate which awaited him.
"'You'd better seek shelter somewhere
else to-night!' I exclaimed in rather a triumphant tone. "Mr. Earnshaw has
a mind to shoot you, if you persist in endeavouring to enter.'
"'You'd better open the door, you-' he
answered, addressing me by some elegant term that I don't care to repeat.
"'I shall not meddle in the matter,' I
retorted again. 'Come in and get shot, if you please! I've done my duty.'
"With that I shut the window and
returned to my place by the fire; having too small a stock of hypocrisy at my
command to pretend any anxiety for the danger that menaced him. Earnshaw swore
passionately at me: affirming that I loved the villain yet; and calling me all
sorts of names for the base spirit I evinced. And I, in my secret heart (and
conscience never reproached me), thought what a blessing it would be for him
should Heathcliff put him out of misery; and what a blessing for me should he
send Heathcliff to his right abode! As I sat nursing these reflections, the
casement behind me was banged on to the floor by a blow from the latter
individual, and his black countenance looked blightingly through. The
stanchions stood too close to suffer his shoulders to follow, and I smiled,
exulting in my fancied security. His hair and clothes were whitened with snow,
and his sharp cannibal teeth, revealed by cold and wrath, gleamed through the
dark.
"'Isabella, let me in, or I'll make
you repent!' he 'grined,' as Joseph calls it.
"'I cannot commit murder,' I replied.
'Mr. Hindley stands sentinel with a knife and loaded pistol.'
"'Let me in by the kitchen door,' he
said.
"'Hindley will be there before you,' I
answered: 'and that's a poor love of yours that cannot bear a shower of snow!
We were left at peace on our beds as long as the summer moon shone, but the
moment a blast of winter returns, you must run for shelter! Heathcliff, if I
were you, I'd go stretch myself over her grave and die like a faithful dog. The
world is surely not worth living in now, is it? You had distinctly impressed on
me the idea that Catherine was the whole joy of your life: I can't imagine how
you think of surviving her loss.'
"'He's there, is he?' exclaimed my companion,
rushing to the gap. 'If I can get my arm out I can hit him!'
"I'm afraid, Ellen, you'll set me down
as really wicked; but you don't know all, so don't judge. I wouldn't have aided
or abetted an attempt on even his life for anything. Wish that he were dead, I
must; and therefore I was fearfully disappointed, and unnerved by terror for
the consequences of my taunting speech, when he flung himself on Earnshaw's
weapon and wrenched it from his grasp.
"'The charge exploded, and the knife,
in springing back, closed into its owner's wrist. Heathcliff pulled it away by
main force, slitting up the flesh as it passed on, and thrust it dripping into
his pocket. He then took a stone, struck down the division between two windows,
and sprang in. His adversary had fallen senseless with excessive pain and the
flow of blood that gushed from an artery or a large vein. The ruffian kicked
and trampled on him, and dashed his head repeatedly against the flags, holding
me with one hand, meantime, to prevent me summoning Joseph. He exerted
preterhuman self-denial in abstaining from finishing him completely; but
getting out of breath he finally desisted, and dragged the apparently inanimate
body on to the settle. There he tore off the sleeve of Earnshaw's coat, and
bound up the wound with brutal roughness; spitting and cursing during the
operation as energetically as he had kicked before. Being at liberty, I lost no
time in seeking the old servant; who, having gathered by degrees the purport of
my hasty tale, hurried below, gasping, as he descended the steps two at once.
"'What is ther to do, now? what it
ther to do, now?'
"'There's this to do,' thundered
Heathcliff, 'that your master's mad; and should he last another month, I'll
have him to an asylum. And how the devil did you come to fasten me out, you
toothless hound? Don't stand muttering and mumbling there. Come, I'm not going
to nurse him. Wash that stuff away; and mind the sparks of your candle- it is
more than half brandy!'
'And so, ye've been murthering on him?' exclaimed
Joseph, lifting his hands and eyes in horror. 'If iver I seed a seeght loike
this! May the Lord-'
"Heathcliff gave him a push on to his
knees in the middle of the blood, and flung a towel to him; but instead of
proceeding to dry it up, he joined his hands and began a prayer, which excited
my laughter from its odd phraseology. I was in the conditon of mind to be
shocked at nothing: in fact, I was as reckless as some malefactors show
themselves at the foot of the gallows.
"'Oh, I forgot you,' said the tyrant.
'You shall do that. Down with you. And you conspire with him against me. do
you, viper? There, that is work fit for you!'
"He shook me till my teeth rattled,
and pitched me beside Joseph who steadily concluded his supplications and then
rose, vowing he would set off for the Grange directly. Mr. Linton was a
magistrate, and though he had fifty wives dead, he should enquire into this. He
was so obstinate in his resolution, that Heathcliff deemed it expedient to
compel from my lips a recapitulation of what had taken place; standing over me,
heaving with malevolence, as I reluctantly delivered the account in answer to
his questions. It required a great deal of labour to satisfy the old man that
Heathcliff was not the aggressor; especially with my hardly-wrung replies.
However, Mr. Earnshaw soon convinced him that he was alive still; Joseph
hastened to administer a dose of spirits, and by their succour his master
presently regained motion and consciousness. Heathcliff, aware that his
opponent was ignorant of the treatment received while insensible, called him
deliriously intoxicated; and said he should not notice his atrocious conduct
further, but advised him to get to bed. To my joy, he left us, after giving
this judicious counsel, and Hindley stretched himself on the hearthstone. I
departed to my own room, marvelling that I had escaped so easily.
"This morning, when I came down, about
half-an-hour before noon, Mr. Earnshaw was sitting by the fire, deadly sick;
his evil genius, almost as gaunt and ghastly, leant against the chimney.
Neither appeared inclined to dine, and, having waited till all was cold on the
table, I commenced alone. Nothing hindered me from eating heartily, and I
experienced a certain sense of satisfaction and superiority, as, at intervals,
I cast a look towards my silent companions, and felt the comfort of a quiet
conscience within me. After I had done, I ventured on the unusual liberty of
drawing near the fire, going round Earnshaw's seat, and kneeling in the corner
beside him.
"Heathcliff did not glance my way, and
I gazed up, and contemplated his features almost as confidently as if they had
been turned to stone. His forehead, that I once thought so manly, and that I
now think so diabolical, was shaded with a heavy cloud; his basilisk eyes were
nearly quenched by sleeplessness, and weeping, perhaps, for the lashes were wet
then; his lips devoid of their ferocious sneer, were sealed in an expression of
unspeakable sadness. Had it been another, I would have covered my face in the presence
of such grief. In his case, I was gratified; and, ignoble as it seems to insult
a fallen enemy, I couldn't miss this chance of sticking in a dart: his weakness
was the only time when I could taste the delight of paying wrong for
wrong."
"Fie, fie, miss!" I interrupted.
"One might suppose you had never opened a Bible in your life. If God
afflict your enemies, surely that ought to suffice you. It is both mean and
presumptuous to add your torture to His!"
"In general I'll allow that it would
be, Ellen," she continued; "but what misery laid on Heathcliff could
content me, unless I have a hand in it? I'd rather he suffered less, if I might
cause his sufferings and he might know that I was the cause. Oh, I owe him so
much. On only one condition can I hope to forgive him. It is, if I may take an
eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth; for every wrench of agony return a wrench:
reduce him to my level. As he was the first to injure, make him the first to
implore pardon; and then- why then, Ellen, I might show you some generosity.
But it is utterly impossible I can ever be revenged, and therefore I cannot
forgive him. Hindley wanted some water, and I handed him a glass, and asked him
how he was.
"'Not as ill as I wish,' he replied.
'But leaving out my arm, every inch of me is as sore as if I had been fighting
with a legion of imps!'
"'Yes, no wonder,' was my next remark.
'Catherine used to boast that she stood between you and bodily harm: she meant
that certain persons would not hurt you for fear of offending her. It's well
people don't really rise from their grave, or, last night, she might have
witnessed a repulsive scene! Are not you bruised and cut over your chest and
shoulders?'
"'I can't say,' he answered: 'but what
do you mean? Did he dare to strike me when I was down?'
"'He trampled on and kicked you, and
dashed you on the ground,' I whispered. 'And his mouth watered to tear you with
his teeth; because he's only half man: not so much, and the rest fiend.'
"Mr. Earnshaw looked up, like me, to
the countenance of our mutual foe; who, absorbed in his anguish, seemed
insensible to anything around him: the longer he stood, the plainer his
reflections revealed their blackness through his features.
"'Oh, if God would but give me
strength to strangle him in my last agony, I'd go to hell with joy,' groaned
the impatient man, writhing to rise, and sinking back in despair, convinced of
his inadequacy for the struggle.
"'Nay, it's enough that he has
murdered one of you,' I observed aloud. 'At the Grange, every one knows your
sister would have been living now, had it not been for Mr. Heathcliff. After
all, it is preferable to be hated than loved by him. When I recollect how happy
we were- how happy Catherine was before he came- I'm fit to curse the day.'
"Most likely, Heathcliff noticed more
the truth of what was said, than the spirit of the person who said it. His
attention was roused, I saw, for his eyes rained down tears among the ashes,
and he drew his breath in suffocating sighs. I stared full at him, and laughed scornfully.
The clouded windows of hell flashed a moment towards me; the fiend which
usually looked out, however, was so dimmed and drowned that I did not fear to
hazard another sound of derision.
"'Get up, and begone out of my sight,'
said the mourner.
"I guessed he uttered those words, at
least, though his voice was hardly intelligible.
"'I beg your pardon,' I replied. 'But
I loved Catherine too; and her brother requires attendance, which, for her
sake, I shall supply. Now that she's dead, I see her in Hindley: Hindley has
exactly her eyes, if you had not tried to gouge them out, and made them black
and red; and her-'
"'Get up, wretched idiot, before I
stamp you to death!' he cried, making a movement that caused me to make one
also.
"'But then,' I continued, holding
myself ready to flee; 'if poor Catherine had trusted you, and assumed the
ridiculous, contemptible, degrading title of Mrs. Heathcliff, she would soon
have presented a similar picture! She wouldn't have borne your abominable
behaviour quietly: her detestation and disgust must have found voice.'
"The back of the settle and Earnshaw's
person interposed between me and him: so instead of endeavouring to reach me,
he snatched a dinner knife from the table and flung it at my head. It struck
beneath my ear, and stopped the sentence I was uttering; but, pulling it out, I
sprang to the door and delivered another; which I hope went a little deeper
than his missile. The last glimpse I caught of him was a furious rush on his
part, checked by the embrace of his host; and both fell locked together on the
hearth. In my flight through the kitchen I bid Joseph speed to his master; I
knocked over Hareton, who was hanging a litter of puppies from a chair-back in
the doorway; and, blest as a soul escaped from purgatory, I bounded, leaped,
and flew down the steep road; then, quitting its windings, shot direct across
the moor, rolling over banks, and wading through marshes: precipitating myself,
in fact, towards the beacon light of the Grange. And far rather would I be
condemned to a perpetual dwelling in the infernal regions, than, even for one
night, abide beneath the roof of Wuthering Heights again."
Isabella ceased speaking, and took a drink
of tea; then she rose, and bidding me put on her bonnet, and a great shawl I
had brought, and turning a deaf ear to my entreaties for her to remain another
hour, she stepped on to a chair, kissed Edgar's and Catherine's portraits,
bestowed a similar salute on me, and descended to the carriage, accompanied by
Fanny, who yelped wild with joy at recovering her mistress. She was driven
away, never to revisit this neighbourhood: but a regular correspondence was
established between her and my master when things were more settled. I believe
her new abode was in the south, near London; there she had a son born, a few
months subsequent to her escape. He was christened Linton, and, from the first,
she reported him to be an ailing, peevish creature.
Mr. Heathcliff, meeting me one day in the
village, enquired where she lived. I refused to tell. He remarked that it was
not of any moment, only she must beware of coming to her brother: she should
not be with him, if he had to keep her himself. Though I would give no
information, he discovered, through some of the other servants, both her place
of residence and the existence of the child. Still he didn't molest her: for
which forbearance she might thank his aversion, I suppose. He often asked about
the infant, when he saw me; and on hearing its name, smiled grimly, and
observed:
"They wish me to hate it too, do
they?"
"I don't think they wish you to know
anything about it," I answered.
"But I'll have it," he said,
"when I want it. They may reckon on that!"
Fortunately, its mother died before the
time arrived; some thirteen years after the decease of Catherine, when Linton
was twelve, or a little more.
On the day succeeding Isabella's unexpected
visit, I had no opportunity of speaking to my master: he shunned conversation,
and was fit for discussing nothing. When I could get him to listen, I saw it
pleased him that his sister had left her husband; whom he abhorred with an
intensity which the mildness of his nature would scarcely seem to allow. So
deep and sensitive was his aversion, that he refrained from going anywhere
where he was likely to see or hear of Heathcliff. Grief, and that together,
transformed him into a complete hermit: he threw up his office of magistrate,
ceased even to attend church, avoided the village on all occasions, and spent a
life of entire seclusion within the limits of his park and grounds; only varied
by solitary rambles on the moors, and visits to the grave of his wife, mostly
at evening, or early morning before other wanderers were abroad. But he was too
good to be thoroughly unhappy long. He didn't pray for Catherine's soul to
haunt him. Time brought resignation, and a melancholy sweeter than common joy.
He recalled her memory with ardent, tender love, and hopeful aspiring to the
better world; where he doubted not she was gone.
And he had earthly consolation and affections
also. For a few days I said he seemed regardless of the puny successor to the
departed: the coldness melted as fast as snow in April, and ere the tiny thing
could stammer a word or totter a step it wielded a despot's sceptre in his
heart. It was named Catherine; but he never called it the name in full, as he
had never called the first Catherine short; probably because Heathcliff had a
habit of doing so. The little one was always Cathy; it formed to him a
distinction from the mother, and yet a connection with her; and his attachment
sprang from its relation to her, far more than from its being his own.
I used to draw a comparison between him and
Hindley Earnshaw, and perplex myself to explain satisfactorily why their
conduct was so opposite in similar circumstances. They had both been fond
husbands, and were both attached to their children; and I could not see how
they shouldn't both have taken the same road, for good or evil. But, I thought
in my mind. Hindley, with apparently the stronger head, has shown himself sadly
the worse and the weaker man. When his ship struck, the captain abandoned his
post; and the crew, instead of trying to save her, rushed into riot and
confusion, leaving no hope for their luckless vessel. Linton, on the contrary,
displayed the true courage of a loyal and faithful soul: he trusted God; and
God comforted him. One hoped, and the other despaired: they chose their own
lots, and were righteously doomed to endure them. But you'll not want to hear
my moralising, Mr. Lockwood: you'll judge as well as I can, all these things:
at least, you'll think you will, and that's the same. The end of Earnshaw was
what might have been expected; it followed fast on his sister's: there was
scarcely six months between them. We, at the Grange, never got a very succinct
account of his state preceding it; all that I did learn, was on occasion of
going to aid in the preparations for the funeral. Mr. Kenneth came to announce
the event to my master.
"Well, Nelly," said he, riding
into the yard one morning, too early not to alarm me with an instant
presentiment of bad news, "it's yours and my turn to go into mourning at
present. Who's given us the slip now, do you think?"
"Who?" I asked in a flurry.
"Why, guess!" he returned,
dismounting, and slinging his bridle on a hook by the door. "And nip up
the corner of your apron: I'm certain you'll need it."
"Not Mr. Heathcliff, surely?" I
exclaimed.
"What! would you have tears for
him?" said the doctor. "No, Heathcliff's a tough young fellow: he
looks blooming today. I've just seen him. He's rapidly regaining flesh since he
lost his better half."
"Who is it then, Mr. Kenneth?" I
repeated impatiently.
"Hindley Earnshaw! Your old friend
Hindley," he replied, "and my wicked gossip: though he's been too
wild for me this long while. There! I said we should draw water. But cheer up.
He died true to his character: drunk as a lord. Poor lad! I'm sorry, too. One
can't help missing an old companion: though he had the worst tricks with him
that ever man imagined, and has done me many a rascally turn. He's barely
twenty-seven, it seems; that's your own age: who would have thought you were
born in one year?"
I confess this blow was greater to me than
the shock of Mrs. Linton's death: ancient associations lingered round my heart;
I sat down in the porch and wept as for a blood relation, desiring Mr. Kenneth
to get another servant to introduce him to the master. I could not hinder
myself from pondering on the question- "Had he had fair play?"
Whatever I did, that idea would bother me: it was so tiresomely pertinacious
that I resolved on requesting leave to go to Wuthering Heights, and assist in
the last duties to the dead. Mr. Linton was extremely reluctant to consent, but
I pleaded eloquently for the friendless condition in which he lay; and I said
my old master and foster-brother had a claim on my services as strong as his
own. Besides, I reminded him that the child Hareton was his wife's nephew, and,
in the absence of nearer kin, he ought to act as its guardian; and he ought to
and must enquire how the property was left, and look over the concerns of his
brother-in-law. He was unfit for attending to such matters then, but he bid me
speak to his lawyer; and at length permitted me to go. His lawyer had been
Earnshaw's also: I called at the village, and asked him to accompany me. He
shook his head, and advised that Heathcliff should be let alone; affirming, if
the truth were known, Hareton would be found little else than a beggar.
"His father died in debt," he
said; "the whole property is mortgaged, and the sole chance for the
natural heir is to allow him an opportunity of creating some interest in the
creditor's heart, that he may be inclined to deal leniently towards him."
When I reached the Heights, I explained
that I had come to see everything carried on decently; and Joseph, who appeared
in sufficient distress, expressed satisfaction at my presence. Mr. Heathcliff
said he did not perceive that I was wanted; but I might stay and order the
arrangements for the funeral, if I chose.
"Correctly," he remarked,
"that fool's body should be buried at the cross-roads, without ceremony of
any kind. I happened to leave him ten minutes yesterday afternoon, and in that
interval he fastened the two doors of the house against me, and he has spent
the night in drinking himself to death deliberately! We broke in this morning,
for we heard him snorting like a horse; and there he was, laid over the settle;
flaying and scalping would not have wakened him. I sent for Kenneth, and he
came; but not till the beast had changed into carrion: he was both dead and
cold, and stark; and so you'll allow it was useless making more stir about
him!"
The old servant confirmed this statement,
but muttered:
"I'd rayther he'd goan hisseln for t'
doctor! I sud ha' taen tent o' t' maister better nor him- and he warn't deead
when I left, naught o' t' soart!"
I insisted on the funeral being
respectable. Mr. Heathcliff said I might have my own way there too; only, he
desired me to remember that the money for the whole affair came out of his
pocket. He maintained a hard, careless deportment, indicative of neither joy
nor sorrow; if anything, it expressed a flinty gratification at a piece of
difficult work successfully executed. I observed once, indeed, something like exultation
in his aspect: it was just when the people were bearing the coffin from the
house. He had the hypocrisy to represent a mourner: and previous to following
Hareton, he lifted the unfortunate child on to the table and muttered, with
peculiar gusto, "Now, my bonny lad, you are mine! And we'll see if one
tree won't grow as crooked as another, with the same wind to twist it!"
The unsuspecting thing was pleased at this speech: he played with Heathcliff's
whiskers, and stroked his cheek; but I divined its meaning, and observed
tartly, "That boy must go back with me to Thrushcross Grange, sir. There
is nothing in the world less yours than he is!"
"Does Linton say so?" he
demanded.
"Of course- he has ordered me to take
him," I replied.
"Well," said the scoundrel,"
we'll not argue the subject now: but I have a fancy to try my hand at rearing a
young one; so intimate to your master that I must supply the place of this with
my own, if he attempt to remove it. I don't engage to let Hareton go undisputed;
but I'll be pretty sure to make the other come! Remember to tell him."
This hint was enough to bind my hands. I
repeated its substance on my return; and Edgar Linton, little interested at the
commencement, spoke no more of interfering. I'm not aware that he could have
done it to any purpose, had he been ever so willing.
The guest was now the master of Wuthering
Heights: he held firm possession, and proved to the attorney- who, in his turn,
proved it to Mr. Linton- that Earnshaw had mortgaged every yard of land he
owned, for cash to supply his mania for gaming; and he, Heathcliff, was the
mortgagee. In that manner Hareton, who should now be the first gentleman in the
neighbourhood, was reduced to a state of complete dependence on his father's
inveterate enemy; and lives in his own house as a servant, deprived of the
advantage of wages: quite unable to right himself, because of his
friendlessness, and his ignorance that he has been wronged.
Chapter 18 -
THE TWELVE years, continued Mrs. Dean,
following that dismal period, were the happiest of my life: my greatest
troubles in their passage rose from our little lady's trifling illnesses, which
she had to experience in common with all children, rich and poor. For the rest,
after the first six months, she grew like a larch and could walk and talk too,
in her own way, before the heath blossomed a second time over Mrs. Linton's
dust. She was the most winning thing that ever brought sunshine into a desolate
house: a real beauty in face, with the Earnshaw's handsome dark eyes, but the
Lintons'fair skin and small features, and yellow curling hair. Her spirit was
high, though not rough, and qualified by a heart sensitive and lively to excess
in its affections. That capacity for intense attachments reminded me of her
mother: still she did not resemble her; for she could be soft and mild as a
dove, and she had a gentle voice and pensive expression: her anger was never
furious; her love never fierce: it was deep and tender. However, it must be
acknowledged, she had faults to foil her gifts. A propensity to be saucy was
one; and a perverse will, that indulged children invariably acquire, whether
they be good-tempered or cross. If a servant chanced to vex her, it was always-
"I shall tell papa!" And if he reproved her, even by a look, you
would have thought it a heartbreaking business: I don't believe he ever did
speak a harsh word to her. He took her education entirely on himself, and made
it an amusement. Fortunately, curiosity and a quick intellect made her an apt
scholar: she learned rapidly and eagerly, and did honour to his teaching.
Till she reached the age of thirteen, she
had not once been beyond the range of the park by herself. Mr. Linton would
take her with him a mile or so outside, on rare occasions; but he trusted her to
no one else. Gimmerton was an unsubstantial name in her ears; the chapel, the
only building she had approached or entered, except her own home. Wuthering
Heights and Mr. Heathcliff did not exist for her: she was a perfect recluse;
and, apparently, perfectly contented. Sometimes, indeed, while surveying the
country from her nursery window, she would observe:
"Ellen, how long will it be before I
can walk to the top of those hills? I wonder what lies on the other side- is it
the sea?"
"No, Miss Cathy," I would answer;
"it is hills again, just like these."
"And what are those golden rocks like
when you stand under them?" she once asked.
The abrupt descent of Peniston Crags
particularly attracted her notice; especially when the setting sun shone on it
and the topmost heights, and the whole extent of landscape besides lay in
shadow. I explained that they were bare masses of stone, with hardly enough
earth in their clefts to nourish a stunted tree.
"And why are they bright so long after
it is evening here?" she pursued.
"Because they are a great deal higher
up than we are," replied I; "you could not climb them, they are too
high and steep. In winter the frost is always there before it comes to us; and
deep into summer I have found snow under that black hollow on the north-east
side!"
"Oh, you have been on them!" she
cried gleefully. "Then I can go, too, when I am a woman. Has papa been,
Ellen?"
"Papa would tell you, miss," I
answered hastily, "that they are not worth the trouble of visiting. The
moors, where you ramble with him, are much nicer; and Thrushcross Park is the
finest place in the world."
"But I know the park, and I don't know
those," she murmured to herself. "And I should delight to look round
me from the brow of that tallest point: my little pony Minny shall take me some
time."
One of the maids mentioning the Fairy Cave,
quite turned her head with a desire to fulfil this project: she teased Mr.
Linton about it; and he promised she should have the journey when she got
older. But Miss Catherine measured her age by months, and, "Now, am I old
enough to go to Peniston Crags?" was the constant question in her mouth.
The road thither wound close by Wuthering Heights. Edgar had not the heart to
pass it; so she received as constantly the answer, "Not yet, love: not
yet."
I said Mrs. Heathcliff lived about a dozen
years after quitting her husband. Her family were of a delicate constitution:
she and Edgar both lacked the ruddy health that you will generally meet in
these parts. What her last illness was, I am not certain: I conjecture, they
died of the same thing, a kind of fever, slow at its commencement, but
incurable, and rapidly consuming life towards the close. She wrote to inform
her brother of the probable conclusion of a four months' indisposition under
which she had suffered, and entreated him to come to her, if possible; for she
had much to settle, and she wished to bid him adieu, and deliver Linton safely
into his hands. Her hope was, that Linton might be left with him, as he had
been with her: his father, she would fain convince herself, had no desire to
assume the burden of his maintenance or education. My master hesitated not a
moment in complying with her request: reluctant as he was to leave home at
ordinary calls, he flew to answer this; commending Catherine to my peculiar
vigilance, in his absence, with reiterated orders that she must not wander out
of the park, even under my escort: he did not calculate on her going
unaccompanied.
He was away three weeks. The first day or
two, my charge sat in a corner of the library, too sad for either reading or
playing: in that quiet state she caused me little trouble; but it was succeeded
by an interval of impatient fretful weariness; and being too busy, and too old
then, to run up and down amusing her, I hit on a method by which she might
entertain herself I used to send her on her travels round the grounds- now on
foot, and now on a pony; indulging her with a patient audience of all her real
and imaginary adventures, when she returned.
The summer shone in full prime; and she
took such a taste for this solitary rambling that she often contrived to remain
out from breakfast till tea; and then the evenings were spent in recounting her
fanciful tales. I did not fear her breaking bounds; because the gates were
generally locked, and I thought she would scarcely venture forth alone, if they
had stood wide open. Unluckily, my confidence proved misplaced. Catherine came
to me, one morning, at eight o'clock, and said she was that day an Arabian
merchant, going to cross the Desert with his caravan; and I must give her
plenty of provision for herself and beasts: a horse, and three camels,
personated by a large hound and a couple of pointers. I got together a good
store of dainties, and slung them in a basket on one side of the saddle; and
she sprang up as gay as a fairy, sheltered by her wide-brimmed hat and gauze
veil from the July sun, and trotted off with a merry laugh, mocking my cautious
counsel to avoid galloping, and come back early. The naughty thing never made
her appearance at tea. One traveller, the hound, being an old dog and fond of
its ease, returned; but neither Cathy, nor the pony, nor the two pointers were
visible in any direction: I despatched emissaries down this path, and that
path, and at last went wandering in search of her myself. There was a labourer
working at a fence round a plantation, on the borders of the grounds I enquired
of him if he had seen our young lady.
"I saw her at morn," he replied;
"she would have me to cut her a hazel switch, and then she leapt her
Galloway over the hedge yonder, where it is lowest, and galloped out of
sight."
You may guess how I felt at hearing this
news. It struck me directly she must have started for Peniston Crags.
"What will become of her?" I ejaculated, pushing through a gap which
the man was repairing, and making straight for the highroad. I walked as if for
a wager, mile after mile, till a turn brought me in view of the Heights; but no
Catherine could I detect far or near. The Crags lie about a mile and a half
beyond Mr. Heathcliff's place, and that is four from the Grange, so I began to
fear night would fall ere I could reach them. "And what if she should have
slipped in clambering among them?" I reflected, "and been killed, or
broken some of her bones?" My suspense was truly painful; and, at first,
it gave me delightful relief to observe, in hurrying by the farmhouse, Charlie,
the fiercest of the pointers, lying under a window, with swelled head and
bleeding ear. I opened the wicket and ran to the door, knocking vehemently for
admittance. A woman whom I knew, and who formerly lived at Gimmerton, answered:
she had been servant there since the death of Mr. Earnshaw.
"Ah," said she, "you are
come a seeking your little mistress! don't be frightened. She's here safe: but
I'm glad it isn't the master."
"He is not at home then, is he?"
I panted, quite breathless with quick walking and alarm.
"No, no," she replied: "both
he and Joseph are off, and I think they won't return this hour or more. Step in
and rest you a bit."
I entered, and beheld my stray lamb seated
on the hearth, rocking herself in a little chair that had been her mother's
when a child. Her hat was hung against the wall, and she seemed perfectly at
home, laughing and chattering, in the best spirits imaginable, to Hareton- now
a great, strong lad of eighteen- who stared at her with considerable curiosity
and astonishment: comprehending precious little of the fluent succession of
remarks and questions which her tongue never ceased pouring forth.
"Very well, miss!" I exclaimed,
concealing my joy under an angry countenance. "This is your last ride,
till papa comes back. I'll not trust you over the threshold again, you naughty,
naughty girl!"
"Aha, Ellen!" she cried gaily,
jumping up and running to my side. "I shall have a pretty story to tell
to-night: and so you've found me out. Have you ever been here in your life
before?"
"Put that hat on, and home at
once," said I. "I'm dreadfully grieved at you, Miss Cathy: you've
done extremely wrong. It's no use pouting and crying: that won't repay the
trouble I've had, scouring the country after you. To think how Mr. Linton
charged me to keep you in; and you stealing off so! it shows you are a cunning
little fox, and nobody will put faith in you any more."
"What have I done?" sobbed she,
instantly checked. "Papa charged me nothing: he'll not scold me, Ellen-
he's never cross, like you!"
"Come, come!" I repeated.
"I'll tie the riband. Now, let us have no petulance. Oh, for shame! You
thirteen years old, and such a baby!"
This exclamation was caused by her pushing
the hat from her head, and retreating to the chimney out of my reach.
"Nay," said the servant,
"don't be hard on the bonny lass, Mrs. Dean. We made her stop: she'd fain
have ridden forwards, afeard you should be uneasy. Hareton offered to go with
her, and I thought he should: it's a wild road over the hills."
Hareton, during the discussion, stood with
his hands in his pockets, too awkward to speak; though he looked as if he did
not relish my intrusion.
"How long am I to wait?" I
continued, disregarding the woman's interference. "It will be dark in ten
minutes. Where is the pony, Miss Cathy? And where is Phoenix? I shall leave
you, unless you be quick; so please yourself."
"The pony is in the yard," she
replied, "and Phoenix is shut in there. He's bitten- and so is Charlie. I
was going to tell you all about it; but you are in a bad temper, and don't
deserve to hear."
I picked up her hat, and approached to
reinstate it; but perceiving that the people of the house took her part, she
commenced capering round the room; and on my giving chase, ran like a mouse
over and under and behind the furniture, rendering it ridiculous for me to
pursue. Hareton and the woman laughed, and she joined them, and waxed more
impertinent still; till I cried, in great irritation:
"Well, Miss Cathy, if you were aware
whose house this is, you'd be glad enough to get out."
"It's your father's, isn't it?"
said she, turning to Hareton.
"Nay," he replied, looking down,
and blushing bashfully. He could not stand a steady gaze from her eyes, though
they were just his own.
"Whose then- your master's?" she
asked.
He coloured deeper, with a different
feeling, muttered an oath, and turned away.
"Who is his master?" continued
the tiresome girl, appealing to me. "He talked about 'our house'and 'our
folk.' I thought he had been the owner's son. And he never said, Miss; he
should have done, shouldn't he, if he's a servant?"
Hareton grew black as a thundercloud, at
this childish speech. I silently shook my questioner, and at last succeeded in
equipping her for departure.
"Now, get my horse," she said,
addressing her unknown kinsman as she would one of the stable-boys at the
Grange. "And you may come with me. I want to see where the goblin-hunter
rises in the marsh, and to hear about the fairishes, as you call them: but make
haste! What's the matter? Get my horse, I say."
"I'll see thee damned before I be thy
servant!" growled the lad.
"You'll see me what?" asked
Catherine in surprise.
"Damned- thou saucy witch!" he
replied.
"There, Miss Cathy! you see you have
got into pretty company," I interposed. "Nice words to be used to a
young lady! pray don't begin to dispute with him. Come, let us seek for Minny
ourselves, and begone."
"But, Ellen," cried she, staring,
fixed in astonishment, "how dare he speak so to me? Mustn't he be made to
do as I ask him? You wicked creature, I shall tell papa what you said.- Now,
then!"
Hareton did not appear to feel this threat;
so the tears sprang into her eyes with indignation. "You bring the
pony," she exclaimed, turning to the woman, "and let my dog free this
moment!"
"Softly, miss," answered she
addressed: "you'll lose nothing by being civil. Though Mr. Hareton, there,
be not the master's son, he's your cousin; and I was never hired to serve
you."
"He my cousin!" cried Cathy, with
a scornful laugh.
"Yes, indeed," responded her
reprover.
"Oh, Ellen! don't let them say such
things," she pursued, in great trouble. "Papa is gone to fetch my
cousin from London: my cousin is a gentleman's son. That my"- she stopped,
and wept outright; upset at the bare mention of relationship with such a clown.
"Hush, hush!" I whispered,
"people can have many cousins, and of all sorts, Miss Cathy, without being
any the worse for it; only they needn't keep their company, if they be
disagreeable and bad."
"He's not- he's not my cousin,
Ellen!" she went on, gathering fresh grief from reflection, and flinging
herself into my arms for refuge from the idea.
I was much vexed at her and the servant for
their mutual revelations; having no doubt of Linton's approaching arrival,
communicated by the former, being reported to Mr. Heathcliff; and feeling as
confident that Catherine's first thought on her father's return, would be to seek
an explanation of the latter's assertion concerning her rude-bred kindred.
Hareton, recovering from his disgust at being taken for a servant, seemed moved
by her distress; and, having fetched the pony round to the door, he took, to
propitiate her, a fine crooked-legged terrier-whelp from the kennel, and
putting it into her hand bid her wisht! for he meant nought. Pausing in her
lamentations, she surveyed him with a glance of awe and horror, then burst
forth anew.
I could scarcely refrain from smiling at
this antipathy to the poor fellow; who was a well-made, athletic youth,
good-looking in features, and stout and healthy, but attired in garments
befitting his daily occupations of working on the farm, and lounging among the
moors after rabbits and game. Still, I thought I could detect in his
physiognomy a mind owning better qualities than his father ever possessed. Good
things lost amid a wilderness of weeds, to be sure, whose rankness far
overtopped their neglected growth; yet, notwithstanding, evidence of a wealthy
soil, that might yield luxuriant crops under other and favourable
circumstances. Mr. Heathcliff, I believe, had not treated him physically ill;
thanks to his fearless nature, which offered no temptation to that course of
oppression: he had none of the timid susceptibility that would have given zest
to ill-treatment, in Heathcliff's judgment. He appeared to have bent his
malevolence on making him a brute: he was never taught to read or write; never
rebuked for any bad habit which did not annoy his keeper; never led a single
step towards virtue, or guarded by a single precept against vice. And from what
I heard, Joseph contributed much to his deterioration, by a narrow-minded
partiality which prompted him to flatter and pet him, as a boy, because he was
the head of the old family. And as he had been in the habit of accusing
Catherine Earnshaw and Heathcliff, when children, of putting the master past
his patience, and compelling him to seek solace in drink by what he termed
their "offalld ways," so at present he laid the whole burden of
Hareton's faults on the shoulders of the usurper of his property. If the lad
swore, he wouldn't correct him; nor however culpably he behaved. It gave Joseph
satisfaction, apparently, to watch him go the worst lengths: he allowed that
the lad was ruined: that his soul was abandoned to perdition; but then, he
reflected that Heathcliff must answer for it. Hareton's blood would be required
at his hands; and there lay immense consolation in that thought. Joseph had
instilled into him a pride of name, and of his lineage; he would, had he dared,
have fostered hate between him and the present owner of the Heights: but his
dread of that owner amounted to superstition; and he confined his feelings
regarding him to muttered innuendoes and private comminations. I don't pretend
to be intimately acquainted with the mode of living customary in those days at
Wuthering Heights: I only speak from hearsay; for I saw little. The villagers
affirmed Mr. Heathcliff was near, and a cruel hard landlord to his tenants; but
the house, inside, had regained its ancient aspect of comfort under female
management, and the scenes of riot common in Hindley's time were not now
enacted within its walls. The master was too gloomy to seek companionship with any
people, good or bad; and he is yet.
This, however, is not making progress with
my story. Miss Cathy rejected the peace-offering of the terrier, and demanded
her own dogs, Charlie and Phoenix. They came limping, and hanging their heads;
and we set out for home, sadly out of sorts, every one of us. I could not wring
from my little lady how she had spent the day; except that, as I supposed, the
goal of her pilgrimage was Peniston Crags; and she arrived without adventure to
the gate of the farmhouse, when Hareton happened to issue forth, attended by
some canine followers, who attacked her train. They had a smart battle, before
their owners could separate them: that formed an introduction. Catherine told
Hareton who she was, and where she was going; and asked him to show her the
way: finally, beguiling him to accompany her. He opened the mysteries of the
Fairy Cave, and twenty other queer places. But, being in disgrace, I was not
favoured with a description of the interesting objects she saw. I could gather,
however, that her guide had been a favourite till she hurt his feelings by
addressing him as a servant; and Heathcliff's housekeeper hurt hers by calling
him her cousin. Then the language he had held to her rankled in her heart; she
who was always "love," and "darling," and
"queen," and "angel," with everybody at the Grange, to be
insulted so shockingly by a stranger! She did not comprehend it; and hard work
I had to obtain a promise that she would not lay the grievance before her
father. I explained how he objected to the whole household at the Heights, and
how sorry he would be to find she had been there; but I insisted most on the
fact, that if she revealed my negligence of his orders, he would perhaps be so
angry, that I should have to leave; and Cathy couldn't bear that prospect: she
pledged her word, and kept it, for my sake. After all, she was a sweet little
girl.
Chapter 19 -
A LETTER, edged in black, announced the day
of my master's return. Isabella was dead; and he wrote to bid me get mourning
for his daughter, and arrange a room, and other accommodations, for his
youthful nephew. Catherine ran wild with joy at the idea of welcoming her
father back; and indulged most sanguine anticipations of the innumerable
excellences of her "real" cousin. The evening of their expected
arrival came. Since early morning, she had been busy ordering her own small
affairs; and now, attired in her new black frock- poor thing! her aunt's death
impressed her with no definite sorrow- she obliged me, by constant worrying, to
walk with her down through the grounds to meet them.
"Linton is just six months younger
than I am," she chattered, as we strolled leisurely over the swells and
hollows of mossy turf, under shadow of the trees. "How delightful it will
be to have him for a play-fellow! Aunt Isabella sent papa a beautiful lock of
his hair; it was lighter than mine- more flaxen, and quite as fine. I have it
carefully preserved in a little glass box: and I've often thought what pleasure
it would be to see its owner. Oh! I am happy- and papa, dear, dear papa! Come,
Ellen, let us run! come, run."
She ran, and returned and ran again many
times before my sober footsteps reached the gate, and then she seated herself
on the grassy bank beside the path, and tried to wait patiently; but that was
impossible: she couldn't be still a minute.
"How long they are!" she
exclaimed. "Ah, I see some dust on the road- they are coming? No! When
will they be here? May we not go a little way- half a mile, Ellen: only just
half a mile? Do say yes: to that clump of birches at the turn!"
I refused staunchly. At length her suspense
was ended: the travelling carriage rolled in sight. Miss Cathy shrieked and
stretched out her arms, as soon as she caught her father's face looking from
the window. He descended, nearly as eager as herself: and a considerable
interval elapsed ere they had a thought to spare for any but themselves. While
they exchanged caresses, I took a peep in to see after Linton. He was asleep in
a corner, wrapped in a warm, fur-lined cloak, as if it had been winter. A pale,
delicate, effeminate boy, who might have been taken for my master's younger
brother so strong was the resemblance: but there was a sickly peevishness in
his aspect, that Edgar Linton never had. The latter saw me looking; and having
shaken hands, advised me to close the door, and leave him undisturbed; for the
journey had fatigued him. Cathy would fain have taken one glance, but her
father told her to come, and they walked together up the park, while I hastened
before to prepare the servants.
"Now darling" said Mr. Linton,
addressing his daughter, as they halted at the bottom of the front steps;
"your cousin is not so strong or merry as you are, and he has lost his
mother, remember, a very short time since; therefore, don't expect him to play
and run about with you directly. And don't harass him much by talking: let him
be quiet this evening, at least, will you?"
"Yes, yes, papa," answered
Catherine: "but I do want to see him; and he hasn't once looked out."
The carriage stopped; and the sleeper being
roused, was lifted to the ground by his uncle.
"This is your cousin Cathy,
Linton," he said, putting their little hands together. "She's fond of
you already; and mind you don't grieve her by crying to-night. Try to be cheerful
now; the travelling is at an end, and you have nothing to do but rest and amuse
yourself as you please."
"Let me go to bed, then,"
answered the boy, shrinking from Catherine's salute; and he put up his fingers
to remove incipient tears.
"Come, come, there's a good
child," I whispered, leading him in. "You'll make her weep too- see
how sorry she is for you!"
I do not know whether it was sorrow for
him, but his cousin put on as sad a countenance as himself, and returned to her
father. All three entered, and mounted to the library, where tea was laid
ready. I proceeded to remove Linton's cap and mantle, and placed him on a chair
by the table; but he was no sooner seated than he began to cry afresh. My
master enquired what was the matter.
"I can't sit on a chair," sobbed
the boy.
"Go to the sofa, then, and Ellen shall
bring you some tea," answered his uncle patiently.
He had been greatly tried during the
journey, I felt convinced, by his fretful ailing charge. Linton slowly trailed
himself off, and lay down. Cathy carried a footstool and her cup to his side.
At first she sat silent; but that could not last: she had resolved to make a
pet of her little cousin, as she would have him to be; and she commenced
stroking his curls, and kissing his cheek, and offering him tea in her saucer,
like a baby. This pleased him, for he was not much better: he dried his eyes,
and lightened into a faint smile.
"Oh, he'll do very well," said
the master to me, after watching them a minute. "Very well, if we can keep
him, Ellen. The company of a child of his own age will instil new spirit into
him soon, and by wishing for strength he'll gain it."
"Ay, if we can keep him!" I mused
to myself; and sore misgivings came over me that there was slight hope of that.
And then, I thought, however will that weakling live at Wuthering Heights?
Between his father and Hareton, what playmates and instructors they'll be. Our
doubts were presently decided- even earlier than I expected. I had just taken
the children upstairs, after tea was finished, and seen Linton asleep- he would
not suffer me to leave him till that was the case- I had come down, and was
standing by the table in the hall, lighting a bedroom candle for Mr. Edgar,
when a maid stepped out of the kitchen and informed me that Mr. Heathcliff's
servant Joseph was at the door, and wished to speak with the master.
"I shall ask him what he wants
first," I said, in considerable trepidation. "A very unlikely hour to
be troubling people, and the instant they have returned from a long journey. I
don't think the master can see him."
Joseph had full advanced through the
kitchen as I uttered these words, and now presented himself in the hall. He was
donned in his Sunday garments, with his most sanctimonious and sourest face,
and, holding his hat in one hand and his stick in the other, he proceeded to
clean his shoes on the mat.
"Good evening, Joseph," I said
coldly. "What business brings you here to-night?"
"It's Maister Linton I mun spake
to," he answered, waving me disdainfully aside.
"Mr. Linton is going to bed; unless
you have something particular to say, I'm sure he won't hear it now," I
continued. "You had better sit down in there, and entrust your message to
me."
"Which is his rahm?" pursued the
fellow, surveying the range of closed doors.
I perceived he was bent on refusing my
mediation, so very reluctantly I went up to the library, and announced the
unseasonable visitor, advising that he should be dismissed till next day. Mr.
Linton had not time to empower me to do so, for Joseph mounted close at my
heels, and pushing into the apartment, planted himself at the far side of the
table, with his two fists clapped on the head of his stick, and began in an
elevated tone, as if anticipating opposition:
"Hathecliff has sent me for his lad, and
I munn't go back 'bout him."
Edgar Linton was silent a minute; an
expression of exceeding sorrow overcast his features: he would have pitied the
child on his own account; but, recalling Isabella's hopes and fears, and
anxious wishes for her son, and her commendations of him to his care, he
grieved bitterly at the prospect of yielding him up, and searched in his heart
how it might be avoided. No plan offered itself: the very exhibition of any
desire to keep him would have rendered the claimant more peremptory: there was
nothing left but to resign him. However, he was not going to rouse him from his
sleep.
"Tell Mr. Heathcliff," he
answered calmly, "that his son shall come to Wuthering Heights to-morrow.
He is in bed, and too tired to go the distance now. You may also tell him that
the mother of Linton desired him to remain under my guardianship; and, at
present, his health is very precarious."
"Noa!" said Joseph, giving a thud
with his prop on the floor, and assuming an authoritative air; "nao! that
means naught. Hathecliff maks noa'count o' t' mother, nor ye norther; but he'll
hey his lad; und I mun tak him- soa now ye knaw!"
"You shall not to-night!"
answered Linton decisively. "Walk downstairs at once, and repeat to your
master what I have said. Ellen, show him down. Go-"
And, aiding the indignant elder with a lift
by the arm, he rid the room of him, and closed the door.
"Varrah weell!" shouted Joseph,
as he slowly drew off. "To-morn, he's come hisseln, and thrust him out, if
ye darr!"
Chapter 20 -
TO OBVIATE the danger of this threat being
fulfilled, Mr. Linton commissioned me to take the boy home early, on
Catherine's pony; and, said he: "As we shall now have no influence over
his destiny, good or bad, you must say nothing of where he is gone, to my
daughter: she cannot associate with him hereafter, and it is better for her to
remain in ignorance of his proximity; lest she should be restless, and anxious
to visit the Heights. Merely tell her that his father sent for him suddenly,
and he has been obliged to leave us." Linton was very reluctant to be
roused from his bed at five o'clock, and quite astonished to be informed that
he must prepare for further travelling; but I softened off the matter by
stating that he was going to spend some time with his father, Mr. Heathcliff,
who wished to see him so much, he did not like to defer the pleasure till he
should recover from his late journey.
"My father!" he cried, in strange
perplexity. "Mamma never told me I had a father. Where does he live? I'd
rather stay with uncle."
"He lives a little distance from the
Grange," I replied; "just beyond those hills: not so far, but you may
walk over here when you get hearty. And you should be glad to go home, and to
see him. You must try to love him, as you did your mother, and then he will
love you."
"But why have I not heard of him
before?" asked Linton. "Why didn't mamma and he live together, as
other people do?"
"He had business to keep him in the
north," I answered, "and your mother's health required her to reside
in the south."
"And why didn't mamma speak to me
about him?" persevered the child. "She often talked of uncle, and I
learnt to love him long ago. How am I to love papa? I don't know him."
"Oh, all children love their
parents," I said. "Your mother, perhaps, thought you would want to be
with him if she mentioned him often to you. Let us make haste. An early ride on
such a beautiful morning is much preferable to an hour's more sleep."
"Is she to go with us," he
demanded: "the little girl I saw yesterday?"
"Not now," replied I.
"Is uncle?" he continued.
"No, I shall be your companion
there," I said.
Linton sank back on his pillow and fell
into a brown study.
"I won't go without uncle," he
cried at length: "I can't tell where you mean to take me."
I attempted to persuade him of the
naughtiness of showing reluctance to meet his father; still he obstinately
resisted any progress towards dressing, and I had to call for my master's
assistance in coaxing him out of bed. The poor thing was finally got off, with
several delusive assurances that his absence should be short; that Mr. Edgar
and Cathy would visit him, and other promises, equally ill-founded, which I
invented and reiterated at intervals throughout the way. The pure
heather-scented air, the bright sunshine, and the gentle canter of Minny,
relieved his despondency after a while. He began to put questions concerning
his new home, and its inhabitants, with greater interest and liveliness.
"Is Wuthering Heights as pleasant a
place as Thrushcross Grange?" he enquired, turning to take a last glance
into the valley, whence a light mist mounted and formed a fleecy cloud on the
skirts of the blue.
"It is not so buried in trees," I
replied, "and it is not quite so large, but you can see the country
beautifully all round; and the air is healthier for you- fresher and dryer. You
will, perhaps, think the building old and dark at first; though it is a
respectable house: the next best in the neighbourhood. And you will have such
nice rambles on the moors. Hareton Earnshaw- that is Miss Cathy's other cousin,
and so yours in a manner- will show you all the sweetest spots; and you can
bring a book in fine weather, and make a green hollow your study; and, now and
then, your uncle may join you in a walk: he does, frequently, walk out on the
hills."
"And what is my father like?" he
asked. "Is he as young and handsome as uncle?"
"He's as young," said I;
"but he has black hair and eyes, and looks sterner; and he is taller and
bigger altogether. He'll not seem to you so gentle and kind at first, perhaps,
because it is not his way: still, mind you, be frank and cordial with him; and
naturally he'll be fonder of you than any uncle, for you are his own."
"Black hair and eyes!" mused
Linton. "I can't fancy him. Then I am not like him, am I?"
"Not much," I answered: not a
morsel, I thought, surveying with regret the white complexion and slim frame of
my companion, and his large languid eyes- his mother's eyes, save that, unless
a morbid touchiness kindled them a moment they had not a vestige of her
sparkling spirit.
"How strange that he should never come
to see mamma and me!" he murmured. "Has he ever seen me? If he has, I
must have been a baby. I remember not a single thing about him!"
"Why, Master Linton," said I,
"three hundred miles is a great distance; and ten years seem very
different in length to a grown-up person compared with what they do to you. It
is probable Mr. Heathcliff proposed going from summer to summer, but never
found a convenient opportunity; and now it is too late. Do not trouble him with
questions on the subject: it will disturb him, for no good."
The boy was fully occupied with his own
cogitations for the remainder of the ride, till we halted before the farmhouse
garden gate. I watched to catch his impressions in his countenance. He surveyed
the carved front and low-browed lattices, the straggling gooseberry bushes and
crooked firs, with solemn intentness, and then shook his head: his private
feelings entirely disapproved of the exterior of his new abode. But he had
sense to postpone complaining: there might be compensation within. Before he
dismounted, I went and opened the door. It was half-past six; the family had
just finished breakfast; the servant was clearing and wiping down the table.
Joseph stood by his master's chair telling some tale concerning a lame horse;
and Hareton was preparing for the hay field.
"Hallo, Nelly!" said Mr.
Heathcliff, when he saw me, "I feared I should have to come down and fetch
my property myself. You've brought it, have you? Let us see what we can make of
it."
He got up and strode to the door. Hareton
and Joseph followed in gaping curiosity. Poor Linton ran a frightened eye over
the faces of the three.
"Surely," said Joseph, after a
grave inspection, "he's swopped wi' ye, maister, an' yon's his lass!"
Heathcliff, having stared his son into an
ague of confusion, uttered a scornful laugh.
"God! what a beauty! what a lovely,
charming thing!" he exclaimed. "Haven't they reared it on snails and
sour milk, Nelly? Oh, damn my soul! but that's worse than I expected- and the
devil knows I was not sanguine!"
I bid the trembling and bewildered child
get down, and enter. He did not thoroughly comprehend the meaning of his
father's speech, or whether it were intended for him: indeed, he was not yet
certain that the grim, sneering stranger was his father. But he clung to me
with growing trepidation; and on Mr. Heathcliff's taking a seat and bidding him
"come hither," he hid his face on my shoulder and wept.
"Tut, tut!" said Heathcliff,
stretching out a hand and dragging him roughly between his knees, and then
holding up his head by the chin. "None of that nonsense! We're not going
to hurt thee, Linton- isn't that thy name? Thou art thy mother's child,
entirely! Where is my share in thee, puling chicken?"
He took off the boy's cap and pushed back
his thick flaxen curls, felt his slender arms and his small fingers; during
which examination, Linton ceased crying, and lifted his great blue eyes to
inspect the inspector.
"Do you know me?" asked
Heathcliff, having satisfied himself that the limbs were all equally frail and
feeble.
"No," said Linton, with a gaze of
vacant fear.
"You've heard of me, I dare say?"
"No," he replied again.
"No! What a shame of your mother,
never to waken your filial regard for me! You are my son, then, I'll tell you;
and your mother was a wicked slut to leave you in ignorance of the sort of
father you possessed. Now, don't wince, and colour up! Though it is something
to see you have not white blood. Be a good lad; and I'll do for you. Nelly, if
you be tired you may sit down; if not, get home again. I guess you'll report
what you hear and see to the cipher at the Grange; and this thing won't be
settled while you linger about it."
"Well," replied I, "I hope
you'll be kind to the boy, Mr. Heathcliff, or you'll not keep him long; and
he's all you have akin in the wide world, that you will ever know-
remember."
"I'll be very kind to him, you needn't
fear," he said, laughing. "Only nobody else must be kind to him: I'm
jealous of monopolising his affection. And, to begin my kindness, Joseph, bring
the lad some breakfast. Hareton, you infernal calf, begone to your work. Yes,
Nell," he added, when they had departed, "my son is prospective owner
of your place, and I should not wish him to die till I was certain of being his
successor. Besides he's mine, and I want the triumph of seeing my descendant
fairly lord of their estates: my child hiring their children to till their
father's land for wages. That is the sole consideration which can make me
endure the whelp: I despise him for himself, and hate him for the memories he
revives! But that consideration is sufficient: he's as safe with me, and shall
be tended as carefully as your master tends his own. I have a room upstairs,
furnished for him in handsome style: I've engaged a tutor, also, to come three
times a week, from twenty miles distance, to teach him what he pleases to
learn. I've ordered Hareton to obey him; and in fact I've arranged everything
with a view to preserve the superior and the gentleman in him above his
associates. I do regret, however, that he so little deserves the trouble: if I
wished any blessing in the world it was to find him a worthy object of pride;
and I'm bitterly disappointed with the whey-faced whining wretch!"
While he was speaking, Joseph returned,
bearing a basin of milk-porridge, and placed it before Linton; who stirred
round the homely mess with a look of aversion, and affirmed that he could not
eat it. I saw the old manservant shared largely in his master's scorn of the
child; though he was compelled to retain the sentiment in his heart, because
Heathcliff plainly meant his underlings to hold him in honour.
"Cannot ate it?" repeated he,
peering in Linton's face, and subduing his voice to a whisper, for fear of
being overheard. "But Maister Hareton nivir ate naught else, when he wer a
little un; and what wer gooid eneugh for him's good eneugh for ye, I's rayther
think!"
"I shan't eat it!" answered
Linton snappishly. "Take it away."
Joseph snatched up the food indignantly,
and brought it to us.
"Is there aught ails th'
victuals?" he asked thrusting the tray under Heathcliff's nose.
"What should all them?" he said.
"Wah!" answered Joseph, "yon
dainty chap says he cannut ate 'em. But I guess it's raight! His mother wer
just soa- we wer a'most too mucky to sow t' corn for makking her breead."
"Don't mention his mother to me,"
said the master angrily. "Get him something that he can eat, that's all.
What is his usual food, Nelly?"
I suggested boiled milk or tea; and the
housekeeper received instructions to prepare some. Come, I reflected, his
father's selfishness may contribute to his comfort. He perceives his delicate
constitution, and the necessity of treating him tolerably. I'll console Mr.
Edgar by acquainting him with the turn Heathcliff's humour has taken. Having no
excuse for lingering longer I slipped out, while Linton was engaged in timidly
rebuffing the advances of a friendly sheep-dog. But he was too much on the
alert to be cheated: as I closed the door, I heard a cry, and a frantic
repetition of the words:
"Don't leave me! I'll not stay here!
I'll not stay here!"
Then the latch was raised and fell: they
did not suffer him to come forth. I mounted Minny, and urged her to a trot; and
so my brief guardianship ended.
Chapter 21 -
WE HAD sad work with little Cathy that day;
she rose in high glee, eager to join her cousin, and such passionate tears and
lamentations followed the news of his departure, that Edgar himself was obliged
to soothe her, by affirming he should come back soon: he added, however,
"if I can get him"; and there were no hopes of that. This promise
poorly pacified her: but time was more potent; and though still at intervals
she enquired of her father when Linton would return, before she did see him
again his features had waxed so dim in her memory that she did not recognize
him.
When I chanced to encounter the housekeeper
of Wuthering Heights in paying business-visits to Gimmerton, I used to ask how
the young master got on; for he lived almost as secluded as Catherine herself,
and was never to be seen. I could gather from her that he continued in weak
health, and was a tiresome inmate. She said Mr. Heathcliff seemed to dislike
him ever longer and worse, though he took some trouble to conceal it: he had an
antipathy to the sound of his voice, and could not do at all with his sitting
in the same room with him many minutes together. There seldom passed much talk
between them: Linton learnt his lessons and spent his evenings in a small
apartment they called the parlour: or else lay in bed all day: for he was
constantly getting coughs, and colds, and aches, and pains of some sort.
"And I never knew such a faint-hearted
creature," added the woman; "nor one so careful of hisseln. He will
go on, if I leave the window open a bit late in the evening. Oh! it's killing!
a breath of night air! And he must have a fire in the middle of summer; and
Joseph's bacca pipe is poison; and he must always have sweets and dainties, and
always milk, milk for ever- heeding naught how the rest of us are pinched in
winter; and there he'll sit, wrapped in his furred cloak in his chair by the
fire, with some toast and water or other slop on the hob to sip at; and if
Hareton, for pity, comes to amuse him- Hareton is not bad-natured, though he's
rough- they're sure to part, one swearing and the other crying. I believe the
master would relish Earnshaw's thrashing him to a mummy, if he were not his
son; and I'm certain he would be fit to turn him out of doors, if he knew half
the nursing he gives hisseln. But then, he won't go into danger of temptation:
he never enters the parlour, and should Linton show those ways in the house
where he is, he sends him upstairs directly."
I divined, from this account, that utter
lack of sympathy had rendered young Heathcliff selfish and disagreeable, if he
were not so originally; and my interest in him, consequently, decayed: though
still I was moved with a sense of grief at his lot, and a wish that he had been
left with us. Mr. Edgar encouraged me to gain information: he thought a great
deal about him, I fancy, and would have run some risk to see him; and he told
me once to ask the housekeeper whether he ever came into the village? She said
he had only been twice, on horseback, accompanying his father, and both times
he pretended to be quite knocked up for three or four days afterwards. The
housekeeper left, if I recollect rightly, two years after he came; and another,
whom I did not know, was her successor: she lives there still.
Time wore on at the Grange in its former
pleasant way, till Miss Cathy reached sixteen. On the anniversary of her birth
we never manifested any signs of rejoicing, because it was also the anniversary
of my late mistress's death. Her father invariably spent that day alone in the
library; and walked, at dusk, as far as Gimmerton kirkyard, where he would
frequently prolong his stay beyond midnight. Therefore Catherine was thrown on
her own resources for amusement. This 20th of March was a beautiful spring day,
and when her father had retired, my young lady came down dressed for going out,
and said she asked to have a ramble on the edge of the moor with me: Mr. Linton
had given her leave, if we went only a short distance and were back within the
hour.
"So make haste, Ellen!" she
cried. "I know where I wish to go; where a colony of moor game are
settled: I want to see whether they have made their nests yet."
"That must be a good distance
up," I answered; "they don't breed on the edge of the moor."
"No, it's not," she said.
"I've gone very near with papa."
I put on my bonnet and sallied out,
thinking nothing more of the matter. She bounded before me, and returned to my
side, and was off again like a young greyhound; and, at first, I found plenty
of entertainment in listening to the larks singing far and near, and enjoying
the sweet, warm sunshine; and watching her, my pet, and my delight, with her
golden ringlets flying loose behind and her bright cheek, as soft and pure in
its bloom as a wild rose, and her eyes radiant with cloudless pleasure. She was
a happy creature, and an angel, in those days. It's a pity she could not be
content.
"Well," said I, "where are
your moor-game, Miss Cathy? We should be at them: the Grange park-fence is a
great way off now."
"Oh a little further- only a little
further, Ellen," was her answer continually. "Climb to that hillock,
pass that bank and by the time you reach the other side I shall have raised the
birds."
But there were so many hillocks and banks
to climb and pass, that, at length, I began to be weary, and told her we must
halt, and retrace our steps, I shouted to her as she had outstripped me a long
way; she either did not hear or did not regard for she still sprang on, and I
was compelled to follow. Finally, she dived into a hollow; and before I came in
sight of her again, she was two miles nearer Wuthering Heights than her own
home; and I beheld a couple of persons arrest her, one of whom I felt convinced
was Mr. Heathcliff himself.
Cathy had been caught in the act of
plundering, or at least, hunting out the nests of the grouse. The Heights were
Heathcliff's land, and he was reproving the poacher.
"I've neither taken any nor found
any," she said, as I toiled to them, expanding her hands in corroboration
of the statement. "I didn't mean to take them; but papa told me there were
quantities up here, and I wished to see the eggs."
Heathcliff glanced at me with an
ill-meaning smile, expressing his acquaintance with the party, and,
consequently, his malevolence towards it, and demanded who "papa"
was.
"Mr. Linton of Thrushcross
Grange," she replied. "I thought you did not know me, or you wouldn't
have spoken in that way."
"You suppose papa is highly esteemed
and respected then?" he said sarcastically.
"And what are you?" enquired
Catherine, gazing curiously on the speaker. "That man I've seen before. Is
he your son?"
She pointed to Hareton, the other
individual, who had gained nothing but increased bulk and strength by the
addition of two years to his age: he seemed as awkward and rough as ever.
"Miss Cathy," I interrupted,
"it will be three hours instead of one that we are out, presently. We
really must go back."
"No, that man is not my son,"
answered Heathcliff, pushing me aside. "But I have one, and you have seen
him before too; and, though your nurse is in a hurry, I think both you and she
would be the better for a little rest. Will you just turn this nab of heath,
and walk into my house? You'll get home earlier for the ease; and you shall
receive a kind welcome."
I whispered to Catherine that she musn't,
on my account, accede to the proposal: it was entirely out of the question.
"Why?" she asked, aloud. "I'm tired of running, and the ground
is dewy: I can't sit here. Let us go, Ellen. Besides, he says I have seen his
son. He's mistaken, I think; but I guess where he lives: at the farmhouse I
visited in coming from Peniston Crags. Don't you?"
"I do. Come, Nelly, hold your tongue-
it will be a treat for her to look in on us. Hareton, get forwards with the
lass. You shall walk with me, Nelly."
"No, she's not going to any such
place," I cried, struggling to release my arm, which he had seized: but
she was almost at the door-stones already, scampering round the brow at full
speed. Her appointed companion did not pretend to escort her: he shied off by
the road-side and vanished.
"Mr. Heathcliff, it's very
wrong," I continued: "you know you mean no good. And there she'll see
Linton, and all will be told as soon as ever we return; and I shall have the
blame."
"I want her to see Linton," he
answered; "he's looking better these few days: it's not often he's fit to
be seen. And we'll soon persuade her to keep the visit secret: where is the
harm of it?"
"The harm of it is, that her father
would hate me if he found I suffered her to enter your house; and I am
convinced you have a bad design in encouraging her to do so," I replied.
"My design is as honest as possible.
I'll inform you of its whole scope," he said. "That the two cousins
may fall in love, and get married. I'm acting generously to your master: his
young chit has no expectations, and should she second my wishes, she'll be
provided for at once as joint successor with Linton."
"If Linton died," I answered,
"and his life is quite uncertain, Catherine would be the heir."
"No, she would not," he said.
"There is no clause in the will to secure it so: his property would go to
me; but, to prevent disputes, I desire their union, and am resolved to bring it
about."
"And I'm resolved she shall never
approach your house with me again," I returned, as we reached the gate,
where Miss Cathy waited our coming.
Heathcliff bade me be quiet; and, preceding
us up the path, hastened to open the door. My young lady gave him several
looks, as if she could not exactly make up her mind what to think of him; but
now he smiled when he met her eye, and softened his voice in addressing her;
and I was foolish enough to imagine the memory of her mother might disarm him
from desiring her injury. Linton stood on the hearth. He had been out walking
in the fields, for his cap was on, and he was calling to Joseph to bring him
dry shoes. He had grown tall of his age, still wanting some months of sixteen.
His features were pretty yet, and his eye and complexion brighter than I
remembered them, though with merely temporary lustre borrowed from the
salubrious air and genial sun.
"Now, who is that?" asked Mr.
Heathcliff, turning to Cathy. "Can you tell?"
"Your son?" she said, having
doubtfully surveyed, first one and then the other.
"Yes, yes," answered he:
"but is this the only time you have beheld him? Think! Ah! you have a
short memory. Linton, don't you recall your cousin, that you used to tease us
so with wishing to see?"
"What, Linton!" cried Cathy,
kindling into joyful surprise at the name. "Is that little Linton? He's
taller than I am! Are you Linton?"
The youth stepped forward, and acknowledged
himself: she kissed him fervently, and they gazed with wonder at the change
time had wrought in the appearance of each. Catherine had reached her full
height; her figure was both plump and slender, elastic as steel, and her whole
aspect sparkling with health and spirits. Linton's looks and movements were
very languid, and his form extremely slight; but there was a grace in his
manner that mitigated these defects, and rendered him not unpleasing. After
exchanging numerous marks of fondness with him, his cousin went to Mr.
Heathcliff, who lingered by the door, dividing his attention between the
objects inside and those that lay without: pretending, that is, to observe the
latter, and really noting the former alone.
"And you are my uncle, then!" she
cried, reaching up to salute him. "I thought I liked you, though you were
cross at first. Why don't you visit at the Grange with Linton? To live all
these years such close neighbours, and never see us, is odd: what have you done
so for?"
"I visited it once or twice too often
before you were born," he answered. "There- damn it! If you have any
kisses to spare, give them to Linton: they are thrown away on me."
"Naughty Ellen!" exclaimed
Catherine, flying to attack me next with her lavish caresses. "Wicked
Ellen! to try to hinder me from entering. But I'll take this walk every morning
in future: may I, uncle? and sometimes bring papa. Won't you be glad to see
us?"
"Of course!" replied the uncle,
with a hardly suppressed grimace, resulting from his deep aversion to both the
proposed visitors. "But stay," he continued, turning towards the
young lady. "Now I think of it, I'd better tell you. Mr. Linton has a
prejudice against me: we quarrelled at one time of our lives, with unchristian
ferocity; and, if you mention coming here to him, he'll put a veto on your
visits altogether. Therefore, you must not mention it, unless you be careless
of seeing your cousin hereafter: you may come, if you will, but you must not
mention it."
"Why did you quarrel?" asked
Catherine, considerably crestfallen.
"He thought me too poor to wed his
sister," answered Heathcliff, "and was grieved that I got her: his
pride was hurt, and he'll never forgive it."
"That's wrong!" said the young
lady: "some time, I'll tell him so. But Linton and I have no share in your
quarrel. I'll not come here, then; he shall come to the Grange."
"It will be too far for me,"
murmured her cousin: "to walk four miles would kill me. No, come here,
Miss Catherine, now and then: not every morning, but once or twice a
week."
The father launched towards his son a
glance of bitter contempt.
"I am afraid, Nelly, I shall lose my
labour," he muttered to me. "Miss Catherine, as the ninny calls her,
will discover his value, and send him to the devil. Now if it had been
Hareton!- Do you know that, twenty times a day, I covet Hareton, with all his
degradation? I'd have loved the lad had he been some one else. But I think he's
safe from her love. I'll pit him against that paltry creature, unless it bestir
itself briskly. We calculate it will scarcely last till it is eighteen. Oh,
confound the vapid thing! He's absorbed in drying his feet, and never looks at
her- Linton!"
"Yes, father," answered the boy.
"Have you nothing to show your cousin
anywhere about? not even a rabbit or a weasel's nest? Take her into the garden,
before you change your shoes; and into the stable to see your horse."
"Wouldn't you rather sit here?"
asked Linton, addressing Cathy in a tone which expressed reluctance to move
again.
"I don't know," she replied,
casting a longing look to the door, and evidently eager to be active.
He kept his seat, and shrank closer to the
fire. Heathcliff rose, and went into the kitchen, and from thence to the yard,
calling out for Hareton. Hareton responded, and presently, the two re-entered.
The young man had been washing himself as was visible by the glow on his cheeks
and his wetted hair.
"Oh, I'll ask you, uncle," cried
Miss Cathy, recollecting the housekeeper's assertion. "That is not my
cousin, is he?"
"Yes," he replied, "your
mother's nephew. Don't you like him?"
Catherine looked queer.
"Is he not a handsome lad?" he
continued.
The uncivil little thing stood on tiptoe,
and whispered a sentence in Heathcliff's ear. He laughed; Hareton darkened: I
perceived he was very sensitive to suspected slights, and had obviously a dim
notion of his inferiority. But his master or guardian chased the frown by
exclaiming:
"You'll be the favourite among us,
Hareton! She says you are a- What was it? Well, something very flattering.
Here! you go with her round the farm. And behave like a gentleman, mind! Don't
use any bad words; and don't stare when the young lady is not looking at you,
and be ready to hide your face when she is; and, when you speak, say your words
slowly and keep your hands out of your pockets. Be off, and entertain her as
nicely as you can."
He watched the couple walking past the
window. Earnshaw had his countenance completely averted from his companion. He
seemed studying the familiar landscape with a stranger's and an artist's
interest. Catherine took a sly look at him, expressing small admiration. She
then turned her attention to seeking out objects of amusement for herself, and
tripped merrily on, lilting a tune to supply the lack of conversation.
"I've tied his tongue," observed
Heathcliff. "He'll not venture a single syllable, all the time! Nelly, you
recollect me at his age- nay, some years younger. Did I ever look so stupid, so
'gaumless,' as Joseph calls it?"
"Worse," I replied, "because
more sullen with it."
"I've a pleasure in him," he
continued, reflecting aloud. "He has satisfied my expectations. If he were
a born fool I should not enjoy it half so much. But he's no fool; and I can
sympathise with all his feelings, having felt them myself. I know what he
suffers now, for instance, exactly: it is merely a beginning of what he shall
suffer, though. And he'll never be able to emerge from his bathos of coarseness
and ignorance. I've got him faster than his scoundrel of a father secured me,
and lower; for he takes pride in his brutishness. I've taught him to scorn
everything extra-animal as silly and weak. Don't you think Hindley would be
proud of his son, if he could see him? almost as proud as I am of mine. But
there's this difference; one is gold put to the use of paving-stones, and the
other is tin polished to ape a service of silver. Mine has nothing valuable
about it; yet I shall have the merit of making it go as far as such poor stuff
can go. His had first-rate qualities, and they are lost: rendered worse than
unavailing. I have nothing to regret; He would have more than any but I are
aware of. And the best of it is, Hareton is damnably fond of me! You'll own
that I've outmatched Hindley there. If the dead villain could rise from his
grave to abuse me for his offspring's wrongs, I should have the fun of seeing
the said offspring fight him back again, indignant that he should dare to rail
at the one friend he has in the world!"
Heathcliff chuckled a fiendish laugh at the
idea. I made no reply, because I saw that he expected none. Meantime, our young
companion, who sat too removed from us to hear what was said, began to evince
symptoms of uneasiness, probably repenting that he had denied himself the treat
of Catherine's society for fear of a little fatigue. His father remarked the
restless glances wandering to the window, and the hand irresolutely extended
towards his cap.
"Get up, you idle boy!" he
exclaimed, with assumed heartiness. "Away after them! they are just at the
corner by the stand of hives."
Linton gathered his energies, and left the
hearth. The lattice was open, and, as he stepped out, I heard Cathy inquiring
of her unsociable attendant, what was that inscription over the door? Hareton
stared up, and scratched his head like a true clown.
"It's some damnable writing," he
answered. "I cannot read it."
"Can't read it?" cried Catherine;
"I can read it: it's English. But I want to know why it is there."
Linton giggled: the first appearance of
mirth he had exhibited.
"He does not know his letters,"
he said to his cousin. "Could you believe in the existence of such a
colossal dunce?"
"Is he all as he should be?"
asked Miss Cathy seriously; "or is he simple: not right? I've questioned
him twice now, and each time he looked so stupid I think he does not understand
me. I can hardly understand him, I'm sure!"
Linton repeated his laugh, and glanced at
Hareton tauntingly; who certainly did not seem quite clear of comprehension at
that moment.
"There's nothing the matter but
laziness; is there, Earnshaw?" he said. "My cousin fancies you are an
idiot. There you experience the consequences of scorning 'book-larning,' as you
would say. Have you noticed, Catherine, his frightful Yorkshire
pronunciation?"
"Why, where the devil is the use
on't?" growled Hareton, more ready in answering his daily companion. He
was about to enlarge further, but the two youngsters broke into a noisy fit of
merriment; my giddy miss being delighted to discover that she might turn his
strange talk to matter of amusement.
"Where is the use of the devil in that
sentence?" tittered Linton. "papa told you not to say any bad words,
and you can't open your mouth without one. Do try to behave like a gentleman,
now do!"
"If you weren't more a lass than a
lad, I'd fell thee this minute, I would; pitiful lath of a crater!"
retorted the angry boor, retreating, while his face burnt with mingled rage and
mortification; for he was conscious of being insulted, and embarrassed how to
resent it.
Mr. Heathcliff having overheard the
conversation, as well as I, smiled when he saw him go; but immediately
afterwards cast a look of singular aversion on the flippant pair, who remained
chattering in the doorway: the boy finding animation enough while discussing
Hareton's faults and deficiencies, and relating anecdotes of his goings-on; and
the girl relishing his pert and spiteful sayings, without considering the
ill-nature they evinced. I began to dislike, more than to compassionate Linton,
and to excuse his father, in some measure, for holding him cheap.
We stayed till afternoon: I could not tear
Miss Cathy away sooner; but happily my master had not quitted his apartment,
and remained ignorant of our prolonged absence. As we walked home, I would fain
have enlightened my charge on the characters of the people we had quitted; but
she got it into her head that I was prejudiced against them.
"Aha!" she cried, "you take
papa's side, Ellen: you are partial, I know; or else you wouldn't have cheated
me so many years into the notion that Linton lived a long way from here. I'm
really extremely angry; only I'm so pleased I can't show it! But you must hold
your tongue about my uncle: he's my uncle, remember; and I'll scold papa for
quarrelling with him."
And so she ran on, till I relinquished the
endeavour to convince her of her mistake. She did not mention the visit that
night, because she did not see Mr. Linton. Next day it all came out, sadly to
my chagrin; and still I was not altogether sorry: I thought the burden of
directing and warning would be more efficiently borne by him than me. But he
was too timid in giving satisfactory reasons for his wish that she should shun
connection with the household of the Heights, and Catherine liked good reasons
for every restraint that harassed her petted will.
"Papa!" she exclaimed, after the
mornings salutations, "guess whom I saw yesterday, in my walk on the
moors. Ah, papa, you started! you've not done right, have you, now? I saw- But
listen and you shall hear how I found you out; and Ellen, who is in league with
you, and yet pretended to pity me so, when I kept hoping, and was always
disappointed about Linton's coming back!"
She gave a faithful account of her
excursion and its consequences; and my master, though he cast more than one
reproachful look at me, said nothing till she had concluded. Then he drew her
to him, and asked if she knew why he had concealed Linton's near neighbourhood
from her. Could she think it was to deny her a pleasure that she might
harmlessly enjoy?
"It was because you disliked Mr.
Heathcliff," she answered.
"Then you believe I care more for my
own feelings than yours, Cathy?" he said. "No, it was not because I
disliked Mr. Heathcliff, but because Mr. Heathcliff dislikes me; and is a most
diabolical man, delighting to wrong and ruin those he hates, if they give him
the slightest opportunity. I knew that you could not keep up an acquaintance
with your cousin, without being brought into contact with him; and I knew he
would detest you on my account; so for your own good, and nothing else, I took
precautions that you should not see Linton again. I meant to explain this some
time as you grew older, and I'm sorry I delayed it."
"But Mr. Heathcliff was quite cordial,
papa," observed Catherine, not at all convinced; "and he didn't
object to our seeing each other: he said I might come to his house when I
pleased; only I must not tell you, because you had quarrelled with him, and
would not forgive him for marrying Aunt Isabella. And you won't. You are the
one to be blamed: he is willing to let us be friends, at least; Linton and I,
and you are not."
My master, perceiving that she would not
take his word for her uncle-in-law's evil disposition, gave a hasty sketch of
his conduct to Isabella, and the manner in which Wuthering Heights became his
property. He could not bear to discourse long upon the topic; for though he
spoke little of it, he still felt the same horror and detestation of his
ancient enemy that had occupied his heart ever since Mrs. Linton's death.
"She might have been living yet, if it had not been for him!" was his
constant bitter reflection; and in his eyes, Heathcliff seemed a murderer. Miss
Cathy- conversant with no bad deeds except her own slight acts of disobedience,
injustice, and passion, arising from hot temper and thoughtlessness, and
repented of on the day they were committed- was amazed at the blackness of
spirit that could brood on and cover revenge for years, and deliberately
prosecute its plans without a visitation of remorse. She appeared so deeply
impressed and shocked at this new view of human nature- excluded from all her
studies and all her ideas till now- that Mr. Edgar deemed it unnecessary to
pursue the subject. He merely added:
"You will know hereafter, darling, why
I wish you to avoid his house and family; now return to your old employments
and amusements, and think no more about them."
Catherine kissed her father and sat down
quietly to her lessons for a couple of hours, according to custom; then she
accompanied him into the grounds, and the whole day passed as usual: but in the
evening, when she had retired to her room, and I went to help her to undress, I
found her crying, on her knees by the bedside.
"Oh, fie, silly child!" I
exclaimed. "If you had any real griefs, you'd be ashamed to waste a tear
on this little contrariety. You never had one shadow of substantial sorrow,
Miss Catherine. Suppose, for a minute, that master and I were dead, and you
were by yourself in the world: how would you feel then? Compare the present
occasion with such an affliction as that, and be thankful for the friends you
have instead of coveting more."
"I'm not crying for myself,
Ellen," she answered, "it's for him. He expected to see me again to-morrow,
and there he'll be so disappointed: and he'll wait for me, and I shan't
come!"
"Nonsense," said I, "do you
imagine he has thought as much of you as you have of him? Hasn't he Hareton for
a companion? Not one in a hundred would weep at losing a relation they had just
seen twice, for two afternoons. Linton will conjecture how it is, and trouble
himself no further about you."
"But may I not write a note to tell
him why I cannot come?" she asked, rising to her feet. "And just send
those books I promised to lend him? His books are not as nice as mine, and he
wanted to have them extremely, when I told him how interesting they were. May I
not, Ellen?"
"No, indeed! no, indeed!" replied
I, with decision. "Then he would write to you, and there'd never be an end
of it. No, Miss Catherine, the acquaintance must be dropped entirely: so papa
expects, and I shall see that it is done."
"But how can one little note-"
she recommenced, putting on an imploring countenance.
"Silence!" I interrupted.
"We'll not begin with your little notes. Get into bed."
She threw at me a very naughty look, so
naughty that I would not kiss her good-night at first: I covered her up, and
shut her door, in great displeasure; but repenting halfway, I returned softly,
and lo! there was miss standing at the table with a bit of blank paper before
her and a pencil in her hand, which she guiltily slipped out of sight, on my
entrance.
"You'll get nobody to take that,
Catherine," I said, "if you write it; and at present I shall put out
your candle. I set the extinguisher on the flame, receiving as I did so a slap
on my hand, and a petulant "Cross thing!" I then quitted her again,
and she drew the bolt in one of her worst, most peevish humours. The letter was
finished and forwarded to its destination by a milk-fetcher who came from the
village: but that I didn't learn till some time afterwards. Weeks passed on,
and Cathy recovered her temper; though she grew wondrous fond of stealing off
to corners by herself; and often, if I came near her suddenly while reading she
would start and bend over the book, evidently desirous to hide it; and I
detected edges of loose paper sticking out beyond the leaves. She also got a
trick of coming down early in the morning and lingering about the kitchen, as
if she were expecting the arrival of something: and she had a small drawer in a
cabinet in the library, which she would trifle over for hours, and whose key
she took special care to remove when she left it.
One day, as she inspected this drawer, I
observed that the play-things, and trinkets which recently formed its contents,
were transmuted into bits of folded paper. My curiosity and suspicions were
aroused; I determined to take a peep at her mysterious treasures; so, at night,
as soon as she and my master were safe upstairs, I searched and readily found
among my house-keys one that would fit the lock. Having opened, I emptied the
whole contents into my apron, and took them with me to examine at leisure in my
own chamber. Though I could not but suspect, I was still surprised to discover
that they were a mass of correspondence- daily almost, it must have been from
Linton Heathcliff: answers to documents forwarded by her. The earlier dated
were embarrassed and short; gradually, however, they expanded into copious love
letters, foolish, as the age of the writer rendered natural, yet with touches
here and there which I thought were borrowed from a more experienced source.
Some of them struck me as singularly odd compounds of ardour and flatness;
commencing in strong feeling, and concluding in the affected, wordy style that
a schoolboy might use to a fancied, incorporeal sweetheart. Whether they
satisfied Cathy, I don't know; but they appeared very worthless trash to me.
After turning over as many as I thought proper, I tied them in a handkerchief
and set them aside, relocking the vacant drawer.
Following her habit, my young lady
descended early, and visited the kitchen: I watched her go to the door, on the
arrival of a certain little boy; and, while the dairymaid filled his can, she
tucked something into his jacket pocket, and plucked something out. I went
round by the garden, and laid wait for the messenger; who fought valorously to
defend his trust, and we spilt the milk between us; but I succeeded in
abstracting the epistle; and, threatening serious consequences if he did not
look sharp home, I remained under the wall and perused Miss Cathy's
affectionate composition. It was more simple and more eloquent than her
cousin's; very pretty and very silly. I shook my head and went meditating into
the house. The day being wet, she could not divert herself with rambling about
the park; so, at the conclusion of her morning studies, she resorted to the
solace of the drawer. Her father sat reading at the table; and I, on purpose, had
sought a bit of work in some unripped fringes of the window curtain, keeping my
eye steadily fixed on her proceedings. Never did any bird flying back to a
plundered nest which it had left brimful of chirping young ones, express more
complete despair in its anguished cries and flutterings, than she by her single
"Oh!" and the change that transfigured her late happy countenance.
Mr. Linton looked up.
"What is the matter, love? Have you
hurt yourself?" he said.
His tone and look assured her he had not been
the discoverer of the hoard.
"No, papa!" she gasped.
"Ellen! Ellen! come upstairs- I'm sick!"
I obeyed her summons, and accompanied her
out.
"Oh, Ellen! you have got them,"
she commenced immediately, dropping on her knees, when we were enclosed alone.
"Oh, give them to me, and I'll never, never do so again! Don't tell papa.
You have not told papa, Ellen? say you have not? I've been exceedingly naughty,
but I won't do it any more!"
With a grave severity in my manner, I bade
her stand up.
"So," I exclaimed, "Miss
Catherine, you are tolerably far on, it seems: you may well be ashamed of them!
a fine bundle of trash you study in your leisure hours, to be sure: why, it's
good enough to be printed! And what do you suppose the master will think, when
I display it before him? I haven't shown it yet, but you needn't imagine I
shall keep your ridiculous secrets. For shame! and you must have led the way in
writing such absurdities: he would not have thought of beginning, I'm
certain."
"I didn't! I didn't!" sobbed
Cathy, fit to break her heart. "I didn't once think of loving him
till-"
"Loving!" cried I, as scornfully
as I could utter the word. "Loving! Did anybody ever hear the like! I
might just as well talk of loving the miller who comes once a year to buy our
corn. Pretty loving, indeed! and both times together you have seen Linton
hardly four hours in your life! Now here is the babyish trash. I'm going with
it to the library; and we'll see what your father says to such loving."
She sprang at her precious epistles, but I
held them above my head; and then she poured out further frantic entreaties
that I would burn them- do anything rather than show them. And being really
fully as much inclined to laugh as scold- for I esteemed it all girlish vanity-
I at length relented in a measure, and asked:
"If I consent to burn them, will you
promise faithfully neither to send nor receive a letter again, nor a book (for
I perceive you have sent him books), nor locks of hair, nor rings, nor
playthings?"
"We don't send playthings!" cried
Catherine, her pride overcoming her shame.
"Nor anything at all, then, my
lady," I said. "Unless you will, here I go."
"I promise, Ellen!" she cried,
catching my dress. "Oh, put them in the fire, do, do!"
But when I proceeded to open a place with
the poker, the sacrifice was too painful to be borne. She earnestly supplicated
that I would spare her one or two.
"One or two, Ellen, to keep for
Linton's sake!"
I unknotted the handkerchief, and commenced
dropping them in from an angle, and the flame curled up the chimney.
"I will have one, you cruel
wretch!" she screamed, darting her hand into the fire, and drawing forth
some half consumed fragments, at the expense of her fingers.
"Very well- and I will have some to
exhibit to papa!" I answered, shaking back the rest into the bundle, and
turning anew to the door.
She emptied her blackened pieces into the
flames, and motioned me to finish the immolation. It was done; I stirred up the
ashes, and interred them under a shovelful of coals; and she mutely, and with a
sense of intense injury, retired to her private apartment. I descended to tell
my master that the young lady's qualm of sickness was almost gone, but I judged
it best for her to lie down a while. She wouldn't dine; but she reappeared at
tea, pale, and red about the eyes, and marvellously subdued in outward aspect.
Next morning, I answered the letter by a slip of paper, inscribed, "Master
Heathcliff is requested to send no more notes to Miss Linton, as she will not
receive them." And, thenceforth, the little boy came with vacant pockets.
Chapter 22 -
SUMMER drew to an end, and early autumn: it
was past Michaelmas, but the harvest was late that year, and a few of our
fields were still uncleared. Mr. Linton and his daughter would frequently walk
out among the reapers; at the carrying of the last sheaves, they stayed till
dusk, and the evening happening to be chill and damp, my master caught a bad
cold, that settled obstinately on his lungs, and confined him indoors
throughout the whole of the winter, nearly without intermission.
Poor Cathy, frightened from her little
romance, had been considerably sadder and duller since its abandonment; and her
father insisted on her reading less, and taking more exercise. She had his
companionship no longer; I esteemed it a duty to supply its lack, as much as
possible, with mine: an inefficient substitute; for I could only spare two or
three hours, from my numerous diurnal occupations, to follow her footsteps, and
then my society was obviously less desirable than his.
On an afternoon in October, or the
beginning of November- a fresh watery afternoon, when the turf and paths were
rustling with moist, withered leaves, and the cold, blue sky was half hidden by
clouds- dark grey streamers, rapidly mounting from the west, and boding
abundant rain- I requested my young lady to forego her ramble, because I was
certain of showers. She refused; and I unwillingly donned a cloak, and took my
umbrella to accompany her on a stroll to the bottom of the park: a formal walk
which she generally affected if low-spirited- and that she invariably was when
Mr. Edgar had been worse than ordinary, a thing never known from his
confession, but guessed both by her and me, from his increased silence and the
melancholy of his countenance. She went sadly on: there was no running or
bounding now, though the chill wind might well have tempted her to race. And
often, from the side of my eve, I could detect her raising a hand, and brushing
something off her cheek. I gazed round for a means of diverting her thoughts.
On one side of the road rose a high, rough bank, where hazels and stunted oaks,
with their roots half-exposed held uncertain tenure: the soil was too loose for
the latter; and strong winds had blown some nearly horizontal. In summer, Miss
Catherine delighted to climb along these trunks, and sit in the branches,
swinging twenty feet above the ground; and I, pleased with her agility and her
light, childish heart, still considered it proper to scold every time I caught
her at such an elevation, but so that she knew there was no necessity for
descending. From dinner to tea she would lie in her breeze-rocked cradle, doing
nothing except singing old songs- my nursery lore- to herself, or watching the
birds, joint tenants, feed and entice their young ones to fly: or nestling with
closed lids, half thinking, half dreaming, happier than words can express.
"Look, miss!" I exclaimed,
pointing to a nook under the roots of one twisted tree. "Winter is not
here yet. There's a little flower up yonder, the last bud from the multitude of
bluebells that clouded those turf steps in July with a lilac mist. Will you
clamber up, and pluck it to show to papa?"
Cathy stared a long time at the lonely
blossom trembling in its earthy shelter, and replied, at length:
"No, I'll not touch it; but it looks
melancholy, does it not, Ellen?"
"Yes," I observed, "about as
starved and sackless as you: your cheeks are bloodless; let us take hold of
hands and run. You're so low, I dare say I shall keep up with you."
"No," she repeated, and continued
sauntering on, pausing at intervals, to muse over a bit of moss, or a tuft of
blanched grass, or a fungus spreading its bright orange among the heaps of
brown foliage; and, ever and anon, her hand was lifted to her averted face.
"Catherine, why are you crying,
love?" I asked, approaching and putting my arm over her shoulder.
"You mustn't cry because papa has a cold; be thankful it is nothing
worse."
She now put no further restraint on her
tears; her breath was stifled by sobs.
"Oh, it will be something worse,"
she said. "And what shall I do when papa and you leave me, and I am by
myself! I can't forget your words, Ellen; they are always in my ear. How life
will be changed, how dreary the world will be when papa and you are dead."
"None can tell, whether you won't die
before us," I replied. "It's wrong to anticipate evil. We'll hope
there are years and years to come before any of us go: master is young, and I
am strong, and hardly forty-five. My mother lived till eighty, a canty dame to
the last. And suppose Mr. Linton were spared till he saw sixty, that would be
more years than you have counted, miss. And would it not be foolish to mourn a
calamity above twenty years beforehand?"
"But Aunt Isabella was younger than
papa," she remarked, gazing up with timid hope to seek further
consolation.
"Aunt Isabella had not you and me to
nurse her," I replied. "She wasn't as happy as master; she hadn't as
much to live for. All you need do, is to wait well on your father, and cheer him
by letting him see you cheerful; and avoid giving him anxiety on any subject:
mind that, Cathy! I'll not disguise but you might kill him, if you were wild
and reckless, and cherished a foolish, fanciful affection for the son of a
person who would be glad to have him in his grave; and allowed him to discover
that you fretted over the separation he has judged it expedient to make."
"I fret about nothing on earth except
papa's illness," answered my companion. "I care for nothing in
comparison with papa. And I'll never- never- oh, never, while I have my senses,
do an act or say a word to vex him. I love him better than myself, Ellen; and I
know it by this: I pray every night that I may live after him; because I would
rather be miserable than that he should be: that proves I love him better than
myself"
"Good words," I replied.
"But deeds must prove it also; and after he is well, remember you don't
forget resolutions formed in the hour of fear."
As we talked, we neared a door that opened
on the road; and my young lady, lightening into sunshine again, climbed up and
seated herself on the top of the wall, reaching over to gather some hips that
bloomed scarlet on the summit branches of the wild rose trees, shadowing the
highway side: the lower fruit had disappeared, but only birds could touch the
upper, except from Cathy's present station. In stretching to pull them, her hat
fell off; and as the door was locked, she proposed scrambling down to recover
it. I bid her be cautious lest she got a fall, and she nimbly disappeared. But
the return was no such easy matter: the stones were smooth and neatly cemented,
and the rose bushes and blackberry stragglers could yield no assistance in
re-ascending. I, like a fool, didn't recollect that, till I heard her laughing
and exclaiming:
"Ellen, you'll have to fetch the key,
or else I must run round to the porter's lodge. I can't scale the ramparts on
this side!"
"Stay where you are," I answered,
"I have my bundle of keys in my pocket: perhaps I may manage to open it;
if not I'll go."
Catherine amused herself with dancing to
and fro before the door, while I tried all the large keys in succession. I had
applied the last, and found that none would do; so, repeating my desire that
she would remain there, I was about to hurry home as fast as I could, when an
approaching sound arrested me. It was the trot of a horse; Cathy's dance
stopped also.
"Who is that?" I whispered.
"Ellen, I wish you could open the
door," whispered back my companion anxiously.
"Ho, Miss Linton!" cried a deep
voice (the rider's), "I'm glad to meet you. Don't be in haste to enter,
for I have an explanation to ask and obtain."
"I shan't speak to you, Mr.
Heathcliff," answered Catherine. "Papa says you are a wicked man, and
you hate both him and me; and Ellen says the same."
"That is nothing to the purpose,"
said Heathcliff. (He it was.) "I don't hate my son, I suppose; and it is
concerning him that I demand your attention. Yes; you have cause to blush. Two
or three months since, were you not in the habit of writing to Linton? making
love in play, eh? You deserved, both of you, flogging for that! You especially,
the elder; and less sensitive, as it turns out. I've got your letters, and if
you give me any pertness I'll send them to your father. I presume you grew
weary of the amusement and dropped it, didn't you? Well, you dropped Linton
with it into a Slough of Despond. He was in earnest: in love, really. As true
as I live, he's dying for you; breaking his heart at your fickleness: not
figuratively, but actually. Though Hareton has made him a standing jest for six
weeks, and I have used more serious measures, and attempted to frighten him out
of his idiocy, he gets worse daily; and he'll be under the sod before summer,
unless you restore him!"
"How can you lie so glaringly to the
poor child?" I called from the inside. "Pray ride on! How can you
deliberately get up such paltry falsehoods? Miss Cathy, I'll knock the lock off
with a stone: you won't believe that vile nonsense. You can feel in yourself, it
is impossible that a person should die for love of a stranger."
"I was not aware there were
eavesdroppers," muttered the detected villain. "Worthy Mrs. Dean, I
like you, but I don't like your double-dealing," he added aloud. "How
could you lie so glaringly, as to affirm I hated the 'poor child'? and invent
bugbear stories to terrify her from my door-stones? Catherine Linton (the very
name warms me), my bonnie lass, I shall be from home all this week; go and see
if I have not spoken truth: do, there's a darling! just imagine your father in
my place, and Linton in yours; then think how you would value your careless
lover if he refused to stir a step to comfort you, when your father himself
entreated him; and don't, from pure stupidity, fall into the same error. I swear,
on my salvation, he's going to his grave, and none but you can save him!"
The lock gave way and I issued out.
"I swear Linton is dying,"
repeated Heathcliff, looking hard at me. "And grief and disappointment are
hastening his death. Nelly, if you won't let her go, you can walk over
yourself. But I shall not return till this time next week; and I think your
master himself would scarcely object to her visiting her cousin!"
"Come in," said I, taking Cathy
by the arm and half-forcing her to re-enter; for she lingered, viewing with
troubled eyes the features of the speaker, too stern to express his inward
deceit.
He pushed his horse close, and bending
down, observed:
"Miss Catherine, I'll own to you that
I have little patience with Linton; and Hareton and Joseph have less. I'll own
that he's with a harsh set. He pines for kindness, as well as love; and a kind
word from you would be his best medicine. Don't mind Mrs. Dean's cruel
cautions; but be generous, and contrive to see him. He dreams of you day and night,
and cannot be persuaded that you don't hate him, since you neither write nor
call."
I closed the door, and rolled a stone to
assist the loosened lock in holding it; and spreading my umbrella, I drew my
charge underneath: for the rain began to drive through the moaning branches of
the trees, and warned us to avoid delay. Our hurry prevented any comment on the
encounter with Heathcliff, as we stretched towards home; but I divined
instinctively that Catherine's heart was clouded now in double darkness. Her
features were so sad, they did not seem hers: she evidently regarded what she
had heard as every syllable true.
The master had retired to rest before we
came in. Cathy stole to his room to enquire how he was; he had fallen asleep.
She returned, and asked me to sit with her in the library. We took our tea
together; and afterwards she lay down on the rug, and told me not to talk, for
she was weary. I got a book, and pretended to read. As soon as she supposed me
absorbed in my occupation, she recommenced her silent weeping; it appeared, at
present, her favourite diversion. I suffered her to enjoy it a while; then I
expostulated: deriding and ridiculing a Mr. Heathcliff's assertions about his
son, as if I were certain she would coincide. Alas! I hadn't skill to
counteract the effect his account had produced: it was just what he intended.
"You may be right, Ellen," she
answered; "but I shall never feel at ease till I know. And I must tell
Linton it is not my fault that I don't write, and convince him that I shall not
change."
What use were anger and protestations
against her silly credulity? We parted that night- hostile; but next day beheld
me on the road to Wuthering Heights, by the side of my wilful young mistress's
pony. I couldn't bear to witness her sorrow: to see her pale dejected
countenance, and heavy eyes; and I yielded, in the faint hope that Linton
himself might prove, by his reception of us, how little of the tale was founded
on fact.
Chapter 23 -
THE RAINY NIGHT had ushered in a cold,
misty morning- half-frost, half-drizzle- and temporary brooks crossed our path,
gurgling from the uplands. My feet were thoroughly wetted; I was cross and low;
exactly the humour suited for making the most of these disagreeable things. We
entered the farmhouse by the kitchen way, to ascertain whether Mr. Heathcliff
were really absent; because I put slight faith in his own affirmation.
Joseph seemed sitting in a sort of elysium
alone, beside a roaring fire; a quart of ale on the table near him, bristling
with large pieces of toasted oat-cake; and his black, short pipe in his mouth.
Catherine ran to the hearth to warm herself I asked if the master was in? My
question remained so long unanswered, that I thought the old man had grown
deaf, and repeated it louder.
"Na-ay!" he snarled, or rather
screamed through his nose. "Na-ay! yah muh goa back whear yah coom
frough."
"Joseph!" cried a peevish voice,
simultaneously with me, from the inner room. "How often am I to call you?
There are only a few red ashes now. Joseph! come this moment."
Vigorous puffs, and a resolute stare into
the grate declared he had no ear for this appeal. The housekeeper and Hareton
were invisible; one gone on an errand, and the other at his work, probably. We
knew Linton's tones, and entered.
"Oh, I hope you'll die in a garret!
starved to death," said the boy, mistaking our approach for that of his
negligent attendant.
He stopped, on observing his error; his
cousin flew to him.
"Is that you, Miss Linton?" he
said, raising his head from the arm of the great chair, in which he reclined.
"No- don't kiss me: it takes my breath. Dear me! papa said you would
call," continued he, after recovering a little from Catherine's embrace;
while she stood by looking very contrite. "Will you shut the door, if you please?
you left it open; and those- those detestable creatures won't bring coals to
the fire. It's so cold!"
I stirred up the cinders, and fetched a
scuttleful myself. The invalid complained of being covered with ashes; but he
had a tiresome cough, and looked feverish and ill, so I did not rebuke his
temper.
"Well, Linton," murmured
Catherine, when his corrugated brow relaxed. "Are you glad to see me? Can
I do you any good?"
"Why didn't you come before?" he
asked. "You should have come, instead of writing. It tired me dreadfully,
writing those long letters. I'd far rather have talked to you. Now, I can
neither bear to talk, nor anything else. I wonder where Zillah is! Will you
(looking at me) step into the kitchen and see?"
I had received no thanks for my other
service; and being unwilling to run to and fro at his behest, I replied:
"Nobody is out there but Joseph."
"I want to drink," he exclaimed
fretfully, turning away. "Zillah is constantly gadding off to Gimmerton
since papa went: it's miserable! And I'm obliged to come down here- they
resolved never to hear me upstairs."
"Is your father attentive to you,
Master Heathcliff?" I asked, perceiving Catherine to be checked in her
friendly advances.
"Attentive? He makes them a little
more attentive at least," he cried. "The wretches! Do you know, Miss
Linton, that brute Hareton laughs at me! I hate him! indeed, I hate them all:
they are odious beings."
Cathy began searching for some water; she
lighted on a pitcher in the dresser, filled a tumbler, and brought it. He bid
her add a spoonful of wine from a bottle on the table; and having swallowed a
small portion, appeared more tranquil, and said she was very kind.
"And are you glad to see me?"
asked she, reiterating her former question, and pleased to detect the faint
dawn of a smile.
"Yes, I am. It's something new to hear
a voice like yours!" he replied. "But I have been vexed, because you
wouldn't come. And papa swore it was owing to me: he called me a pitiful,
shuffling, worthless thing; and said you despised me; and if he had been in my
place, he would be more the master of the Grange than your father, by this
time. But you don't despise me do you, Miss-"
"I wish you would say Catherine, or
Cathy," interrupted my young lady. "Despise you? No! Next to papa and
Ellen, I love you better than anybody living. I don't love Mr. Heathcliff,
though; and I dare not come when he returns; will he stay away many days?"
"Not many," answered Linton;
"but he goes on to the moors frequently, since the shooting season commenced;
and you might spend an hour or two with me in his absence. Do say you will. I
think I should not be peevish with you: you'd not provoke me, and you'd always
be ready to help me, wouldn't you?"
"Yes," said Catherine, stroking
his long soft hair; "if I could only get papa's consent, I'd spend half my
time with you. Pretty Linton! I wish you were my brother."
"And then you would like me as well as
your father?" observed he, more cheerfully. "But papa says you would
love me better than him and all the world, if you were my wife; so I'd rather
you were that."
"No I should never love anybody better
than papa," she returned gravely. "And people hate their wives,
sometimes; but not their sisters and brothers: and if you were the latter you
would live with us, and papa would be as fond of you as he is of me."
Linton denied that people ever hated their
wives; but Cathy affirmed they did, and, in her wisdom, instanced his own
father's aversion to her aunt. I endeavoured to stop her thoughtless tongue. I
couldn't succeed till everything she knew was out. Master Heathcliff, much
irritated, asserted her relation was false.
"Papa told me; and papa does not tell
falsehoods," she answered pertly:
"My papa scorns yours!" cried
Linton. "He calls him a sneaking fool."
"Yours is a wicked man," retorted
Catherine; "and you are very naughty to dare to repeat what he says. He
must be wicked to have made Aunt Isabella leave him as she did."
"She didn't leave him," said the
boy; "you shan't contradict me."
"She did," cried my young lady.
"Well, I'll tell you something!"
said Linton. "Your mother hated your father: now then."
"Oh!" exclaimed Catherine, too
enraged to continue.
"And she loved mine," added he.
"You little liar! I hate you
now!" she panted, and her face grew red with passion.
"She did! she did!" sang Linton,
sinking into the recess of his chair, and leaning back his head to enjoy the
agitation of the other disputant, who stood behind.
"Hush, Master Heathcliff!" I
said; "that's your father's tale, too, I suppose."
"It isn't: you hold your tongue!"
he answered. "She did, she did, Catherine! she did, she did!"
Cathy, beside herself, gave the chair a
violent push, and caused him to fall against one arm. He was immediately seized
by a suffocating cough that soon ended his triumph. It lasted so long that it
frightened even me. As to his cousin, she wept, with all her might; aghast at
the mischief she had done: though she said nothing. I held him till the fit
exhausted itself. Then he thrust me away, and leant his head down silently.
Catherine quelled her lamentations also, took a seat opposite, and looked
solemnly into the fire.
"How do you feel now, Master
Heathcliff?" I enquired, after waiting ten minutes.
"I wish she felt as I do," he
replied: "spiteful, cruel thing! Hareton never touches me: he never struck
me in his life. And I was better today: and there-" his voice died in a
whimper.
"I didn't strike you!" muttered
Cathy, chewing her lip to prevent another burst of emotion.
He sighed and moaned like one under great
suffering, and kept it up for a quarter of an hour; on purpose to distress his
cousin apparently, for whenever he caught a stifled sob from her he put renewed
pain and pathos into the inflections of his voice.
"I'm sorry I hurt you, Linton,"
she said at length racked beyond endurance. "But I couldn't have been hurt
by that little push, and I had no idea that you could, either: you're not much,
are you, Linton? Don't let me go home thinking I've done you harm. Answer!
speak to me."
"I can't speak to you," he
murmured; "you've hurt me so, that I shall lie awake all night choking
with this cough. If you had it you'd know what it was; but you'll be
comfortably asleep while I'm in agony, and nobody near me. I wonder how you
would like to pass those fearful nights!" And he began to wall aloud, for
very pity of himself.
"Since you are in the habit of passing
dreadful nights," I said, "it won't be miss who spoils your ease:
you'd be the same had she never come. However, she shall not disturb you again;
and perhaps you'll get quieter when we leave you."
"Must I go?" asked Catherine
dolefully, bending over him. "Do you want me to go, Linton?"
"You can't alter what you've
done," he replied pettishly, shrinking from her, "unless you alter it
for the worse by teasing me into a fever."
"Well, then, I must go?" she
repeated.
"Let me alone, at least," said
he; "I can't bear your talking."
She lingered, and resisted my persuasions
to departure a tiresome while; but as he neither looked up nor spoke, she
finally made a movement to the door and I followed. We were recalled by a
scream. Linton had slid from his seat on to the hearthstone, and lay writhing
in the mere perverseness of an indulged plague of a child, determined to be as
grievous and harassing as it can. I thoroughly gauged his disposition from his
behaviour, and saw at once it would be folly to attempt humouring him. Not so
my companion: she ran back in terror, knelt down, and cried, and soothed, and
entreated, till he grew quiet from lack of breath: by no means from compunction
at distressng her.
"I shall lift him on the settle,"
I said, "and he may roll about as he pleases: we can't stop to watch him.
I hope you are satisfied, Miss Cathy, that you are not the person to benefit
him; and that his condition of health is not occasioned by attachment to you.
Now, then, there he is! Come away: as soon as he knows there is nobody by to
care for his nonsense, he'll be glad to lie still."
She placed a cushion under his head, and
offered him some water; he rejected the latter, and tossed uneasily on the
former, as if it were a stone or a block of wood. She tried to put it more
comfortably.
"I can't do with that," he said;
"it's not high enough." Catherine brought another to lay above it.
"That's too high," murmured the
provoking thing.
"How must I arrange it, then?"
she asked despairingly.
He twined himself up to her, as she half
knelt by the settle, and converted her shoulder into a support.
"No, that won't do," I said.
"You'll be content with the cushion, Master Heathcliff. Miss has wasted
too much time on you already: we cannot remain five minutes longer."
"Yes, yes, we can!" replied
Cathy. "He's good and patient now. He's beginning to think I shall have
far greater misery than he will tonight, if I believed he is the worse for my
visit; and then I dare not come again. Tell the truth about it, Linton; for I
mustn't come, if I have hurt you."
"You must come, to cure me," he
answered. "You ought to come, because you have hurt me: you know you have extremely!
I was not as ill when you entered as I am at present- was I?"
"But you've made yourself ill by
crying and being in a passion."
"I didn't do it at all," said his
cousin. "However, we'll be friends now. And you want me: you would wish to
see me sometimes, really?"
"I told you I did," he replied
impatiently. "Sit on the settle and let me lean on your knee. That's as
mamma used to do, whole afternoons together. Sit quite still and don't talk:
but you may sing a song, if you can sing; or you may say a nice long
interesting ballad- one of those you promised to teach me: or a story. I'd
rather have a ballad, though: begin."
Catherine repeated the longest she could
remember. The employment pleased both mightily. Linton would have another; and
after that another, notwithstanding my strenuous objections; and so they went
on until the clock struck twelve, and we heard Hareton in the court, returning
for his dinner.
"And to-morrow, Catherine, will you be
here to-morrow?" asked young Heathcliff, holding her frock as she rose
reluctantly.
"No," I answered, "nor the
next day." She, however, gave a different response evidently, for his
forehead cleared as she stooped and whispered in his ear.
"You won't go to-morrow, recollect,
miss!" I commenced, when we were out of the house. "You are not
dreaming of it, are you?"
She smiled.
"Oh, I'll take good care," I
continued: "I'll have that lock mended, and you can escape by no way
else".
"I can get over the wall," she
said, laughing. "The Grange is not a prison, Ellen, and you are not my
gaoler. And besides, I'm almost seventeen: I'm a woman. And I'm certain Linton
would recover quickly if he had me to look after him. I'm older than he is, you
know, and wiser: less childish, am I not? And he'll soon do as I direct him,
with some slight coaxing. He's a pretty little darling when he's good. I'd make
such a pet of him, if he were mine. We should never quarrel, should we, after
we were used to each other? Don't you like him, Ellen?"
"Like him!" I exclaimed.
"The worst-tempered bit of a sickly slip that ever struggled into its
teens. Happily, as Mr. Heathcliff conjectured, he'll not win twenty. I doubt
whether he'll see spring, indeed. And small loss to his family whenever he
drops off. And lucky it is for us that his father took him: the kinder he was
treated, the more tedious and selfish he'd be. I'm glad you have no chance of
having him for a husband, Miss Catherine."
My companion waxed serious at hearing this
speech. To speak of his death so regardlessly, wounded her feelings.
"He's younger than I," she
answered, after a protracted pause of meditation, "and he ought to live
the longest: he will- he must live as long as I do. He's as strong now as when
he first came into the north; I'm positive of that. It's only a cold that ails
him, the same as papa has. You say papa will get better, and why shouldn't
he?"
"Well, well," I cried,
"after all, we needn't trouble ourselves; for listen, miss, and mind, I'll
keep my word,- if you attempt going to Wuthering Heights again, with or without
me, I shall inform Mr. Linton, and, unless he allow it, intimacy with your
cousin must not be revived."
"It has been revived," muttered
Cathy sulkily.
"Must not be continued, then," I
said.
"We'll see," was her reply, and
she set off at a gallop, leaving me to toil in the rear.
We both reached home before our
dinner-time; my master supposed we had been wandering through the park, and
therefore he demanded no explanation of our absence. As soon as I entered, I
hastened to change my soaked shoes and stockings; but sitting such a while at
the Heights had done the mischief On the succeeding morning I was laid up, and
during three weeks I remained incapacitated for attending to my duties: a
calamity never experienced prior to that period, and never, I am thankful to
say, since.
My little mistress behaved like an angel,
in coming to wait on me, and cheer my solitude: the confinement brought me
exceedingly low. It is wearisome, to a stirring active body: but few have
slighter reasons for complaint than I had. The moment Catherine left Mr.
Linton's room, she appeared at my bedside. Her day was divided between us; no
amusement usurped a minute: she neglected her meals, her studies, and her play;
and she was the fondest nurse that ever watched. She must have had a warm
heart, when she loved her father so, to give so much to me. I said her days
were divided between us; but the master retired early, and I generally needed
nothing after six o'clock; thus the evening was her own. Poor thing! I never considered
what she did with herself after tea. And though frequently, when she looked in
to bid me good-night, I remarked a fresh colour in her cheeks and a pinkness
over her slender fingers; instead of fancying the hue borrowed from a cold ride
across the moors, I laid it to the charge of a hot fire in the library.
Chapter 24 -
AT THE CLOSE of those weeks, I was able to
quit my chamber, and move about the house. And on the first occasion of my
sitting up in the evening, I asked Catherine to read to me, because my eyes
were weak. We were in the library, the master having gone to bed: she
consented, rather unwillingly, I fancied; and imagining my sort of books did
not suit her, I bid her please herself in the choice of what she perused. She
selected one of her own favourites, and got forward steadily about an hour;
then came frequent questions.
"Ellen, are not you tired? Hadn't you
better lie down now? You'll be sick, keeping up so long, Ellen."
"No, no, dear, I'm not tired," I
returned continually.
Perceiving me immovable, she essayed
another method of showing her disrelish for her occupation. It changed to
yawning, and stretching, and:
"Ellen, I'm tired."
"Give over then and talk," I
answered.
That was worse: she fretted and sighed, and
looked at her watch till eight, and finally went to her room, completely
over-done with sleep; judging by her peevish, heavy look, and the constant
rubbing she inflicted on her eyes. The following night she seemed more
impatient still; and on the third from recovering my company, she complained of
a headache, and left me. I thought her conduct odd; and having remained alone a
long while, I resolved on going and inquiring whether she were better, and
asking her to come and lie on the sofa, instead of upstairs in the dark. No
Catherine could I discover upstairs, and none below. The servants affirmed they
had not seen her. I listened at Mr. Edgar's door; all was silence. I returned
to her apartment, extinguished my candle, and seated myself in the window.
The moon shone bright; a sprinkling of snow
covered the ground, and I reflected that she might, possibly, have taken it
into her head to walk about the garden, for refreshment. I did detect a figure
creeping along the inner fence of the park; but it was not my young mistress:
on its merging into the light, I recognized one of the grooms. He stood a
considerable period, viewing the carriage-road through the grounds; then
started off at a brisk pace, as if he had detected something, and reappeared
presently, leading Miss's pony; and there she was, just dismounted, and walking
by its side. The man took his charge stealthily across the grass towards the
stable. Cathy entered by the casement-window of the drawingroom, and glided
noiselessly up to where I awaited her. She put the door gently to, slipped off
her snowy shoes, untied her hat, and was proceeding, unconscious of my
espionage, to lay aside her mantle, when I suddenly rose and revealed myself.
The surprise petrified her an instant: she uttered an inarticulate exclamation,
and stood fixed.
"My dear Miss Catherine," I
began, too vividly impressed by her recent kindness to break into a scold,
"where have you been riding out at this hour? And why should you try to
deceive me, by telling a tale? Where have you been? Speak."
"To the bottom of the park," she
stammered. "I didn't tell a tale."
"And nowhere else?" I demanded.
"No," was the muttered reply.
"Oh, Catherine!" I cried
sorrowfully. "You know you have been doing wrong, or you wouldn't be
driven to uttering an untruth to me. That does grieve me. I'd rather be three
months ill, than hear you frame a deliberate lie."
She sprang forward, and bursting into
tears, threw her arms round my neck.
"Well, Ellen, I'm so afraid of you
being angry," she said. "Promise not to be angry, and you shall know
the very truth: I hate to hide it."
We sat down in the window-seat; I assured
her I would not scold, whatever her secret might be, and I guessed it of
course; so she commenced:
"I've been to Wuthering Heights,
Ellen, and I've never missed going a day since you fell ill; except thrice
before, and twice after you left your room. I gave Michael books and pictures
to prepare Minny every evening, and to put her back in the stable: you mustn't
scold him either, mind. I was at the Heights by half-past six, and generally
stayed till half-past eight, and then galloped home. It was not to amuse myself
that I went: I was often wretched all the time. Now and then I was happy; once
in a week perhaps. At first, I expected there would be sad work persuading you
to let me keep my word to Linton; for I had engaged to call again next day,
when we quitted him; but, as you stayed upstairs on the morrow, I escaped that
trouble. While Michael was refastening the lock of the park door in the
afternoon, I got possession of the key, and told him how my cousin wished me to
visit him, because he was sick, and couldn't come to the Grange; and how papa
would object to my going: and then I negotiated with him about the pony. He is
fond of reading, and he thinks of leaving soon to get married; so he offered,
if I would lend him books out of the library, to do what I wished: but I
preferred giving him my own, and that satisfied him better.
"On my second visit, Linton seemed in
lively spirits; and Zillah (that is their housekeeper) made us a clean room and
a good fire, and told us that, as Joseph was out at a prayer-meeting and
Hareton Earnshaw was off with his dogs- robbing our woods of pheasants, as I
heard afterwards- we might do what we liked. She brought me some warm wine and
gingerbread, and appeared exceedingly good-natured; and Linton sat in the arm
chair, and I in the little rocking-chair on the hearth-stone, and we laughed
and talked so merrily, and found so much to say: we planned where we would go,
and what we would do in summer. I needn't repeat that, because you would call
it silly.
"One time, however, we were near
quarrelling. He said the pleasantest manner of spending a hot July day was
lying from morning till evening on a bank of heath in the middle of the moors,
with the bees humming dreamily about among the bloom, and the larks singing
high up overhead, and the blue sky and bright sun shining steadily and
cloudlessly. That was his most perfect idea of heaven's happiness: mine was
rocking in a rustling green tree, with a west wind blowing, and bright white
clouds flitting rapidly above; and not only larks, but throstles, and
blackbirds, and linnets, and cuckoos pouring out music on every side, and the
moors seen at a distance, broken into cool dusky dells; but close by great
swells of long grass undulating in waves to the breeze; and woods and sounding
water, and the whole world awake and wild with joy. He wanted all to lie in an
ecstasy of peace; I wanted all to sparkle and dance in a glorious jubilee. I said
his heaven would be only half alive; and he said mine would be drunk; I said I
should fall asleep in his; and he said he could not breathe in mine, and began
to grow very snappish. At last, we agreed to try both, as soon as the right
weather came; and then we kissed each other and were friends.
"After sitting still an hour, I looked
at the great room with its smooth uncarpeted floor, and thought how nice it
would be to play in, if we removed the table; and I asked Linton to call Zillah
in to help us, and we'd have a game at blind-man's buff; she should try to
catch us: you used to, you know, Ellen. He wouldn't: there was no pleasure in
it, he said; but he consented to play at ball with me. We found two in a
cupboard, among a heap of old toys, tops, and hops, and battledores, and
shuttlecocks. One was marked C., and the other H.; I wished to have the C.,
because that stood for Catherine, and the H. might be for Heathcliff, his name;
but the bran came out of H., and Linton didn't like it. I beat him constantly,
and he got cross again, and coughed, and returned to his chair. That night,
though, he easily recovered his good humour: he was charmed with two or three
pretty songs- your songs, Ellen; and when I was obliged to go, he begged and
entreated me to come the following evening; and I promised. Minny and I went
flying home as light as air; and I dreamt of Wuthering Heights and my sweet,
darling cousin, till morning.
"On the morrow I was sad; partly
because you were poorly, and partly that I wished my father knew, and approved
of my excursions: but it was beautiful moonlight after tea; and, as I rode on,
the gloom cleared. I shall have another happy evening, I thought to myself; and
what delights me more, my pretty Linton will. I trotted up their garden, and
was turning round to the back, when that fellow Earnshaw met me, took my
bridle, and bid me go in by the front entrance. He patted Minny's neck, and
said she was a bonny beast, and appeared as if he wanted me to speak to him. I
only told him to leave my horse alone, or else it would kick him. He answered
in his vulgar accent, 'It wouldn't do mitch hurt if it did'; and surveyed its
legs with a smile. I was half inclined to make it try; however, he moved off to
open the door, and, as he raised the latch, he looked up to the inscription
above, and said, with a stupid mixture of awkwardness and elation:
"'Miss Catherine! I can read yon,
now.'
"'Wonderful,' I exclaimed. 'Pray let
us hear you- you are grown clever!'
"He spelt, and drawled over by
syllables, the name- 'Hareton Earnshaw.'
"'And the figures?' I cried
encouragingly, perceiving that he came to a dead halt.
"'I cannot tell them yet," he
answered.
"'Oh, you dunce!' I said, laughing
heartily at his failure.
"The fool stared, with a grin hovering
about his lips, and a scowl gathering over his eyes, as if uncertain whether he
might not join in my mirth: whether it were not pleasant familiarity, or what
it really was, contempt. I settled his doubts, by suddenly retrieving my
gravity and desiring him to walk away, for I came to see Linton, not him. He
reddened- I saw that by the moonlight- dropped his hand from the latch, and
skulked off a picture of mortified vanity. He imagined himself to be as
accomplished as Linton, I suppose, because he could spell his own name; and was
marvellously discomfited that I didn't think the same."
"Stop, Miss Catherine, dear!" I
interrupted. "I shall not scold, but I don't like your conduct there. If
you had remembered that Hareton was your cousin as much as Master Heathcliff,
you would have felt how improper it was to behave in that way. At least, it was
praiseworthy ambition for him to desire to be as accomplished as Linton; and
probably he did not learn merely to show off. you had made him ashamed of his
ignorance before, I have no doubt; and he wished to remedy it and please you.
To sneer at his imperfect attempt was very bad breeding. Had you been brought
up in his circumstances, would you be less rude? He was as quick and as
intelligent a child as ever you were; and I'm hurt that he should be despised
now, because that base Heathcliff has treated him so unjustly."
"Well, Ellen, you won't cry about it,
will you?" she exclaimed, surprised at my earnestness. "But wait, and
you shall hear if he conned his A B C to please me; and if it were worth while
being civil to the brute. I entered; Linton was lying on the settle, and half
got up to welcome me.
"'I'm ill to-night, Catherine, love,'
he said; 'and you must have all the talk, and let me listen. Come, and sit by
me. I was sure you wouldn't break your word, and I'll make you promise again,
before you go.'
"I knew now that I mustn't tease him,
as he was ill; and I spoke softly and put no questions, and avoided irritating
him in any way. I had brought some of my nicest books for him; he asked me to
read a little of one, and I was about to comply, when Earnshaw burst the door
open: having gathered venom with reflection. He advanced direct to us, seized
Linton by the arm, and swung him off the seat.
"'Get to thy own room!' he said, in a
voice almost inarticulate with passion; and his face looked swelled and
furious. 'Take her there if she comes to see thee; thou shalln't keep me out of
this. Begone wi' ye both!'
"He swore at us, and left Linton no
time to answer, nearly throwing him into the kitchen; and he clenched his fist
as I followed, seemingly longing to knock me down. I was afraid for a moment,
and I let one volume fall; he kicked it after me, and shut us out. I heard a
malignant, cracky laugh by the fire, and turning, beheld that odious Joseph
standing rubbing his bony hands, and quivering.
"'I wer sure he'd sarve ye out! He's
grand lad! He's getten t' raight sperrit in him! He knaws- Ay, he knaws, as
weel as I do, who sud be t' maister yonder- Ech, ech, ech! He made ye skift
properly! Ech, ech, ech!'
"'Where must we go?' I asked of my
cousin, disregarding the old wretch's mockery.
"Linton was white and trembling. He
was not pretty then, Ellen: oh no! he looked frightful; for his thin face and
large eyes were wrought into an expression of frantic, powerless fury. He
grasped the handle of the door, and shook it: it was fastened inside.
"If you don't let me in I'll kill
you!- If you don't let me in, I'll kill you!" he rather shrieked than
said. 'Devil! devil!- I'll kill you- I'll kill you!"
"Joseph uttered his croaking laugh
again.
"'Thear, that's t' father!' he cried.
'That's father! We've allas summut o' either side in us. Niver heed, Hareton,
lad- dunnut be 'feared- he cannot get at thee!'
"I took hold of Linton's hands, and
tried to pull him away; but he shrieked so shockingly that I dared not proceed.
At last his cries were choked by a dreadful fit of coughing; blood gushed from
his mouth, and he fell on the ground. I ran into the yard, sick with terror;
and called for Zillah, as loud as I could. She soon heard me: she was milking
the cows in a shed behind the barn, and hurrying from her work, she enquired
what there was to do? I hadn't breath to explain; dragging her in, I looked
about for Linton. Earnshaw had come out to examine the mischief he had caused,
and he was then conveying the poor thing upstairs. Zillah and I ascended after
him; but he stopped me at the top of the steps, and said I shouldn't go in: I
must go home. I exclaimed that he had killed Linton, and I would enter. Joseph
locked the door, and declared I should do 'no sich stuff,' and asked me whether
I were 'bahn to be as mad as him.' I stood crying, till the housekeeper
reappeared. She affirmed he would be better in a bit, but he couldn't do with that
shrieking and din; and she took me, and nearly carried me into the house.
"Ellen, I was ready to tear my hair
off my head! I sobbed and wept so that my eyes were almost blind; and the
ruffian you have such sympathy with stood opposite: presuming every now and
then to bid me 'wisht,' and denying that it was his fault; and, finally,
frightened by my assertions that I would tell papa, and that he should be put
in prison and hanged, he commenced blubbering himself, and hurried out to hide
his cowardly agitation. Still, I was not rid of him: when at length they
compelled me to depart, and I had gone some hundred yards off the premises, he
suddenly issued from the shadow of the roadside, and checked Minny and took
hold of me.
"'Miss Catherine, I'm ill grieved,' he
began, 'but it's rayther too bad-'
"I gave him a cut with my whip,
thinking perhaps he would murder me. He let go, thundering one of his horrid
curses, and I galloped home more than half out of my senses.
"I didn't bid you good night that
evening, and I didn't go to Wuthering Heights the next: I wished to go
exceedingly; but I was strangely excited, and dreaded to hear that Linton was
dead, sometimes; and sometimes shuddered at the thought of encountering
Hareton. On the third day I took courage: at least, I couldn't bear longer
suspense, and stole off once more. I went at five o'clock, and walked; fancying
I might manage to creep into the house, and up to Linton's room, unobserved.
However, the dogs gave notice of my approach. Zillah received me, and saying,
'the lad was mending nicely,' showed me into a small, tidy, carpeted apartment,
where, to my inexpressible joy, I beheld Linton laid on a little sofa, reading
one of my books. But he would neither speak to me nor look at me, through a
whole hour. Ellen: he has such an unhappy temper. And what quite confounded me,
when he did open his mouth, it was to utter the falsehood that I had occasioned
the uproar, and Hareton was not to blame! Unable to reply, except passionately,
I got up and walked from the room. He sent after me a faint 'Catherine!' He did
not reckon on being answered so: but I wouldn't turn back; and the morrow was
the second day on which I stayed at home, nearly determined to visit him no
more. But it was so miserable going to bed and getting up, and never hearing
anything about him, that my resolution melted into air before it was properly
formed. It had appeared wrong to take the journey once; now it seemed wrong to
refrain. Michael came to ask if he must saddle Minny; I said 'Yes,' and
considered myself doing a duty as she bore me over the hills. I was forced to
pass the front windows to get to the court: it was no use trying to conceal my
presence.
"'Young master is in the house,' said
Zillah, as she saw me making for the parlour. I went in; Earnshaw was there
also, but he quitted the room directly. Linton sat in the great arm-chair half
asleep; walking up to the fire, I began in a serious tone, partly meaning it to
be true:
"'As you don't like me, Linton, and as
you think I come on purpose to hurt you, and pretend that I do so every time,
this is our last meeting: let us say good-bye; and tell Mr. Heathcliff that you
have no wish to see me, and that he mustn't invent any more falsehoods on the
subject.'
"'Sit down and take your hat off,
Catherine,' he answered. 'You are so much happier than I am, you ought to be
better. Papa talks enough of my defects, and shows enough scorn of me, to make
it natural I should doubt myself. I doubt whether I am not altogether as
worthless as he calls me frequently; and then I feel so cross and bitter, I
hate everybody! I am worthless, and bad in temper, and bad in spirit, almost
always; and, if you choose, you may say good-bye: you'll get rid of an
annoyance. Only, Catherine, do me this justice: believe that if I might be as
sweet, and as kind, and as good as you are, I would be; as willingly, and more
so, than as happy and as healthy. And believe that your kindness has made me
love you deeper than if I deserved your love: and though I couldn't, and cannot
help showing my nature to you, I regret it and repent it; and shall regret and
repent it till I die!'
"I felt he spoke the truth; and I felt
I must forgive him: and, though he should quarrel the next moment, I must
forgive him again. We were reconciled; but we cried, both of us, the whole time
I stayed: not entirely for sorrow; yet I was sorry Linton had that distorted
nature. He'll never let his friends be at ease, and he'll never be at ease
himself! I have always gone to his little parlour, since that night; because
his father returned the day after.
"About three times, I think, we have
been merry and hopeful, as we were the first evening; the rest of my visits
were dreary and troubled: now with his selfishness and spite, and now with his
sufferings: but I've learned to endure the former with nearly as little
resentment as the latter. Mr. Heathcliff purposely avoids me: I have hardly
seen him at all. Last Sunday, indeed, coming earlier than usual, I heard him
abusing poor Linton, cruelly, for his conduct of the night before. I can't tell
how he knew of it, unless he listened. Linton had certainly behaved
provokingly; however, it was the business of nobody but me, and I interrupted
Mr. Heathcliff's lecture by entering and telling him so. He burst into a laugh,
and went away, saying he was glad I took that view of the matter. Since then,
I've told Linton he must whisper his bitter things. Now, Ellen, you have heard
all. I can't be prevented from going to Wuthering Heights, except by inflicting
misery on two people; whereas, if you'll only not tell papa, my going need
disturb the tranquillity of none. You'll not tell, will you? It will be very
heartless if you do."
"I'll make up my mind on that point by
to-morrow, Miss Catherine," I replied. "It requires some study; and
so I'll leave you to your rest, and go think it over."
I thought it over aloud, in my master's
presence; walking straight from her room to his and relating the whole story:
with the exception of her conversations with her cousin, and any mention of
Hareton. Mr. Linton was alarmed and distressed, more than he would acknowledge
to me. In the morning, Catherine learnt my betrayal of her confidence, and she
learnt also that her secret visits were to end. In vain she wept and writhed
against the interdict, and implored her father to have pity on Linton: all she
got to comfort her was a promise that he would write and give him leave to come
to the Grange when he pleased; but explaining that he must no longer expect to
see Catherine at Wuthering Heights. Perhaps, had he been aware of his nephew's
disposition and state of health, he would have seen fit to withhold even that
slight consolation.
Chapter 25 -
"THESE THINGS happened last winter,
sir," said Mrs. Dean; "hardly more than a year ago. Last winter, I
did not think, at another twelve months' end, I should be amusing a stranger to
the family with relating them! Yet, who knows how long you'll be a stranger?
You're too young to rest always contented, living by yourself; and I some way
fancy no one could see Catherine Linton and not love her. You smile; but why do
you look so lively and interested, when I talk about her? and why have you
asked me to hang her picture over your fireplace? and why-"
"Stop, my good friend!" I cried.
"It may be very possible that I should love her; but would she love me? I
doubt it too much to venture my tranquillity by running into temptation: and
then my home is not here. I'm of the busy world, and to its arms I must return.
Go on. Was Catherine obedient to her father's commands?"
"She was," continued the
housekeeper, "Her affection for him was still the chief sentiment in her
heart; and he spoke without anger: he spoke in the deep tenderness of one about
to leave his treasure amid perils and foes, where his remembered words would be
the only aid that he could bequeath to guide her. He said to me, a few days
afterwards:
"'I wish my nephew would write, Ellen,
or call. Tell me, sincerely, what you think of him: is he changed for the
better, or is there a prospect of improvement, as he grows a man?'
"'He's very delicate, sir,' I replied;
'and scarcely likely to reach manhood; but this I can say, he does not resemble
his father; and if Miss Catherine had the misfortune to marry him, he would not
be beyond her control: unless she were extremely and foolishly indulgent.
However, master, you'll have plenty of time to get acquainted with him, and see
whether he would suit her: it wants four years and more to his being of
age.'"
Edgar sighed; and walking to the window,
looked out towards Gimmerton Kirk. It was a misty afternoon, but the February
sun shone dimly, and we could just distinguish the two fir-trees in the yards,
and the sparsely scattered gravestones.
"I've prayed often," he half
soliloquised, "for the approach of what is coming; and now I begin to
shrink, and fear it. I thought the memory of the hour I came down that glen a
bridegroom would be less sweet than the anticipation that I was soon, in a few
months, or, possibly, weeks, to be carried up, and laid in its lonely hollow!
Ellen, I've been very happy with my little Cathy: through winter nights and
summer days she was a living hope at my side. But I've been as happy musing by
myself among those stones, under that old church: lying, through the long June
evenings, on the green mound of her mother's grave, and wishing- yearning for
the time when I might lie beneath it. What can I do for Cathy? How must I quit
her? I'd not care one moment for Linton being Heathcliff's son; nor for his
taking her from me, if he could console her for my loss. I'd not care that
Heathcliff gained his ends, and triumphed in robbing me of my last blessing!
But should Linton be unworthy- only a feeble tool to his father- I cannot
abandon her to him! And, hard though it be to crush her buoyant spirit, I must
persevere in making her sad while I live, and leaving her solitary when I die.
Darling! I'd rather resign her to God, and lay her in the earth before
me."
"Resign her to God as it is,
sir," I answered, "and if we should lose you- which may He forbid-
under His providence, I'll stand her friend and counsellor to the last. Miss
Catherine is a good girl: I don't fear that she will go wilfully wrong; and
people who do their duty are always finally rewarded."
Spring advanced; yet my master gathered no
real strength, though he resumed his walks in the grounds with his daughter. To
her inexperienced notions, this itself was a sign of convalescence; and then
his cheek was often flushed, and his eyes were bright: she felt sure of his
recovering. On her seventeenth birthday, he did not visit the churchyard: it
was raining, and I observed:
"You'll surely not go out to-night,
sir?"
He answered:
"No, I'll defer it this year a little
longer."
He wrote again to Linton, expressing his
great desire to see him; and, had the invalid been presentable, I've no doubt
his father would have permitted him to come. As it was, being instructed, he
returned an answer, intimating that Mr. Heathcliff objected to his calling at
the Grange; but his uncle's kind remembrance delighted him, and he hoped to
meet him, sometimes, in his rambles, and personally to petition that his cousin
and he might not remain long so utterly divided.
That part of his letter was simple, and
probably his own. Heathcliff knew he could plead eloquently for Catherine's
company, then.
"I do not ask," he said,
"that she may visit here; but, am I never to see her, because my father
forbids me to go to her home, and you forbid her to come to mine? Do, now and
then, ride with her towards the Heights; and let us exchange a few words, in
your presence! We have done nothing to deserve this separation; and you are not
angry with me; you have no reason to dislike me, you allow, yourself. Dear
uncle! send me a kind note to-morrow, and leave to join you anywhere you
please, except at Thrushcross Grange. I believe an interview would convince you
that my father's character is not mine: he affirms I am more your nephew than
his son; and though I have faults which render me unworthy of Catherine, she
has excused them, and for her sake, you should also. You enquire after my
health- it is better; but while I remain cut off from all hope, and doomed to
solitude, or the society of those who never did and never will like me, how can
I be cheerful and well?"
Edgar, though he felt for the boy, could
not consent to grant his request; because he could not accompany Catherine. He
said, in summer, perhaps, they might meet: meantime, he wished him to continue
writing at intervals, and engaged to give him what advice and comfort he was
able by letter; being well aware of his hard position in his family. Linton
complied; and had he been unrestrained, would probably have spoiled all by
filling his epistles with complaints and lamentations: but his father kept a
sharp watch over him; and, of course, insisted on every line that my master
sent being shown; so, instead of penning his peculiar personal sufferings and
distresses, the themes constantly uppermost in his thoughts, he harped on the
cruel obligation of being held asunder from his friend and love; and gently
intimated that Mr. Linton must allow an interview soon, or he should fear he
was purposely deceiving him with empty promises.
Cathy was a powerful ally at home; and,
between them, they at length persuaded my master to acquiesce in their having a
ride or a walk together about once a week, under my guardianship, and on the
moors nearest the Grange: for June found him still declining. Though he had set
aside yearly a portion of his income for my young lady's fortune, he had a
natural desire that she might retain- or at least return in a short time to-
the house of her ancestors; and he considered her only prospect of doing that
was by a union with his heir; he had no idea that the latter was failing almost
as fast as himself, nor had any one, I believe: no doctor visited the Heights,
and no one saw Master Heathcliff to make report of his condition among us. I,
for my part, began to fancy my forebodings were false, and that he must be
actually rallying, when he mentioned riding and walking on the moors, and
seemed so earnest in pursuing his object. I could not picture a father treating
a dying child as tyrannically and wickedly as I afterwards learned Heathcliff
had treated him, to compel this apparent eagerness: his efforts redoubling the
more imminently his avaricious and unfeeling plans were threatened with defeat
by death.
Chapter 26 -
SUMMER was already past its prime, when
Edgar reluctantly yielded his assent to their entreaties, and Catherine and I
set out on our first ride to join her cousin. It was a close, sultry day:
devoid of sunshine, but with a sky too dappled and hazy to threaten rain; and
our place of meeting had been fixed at the guide-stone, by the cross-roads. On
arriving there, however, a little herd-boy, despatched as a messenger, told us
that:
"Maister Linton wer just o' this side
th' Heights: and he'd be mitch obleeged to us to gang on a bit further."
"Then Master Linton has forgot the
first injunction of his uncle," I observed: "he bid us keep on the
Grange land, and here we are off at once."
"Well, we'll turn our horses' heads
round, when we reach him," answered my companion, "our excursion
shall lie towards home."
But when we reached him, and that was
scarcely a quarter of a mile from his own door, we found he had no horse; and
we were forced to dismount, and leave ours to graze. He lay on the heath,
awaiting our approach, and did not rise till we came within a few yards. Then
he walked so feebly, and looked so pale, that I immediately exclaimed:
"Why, Master Heathcliff, you are not
fit for enjoying a ramble, this morning. How ill you do look!"
Catherine surveyed him with grief and
astonishment: she changed the ejaculation of joy on her lips, to one of alarm;
and the congratulation on their long-postponed meeting, to an anxious enquiry,
whether he were worse than usual?
"No- better- better!" he panted,
trembling, and retaining her hand as if he needed its support, while his large
blue eyes wandered timidly over her; the hollowness round them transforming to
haggard wildness the languid expression they once possessed.
"But have you been worse,"
persisted his cousin; "worse than when I saw you last; you are thinner,
and-"
"I'm tired," he interrupted
hurriedly. "It is too hot for walking, let us rest here. And, in the
morning, I often feel sick- papa says I grow so fast."
Badly satisfied, Cathy sat down, and he
reclined beside her.
"This is something like your
paradise," said she, making an effort at cheerfulness. "You recollect
the two days we agreed to spend in the place and way each thought pleasantest?
This is surely yours, only there are clouds: but then they are so soft and
mellow: it is nicer than sunshine. Next week, if you can, we'll ride down to
the Grange Park, and try mine."
Linton did not appear to remember what she
talked of; and he had evidently great difficulty in sustaining any kind of
conversation. His lack of interest in the subjects she started, and his equal
incapacity to contribute to her entertainment, were so obvious that she could
not conceal her disappointment. An indefinite alteration had come over his
whole person and manner. The pettishness that might be caressed into fondness,
had yielded to a listless apathy; there was less of the peevish temper of a
child which frets and teases on purpose to be soothed, and more of the
self-absorbed moroseness of a confirmed invalid, repelling consolation, and
ready to regard the good-humoured mirth of others as an insult. Catherine
perceived, as well as I did, that he held it rather a punishment, than a
gratification, to endure our company; and she made no scruple of proposing,
presently, to depart. That proposal, unexpectedly, roused Linton from his
lethargy, and threw him into a strange state of agitation. He glanced fearfully
towards the Heights, begging she would remain another half-hour at least.
"But I think," said Cathy,
"you'd be more comfortable at home than sitting here; and I cannot amuse
you to-day, I see, by my tales, and songs, and chatter: you have grown wiser
than I, in these six months; you have little taste for my diversions now: or
else, if I could amuse you, I'd willingly stay."
"Stay to rest yourself," he
replied. "And Catherine, don't think or say that I'm very unwell: it is
the heavy weather and heat that make me dull; and I walked about, before you
came, a great deal for me. Tell uncle I'm in tolerable health, will you?"
"I'll tell him that you say so,
Linton. I couldn't affirm that you are," observed my young lady, wondering
at his pertinacious assertion of what was evidently an untruth.
"And be here again next
Thursday," continued he, shunning her puzzled gaze. "And give him my
thanks for permitting you to come- my best thanks, Catherine. And- and, if you
did meet my father, and he asked you about me, don't lead him to suppose that
I've been extremely silent and stupid: don't look sad and downcast, as you are
doing- he'll be angry."
"I care nothing for his anger,"
exclaimed Cathy, imagining she would be its object.
"But I do," said her cousin,
shuddering, "Don't provoke him against me, Catherine, for he is very
hard."
"Is he severe to you, Master
Heathcliff?" I enquired. "Has he grown weary of indulgence, and
passed from passive to active hatred?"
Linton looked at me, but did not answer;
and, after keeping her seat by his side another ten minutes, during which his
head fell drowsily on his breast, and he uttered nothing except suppressed
moans of exhaustion or pain, Cathy began to seek solace in looking for
bilberries, and sharing the produce of her researches with me: she did not
offer them to him, for she saw further notice would only weary and annoy.
"Is it half-an-hour now, Ellen?"
she whispered in my ear, at last. "I can't tell why we should stay. He's
asleep, and papa will be wanting us back."
"Well, we must not leave him
asleep," I answered; "wait till he wakes, and be patient. You were
mighty eager to set off, but your longing to see poor Linton has soon
evaporated!"
"Why did he wish to see me?"
returned Catherine. "In his crossest humours, formerly, I liked him better
than I do in his present curious mood. It's just as if it were a task he was
compelled to perform- this interview- for fear his father should scold him. But
I'm hardly going to come to give Mr. Heathcliff pleasure; whatever reason he
may have for ordering Linton to undergo this penance. And, though I'm glad he's
better in health, I'm sorry he's so much less pleasant, and so much less
affectionate to me."
"You think he is better in health
then?" I said.
"Yes," she answered;
"because he always made such a great deal of his sufferings, you know. He
is not tolerably well, as he told me to tell papa; but he's better, very
likely."
"There you differ with me, Miss
Cathy," I remarked; "I should conjecture him to be far worse."
Linton here started from his slumber in
bewildered terror, and asked if any one had called his name.
"No," said Catherine;
"unless in dreams. I cannot conceive how you manage to dose out of doors,
in the morning."
"I thought I heard my father," he
gasped, glancing up to the frowning nab above us. "You are sure nobody
spoke?"
"Quite sure," replied his cousin.
"Only Ellen and I were disputing concerning your health. Are you truly
stronger, Linton, than when we separated in winter? If you be I'm certain one
thing is not stronger- your regard for me: speak,- are you?"
The tears gushed from Linton's eyes as he
answered, "Yes, yes, I am!" And, still under the spell of the
imaginary voice, his gaze wandered up and down to detect its owner. Cathy rose.
"For to-day we must part," she said. "And I won't conceal that I
have been sadly disappointed with our meeting; though I'll mention it to nobody
but you: not that I stand in awe of Mr. Heathcliff."
"Hush," murmured Linton:
"for God's sake, hush! He's coming." And he clung to Catherine's arm,
striving to detain her; but at that announcement she hastily disengaged
herself, and whistled to Minny, who obeyed her like a dog.
"I'll be here next Thursday," she
cried, springing to the saddle. "Good-bye. Quick, Ellen!"
And so we left him, scarcely conscious of
our departure, so absorbed was he in anticipating his father's approach.
Before we reached home, Catherine's
displeasure softened into a perplexed sensation of pity and regret, largely
blended with vague, uneasy doubts about Linton's actual circumstances, physical
and social; in which I partook, though I counselled her not to say much; for a
second journey would make us better judges. My master requested an account of
our on-goings. His nephew's offering of thanks was duly delivered, Miss Cathy
gently touching on the rest: I also threw little light on his enquiries, for I
hardly knew what to hide, and what to reveal.
Chapter 27 -
SEVEN DAYS glided away, every one marking
its course by the henceforth rapid alteration of Edgar Linton's state. The
havoc that months had previously wrought was now emulated by the inroads of
hours. Catherine, we would fain have deluded yet: but her own quick spirit
refused to delude her: it divined in secret, and brooded on the dreadful
probability, gradually ripening into certainty. She had not the heart to
mention her ride, when Thursday came round; I mentioned it for her, and
obtained permission to order her out of doors: for the library, where her
father stopped a short time daily- the brief period he could bear to sit up-
and his chamber, had become her whole world. She grudged each moment that did
not find her bending over his pillow, or seated by his side. Her countenance
grew wan with watching and sorrow, and my master gladly dismissed her to what
he flattered himself would be a happy change of scene and society; drawing
comfort from the hope that she would not now be left entirely alone after his
death.
He had a fixed idea, I guessed by several
observations he let fall, that, as his nephew resembled him in person, he would
resemble him in mind; for Linton's letters bore few or no indications of his
defective character. And I, through pardonable weakness, refrained from
correcting the error; asking myself what good there would be in disturbing his
last moments with information that he had neither power nor opportunity to turn
to account.
We deferred our excursion till the
afternoon; a golden afternoon of August: every breath from the hills so full of
life, that it seemed whoever respired it, though dying, might revive.
Catherine's face was just like the landscape- shadows and sunshine flitting
over it in rapid succession; but the shadows rested longer, and the sunshine
was more transient; and her poor little heart reproached itself for even that
passing forgetfulness of its cares.
We discerned Linton watching at the same
spot he had selected before. My young mistress alighted, and told me that, as
she was resolved to stay a very little while, I had better hold the pony and
remain on horseback; but I dissented: I wouldn't risk losing sight of the
charge committed to me a minute; so we climbed the slope of heath together.
Master Heathcliff received us with greater animation on this occasion: not the
animation of high spirits though, nor yet of joy; it looked more like fear.
"It is late!" he said, speaking
short and with difficulty, "Is not your father very ill? I thought you
wouldn't come."
"Why won't you be candid?" cried
Catherine, swallowing her greeting. "Why cannot you say at once you don't
want me? It is strange, Linton, that for the second time you have brought me
here on purpose, apparently, to distress us both, and for no reason
besides!"
Linton shivered, and glanced at her, half
supplicating, half ashamed; but his cousin's patience was not sufficient to
endure this enigmatical behaviour.
"My father is very ill," she
said; "and why am I called from his bedside? Why didn't you send to
absolve me from my promise, when you wished I wouldn't keep it? Come! I desire
an explanation: playing and trifling are completely banished out of my mind;
and I can't dance attendance on your affectations now!"
"My affectations!" he murmured;
"what are they? For Heaven's sake, Catherine, don't look so angry! Despise
me as much as you please; I am a worthless, cowardly wretch: I can't be scorned
enough; but I'm too mean for your anger. Hate my father, and spare me for
contempt."
"Nonsense!" cried Catherine, in a
passion. "Foolish, silly boy! And there! he trembles, as if I were really
going to touch him! You needn't bespeak contempt, Linton: anybody will have it
spontaneously at your service. Get off! I shall return home: it is folly
dragging you from the hearthstone, and pretending- what do we pretend? Let go
my frock! If I pitied you for crying and looking so very frightened, you should
spurn such pity. Ellen, tell him how disgraceful this conduct is. Rise, and
don't degrade yourself into an abject reptile- don't!"
With streaming face and an expression of
agony, Linton had thrown his nerveless frame along the ground: he seemed
convulsed with exquisite terror.
"Oh!" he sobbed, "I cannot
bear it! Catherine, Catherine, I'm a traitor, too, and I dare not tell you! But
leave me, and I shall be killed! Dear Catherine, my life is in your hands: and
you have said you loved me, and if you did, it wouldn't harm you. You'll not
go, then? kind, sweet, good Catherine! And perhaps you will consent- and he'll
let me die with you!"
My young lady, on witnessing his intense
anguish, stooped to raise him. The old feeling of indulgent tenderness overcame
her vexation, and she grew thoroughly moved and alarmed.
"Consent to what?" she asked.
"To stay? Tell me the meaning of this strange talk, and I will. You
contradict your own words, and distract me! Be calm and frank, and confess at
once all that weighs on your heart. You wouldn't injure me, Linton, would you?
You wouldn't let any enemy hurt me, if you could prevent it? I'll believe you
are a coward for yourself, but not a cowardly betrayer of your best
friend."
"But my father threatens me,"
gasped the boy, clasping his attenuated fingers, "and I dread him- I dread
him! I dare not tell!"
"Oh, well!" said Catherine, with
scornful compassion, "keep your secret: I'm no coward. Save yourself: I'm
not afraid."
Her magnanimity provoked his tears: he wept
wildly, kissing her supporting hands, and yet could not summon courage to speak
out. I was cogitating what the mystery might be, and determined Catherine
should never suffer, to benefit him or any one else, by my good will; when
hearing a rustle among the ling, I looked up and saw Mr. Heathcliff almost
close upon us, descending the Heights. He didn't cast a glance towards my
companions, though they were sufficiently near for Linton's sobs to be audible;
but hailing me in the almost hearty tone he assumed to none besides, and the
sincerity of which I couldn't avoid doubting, he said:
"It is something to see you so near to
my house, Nelly. How are you at the Grange? Let us hear. The rumour goes,"
he added in a lower tone, "that Edgar Linton is on his deathbed: perhaps
they exaggerate his illness!"
"No; my master is dying," I
replied: "It is true enough. A sad thing it will be for us all, but a
blessing for him!"
"How long will he last, do you
think?" he asked.
"I don't know," I said.
"Because," he continued, looking
at the two young people, who were fixed under his eye- Linton appeared as if he
could not venture to stir or raise his head, and Catherine could not move, on
his account- "because that lad yonder seems determined to beat me; and I'd
thank his uncle to be quick, and go before him. Hallo! has the whelp been
playing that game long? I did give him some lessons about snivelling. Is he
pretty lively with Miss Linton generally?"
"Lively? no- he has shown the greatest
distress," I answered. "To see him, I should say, that instead of
rambling with his sweetheart on the hills, he ought to be in bed, under the
hands of a doctor."
"He shall be in a day or two,"
muttered Heathcliff. "But first- get up, Linton! Get up!" he shouted.
"Don't grovel on the ground there: up, this moment!"
Linton had sunk prostrate again in another
paroxysm of helpless fear, caused by his father's glance towards him, I
suppose: there was nothing else to produce such humiliation. He made several
efforts to obey, but his little strength was annihilated for the time, and he
fell back again with a moan. Mr. Heathcliff advanced, and lifted him to lean
against a ridge of turf.
"Now," said he, with curbed
ferocity, "I'm getting angry; and if you don't command that paltry spirit
of yours- Damn you! get up directly!"
"I will, father," he panted.
"Only, let me alone, or I shall faint. I've done as you wished, I'm sure.
Catherine will tell you that I- that I- have been cheerful. Ah! keep by me,
Catherine: give me your hand."
"Take mine," said his father;
"stand on your feet. There now- she'll lend you her arm: that's right,
look at her. You would imagine I was the devil himself, Miss Linton, to excite
such horror. Be so kind as to walk home with him, will you? He shudders if I touch
him."
"Linton, dear!" whispered
Catherine, "I can't go to Wuthering Heights: papa has forbidden me. He'll
not harm you: why are you so afraid?"
"I can never re-enter that
house," he answered. "I'm not to re-enter it without you!"
"Stop!" cried his father.
"We'll respect Catherine's filial scruples. Nelly, take him in, and I'll
follow your advice concerning the doctor, without delay."
"You'll do well," replied I.
"But I must remain with my mistress: to mind your son is not my
business."
"You are very stiff," said
Heathcliff, "I know that: but you'll force me to pinch the baby and make
it scream before it moves your charity. Come, then, my hero. Are you willing to
return, escorted by me?"
He approached once more, and made as if he
would seize the fragile being; but, shrinking back, Linton clung to his cousin,
and implored her to accompany him, with a frantic importunity that admitted no
denial. However I disapproved, I couldn't hinder her: indeed, how could she
have refused him herself? What was filling him with dread we had no means of
discerning: but there he was, powerless under its grip, and any addition seemed
capable of shocking him into idiocy. We reached the threshold: Catherine walked
in, and I stood waiting till she had conducted the invalid to a chair,
expecting her out immediately; when Mr. Heathcliff, pushing me forward,
exclaimed:
"My house is not stricken with the
plague, Nelly; and I have a mind to be hospitable to-day: sit down, and allow
me to shut the door."
He shut and locked it also. I started.
"You shall have tea before you go
home," he added. "I am by myself. Hareton is gone with some cattle to
the Lees, and Zillah and Joseph are off on a journey of pleasure; and, though
I'm used to being alone, I'd rather have some interesting company, if I can get
it. Miss Linton, take your seat by him. I give you what I have: the present is
hardly worth accepting; but I have nothing else to offer. It is Linton, I mean.
How she does stare! It's odd what a savage feeling I have to anything that seems
afraid of me! Had I been born where laws are less strict and tastes less
dainty, I should treat myself to a slow vivisection of those two, as an
evening's amusement."
He drew in his breath, struck the table,
and swore to himself, "By hell! I hate them."
"I'm not afraid of you!"
exclaimed Catherine, who could not hear the latter part of his speech. She
stepped close up; her black eyes flashing with passion and resolution.
"Give me that key: I will have it!" she said. "I wouldn't eat or
drink here, if I were starving."
Heathcliff had the key in his hand that
remained on the table. He looked up, seized with a sort of surprise at her
boldness; or, possibly, reminded by her voice and glance, of the person from
whom she inherited it. She snatched at the instrument, and half-succeeded in
getting it out of his loosened fingers: but her action recalled him to the
present; he recovered it speedily.
"Now, Catherine Linton," he said,
"stand off, or I shall knock you down; and that will make Mrs. Dean
mad."
Regardless of this warning, she captured
his closed hand and its contents again. "We will go!" she repeated,
exerting her utmost efforts to cause the iron muscles to relax; and finding
that her nails made no impression, she applied her teeth pretty sharply. Heathcliff
glanced at me a glance that kept me from interfering a moment. Catherine was
too intent on his fingers to notice his face. He opened them suddenly, and
resigned the object of dispute; but, ere she had well secured it, he seized her
with the liberated hand, and, pulling her on his knee, administered with the
other a shower of terrific slaps on the side of the head, each sufficient to
have fulfilled his threat, had she been able to fall.
At this diabolical violence I rushed on him
furiously. "You villain!" I began to cry, "you villain!" A
touch on the chest silenced me: I am stout, and soon put out of breath; and,
what with that and the rage, I staggered dizzily back, and felt ready to
suffocate, or to burst a blood-vessel. The scene was over in two minutes;
Catherine, released, put her two hands to her temples, and looked just as if
she were not sure whether her ears were off or on. She trembled like a reed,
poor thing, and leant against the table perfectly bewildered.
"I know how to chastise children, you
see," said the scoundrel grimly, as he stooped to repossess himself of the
key, which had dropped to the floor. "Go to Linton now, as I told you; and
cry at your ease! I shall be your father, to-morrow- all the father you'll have
in a few days- and you shall have plenty of that. You can bear plenty; you re
no weakling: you shall have a daily taste, if I catch such a devil of a temper
in your eyes again!"
Cathy ran to me instead of Linton, and
knelt down and put her burning cheek on my lap, weeping aloud. Her cousin had
shrunk into a corner of the settle, as quiet as a mouse, congratulating
himself, I dare say, that the correction had lighted on another than him. Mr.
Heathcliff, perceiving us all confounded, rose, and expeditiously made the tea
himself. The cups and saucers were laid ready. He poured it out, and handed me
a cup.
"Wash away your spleen," he said.
"And help your own naughty pet and mine. It is not poisoned, though I
prepared it. I'm going out to seek your horses."
Our first thought, on his departure, was to
force an exit somewhere. We tried the kitchen door, but that was fastened
outside: we looked at the windows- they were too narrow for even Cathy's little
figure.
"Master Linton," I cried, seeing
we were regularly imprisoned: "you know what your diabolical father is
after and you shall tell us or I'll box your ears, as he has done your
cousin's."
"Yes, Linton, you must tell,"
said Catherine. "It was for your sake I came; and it will be wickedly
ungrateful if you refuse."
"Give me some tea, I'm thirsty, and
then I'll tell you" he answered. "Mrs. Dean, go away. I don't like
you standing over me. Now, Catherine, you are letting your tears fall into my
cup. I won't drink that. Give me another."
Catherine pushed another to him, and wiped
her face. I felt disgusted at the little wretch's composure, since he was no
longer in terror for himself. The anguish he had exhibited on the moor subsided
as soon as ever he entered Wuthering Heights; so I guessed he had been menaced
with an awful visitation of wrath if he failed in decoying us there; and, that
accomplished, he had no further immediate fears.
"Papa wants us to be married," he
continued, after sipping some of the liquid. "And he knows your papa
wouldn't let us marry now; and he's afraid of my dying, if we wait; so we are
to be married in the morning, and you are to stay here all night; and if you do
as he wishes, you shall return home next day, and take me with you."
"Take you with her, pitiful
changeling?" I exclaimed. "You marry? Why, the man is mad; or he
thinks us fools, every one. And do you imagine that beautiful young lady, that
healthy, hearty girl, will tie herself to a little perishing monkey like you!
Are you cherishing the notion that anybody, let alone Miss Catherine Linton,
would have you for a husband? You want whipping for bringing us in here at all,
with your dastardly puling tricks; and- don't look so silly, now! I've a very
good mind to shake you severely, for your contemptible treachery, and your
imbecile conceit."
I did give him a slight shaking; but it
brought on the cough, and he took to his ordinary resource of moaning and
weeping, and Catherine rebuked me.
"Stay all night? No," she said,
looking slowly round. "Ellen, I'll burn that door down, but I'll get
out."
And she would have commenced the execution
of her threat directly, but Linton was up in alarm for his dear self again. He
clasped her in his two feeble arms, sobbing: "Won't you have me,' and save
me? not let me come to the Grange? Oh, darling Catherine! you mustn't go and
leave, after all. You must obey my father- you must!"
"I must obey my own," she
replied, "and relieve him from this cruel suspense. The whole night! What
would he think? he'll be distressed already. I'll either break or burn a way
out of the house. Be quiet! You're in no danger; but if you hinder me- Linton,
I love papa better than you!"
The mortal terror he felt of Mr.
Heathcliff's anger, restored to the boy his coward's eloquence. Catherine was
near distraught: still, she persisted that she must go home, and tried entreaty
in her turn, persuading him to subdue his selfish agony. While they were thus
occupied, our gaoler re-entered.
"Your beasts have trotted off,"
he said, "and- now, Linton! snivelling again? What has she been doing to
you? Come, come- have done, and get to bed. In a month or two, my lad, you'll
be able to pay her back her present tyrannies with a vigorous hand. You're
pining for pure love, are you not? nothing else in the world: and she shall
have you! There, to bed! Zillah won't be here tonight; you must undress
yourself. Hush! hold your noise! Once in your own room, I'll not come near you:
you needn't fear. By chance you've managed tolerably. I'll look to the
rest."
He spoke these words, holding the door open
for his son to pass; and the latter achieved his exit exactly as a spaniel
might, which suspected the person who attended on it of designing a spiteful
squeeze. The lock was resecured. Heathcliff approached the fire, where my
mistress and I stood silent. Catherine looked up, and instinctively raised her
hand to her cheek: his neighbourhood revived a painful sensation. Anybody else
would have been incapable of regarding the childish act with sternness, but he
scowled on her and muttered:
"Oh! you are not afraid of me? Your
courage is well disguised: you seem damnably afraid!"
"I am afraid now," she replied,
"because, if I stay, papa will be miserable; and how can I endure making
him miserable;- when he- when he- Mr. Heathcliff, let me go home! I promised to
marry Linton: papa would like me to: and I love him. Why should you wish to
force me to do what I'll willingly do of myself?"
"Let him dare to force you!" I
cried. "There's a law in the land, thank God there is; though we be in an
out-of-the-way place. I'd inform if he were my own son: and it's felony without
benefit of clergy!"
"Silence!" said the ruffian.
"To the devil with your clamour! I don't want you to speak. Miss Linton, I
shall enjoy myself remarkably in thinking your father will be miserable: I
shall not sleep for satisfaction. You could have hit on no surer way of fixing
your residence under my roof for the next twenty-four hours, than informing me
that such an event would follow. As to your promise to marry Linton, I'll take
care you shall keep it; for you shall not quit this place till it is
fulfilled."
"Send Ellen, then, to let papa know
I'm safe!" exclaimed Catherine, weeping bitterly. "Or marry me now.
Poor papa! Ellen, he'll think we're lost. What shall we do?"
"Not he! He'll think you are tired of
waiting on him, and run off for a little amusement," answered Heathcliff.
"You cannot deny that you entered my house of your own accord, in contempt
of his injunctions to the contrary. And it is quite natural that you should
desire amusement at your age; and that you would weary of nursing a sick man,
and that man only your father. Catherine, his happiest days were over when your
days began. He cursed you, I dare say, for coming into the world (I did, at
least); and it would just do if he cursed you as he went out of it. I'd join
him. I don't love you! How should I? Weep away. As far as I can see, it will be
your chief diversion hereafter; unless Linton make amends for other losses: and
your provident parent appears to fancy he may. His letters of advice and
consolation entertained me vastly. In his last he recommended my jewel to be
careful of his; and kind to her when he got her. Careful and kind- that's
paternal. But Linton requires his whole stock of care and kindness for himself.
Linton can play the little tyrant well. He'll undertake to torture any number
of cats, if their teeth be drawn and their claws pared. You'll be able to tell
his uncle fine tales of his kindness, when you get home again, I assure
you."
"You're right there!" I said;
"explain your son's character. Show his resemblance to yourself; and then,
I hope, Miss Cathy will think twice before she takes the cockatrice!
"I don't much mind speaking of his
amiable qualities now," he answered; "because she must either accept
him or remain a prisoner, and you along with her, till your master dies. I can
detain you both, quite concealed, here. If you doubt, encourage her to retract
her word, and you'll have an opportunity of judging!"
"I'll not retract my word," said
Catherine. "I'll marry him within this hour, if I may go to Thrushcross
Grange afterwards. Mr. Heathcliff, you're a cruel man, but you're not a fiend;
and you won't from mere malice, destroy irrevocably all my happiness. If papa
thought I had left him on purpose, and if he died before I returned, could I
bear to live? I've given over crying: but I'm going to kneel here, at your
knee; and I'll not get up, and I'll not take my eyes from your face till you
look back at me! No, don't turn away! do look! You'll see nothing to provoke you.
I don't hate you. I'm not angry that you struck me. Have you never loved
anybody in all your life, uncle? never? Ah, you must look once. I'm so
wretched, you can't help being sorry and pitying me."
"Keep your eft's fingers off; and
move, or I'll kick you!" cried Heathcliff, brutally repulsing her.
"I'd rather be hugged by a snake. How the devil can you dream of fawning
on me? I detest you!"
He shrugged his shoulders: shook himself,
indeed, as if his flesh crept with aversion; and thrust back his chair; while I
got up, and opened my mouth, to commence a downright torrent of abuse. But I
was rendered dumb in the middle of the first sentence, by a threat that I
should be shown into a room by myself the very next syllable I uttered. It was
growing dark- we heard a sound of voices at the garden gate. Our host hurried
out instantly: he had his wits about him; we had not. There was a talk of two
or three minutes, and he returned alone.
"I thought it had been your cousin
Hareton," I observed to Catherine. "I wish he would arrive! Who knows
but he might take our part?"
"It was three servants sent to seek
you from the Grange," said Heathcliff, overhearing me. "You should
have opened a lattice and called out: but I could swear that chit is glad you
didn't. She's glad to be obliged to stay, I'm certain."
At learning the chance we had missed, we
both gave vent to our grief without control; and he allowed us to wail on till
nine o'clock. Then he bid us go upstairs, through the kitchen, to Zillah's
chamber; and I whispered my companion to obey: perhaps we might contrive to get
through the window there, or into a garret, and out by its skylight. The
window, however, was narrow, like those below, and the garret trap was safe
from our attempts; for we were fastened in as before. We neither of us lay
down: Catherine took her station by the lattice, and watched anxiously for
morning; a deep sigh being the only answer I could obtain to my frequent
entreaties that she would try to rest. I seated myself in a chair, and rocked to
and fro, passing harsh judgment on my many derelictions of duty; from which, it
struck me then, all the misfortunes of my employers sprang. It was not the
case, in reality, I am aware; but it was, in my imagination, that dismal night;
and I thought Heathcliff himself less guilty than I.
At seven o'clock he came, and enquired if
Miss Linton had risen. She ran to the door immediately, and answered,
"Yes." "Here, then," he said, opening it, and pulling her
out. I rose to follow, but he turned the lock again. I demanded my release.
"Be patient," he replied:
"I'll send up your breakfast in a while."
I thumped on the panels, and rattled the
latch angrily; and Catherine asked why I was still shut up? He answered, I must
try to endure it another hour, and they went away. I endured it two or three
hours; at length, I heard a footstep: not Heathcliff's.
"I've brought you something to
eat," said a voice; "oppen t' door!"
Complying eagerly, I beheld Hareton, laden
with food enough to last me all day.
"Take it," he added, thrusting
the tray into my hand.
"Stay one minute," I began.
"Nay," cried he, and retired,
regardless of any prayers I could pour forth to detain him.
And there I remained enclosed the whole
day, and the whole of the next night; and another, and another. Five nights and
four days I remained, altogether, seeing nobody but Hareton, once every
morning; and he was a model of a gaoler: surly, and dumb, and deaf to every
attempt at moving his sense of justice or compassion.
Chapter 28 -
ON THE FIFTH morning, or rather afternoon,
a different step approached- lighter and shorter; and, this time, the person
entered the room.- It was Zillah; donned in her scarlet shawl, with a black
silk bonnet on her head, and a willow basket swung to her arm.
"Eh, dear! Mrs. Dean!" she
exclaimed. "Well! there is a talk about you at Gimmerton. I never thought
but you were sunk in the Blackhorse marsh, and missy with you, till master told
me you'd been found, and he'd lodged you here! What! and you must have got on
an island, sure? And how long were you in the hole? Did master save you, Mrs.
Dean? But you're not so thin- you've not been so poorly, have you?"
"Your master is a true
scoundrel!" I replied. "But he shall answer for it. He needn't have
raised that tale: it shall all be laid bare!"
"What do you mean?" asked Zillah.
"It's not his tale; they tell that in the village- about your being lost
in the marsh: and I calls to Earnshaw, when I come in- 'Eh, they's queer
things, Mr. Hareton, happened since I went off. It's a sad pity of that likely
young lass, and cant Nelly Dean.' He stared. I thought he had not heard aught,
so I told him the rumour. The master listened, and he just smiled to himself,
and said, 'If they have been in the marsh, they are out now, Zillah. Nelly Dean
is lodged, at this minute, in your room. You can tell her to flit, when you go
up; here is the key. The bog-water got into her head, and she would have run
home quite flighty; but I fixed her till she came round to her senses. You can
bid her go to the Grange at once, if she be able, and carry a message from me,
that her young lady will follow in time to attend the squire's funeral."
"Mr. Edgar is not dead?" I
gasped. "Oh! Zillah, Zillah!"
"No, no; sit you down, my good
mistress," she replied, "you're right sickly yet. He's not dead;
Doctor Kenneth thinks he may last another day. I met him on the road and
asked."
Instead of sitting down, I snatched my
outdoor things, and hastened below, for the way was free. On entering the
house, I looked about for some one to give information of Catherine. The place
was filled with sunshine, and the door stood wide open; but nobody seemed at
hand. As I hesitated whether to go off at once, or return and seek my mistress,
a slight cough drew my attention to the hearth. Linton lay on the settle, sole
tenant, sucking a stick of sugar-candy, and pursuing my movements with
apathetic eyes. "Where is Miss Catherine?" I demanded sternly,
supposing I could frighten him into giving intelligence, by catching him thus,
alone. He sucked on like an innocent.
"Is she gone?" I said.
"No," he replied; "she's
upstairs: she's not to go, we won't let her."
"You won't let her, little
idiot!" I exclaimed. "Direct me to her room immediately, or I'll make
you sing out sharply."
"Papa would make you sing out, if you
attempted to get there," he answered. "He says I'm not to be soft
with Catherine: she's my wife, and it's shameful that she should wish to leave
me. He says she hates me and wants me to die, that she may have my money; but
she shan't have it: and she shan't go home! She never shall!- she may cry, and
be sick as much as she pleases!"
He resumed his former occupation, closing
his lids, as if he meant to drop asleep.
"Master Heathcliff," I resumed,
"have you forgotten all Catherine's kindness to you last winter, when you
affirmed you loved her, and when she brought you books and sung you songs, and
came many a time through wind and snow to see you? She wept to miss one
evening, because you would be disappointed; and you felt then that she was a
hundred times too good to you: and now you believe the lies your father tells,
though you know he detests you both. And you join him against her. That's fine
gratitude, is it not?"
The corner of Linton's mouth fell, and he
took the sugar-candy from his lips.
"Did she come to Wuthering Heights,
because she hated you?" I continued. "Think for yourself! As to your
money, she does not even know that you will have any. And you say she's sick;
and yet, you leave her alone, up there in a strange house! You who have felt
what it is to be so neglected! You could pity your own sufferings; and she
pitied them too; but you won't pity hers! I shed tears, Master Heathcliff, you
see- an elderly woman, and a servant merely- and you, after pretending such affection,
and having reason to worship her almost, store every tear you have for
yourself, and lie there quite at ease. Ah! you're a heartless, selfish
boy!"
"I can't stay with her," he
answered crossly. "I'll not stay by myself. She cries so I can't bear it.
And she won't give over, though I say I'll call my father. I did call him once,
and he threatened to strangle her, if she was not quiet; but she began again
the instant he left the room, moaning and grieving all night long, though I
screamed for vexation that I couldn't sleep."
"Is Mr. Heathcliff out?" I
enquired, perceiving that the wretched creature had no power to sympathise with
his cousin's mental tortures.
"He's in the court," he replied,
"talking to Dr. Kenneth; who says uncle is dying, truly, at last. I'm
glad, for I shall be master of the Grange after him. Catherine always spoke of
it as her house. It isn't hers! It's mine: papa says everything she has is
mine. All her nice books are mine; she offered to give me them, and pretty
birds, and her pony Minny, if I would get the key of her room, and let her out;
but I told her she had nothing to give, they were all, all mine. And then she
cried, and took a little picture from her neck, and said I should not have
that; two pictures in a gold case, on one side her mother, and on the other,
uncle, when they were young. That was yesterday- I said they were mine, too;
and tried to get them from her. The spiteful thing wouldn't let me: she pushed
me off, and hurt me. I shrieked out- that frightens her- she heard papa coming,
and she broke the hinges and divided the case, and gave me her mother's
portrait; the other she attempted to hide: but papa asked what was the matter,
and I explained it. He took the one I had away, and ordered her to resign hers
to me; she refused, and he- he struck her down, and wrenched it off the chain,
and crushed it with his foot."
"And were you pleased to see her
struck?" I asked: having my designs in encouraging his talk.
"I winked," he answered: "I
wink to see my father strike a dog or a horse. he does it so hard. Yet I was
glad at first- she deserved punishing for pushing me: but when papa was gone,
she made me come to the window and showed me her cheek cut on the inside,
against her teeth, and her mouth filling with blood; and then she gathered up
the bits of the picture, and went and sat down with her face to the wall, and
she has never spoken to me since: and I sometimes think she can't speak for
pain. I don't like to think so; but she's a naughty thing for crying continually;
and she looks so pale and wild, I'm afraid of her."
"And you can get the key if you
choose?" I said.
"Yes, when I'm upstairs," he
answered; "but I can't walk upstairs now."
"In what apartment is it?" I
asked.
"Oh," he cried, "I shan't
tell you where it is! It is our secret. Nobody, neither Hareton nor Zillah, is
to know. There! you've tired me- go away, go away!" And he turned his face
on to his arm, and shut his eyes again.
I considered it best to depart without
seeing Mr. Heathcliff, and bring a rescue for my young lady from the Grange. On
reaching it, the astonishment of my fellow-servants to see me, and their joy
also, was intense; and when they heard that their little mistress was safe, two
or three were about to hurry up and shout the news at Mr. Edgar's door: but I
bespoke the announcement of it, myself. How changed I found him, even in those
few days! He lay an image of sadness and resignation waiting his death. Very
young he looked; though his actual age was thirty-nine, one would have called
him ten years younger, at least. He thought of Catherine; for he murmured her
name. I touched his hand, and spoke.
"Catherine is coming, dear
master!" I whispered; "she is alive and well; and will be here, I
hope, to-night."
I trembled at the first effects of this
intelligence: he half rose up, looked eagerly round the apartment, and then
sank back in a swoon. As soon as he recovered, I related our compulsory visit,
and detention at the Heights. I said Heathcliff forced me to go in: which was
not quite true. I uttered as little as possible against Linton; nor did I
describe all his father's brutal conduct- my intentions being to add no
bitterness, if I could help it, to his already overflowing cup.
He divined that one of his enemy's purposes
was to secure the personal property, as well as the estate, to his son: or
rather himself; yet why he did not wait till his decease was a puzzle to my
master, because ignorant how nearly he and his nephew would quit the world
together. However, he felt that his will had better be altered: instead of
leaving Catherine's fortune at her own disposal, he determined to put it in the
hands of trustees for her use during life, and for her children, if she had
any, after her. By that means, it could not fall to Mr. Heathcliff should
Linton die.
Having received his orders, I despatched a
man to fetch the attorney, and four more, provided with serviceable weapons, to
demand my young lady of her gaoler. Both parties were delayed very late. The
single servant returned first. He said Mr. Green, the lawyer, was out when he
arrived at his house, and he had to wait two hours for his re-entrance; and
then Mr. Green told him he had a little business in the village that must be
done; but he would be at Thrushcross Grange before morning. The four men came
back unaccompanied also. They brought word that Catherine was ill: too ill to
quit her room; and Heathcliff would not suffer them to see her. I scolded the
stupid fellows well for listening to that tale, which I would not carry to my
master; resolving to take a whole bevy up to the Heights, at daylight, and
storm it literally, unless the prisoner were quietly surrendered to us. Her
father shall see her, I vowed, and vowed again, if that devil be killed on his
own doorstones in trying to prevent it!
Happily, I was spared the journey and the
trouble. I had gone downstairs at three o'clock to fetch a jug of water; and
was passing through the hall with it in my hand, when a sharp knock at the
front door made me jump. "Oh! it is Green," I said, recollecting
myself- "only Green," and I went on, intending to send somebody else
to open it; but the knock was repeated: not loud, and still importunately. I
put the jug on the banister and hastened to admit him myself. The harvest moon
shone clear outside. It was not the attorney. My own sweet little mistress
sprang on my neck, sobbing:
"Ellen! Ellen! is papa alive?"
"Yes," I cried: "yes, my
angel, he is. God be thanked, you are safe with us again!"
She wanted to run, breathless as she was,
upstairs to Mr. Linton's room; but I compelled her to sit down on a chair, and
made her drink, and washed her pale face, chafing it into a faint colour with
my apron. Then I said I must go first, and tell of her arrival; imploring her
to say, she should be happy with young Heathcliff. She stared, but soon
comprehending why I counselled her to utter the falsehood, she assured me she
would not complain.
I couldn't abide to be present at their
meeting. I stood outside the chamber-door a quarter of an hour, and hardly ventured
near the bed, then. All was composed, however: Catherine's despair was as
silent as her father's joy. She supported him calmly, in appearance; and he
fixed on her features his raised eyes, that seemed dilating wih ecstasy.
He died blissfully, Mr. Lockwood: he died
so. Kissing her cheek, he murmured:
"I am going to her; and you, darling
child, shall come to us!" and never stirred or spoke again; but continued
that rapt, radiant gaze, till his pulse imperceptibly stopped and his soul
departed. None could have noticed the exact minute of his death, it was so
entirely without a struggle.
Whether Catherine had spent her tears, or
whether the grief were too weighty to let them flow, she sat there dry-eyed
till the sun rose; she sat till noon, and would still have remained brooding
over that deathbed, but I insisted on her coming away and taking some repose.
It was well I succeeded in removing her; for at dinner-time appeared the
lawyer, having called at Wuthering Heights to get his instructions how to behave.
He had sold himself to Mr. Heathcliff: that was the cause of his delay in
obeying my master's summons. Fortunately, no thought of worldly affairs crossed
the latter's mind, to disturb him, after his daughter's arrival.
Mr. Green took upon himself to order
everything and everybody about the place. He gave all the servants, but me,
notice to quit. He would have carried his delegated authority to the point of
insisting that Edgar Linton should not be buried beside his wife, but in the
chapel, with his family. There was the will, however, to hinder that, and my
loud protestations against any infringement of its directions. The funeral was
hurried over; Catherine, Mrs. Linton Heathcliff now, was suffered to stay at
the Grange till her father's corpse had quitted it.
She told me that her anguish had at last
spurred Linton to incur the risk of liberating her. She heard the men I sent
disputing at the door, and she gathered the sense of Heathcliff's answer. It
drove her desperate. Linton, who had been conveyed up to the little parlour
soon after I left, was terrified into fetching the key before his father
reascended. He had the cunning to unlock and re-lock the door, without shutting
it; and when he should have gone to bed, he begged to sleep with Hareton, and
his petition was granted for once. Catherine stole out before break of day. She
dare not try the doors, lest the dogs should raise an alarm; she visited the
empty chambers and examined their windows; and, luckily, lighting on her
mother's she got easily out of its lattice, and on to the ground, by means of
the fir-tree close by. Her accomplice suffered for his share in the escape,
notwithstanding his timid contrivances.
Chapter 29 -
THE EVENING after the funeral, my young
lady and I were seated in the library; now musing mournfully- one of us
despairingly- on our loss, now venturing conjectures as to the gloomy future.
We had just agreed the best destiny which
could await Catherine, would be a permission to continue resident at the
Grange; at least, during Linton's life: he being allowed to join her there, and
I to remain as housekeeper. That seemed rather too favourable an arrangement to
be hoped for: and yet I did hope, and began to cheer up under the prospect of
retaining my home and my employment, and, above all, my beloved young mistress;
when a servant- one of the discarded ones, not yet departed- rushed hastily in,
and said "that devil Heathcliff" was coming through the court: should
he fasten the door in his face?
If we had been mad enough to order that
proceeding, we had not time. He made no ceremony of knocking or announcing his
name: he was master, and availed himself of the master's privilege to walk
straight in, without saying a word. The sound of our informant's voice directed
him to the library: he entered, and motioning him out, shut the door.
It was the same room into which he had been
ushered, as a guest, eighteen years before: the same moon shone through the
window; and the same autumn landscape lay outside. We had not yet lighted a candle,
but all the apartment was visible, even to the portraits on the wall: the
splendid head of Mrs. Linton, and the graceful one of her husband. Heathcliff
advanced to the hearth. Time had little altered his person either. There was
the same man: his dark face rather sallower and more composed, his frame a
stone or two heavier, perhaps, and no other difference. Catherine had risen,
with an impulse to dash out, when she saw him.
"Stop!" he said, arresting her by
the arm. "No more runnings away! Where would you go? I'm come to fetch you
home; and I hope you'll be a dutiful daughter, and not encourage my son to
further disobedience. I was embarrassed how to punish him when I discovered his
part in the business: he's such a cobweb, a pinch would annihilate him; but
you'll see by his look that he has received his due! I brought him down one
evening, the day before yesterday, and just set him in a chair, and never
touched him afterwards. I sent Hareton out, and we had the room to ourselves.
In two hours, I called Joseph to carry him up again; and since then my presence
is as potent on his nerves as a ghost; and I fancy he sees me often, though I
am not near. Hareton says he wakes and shrieks in the night by the hour
together, and calls you to protect him from me; and, whether you like your
precious mate or not, you must come; he's your concern now; I yield all my
interest in him to you."
"Why not let Catherine continue
here?" I pleaded, "and send Master Linton to her. As you hate them
both, you'd not miss them: they can only be a daily plague to your unnatural
heart."
"I'm seeking a tenant for the
Grange," he answered; "and I want my children about me, to be sure.
Besides, that lass owes me her services for her bread. I'm not going to nurture
her in luxury and idleness after Linton has gone. Make haste and get ready,
now; and don't oblige me to compel you."
"I shall," said Catherine.
"Linton is all I have to love in the world, and though you have done what
you could to make him hateful to me, and me to him, you cannot make us hate
each other. And I defy you to hurt him when I am by, and I defy you to frighten
me!"
"You are a boastful champion,"
replied Heathcliff; "but I don't like you well enough to hurt him: you
shall get the full benefit of the torment, as long as it lasts. It is not I who
will make him hateful to you- it is his own sweet spirit. He's as bitter as
gall at your desertion and its consequences: don't expect thanks for this noble
devotion. I heard him draw a pleasant picture to Zillah of what he would do if
he were as strong as I: the inclination is there, and his very weakness will
sharpen his wits to find a substitute for strength."
"I know he has a bad nature,"
said Catherine: "he's your son. But I'm glad I've a better, to forgive it;
and I know he loves me, and for that reason I love him. Mr. Heathcliff, you
have nobody to love you; and, however miserable you make us, we shall still
have the revenge of thinking that your cruelty arises from your greater misery.
You are miserable, are you not? Lonely, like the devil, and envious like him?
Nobody loves you- nobody will cry for you when you die! I wouldn't be
you!"
Catherine spoke with a kind of dreary
triumph: she seemed to have made up her mind to enter into the spirit of her
future family, and draw pleasure from the griefs of her enemies.
"You shall be sorry to be yourself
presently," said her father-in-law, "if you stand there another
minute. Begone, witch, and get your things!"
She scornfully withdrew. In her absence, I
began to beg for Zillah's place at the Heights, offering to resign mine to her;
but he would suffer it on no account. He bid me be silent; and then, for the
first time, allowed himself a glance round the room and a look at the pictures.
Having studied Mrs. Linton's, he said:
"I shall have that home. Not because I
need it, but-" He turned abruptly to the fire, and continued, with what,
for lack of a better word, I must call a smile- "I'll tell you what I did
yesterday! I got the sexton, who was digging Linton's grave, to remove the
earth off her coffin-lid, and I opened it. I thought, once, I would have stayed
there: when I saw her face again- it is hers yet!- he had hard work to stir me;
but he said it would change if the air blew on it, and so I struck one side of
the coffin loose, and covered it up: not Linton's side, damn him! I wish he'd
been soldered in lead. And I bribed the sexton to pull it away when I'm laid
there, and slide mine out too; I'll have it made so: and then, by the time
Linton gets to us he'll not know which is which!"
"You were very wicked, Mr.
Heathcliff!" I exclaimed, "were you not ashamed to disturb the
dead?"
"I disturbed nobody, Nelly," he
replied; "and I gave some ease to myself. I shall be a great deal more
comfortable now; and you'll have a better chance of keeping me underground,
when I get there. Disturbed her? No! she has disturbed me, night and day,
through eighteen years- incessantly- remorselessly- till yesternight; and
yesternight I was tranquil. I dreamt I was sleeping the last sleep by that sleeper,
with my heart stopped and my cheek frozen against hers."
"And if she had been dissolved into
earth, or worse, what would you have dreamt of then?" I said.
"Of dissolving with her, and being
more happy still!" he answered. "Do you suppose I dread any change of
that sort? I expected such a transformation on raising the lid: but I'm better
pleased that it should not commence till I share it. Besides, unless I had
received a distinct impression of her passionless features, that strange
feeling would hardly have been removed. It began oddly. You know I was wild
after she died; and eternally, from dawn to dawn, praying her to return to me
her spirit! I have a strong faith in ghosts: I have a conviction that they can,
and do, exist among us! The day she was buried there came a fall of snow. In
the evening I went to the churchyard. It blew bleak as winter- all round was
solitary. I didn't fear that her fool of a husband would wander up the den so
late; and no one else had business to bring them there. Being alone, and
conscious two yards of loose earth was the sole barrier between us, I said to
myself- 'I'll have her in my arms again! If she be cold, I'll think it is this
north wind that chills me; and if she be motionless, it is sleep.' I got a
spade from the toolhouse, and began to delve with all my might- it scraped the
coffin; I fell to work with my hands; the wood commenced cracking about the
screws; I was on the point of attaining my object, when it seemed that I heard
a sigh from some one above, close at the edge of the grave, and bending down.
'If I can only get this off,' I muttered, 'I wish they may shovel in the earth
over us both!' and I wrenched at it more desperately still. There was another
sigh, close at my ear. I appeared to feel the warm breath of it displacing the
sleet-laden wind. I knew no living thing in flesh and blood was by; but, as
certainly as you perceive the approach to some substantial body in the dark,
though it cannot be discerned, so certainly I felt that Cathy was there: not under
me, but on the earth. A sudden sense of relief flowed from my heart through
every limb. I relinquished my labour of agony, and turned consoled at once:
unspeakably consoled. Her presence was with me: it remained while I refilled
the grave, and led me home. You may laugh, if you will; but I was sure I should
see her there. I was sure she was with me, and I could not help talking to her.
Having reached the Heights, I rushed eagerly to the door. It was fastened: and,
I remember that accursed Earnshaw and my wife opposed my entrance. I remember
stopping to kick the breath out of him, and then hurrying upstairs, to my room
and hers. I looked round impatiently- I felt her by me- I could almost see her,
and yet I could not! I ought to have sweat blood then, from the anguish of my
yearning- from the fervour of my supplications to have but one glimpse! I had
not one. She showed herself, as she often was in life, a devil to me! And,
since then, sometimes more and sometimes less, I've been the sport of that
intolerable torture! Infernal! keeping my nerves at such a stretch, that, if
they had not resembled catgut, they would long ago have relaxed to the
feebleness of Linton's. When I sat in the house with Hareton, it seemed that on
going out, I should meet her; when I walked on the moors I should meet her
coming in. When I went from home, I hastened to return: she must be somewhere
at the Heights, I was certain! And when I slept in her chamber- I was beaten
out of that. I couldn't lie there; for the moment I closed my eyes, she was
either outside the window, or sliding back the panels, or entering the room, or
even resting her darling head on the same pillow as she did when a child; and I
must open my lids to see. And so I opened and closed them a hundred times a
night- to be always disappointed! It racked me! I've often groaned aloud. till
that old rascal Joseph no doubt believed that my conscience was playing the
fiend inside of me. Now, since I've seen her, I'm pacified- a little. It was a
strange way of killing! not by inches, but by fractions and hairbreadths, to
beguile me with the spectre of a hope, through eighteen years!"
Mr. Heathcliff paused and wiped his
forehead; his hair clung to it, wet with perspiration; his eyes were fixed on
the red embers of the fire, the brows not contracted, but raised next the
temples; diminishing the grim aspect of his countenance, but imparting a
peculiar look of trouble, and a painful appearance of mental tension towards
one absorbing subject. He only half addressed me, and I maintained silence. I
didn't like to hear him talk! After a short period he resumed his meditation on
the picture, took it down and leant it against the sofa to contemplate it at
better advantage; and while so occupied Catherine entered, announcing that she was
ready, when her pony should be saddled.
"Send that over to-morrow," said
Heathcliff to me; then turning to her, he added- "You may do without your
pony: it is a fine evening, and you'll need no ponies at Wuthering Heights; for
what journeys you take, your own feet will serve you. Come along."
"Good-bye, Ellen!" whispered my
dear little mistress. As she kissed me, her lips felt like ice. "Come and
see me, Ellen; don't forget."
"Take care you do no such thing, Mrs.
Dean!" said her new father. "When I wish to speak to you I'll come
here. I want none of your prying at my house!"
He signed her to precede him; and casting
back a look that cut my heart, she obeyed. I watched them from the window, walk
down the garden. Heathcliff fixed Catherine's arm under his: though she
disputed the act at first evidently; and with rapid strides he hurried her into
the alley, whose trees concealed them.
Chapter 30 -
I HAVE paid a visit to the Heights, but I
have not seen her since she left: Joseph held the door in his hand when I
called to ask after her, and wouldn't let me pass. He said Mrs. Linton was
"thrang," and the master was not in. Zillah has told me something of
the way they go on, otherwise I should hardly know who was dead and who living.
She thinks Catherine haughty, and does not like her, I can guess by her talk.
My young lady asked some aid of her when she first came; but Mr. Heathcliff
told her to follow her own business, and let his daughter-in-law look after
herself; and Zillah willingly acquiesced, being a narrow-minded, selfish woman.
Catherine evinced a child's annoyance at this neglect; repaid it with contempt,
and thus enlisted my informant among her enemies, as securely as if she had
done her some great wrong. I had a long talk with Zillah about six weeks ago, a
little before you came, one day when we foregathered on the moor; and this is
what she told me.
"The first thing Mrs. Linton
did," she said, "on her arrival at the Heights, was to run upstairs,
without even wishing good evening to me and Joseph; she shut herself into
Linton's room, and remained till morning. Then, while the master and Earnshaw
were at breakfast, she entered the house, and asked all in a quiver if the
doctor might be sent for? her cousin was very ill.
"'We know that!' answered Heathcliff;
'but his life is not worth a farthing, and I won't spend a farthing on him.'
"'But I cannot tell how to do,' she
said; 'and if no body will help me, he'll die!'
"'Walk out of the room,' cried the
master, 'and let me never hear a word more about him! None here care what
becomes of him; if you do, act the nurse; if you do not, lock him up and leave
him.'
"Then she began to bother me, and I
said I'd had enough plague with the tiresome thing; we each had our tasks, and
hers was to wait on Linton, Mr. Heathcliff bid me leave that labour to her.
"How they managed together, I can't
tell. I fancy he fretted a great deal, and moaned hisseln night and day; and
she had precious little rest: one could guess by her white face and heavy eyes.
She sometimes came into the kitchen all wildered like, and looked as if she
would fain beg assistance; but I was not going to disobey the master: I never
dare disobey him, Mrs. Dean; and, though I thought it wrong that Kenneth should
not be sent for, it was no concern of mine either to advise or complain, and I
always refused to meddle. Once or twice, after we had gone to bed, I've
happened to open my door again and seen her sitting crying on the stairs' top;
and then I've shut myself in quick, for fear of being moved to interfere. I did
pity her then, I'm sure: still I didn't wish to lose my place, you know.
"At last, one night she came boldly
into my chamber, and frightened me out of my wits, by saying:
"'Tell Mr. Heathcliff that his son is
dying- I'm sure he is, this time. Get up, instantly, and tell him.'
"Having uttered this speech, she
vanished again. I lay a quarter of an hour listening and trembling. Nothing
stirred- the house was quiet.
"She's mistaken, I said to myself.
He's got over it. I needn't disturb them; and I began to doze. But my sleep was
marred a second time by a sharp ringing of the bell- the only bell we have, put
up on purpose for Linton; and the master called to me to see what was the
matter, and inform them that he wouldn't have that noise repeated.
"I delivered Catherine's message. He
cursed to himself, and in a few minutes came out with a lighted candle, and
proceeded to their room. I followed. Mrs. Heathcliff was seated by the bedside,
with her hands folded on her knees. Her father-in-law went up, held the light
to Linton's face, looked at him, and touched him; afterwards he turned to her.
"'Now- Catherine,' he said, 'how do
you feel?'
"She was dumb.
"'How do you feel, Catherine?' he
repeated.
"'He's safe, and I'm free,' she
answered: 'I should feel well- but,' she continued, with a bitterness she
couldn't conceal, 'you have left me so long to struggle against death alone,
that I feel and see only death! I feel like death!'
"And she looked like it, too! I gave
her a little wine. Hareton and Joseph, who had been wakened by the ringing and
the sound of feet, and heard our talk from outside, now entered. Joseph was
fain, I believe, of the lad's removal; Hareton seemed a thought bothered;
though he was more taken up with staring at Catherine than thinking of Linton.
But the master bid him get off to bed again: we didn't want his help. He
afterwards made Joseph remove the body to his chamber, and told me to return to
mine, and Mrs. Heathcliff remained by herself.
"In the morning, he sent me to tell
her she must come down to breakfast; she had undressed, and appeared going to
sleep, and said she was ill; at which I hardly wondered. I informed Mr.
Heathcliff, and he replied:
"'Well, let her be till after the
funeral; and go up now and then to get her what is needful; and, as soon as she
seems better, tell me.'"
Cathy stayed upstairs a fortnight,
according to Zillah; who visited her twice a day, and would have been rather
more friendly, but her attempts at increasing kindness were proudly and promptly
repelled.
Heathcliff went up once, to show her
Linton's will. He had bequeathed the whole of his, and what had been her
movable property to his father: the poor creature was threatened, or coaxed,
into that act during her week's absence, when his uncle died. The lands, being
a minor, he could not meddle with. However, Mr. Heathcliff has claimed and kept
them in his wife's right and his also: I suppose legally: at any rate,
Catherine, destitute of cash and friends, cannot disturb his possession.
"Nobody," said Zillah,
"approached her door, except that once, but I; and nobody asked anything
about her. The first occasion of her coming down into the house was on a Sunday
afternoon. She had cried out, when I carried up her dinner, that she couldn't
bear any longer being in the cold: and I told her the master was going to
Thrushcross Grange, and Earnshaw and I needn't hinder her from descending; so,
as soon as she heard Heathcliff's horse trot off, she made her appearance
donned in black, and her yellow curls combed back behind her ears as plain as a
Quaker: she couldn't comb them out.
"Joseph and I generally go to chapel
on Sundays"; the kirk, you know, has no minister now, explained Mrs. Dean;
and they call the Methodists' or Baptists' place (I can't say which it is) at
Gimmerton, a chapel. "Joseph had gone," she continued, "but I
thought proper to bide at home. Young folks are always the better for an
elder's overlooking; and Hareton, with all his bashfulness, isn't a model of
nice behaviour. I let him know that his cousin would very likely sit with us,
and she had been always used to see the Sabbath respected; so he had as good
leave his guns and bits of indoor work alone, while she stayed. He coloured up
at the news, and cast his eyes over his hands and clothes. The train-oil and
gunpowder were shoved out of sight in a minute. I saw he meant to give her his
company; and I guessed, by his way, he wanted to be presentable; so, laughing,
as I durst not laugh when the master is by, I offered to help him, if he would,
and joked at his confusion. He grew sullen, and began to swear.
"Now, Mrs. Dean," Zillah went on,
seeing me not pleased by her manner, "you happen think your young lady too
fine for Mr. Hareton; and happen you're right: but I own I should love well to
bring her pride a peg lower. And what will all her learning and her daintiness
do for her, now? She's as poor as you or I: poorer, I'll be bound: you're
saving, and I'm doing my little all that road."
Hareton allowed Zillah to give him her aid;
and she flattered him into a good humour: so, when Catherine came, half
forgetting her former insults, he tried to make himself agreeable, by the
housekeeper's account.
"Missis walked in," she said,
"as chill as an icicle, and as high as a princess. I got up and offered
her my seat in the armchair. No, she turned up her nose at my civility.
Earnshaw rose, too, and bid her come to the settle, and sit close by the fire:
he was sure she was starved.
"'I've been starved a month and more,'
she answered, resting on the word as scornful as she could.
"And she got a chair for herself, and
placed it at distance from both of us. Having sat till she was warm, she began
to look round, and discovered a number of books in the dresser; she was
instantly upon her feet again, stretching to reach them: but they were too high
up. Her cousin, after watching her endeavours a while, at last summoned courage
to help her; she held her frock, and he filled it with the first that came to
hand.
"That was a great advance for the lad.
She didn't thank him; still, he felt gratified that she had accepted his
assistance, and ventured to stand behind as she examined them, and even to
stoop and point out what struck his fancy in certain old pictures which they
contained; nor was he daunted by the saucy style in which she jerked the page
from his finger: he contended himself with going a bit farther back, and
looking at her instead of the book. She continued reading, or seeking for
something to read. His attention became, by degrees, quite centered in the
study of her thick, silky curls: her face he couldn't see, and she couldn't see
him. And, perhaps, not quite awake to what he did, but attracted like a child
to a candle, at last he proceeded from staring to touching; he put out his hand
and stroke one curl, as gently as if it were a bird. He might have struck a
knife into her neck, she started round in such a taking.
"'Get away, this moment! How dare you
touch me? Why are you stopping there?' she cried, in a tone of disgust. 'I
can't endure you! I'll go upstairs again, if you come near me.'
"Mr. Hareton recoiled, looking as
foolish as he could do: he sat down in the settle very quiet, and she continued
turning over her volumes another half-hour; finally, Earnshaw crossed over, and
whispered to me:
"'Will you ask her to read to us,
Zillah? I'm stalled of doing naugh; and I do like- I could like to hear her!
Dunnot say I wanted it, but ask of yourseln.'
"'Mr. Hareton wishes you would read to
us, ma'am,' I said immediately. 'He'd take it very kind- he'd be much obliged.'
"She frowned; and looking up,
answered:
"'Mr. Hareton, and the whole set of
you, will be good enough to understand that I reject any pretence at kindness
you have the hypocrisy to offer! I despise you, and will have nothing to say to
any of you! When I would have given my life for one kind word, even to see one
of your faces, you all kept off. But I won't complain to you! I'm driven down
here by the cold; not either to amuse you or enjoy your society.'
"'What could I ha' done?' began
Earnshaw. 'How was I to blame?'
"'Oh! you are an exception,' answered
Mrs. Heathcliff, 'I never missed such a concern as you.'
"'But I offered more than once, and
asked,' he said, kindling up at her pertness, 'let me wake for you-'
"'Be silent! I'll go out of doors, or
anywhere, rather than have your disagreeable voice in my ear!' said my lady.
"Hareton muttered she might go to hell
for him! and unslinging his gun, restrained himself from his Sunday occupations
no longer. He talked now, freely enough; and she presently saw fit to retreat
to her solitude: but the frost had set in, and, in spite of her pride, she was
forced to condescend to our company, more and more. However, I took care there
should be no further scorning at my good-nature: ever since, I've been as stiff
as herself; and she has no lover or liker among us: and she does not deserve
one; for, let them say the least word to her, and she'll curl back without
respect to any one! She'll snap at the master himself, and as good as dares him
to thrash her; and the more hurt she gets, the more venomous she grows."
At first, on hearing this account from
Zillah, I determined to leave my situation, take a cottage, and get Catherine
to come and live with me: but Mr. Heathcliff would as soon permit that as he
would set up Hareton in an independent house; and I can see no remedy, at
present, unless she could marry again: and that scheme it does not come within
my province to arrange.
Thus ended Mrs. Dean's story.
Nothwithstanding the doctor's prophecy, I am rapidly recovering strength; and
though it be only the second week in January, I propose getting out on
horseback in a day or two, and riding over to Wuthering Heights, to inform my
landlord that I shall spend the next six months in London; and, if he likes, he
may look out for another tenant to take the place after October. I would not
pass another winter here for much.
Chapter 31 -
YESTERDAY was bright, calm, and frosty. I
went to the Heights as I proposed; my housekeeper entreated me to bear a little
note from her to her young lady, and I did not refuse, for the worthy woman was
not conscious of anything odd in her request. The front door stood open, but
the jealous gate was fastened, as at my last visit; I knocked, and invoked
Earnshaw from among the garden beds; he unchained it, and I entered. The fellow
is as handsome a rustic as need be seen. I took particular notice of him this
time; but then he does his best, apparently, to make the least of his
advantages. I asked if Mr. Heathcliff were at home? He answered, No; but he
would be in at dinner-time. It was eleven o'clock, and I announced my intention
of going in and waiting for him, at which he immediately flung down his tools
and accompanied me, in the office of watchdog, not as a substitute for the
host.
We entered together; Catherine was there,
making herself useful in preparing some vegetables for the approaching meal;
she looked more sulky and less spirited then when I had seen her first. She
hardly raised her eyes to notice me, and continued her employment with the same
disregard to common forms of politeness as before; never returning my bow and
good-morning by the slightest acknowledgment.
"She does not seem so amiable," I
thought, "as Mrs. Dean would persuade me to believe. She's a beauty, it is
true; but not an angel."
Earnshaw surlily bid her remove her things
to the kitchen. "Remove them yourself," she said, pushing them from
her as soon as she had done; and retiring to a stool by the window, where she
began to carve figures of birds and beasts out of the turnip parings in her
lap. I approached her, pretending to desire a view of the garden; and, as I
fancied, adroitly dropped Mrs. Dean's note onto her knee, unnoticed by Hareton-
but she asked aloud, "What is that?" and chucked it off.
"A letter from your old acquaintance,
the housekeeper at the Grange," I answered; annoyed at her exposing my
kind deed, and fearful it should be imagined a missive of my own. She would
gladly have gathered it up at this information, but Hareton beat her; he seized
and put it in his waistcoat, saying Mr. Heathcliff should look at it first.
Thereat, Catherine silently turned her face from us, and, very stealthily, drew
out her pocket-handkerchief and applied it to her eyes; and her cousin, after
struggling a while to keep down his softer feelings, pulled out the letter and
flung it on the floor beside her, as ungraciously as he could. Catherine caught
and perused it eagerly; then she put a few questions to me concerning the
inmates, rational and irrational, of her former home; and gazing towards the
hills, murmured in soliloquy:
"I should like to be riding Minny down
there! I should like to be climbing up there! Oh! I'm tired- I'm stalled,
Hareton!" And she leant her pretty head back against the sill, with a half
a yawn and a half a sigh, and lapsed into an aspect of abstracted sadness:
neither caring nor knowing whether we remarked her.
"Mrs. Heathcliff," I said, after
sitting some time mute, "you are not aware that I am an acquaintance of
yours? so intimate that I think it strange you won't come and speak to me. My
housekeeper never wearies of talking about and praising you; and she'll be
greatly disappointed if I return with no news of or from you, except that you
received her letter and said nothing!"
She appeared to wonder at this speech, and
asked:
"Does Ellen like you?"
"Yes, very well," I replied
hesitatingly.
"You must tell her," she
continued, "that I would answer her letter, but I have no materials for
writing: not even a book from which I might tear a leaf."
"No books!" I exclaimed.
"How do you contrive to live here without them? if I may take the liberty
to enquire. Though provided with a large library, I'm frequently very dull at
the Grange; take my books away, and I should be desperate!"
"I was always reading, when I had
them," said Catherine; "and Mr. Heathcliff never reads; so he took it
into his head to destroy my books. I have not had a glimpse of one for weeks.
Only once, I searched through Joseph's store of theology, to his great irritation;
and once, Hareton, I came upon a secret stock in your room- some Latin and
Greek, and some tales and poetry: all old friends. I brought the last here- and
you gathered them, as a magpie gathers silver spoons, for the mere love of
stealing! They are of no use to you; or else you concealed them in the bad
spirit that as you cannot enjoy them nobody else shall. Perhaps your envy
counselled Mr. Heathcliff to rob me of my treasures? But I've most of them
written on my brain and printed in my heart, and you cannot deprive me of
those!"
Earnshaw blushed crimson when his cousin
made this revelation of his private literary accumulations, and stammered an
indignant denial of her accusations.
"Mr. Hareton is desirous of increasing
his amount of knowledge," I said, coming to his rescue. "He is not
envious but emulous of your attainments. He'll be a clever scholar in a few
years."
"And he wants me to sink into a dunce,
meantime," answered Catherine. "Yes, I hear him trying to spell and
read to himself, and pretty blunders he makes! I wish you would repeat Chevy
Chase as you did yesterday: it was extremely funny, I heard you; and I heard
you turning over the dictionary to seek out the hard words, and then cursing
because you couldn't read their explanations!"
The young man evidently thought it too bad
that he should be laughed at for his ignorance, and then laughed at for trying
to remove it, I had a similar notion; and, remembering Mrs. Dean's anecdote of
his first attempt at enlightening the darkness in which he had been reared, I
observed:
"But, Mrs. Heathcliff, we have each
had a commencement, and each stumbled and tottered on the threshold; had our
teachers scorned instead of aiding us, we should stumble and totter yet."
"Oh!" she replied, "I don't
wish to limit his acquirements: still, he has no right to appropriate what is
mine, and make it ridiculous to me with his vile mistakes and
mispronunciations! Those books, both prose and verse, are consecrated to me by
other associations; and I hate to have them debased and profaned in his mouth!
Besides, of all, he has selected my favourite pieces that I love the most to
repeat, as if out of deliberate malice."
Hareton's chest heaved in silence a minute:
he laboured under a severe sense of mortification and wrath, which it was no
easy task to suppress. I rose, and, from a gentlemanly idea of relieving his
embarrassment, took up my station in the doorway, surveying the external
prospect as I stood. He followed my example, and left the room; but presently
reappeared, bearing half-a-dozen volumes in his hands, which he threw into
Catherine's lap, exclaiming: "Take them! I never want to hear, or read, or
think of them again!"
"I won't have them now," she
answered. "I shall connect them with you, and hate them."
She opened one that had obviously been
often turned over, and read a portion in the drawling tone of a beginner; then
laughed, and threw it from her. "And listen," she continued
provokingly, commencing a verse of an old ballad in the same fashion.
But his self-love would endure no further
torment: I heard, and not altogether disapprovingly, a manual check given to
her saucy tongue. The little wretch had done her utmost to hurt her cousin's
sensitive though uncultivated feelings, and a physical argument was the only
mode he had of balancing the account, and repaying its effects on the
inflictor. He afterwards gathered the books and hurled them on the fire. I read
in his countenance what anguish it was to offer that sacrifice to spleen. I
fancied that as they consumed, he recalled the pleasure they had already
imparted, and the triumph and ever-increasing pleasure he had anticipated from
them; and I fancied I guessed the incitement to his secret studies also. He had
been content with daily labour and rough animal enjoyments, till Catherine
crossed his path. Shame at her scorn, and hope of her approval, were his first
prompters to higher pursuits; and, instead of guarding him from one and winning
him to the other, his endeavours to raise himself had produced just the
contrary result.
"Yes; that's all the good that such a
brute as you can get from them!" cried Catherine, sucking her damaged lip,
and watching the conflagration with indignant eyes,
"You'd better hold your tongue,
now," he answered fiercely.
And his agitation precluded further speech;
he advanced hastily to the entrance, where I made way for him to pass. But ere
he had crossed the door-stones, Mr. Heathcliff, coming up the causeway,
encountered him, and laying hold of his shoulder, asked:
"What's to do now, my lad?"
"Naught, naught," he said, and
broke away to enjoy his grief and anger in solitude.
Heathcliff gazed after him, and sighed.
"It will be odd if I thwart
myself," he muttered, unconscious that I was behind him. "But when I
look for his father in his face, I find her every day more. How the devil is he
so like? I can hardly bear to see him."
He bent his eyes to the ground, and walked
moodily in. There was a restless, anxious expression in his countenance I had
never remarked there before; and he looked sparer in person. His
daughter-in-law, on perceiving him through the window, immediately escaped to
the kitchen, so that I remained alone.
"I'm glad to see you out of doors
again, Mr. Lockwood," he said, in reply to my greeting; "from selfish
motives partly: I don't think I could readily supply your loss in this
desolation. I've wondered more than once what brought you here."
"An idle whim, I fear, sir," was
my answer; "or else an idle whim is going to spirit me away. I shall set
out for London, next week; and I must give you warning that I feel no
disposition to retain Thrushcross Grange beyond the twelve months I agreed to
rent it. I believe I shall not live there any more."
"Oh, indeed; you're tired of being
banished from the world, are you?" he said. "But if you be coming to
plead off paying for a place you won't occupy, your journey is useless: I never
relent in exacting my due from any one."
"I'm coming to plead off nothing about
it," I exclaimed considerably irritated. "Should you wish it, I'll
settle with you now," and I drew my note-book from my pocket.
"No, no," he replied coolly;
"you'll leave sufficient behind to cover your debts, if you fail to
return: I'm not in such a hurry. Sit down and take your dinner with us; a guest
that is safe from repeating his visit can generally be made welcome. Catherine,
bring the things in: where are you?"
Catherine reappeared, bearing a tray of
knives and forks.
"You may get your dinner with
Joseph," muttered Heathcliff aside, "and remain in the kitchen till
he is gone."
She obeyed his directions very punctually;
perhaps she had no temptation to transgress. Living among clowns and
misanthropists, she probably cannot appreciate a better class of people when
she meets them.
With Mr. Heathcliff, grim and saturnine, on
the one hand, and Hareton, absolutely dumb, on the other, I made a somewhat
cheerless meal, and bade adieu early. I would have departed by the back way, to
get a last glimpse of Catherine and annoy old Joseph; but Hareton received orders
to lead up my horse, and my host himself escorted me to the door, so I could
not fulfil my wish.
"How dreary life gets over in that
house!" I reflected, while riding down the road. "What a realisation
of something more romantic than a fairy tale it would have been for Mrs. Linton
Heathcliff, had she and I struck up an attachment, as her good nurse desired,
and migrated together into the stirring atmosphere of the town!"
Chapter 32 -
1802- This September I was invited to
devastate the moors of a friend in the north, and on my journey to his abode, I
unexpectedly came within fifteen miles of Gimmerton. The 'ostler at a roadside
public house was holding a pail of water to refresh my horses, when a cart of
very green oats, newly reaped, passed by, and he remarked:
"Yon's frough Gimmerton, nah! They're
allas three wick after other folk wi' ther harvest."
"Gimmerton?" I repeated- my
residence in that locality had already grown dim and dreamy. "Ah! I know.
How far is it from this?"
"Happen fourteen mile o'er th' hills;
and a rough road," he answered.
A sudden impulse seized me to visit
Thrushcross Grange. It was scarcely noon, and I conceived that I might as well
pass the night under my own roof as in an inn. Besides, I could spare a day
easily to arrange matters with my landlord, and thus save myself the trouble of
invading the neighbourhood again. Having rested awhile, I directed my servant
to enquire the way to the village; and, with great fatigue to our beasts, we
managed the distance in some three hours.
I left him there, and proceeded down the
valley alone. The grey church looked grayer, and the lonely churchyard
lonelier. I distinguished a moor sheep cropping the short turf on the graves.
It was sweet, warm weather- too warm for travelling; but the heat did not
hinder me from enjoying the delightful scenery above and below: had I seen it
nearer August, I'm sure it would have tempted me to waste a month among its
solitudes. In winter nothing more dreary, in summer nothing more divine, than
those glens shut in by hills, and those bluff, bold swells of heath.
I reached the Grange before sunset, and
knocked for admittance; but the family had retreated into the back premises, I
judged, by one thin, blue wreath curling from the kitchen chimney, and they did
not hear. I rode into the court. Under the porch, a girl of nine or ten sat
knitting, and an old woman reclined on the housesteps, smoking a meditative
pipe.
"Is Mrs. Dean within?" I demanded
of the dame.
"Mistress Dean? Nay!" she
answered, "shoo doesn't bide here: Shoo's up at th' Heights."
"Are you the housekeeper, then?"
I continued.
"Eea, aw keep th' house," she
replied.
"Well, I'm Mr. Lockwood, the master.
Are there any rooms to lodge me in, I wonder? I wish to stay all night."
"T'maister!" she cried in
astonishment. "Whet, whoiver knew yah wur coming? Yah sud ha' send word.
They's nowt norther dry nor mensful abaht t' place: nowt there isn't!"
She threw down her pipe and bustled in, the
girl followed, and I entered too; soon perceiving that her report was true,
and, moreover, that I had almost upset her wits by my unwelcome apparition, I
bade her be composed. I would go out for a walk; and, meantime, she must try to
prepare a corner of a sitting-room for me to sup in, and a bedroom to sleep in.
No sweeping and dusting, only good fire and dry sheets were necessary. She
seemed willing to do her best; though she thrust the hearth-brush into the
grates in mistake for the poker, and mal-appropriated several other articles of
her craft: but I retired, confiding in her energy for a resting-place against
my return. Wuthering Heights was the goal of my proposed excursion. An
after-thought brought me back, when I had quitted the court.
"All well at the Heights?" I
enquired of the woman.
"Eea, f'r owt ee knew," she
answered, skurrying away with a pan of hot cinders.
I would have asked why Mrs. Dean had
deserted the Grange, but it was impossible to delay her at such a crisis, so I
turned away and made my exit, rambling leisurely along with the glow of a sinking
sun behind, and the mild glory of a rising moon in front- one fading, and the
other brightening- as I quitted the park, and climbed the stony byroad
branching off to Mr. Heathcliff's dwelling. Before I arrived in sight of it,
all that remained of day was a beamless amber light along the west: but I could
see every pebble on the path, and every blade of grass, by that splendid moon.
I had neither to climb the gate nor to knock- it yielded to my hand. That is an
improvement, I thought. And I noticed another, by the aid of my nostrils; a
fragrance of stocks and wall-flowers wafted on the air from amongst the homely
fruit-trees.
Both doors and lattices were open; and yet,
as is usually the case in a coal district, a fine, red fire illumined the
chimney: the comfort which the eyes derives from it renders the extra heat
endurable. But the house of Wuthering Heights is so large, that the inmates
have plenty of space for withdrawing out of its influence; and accordingly,
what inmates there were had stationed themselves not far from one of the
windows. I could both see them and hear them talk before I entered, and looked
and listened in consequence; being moved thereto by a mingled sense of
curiosity and envy, that grew as I lingered.
"Con-trary!" said a voice as
sweet as a silver bell- "That for the third time, you dunce! I'm not going
to tell you again. Recollect or I'll pull your hair!
"Contrary, then," answered
another, in deep but softened tones. "And now, kiss me, for minding so
well."
"No, read it over first correctly,
without a single mistake."
The male speaker began to read: he was a
young man, respectably dressed and seated at a table, having a book before him.
His handsome features glowed with pleasure, and his eyes kept impatiently
wandering from the page to a small white hand over his shoulder, which recalled
him by a smart slap on the cheek, whenever its owner detected such signs of
inattention. Its owner stood behind; her light, shining ringlets blending, at
intervals, with his brown locks, as she bent to superintend his studies; and
her face- it was lucky he could not see her face, or he would never have been
so steady. I could; and I bit my lip in spite, at having thrown away the chance
I might have had of doing something besides staring at its smiling beauty.
The task was done, not free from further
blunders; but the pupil claimed a reward, and received at least five kisses:
which, however, he generously returned. Then they came to the door, and from
their conversation I judged they were about to issue out and have a walk on the
moors. I supposed I should be condemned in Hareton Earnshaw's heart, if not by
his mouth, to the lowest pit in the infernal regions, if I showed my
unfortunate person in his neighborhood then; and feeling very mean and malignant,
I skulked round to seek refuge in the kitchen. There was unobstructed
admittance on that side also, and at the door sat my old friend Nelly Dean,
sewing and singing a song; which was often interrupted from within by harsh
words of scorn and intolerance, uttered in far from musical accents.
"I'd rayther, by the 'haulf, hev 'em
swearing i' my lugs fro'h morn to neeght, nor hearken ye, hahsiver!" said
the tenant of the kitchen, in answer to an unheard speech of Nelly's.
"It's a blazing shame, that I cannot oppen t' blessed Book, but yah set up
them glories to Sattan, and all t' flaysome wickednesses that iver were born
into th' warld! Oh! ye'er a raight nowt; and shoo's another; and that poor
lad'll be lost atween ye. Poor lad!" he added, with a groan; "he's
witched: I'm sartin on't! O Lord, judge 'em, for there's norther law nor
justice among wer rullers!"
"No! or we should be sitting in
flaming fagots, I suppose," retorted the singer. "But wisht, old man,
and read your Bible like a Christian, and never mind me. This is 'Fairy Annie's
Wedding'- a bonny tune- it goes to a dance."
Mrs. Dean was about to recommence, when I
advanced; and recognizing me directly, she jumped to her feet, crying:
"Why, bless you, Mr. Lockwood! How
could you think of returning in this way? All's shut up at Thrushcross Grange.
You should have given us notice!"
"I've arranged to be accommodated
there, for as long as I shall stay," I answered. "I depart again
tomorrow. And how are you transplanted here, Mrs. Dean? tell me that."
"Zillah left, and Mr. Heathcliff
wished me to come, soon after you went to London, and stay till you returned.
But, step in, pray! Have you walked from Gimmerton this evening?"
"From the Grange," I replied;
"and while they make me lodging room there, I want to finish my business
with your master; because I don't think of having another opportunity in a
hurry."
"What business, sir?" said Nelly,
conducting me into the house. "He's gone out at present, and won't return
soon."
"About the rent," I answered.
"Oh! then it is with Mrs. Heathcliff
you must settle," she observed; "or rather with me. She had not
learnt to manage her affairs yet, and I act for her: there's nobody else."
I looked surprised.
"Ah! you have not heard of
Heathcliff's death, I see," she continued.
"Heathcliff dead!" I exclaimed.
"How long ago?"
"Three months since: but sit down and
let me take your hat, and I'll tell you all about it. Stop, you have had
nothing to eat, have you?"
"I want nothing: I have ordered supper
at home. You sit down too. I never dreamt of his dying! Let me hear how it came
to pass. You say you don't expect them back for some time- the young
people?"
"No- I have to scold them every
evening for their late rambles: but they don't care for me. At least have a drink
of our old ale; it will do you good: you seem weary."
She hastened to fetch it before I could
refuse, and I heard Joseph asking whether "it warn't a crying scandal that
she should have followers at her time of life? And then, to get them jocks out
o' t' maister's cellar! He fair shaamed to 'bide still and see it."
She did not stay to retaliate, but
reentered in a minute, bearing a reaming silver pint, whose contents I lauded
with becoming earnestness. And afterwards she furnished me with the sequel of
Heathcliff's history. He had a "queer" end, as she expressed it.
I was summoned to Wuthering Heights, within
a fortnight of your leaving us, she said; and I obeyed joyfully, for
Catherine's sake. My first interview with her grieved and shocked me: she had
altered so much since our separation. Mr. Heathcliff did not explain his
reasons for taking a new mind about my coming here; he only told me he wanted
me, and he was tired of seeing Catherine: I must make the little parlour my
sittingroom, and keep her with me. It was enough if he were obliged to see her
once or twice a day. She seemed pleased at this arrangement; and, by degrees, I
smuggled over a great number of books, and other articles, that had formed her
amusement at the Grange; and flattered myself we should get on in tolerable
comfort. The delusion did not last long. Catherine, contented at first, in a
brief space grew irritable and restless. For one thing, she was forbidden to
move out of the garden, and it fretted her sadly to be confined to its narrow
bounds as spring drew on; for another, in following the house, I was forced to
quit her frequently, and she complained of loneliness: she preferred
quarrelling with Joseph in the kitchen to sitting at peace in her solitude. I
did not mind their skirmishes: but Hareton was often obliged to seek the
kitchen also, when the master wanted to have the house to himself; and though
in the beginning she either left it at his approach, or quietly joined in my
occupations, and shunned remarking or addressing him- and though he was always
as sullen and silent as possible- after a while she changed her behaviour, and
became incapable of letting him alone: talking at him; commenting on his
stupidity and idleness; expressing her wonder how he could endure the life he
lived- how he could sit a whole evening staring into the fire and dozing.
"He's just like a dog, is he not,
Ellen?" she once observed, "or a cart-horse? He does his work, eats
his food, and sleeps eternally! What a blank, dreary mind he must have! Do you
ever dream, Hareton? And, if you do, what is it about? But you can't speak to
me!"
Then she looked at him; but he would
neither open his mouth nor look again.
"He's, perhaps, dreaming now,"
she continued. "He twitched his shoulder as Juno twitches hers. Ask him,
Ellen."
"Mr. Hareton will ask the master to
send you upstairs, if you don't behave!" I said. He had not only twitched
his shoulder but clenched his fist, as if tempted to use it.
"I know why Hareton never speaks, when
I am in the kitchen," she exclaimed, on another occasion. "He is
afraid I shall laugh at him. Ellen, what do you think? He began to teach
himself to read once; and because I laughed, he burned his books, and dropped
it: was he not a fool?"
"Were not you naughty?" I said;
"answer me that."
"Perhaps I was," she went on;
"but I did not expect him to be so silly. Hareton, if I gave you a book,
would you take it now? I'll try!"
She placed one she had been perusing on his
hand; he flung it off, and muttered, if she did not give over, he would break
her neck.
"Well, I shall put it here," she
said, "in the table drawer; and I'm going to bed."
Then she whispered me to watch whether he
touched it, and departed. But he would not come near it; and so I informed her
in the morning, to her great disappointment. I saw she was sorry for his
persevering sulkiness and indolence: her conscience reproved her for
frightening him off improving himself. she had done it effectually. But her
ingenuity was at work to remedy the injury: while I ironed, or pursued other
such stationary employments as I could not well do in the parlour, she would
bring some pleasant volume and read it aloud to me. When Hareton was there, she
generally paused in an interesting part, and left the book lying about: that
she did repeatedly; but he was as obstinate as a mule, and, instead of
snatching at her bait, in wet weather he took to smoking with Joseph; and they
sat like automatons, one on each side of the fire, the elder happily too deaf
to understand her wicked nonsense, as he would have called it, the younger
doing his best to seem to disregard it. On fine evenings the latter followed
his shooting expeditions, and Catherine yawned and sighed, and teased me to
talk to her, and ran off into the court or garden, the moment I began; and, as
a last resource, cried, and said she was tired of living: her life was useless.
Mr. Heathcliff, who grew more and more
disinclined to society, had almost banished Earnshaw from his apartment. Owing
to an accident at the commencement of March, he became for some days a fixture
in the kitchen. His gun burst while out on the hills by himself; a splinter cut
his arm, and he lost a good deal of blood before he could reach home. The
consequence was that, perforce, he was condemned to the fireside and
tranquillity, till he made it up again. It suited Catherine to have him there:
at any rate, it made her hate her room upstairs more than ever: and she would
compel me to find out business below, that she might accompany me.
On Easter Monday, Joseph went to Gimmerton
fair with some cattle; and, in the afternoon, I was busy getting up linen in
the kitchen. Earnshaw sat, morose as usual, at the chimney-corner, and my
little mistress was beguiling an idle hour with drawing pictures on the window
panes; varying her amusement by smothered bursts of songs and whispered
ejaculations, and quick glances of annoyance and impatience in the direction of
her cousin, who steadfastly smoked, and looked into the grate. At a notice that
I could do with her no longer intercepting my light, she removed to the
hearthstone. I bestowed little attention on her proceedings, but, presently, I
heard her begin:
"I've found out, Hareton, that I want-
that I'm glad- that I should like you to be my cousin now, if you had not grown
so cross to me, and so rough."
Hareton returned no answer.
"Hareton, Hareton, Hareton! do you
hear?" she continued.
"Get off wi' ye!" he growled,
with uncompromising gruffness.
"Let me take that pipe," she
said, cautiously advancing her hand and abstracting it from his mouth.
Before he could attempt to recover it, it
was broken and behind the fire. He swore at her and seized another.
"Stop," she cried, "you must
listen to me first; and I can't speak while those clouds are floating in my
face."
"Will you go to the devil!" he
exclaimed ferociously, "and let me be!"
"No," she persisted, "I
won't: I can't tell what to do to make you talk to me; and you are determined
not to understand. When I call you stupid, I don't mean anything: I don't mean
that I despise you. Come, you shall take notice of me, Hareton! you are my
cousin, and you shall own me."
"I shall have naught to do wi' you and
your mucky pride, and your damned mocking tricks!" he answered. "I'll
go to hell, body and soul, before I look sideways after you again. Side out o'
t' gate, now; this minute!"
Catherine frowned, and retreated to the
window-seat chewing her lip, and endeavouring, by humming an eccentric tune, to
conceal a growing tendency to sob.
"You should be friends with your
cousin, Mr. Hareton," I interrupted, "since she repents of her
sauciness. It would do you a great deal of good: it would make you another man
to have her for a companion."
"A companion!" he cried;
"when she hates me, and does not think me fit to wipe her shoon! Nay! if
it made me a king, I'd not be scorned for seeking her good-will any more."
"It is not I who hate you, it is you
who hate me!" wept Cathy, no longer disguising her trouble. "You hate
me as much as Mr. Heathcliff does, and more."
"You're a damned liar," began
Earnshaw: "why have I made him angry, by taking your part, then, a hundred
times? and that when you sneered at and despised me, and- Go on plaguing me,
and I'll step in yonder, and say you worried me out of the kitchen!"
"I didn't know you took my part,"
she answered, drying her eyes; "and I was miserable and bitter at
everybody; but now I thank you, and beg you to forgive me: what can I do
besides?"
She returned to the hearth, and frankly
extended her hand. He blackened and scowled like a thunder-cloud, and kept his
fist resolutely clenched, and his gaze fixed on the ground. Catherine, by
instinct, must have divined it was obdurate perversity, and not dislike, that
prompted this dogged conduct; for, after remaining an instant undecided, she stooped
and impressed on his cheek a gentle kiss. The little rogue thought I had not
seen her, and, drawing back, she took her former station by the window, quite
demurely. I shook my head reprovingly, and then she blushed and whispered:
"Well! what should I have done, Ellen?
He wouldn't shake hands, and he wouldn't look: I must show him some way that I
like him- that I want to be friends."
Whether the kiss convinced Hareton, I
cannot tell: he was very careful, for some minutes, that his face should not be
seen, and when he did raise it, he was sadly puzzled where to turn his eyes.
Catherine employed herself in wrapping a
handsome book neatly in white paper, and having tied it with a bit of ribbon,
and addressed it to "Mr. Hareton Earnshaw." she desired me to be her
ambassadress, and convey the present to its destined recipient.
"And tell him, if he'll take it I'll
come and teach him to read it right," she said; "and, if he refuse
it, I'll go upstairs, and never tease him again.
I carried it, and repeated the message;
anxiously watched by my employer. Hareton would not open his fingers, so I laid
it on his knee. He did not strike it off, either. I returned to my work.
Catherine leaned her head and arms on the table, till she heard the slight
rustle of the covering being removed; then she stole away, and quietly seated
herself beside her cousin. He trembled, and his face glowed: all his rudeness
and all his surly harshness had deserted him: he could not summon courage, at
first, to utter a syllable in reply to her questioning look, and her murmured
petition.
"Say you forgive me, Hareton, do? You
can make me so happy by speaking that little word."
He muttered something inaudible.
"And you'll be my friend?" added
Catherine interrogatively.
"Nay, you'll be ashamed of me every
day of your life," he answered; "and the more ashamed, the more you
know me; and I cannot bide it."
"So you won't be my friend?" she
said, smiling as sweet as honey, and creeping close up.
I overheard no further distinguishable
talk, but, on looking round again, I perceived two such radiant countenances
bent over the page of the accepted book, that I did not doubt the treaty had
been ratified on both sides; and the enemies were, thenceforth, sworn allies.
The work they studied was full of costly
pictures; and those and their position had charm enough to keep them unmoved
till Joseph came home. He, poor man, was perfectly aghast at the spectacle of
Catherine seated on the same bench with Hareton Earnshaw, leaning her hand on
his shoulder; and confounded at his favourite's endurance of her proximity: it
affected him too deeply to allow an observation on the subject that night. His
emotion was only revealed by the immense sighs he drew, as he solemnly spread
his large Bible on the table and overlaid it with dirty bank-notes from his
pocketbook, the produce of the day's transactions. At length, he summoned
Hareton from his seat.
"Tak' these in to t' maister,
lad," he said, "and bide there. I's gang up to my own rahm. This
hoile's neither mensful nor seemly for us: we mun side out and seearch
another."
"Come, Catherine," I said,
"we must 'side out' too; I've done my ironing, are you ready to go?"
"It is not eight o'clock!" she
answered, rising unwillingly. "Hareton, I'll leave this book upon the
chimney piece, and I'll bring some more to-morrow."
"Ony books that yah leave, I shall
tak' into th' hahse," said Joseph, "and it'll be mitch if yah find em
agean; soa, yah may plase yerseln!"
Cathy threatened that his library should
pay for hers; and, smiling as she passed Hareton, went singing upstairs:
lighter of heart, I venture to say, than ever she had been under that roof
before; except, perhaps, during her earliest visits to Linton.
The intimacy thus commenced grew rapidly;
though it encountered temporary interruptions. Earnshaw was not to be civilised
with a wish, and my young lady was no philosopher, and no paragon of patience;
but both their minds tending to the same point- one loving and desiring to
esteem, and the other loving and desiring to be esteemed- they contrived in the
end to reach it.
You see, Mr. Lockwood, it was easy enough
to win Mrs. Heathcliff's heart. But now, I'm glad you did not try. The crown of
all my wishes will be the union of those two. I shall envy no one on their wedding-day:
there won't be a happier woman than myself in England!
Chapter 33 -
ON THE MORROW of that Monday, Earnshaw
being still unable to follow his ordinary employments, and therefore remaining
about the house, I speedily found it would be impracticable to retain my charge
beside me, as heretofore. She got downstairs before me, and out into the
garden, where she had seen her cousin performing some easy work; and when I
went to bid them come to breakfast, I saw she had persuaded him to clear a
large space of ground from currant and gooseberry bushes, and they were busy
planning together an importation of plants from the Grange.
I was terrified at the devastation which
had been accomplished in a brief half-hour; the black currant trees were the
apple of Joseph's eye, and she had just fixed her choice of a flower-bed in the
midst of them.
"There! That will be all shown to the
master," I exclaimed, "the minute it is discovered. And what excuse
have you to offer for taking such liberties with the garden? We shall have a
fine explosion on the head of it: see if we don't! Mr. Hareton, I wonder you
should have no more wit, than to go and make that mess at her bidding!"
"I'd forgotten they were
Joseph's," answered Earnshaw, rather puzzled; "but I'll tell him I did
it."
We always ate our meals with Mr.
Heathcliff. I held the mistress's post in making tea and carving; so I was
indispensable at table. Catherine usually sat by me, but to-day she stole
nearer to Hareton; and I presently saw she would have no more discretion in her
friendship than she had in her hostility.
"Now, mind you don't talk with and
notice your cousin too much," were my whispered instructions as we entered
the room. "It will certainly annoy Mr. Heathcliff, and he'll be mad at you
both."
"I'm not going to," she answered.
The minute after, she had sidled to him,
and was sticking primroses in his plate of porridge.
He dared not speak to her there: he dared
hardly look; and yet she went on tearing till he was twice on the point of
being provoked to laugh. I frowned, and then she glanced toward the master:
whose mind was occupied on other subjects than his company, as his countenance
evinced; and she grew serious for an instant, scrutinising him with deep
gravity. Afterwards she turned, and recommenced her nonsense; at last, Hareton
uttered a smothered laugh. Mr. Heathcliff started; his eye rapidly surveyed our
faces. Catherine met it with her accustomed look of nervousness and yet
defiance, which he abhorred.
"It is well you are out of my
reach," he exclaimed. "What fiend possesses you to stare back at me,
continually, with those infernal eyes? Down with them! and don't remind me of
your existence again. I thought I had cured you of laughing."
"It was me," muttered Hareton.
"What do you say?" demanded the
master.
Hareton looked at his plate, and did not
repeat the confession. Mr. Heathcliff looked at him a bit, and then silently
resumed his breakfast and his interrupted musing. We had nearly finished, and
the two young people prudently shifted wider asunder, so I anticipated no
further disturbance during that sitting: when Joseph appeared at the door,
revealing by his quivering lip and furious eyes, that the outrage committed on
his precious shrubs was detected. He must have seen Cathy and her cousin about
the spot before he examined it, for while his jaws worked like those of a cow
chewing its cud, and rendered his speech difficult to understand, he began:
"I mun hey my wage, and I mun goa! I
hed aimed to dee, wheare I'd sarved fur sixty year; and I thowt I'd lug my
books up into t' garret, and all my bits o' stuff, and they sud hev t' kitchen
to theirseln; for t' sake o' quietness. It were hard to gie up my awn
hearthstun, but I thowt I could do that! But, nab, shoo's taan my garden fro'
me, and by th' heart, maister, I cannot stand it! Yah may bend to th' yoak, and
ye will- I noan used to 't, and an old man doesn't sooin get used to new
barthens. I'd rayther arn my bite and my sup wi' a hammer in th' road!"
"Now, now, idiot!" interrupted
Heathcliff, "cut it short! What's your grievance? I'll interfere in no
quarrels between you and Nelly. She may thrust you into the coalhole for
anything I care."
"It's noan Nelly!" answered
Joseph. "I sudn't shift for Nelly- nasty ill nowt as shoo is. Thank God!
shoo cannot stale t' sowl o' nob'dy! Shoo were niver soa handsome, but what a
body mud look at her 'bout winking. It's yon flaysome, graceless quean, that's
witched our lad, wi' her bold een and her forrard ways- till- Nay! it fair
bursts my heart! He's forgotten all I've done for him, and made on him, and
goan and riven up a whole row o' t' grandest currant trees, i' t' garden!"
And here he lamented outright; unmanned by a sense of his bitter injuries, and
Earnshaw's ingratitude and dangerous condition.
"Is the fool drunk?" asked Mr.
Heathcliff, "Hareton, is it you he's finding fault with?"
"I've pulled up two or three
bushes," replied the young man; "but I'm going to set 'em
again."
"And why have you pulled them
up?" said the master.
Catherine wisely put in her tongue.
"We wanted to plant some flowers
there," she cried. "I'm the only person to blame, for I wished him to
do it."
"And who the devil gave you leave to
touch a stick about the place?" demanded her father-in-law, much
surprised. "And who ordered you to obey her?" he added, turning to
Hareton.
The latter was speechless; his cousin
replied:
"You shouldn't grudge a few yards of
earth for me to ornament, when you have taken all my land!"
"Your land, insolent slut! You never
had any," said Heathcliff.
"And my money," she continued;
returning his angry glare, and meantime biting a piece of crust, the remnant of
her breakfast.
"Silence!" he exclaimed.
"Get done, and begone!"
"And Hareton's land, and his
money," pursued the reckless thing. "Hareton and I are friends now;
and I shall tell him all about you!"
The master seemed confounded a moment: he
grew pale, and rose up, eyeing her all the while, with an expression of mortal
hate.
"If you strike me, Hareton will strike
you," she said; "so you may as well sit down."
"If Hareton does not turn you out of
the room, I'll strike him to hell," thundered Heathcliff. "Damnable
witch! dare you pretend to rouse him against me? Off with her! Do you hear?
Fling her into the kitchen! I'll kill her, Ellen Dean, if you let her come into
my sight again!"
Hareton tried, under his breath, to
persuade her to go.
"Drag her away!" he cried
savagely. "Are you staying to talk?" And he approached to execute his
own command.
"He'll not obey you, wicked man, any
more," said Catherine; "and he'll soon detest you as much as I
do."
"Wisht! wisht!" muttered the
young man reproachfully. "I will not hear you speak so to him. Have
done."
"But you won't let him strike
me?" she cried.
"Come, then," he whispered
earnestly.
It was too late: Heathcliff had caught hold
of her.
"Now you go!" he said to
Earnshaw. "Accursed witch! this time she has provoked me when I could not
bear it; and I'll make her repent it for ever!"
He had his hand in her hair; Hareton
attempted to release her locks, entreating him not to hurt her that once.
Heathcliff's black eyes flashed; he seemed ready to tear Catherine in pieces,
and I was just worked up to risk coming to the rescue, when of a sudden his
fingers relaxed; he shifted his grasp from her head to her arm, and gazed
intently in her face. Then he drew his hand over her eyes, stood a moment to
collect himself apparently, and turning anew to Catherine, said, with assumed
calmness: "You must learn to avoid putting me in a passion, or I shall really
murder you some time! Go with Mrs. Dean, and keep with her; and confine your
insolence to her ears. As to Hareton Earnshaw, if I see him listen to you, I'll
send him seeking his bread where he can get it! Your love will make him an
outcast and a beggar. Nelly, take her; and leave me, all of you! Leave
me!"
I led my young lady out: she was too glad
of her escape to resist; the other followed, and Mr. Heathcliff had the room to
himself till dinner. I had counselled Catherine to dine upstairs; but, as soon
as he perceived her vacant seat, he sent me to call her. He spoke to none of
us, ate very little, and went out directly afterwards, intimating that he would
not return before evening.
The two new friends established themselves
in the house during his absence; when I heard Hareton sternly check his cousin,
on her offering a revelation of her father-in-law's conduct to his father. He
said he wouldn't suffer a word to be uttered in his disparagement: if he were
the devil, it didn't signify: he would stand by him; and he'd rather she would
abuse himself, as she used to, than begin on Mr. Heathcliff. Catherine was
waxing cross at this; but he found means to make her hold her tongue, by asking
how she would like him to speak ill of her father? Then she comprehended that
Earnshaw took the master's reputation home to himself; and was attached by ties
stronger than reason could break- chains, forged by habit, which it would be
cruel to attempt to loosen. She showed a good heart, thenceforth, in avoiding
both complaints and expressions of antipathy concerning Heathcliff; and
confessed to me her sorrow that she had endeavoured to raise a bad spirit
between him and Hareton: indeed, I don't believe she has ever breathed a
syllable, in the latter's hearing, against her oppressor since.
When this slight disagreement was over,
they were friends again, and as busy as possible in their several occupations
of pupil and teacher. I came in to sit with them, after I had done my work; and
I felt so soothed and comforted to watch them, that I did not notice how time
got on. You know, they both appeared in a measure my children: I had long been
proud of one; and now, I was sure, the other would be a source of equal
satisfaction. His honest, warm, and intelligent nature shook off rapidly the
clouds of ignorance and degradation in which it had been bred; and Catherine's
sincere commendations acted as a spur to his industry. His brightening mind
brightened his features, add added spirit and nobility to their aspect: I could
hardly fancy it the same individual I had beheld on the day I discovered my
little lady at Wuthering Heights, after her expedition to the Crags. While I
admired and they laboured, dusk grew on, and with it returned the master. He
came upon us quite unexpectedly, entering by the front way, and had a full view
of the whole three, ere we could raise our heads to glance at him. Well, I
reflected, there was never a pleasanter, or more harmless sight; and it will be
a burning shame to scold them. The red firelight glowed on their two bonny
heads, and revealed their faces animated with the eager interest of children;
for, though he was twenty-three and she eighteen, each had so much of novelty
to feel and learn, that neither experienced nor evinced the sentiments of sober
disenchanted maturity.
They lifted their eyes together, to
encounter Mr. Heathcliff perhaps you have never remarked that their eyes are
precisely similar, and they are those of Catherine Earnshaw. The present
Catherine has no other likeness to her, except a breadth of forehead, and a
certain arch of the nostril that makes her appear rather haughty, whether she
will or not. With Hareton the resemblance is carried farther: it is singular at
all times, then it was particularly striking; because his senses were alert,
and his mental faculties wakened to unwonted activity. I suppose this
resemblance disarmed Mr. Heathcliff; he walked to the hearth in evident
agitation; but it quickly subsided as he looked at the young man: or, I should
say, altered its character; for it was there yet. He took the book from his
hand, and glanced at the open page, then returned it without any observation;
merely signing Catherine away: her companion lingered very little behind her,
and I was about to depart also, but he bid me sit still.
"It is a poor conclusion, is it
not?" he observed, having brooded a while on the scene he had just
witnessed: "an absurd termination to my violent exertions? I get levers
and mattocks to demolish the two houses, and train myself to be capable of working
like Hercules, and when everything is ready and in my power, I find the will to
lift a slate off either roof has vanished! My old enemies have not beaten me;
now would be the precise time to revenge myself on their representatives: I
could do it; and none could hinder me. But where is the use? I don't care for
striking; I can't take the trouble to raise my hand! That sounds as if I had
been labouring the whole time only to exhibit a fine trait of magnanimity. It
is far from being the case: I have lost the faculty of enjoying their
destruction, and I am too idle to destroy for nothing.
"Nelly, there is a strange change
approaching: I'm in its shadow at present. I take so little interest in my
daily life, that I hardly remember to eat and drink. Those two who have left
the room are the only objects which retain a distinct material appearance to
me; and that appearance causes me pain, amounting to agony. About her I won't
speak; and I don't desire to think; but I earnestly wish she were invisible:
her presence invokes only maddening sensations. He moves me differently: and
yet if I could do it without seeming insane, I'd never see him again. You'll
perhaps think me rather inclined to become so," he added, making an effort
to smile, "if I try to describe the thousand forms of past associations
and ideas he awakens or embodies. But you'll not talk of what I tell you; and
my mind is so eternally secluded in itself, it is tempting at last to turn it
out to another.
"Five minutes ago, Hareton seemed a
personification of my youth, not a human being: I felt to him in such a variety
of ways, that it would have been impossible to have accosted him rationally. In
the first place, his startling likeness to Catherine connected him fearfully
with her. That, however, which you may suppose the most potent to arrest my
imagination, is actually the least: for what is not connected with her to me?
and what does not recall her? I cannot look down to this floor, but her
features are shaped in the flags! In every cloud, in every tree- filling the
air at night, and caught by glimpses in every object by day- I am surrounded
with her image! The most ordinary faces of men and women- my own features- mock
me with a resemblance. The entire world is a dreadful collection of memoranda
that she did exist, and that I have lost her! Well, Hareton's aspect was the
ghost of my immortal love; of my wild endeavours to hold my right; my
degradation, my pride, my happiness, and my anguish:
"But it is frenzy to repeat these
thoughts to you: only it will let you know why, with a reluctance to be always
alone, his society is no benefit; rather an aggravation of the constant torment
I suffer; and it partly contributes to render me regardless how he and his
cousin go on together. I can give them no attention, any more."
"But what do you mean by a change, Mr.
Heathcliff?" I said, alarmed at his manner: though he was neither in
danger of losing his senses, nor dying, according to my judgment: he was quite
strong and healthy: and, as to his reason, from childhood he had a delight in
dwelling on dark things, and entertaining odd fancies. He might have had a
monomania on the subject of his departed idol; but on every other point his
wits were as sound as mine.
"I shall not know that till it
comes," he said, "I'm only half conscious of it now."
"You have no feelings of illness, have
you?" I asked.
"No, Nelly, I have not," he
answered.
"Then you are not afraid of
death?" I pursued.
"Afraid? No!" he replied. "I
have neither a fear, nor a presentiment, nor a hope of death. Why should I?
With my hard constitution and temperate mode of living, and unperilous
occupations, I ought to, and probably shall, remain above ground till there is
scarcely a black hair on my head. And yet, I cannot continue in this condition!
I have to remind myself to breathe- almost to remind my heart to beat! And it
is like bending back a stiff spring: it is by compulsion that I do the
slightest act not prompted by one thought; and by compulsion that I notice
anything alive or dead, which is not associated with one universal idea. I have
a single wish, and my whole being and faculties are yearning to attain it. They
have yearned towards it so long, and so unwaveringly, that I'm convinced it
will be reached- and soon- because it has devoured my existence: I am swallowed
up in the anticipation of its fulfillment. My confessions have not relieved me;
but they may account for some otherwise unaccountable phases of humour which I
show. O God! It is a long fight, I wish it were over!"
He began to pace the room, muttering
terrible things to himself, till I was inclined to believe, as he said Joseph
did, that conscience had turned his heart to an earthly hell. I wondered
greatly how it would end. Though he seldom before had revealed this state of mind,
even by looks, it was his habitual mood, I had no doubt: he asserted it
himself; but not a soul, from his general bearing, would have conjectured the
fact. You did not when you saw him, Mr. Lockwood: and at the period of which I
speak he was just the same as then; only fonder of continued solitude, and
perhaps still more laconic in company.
Chapter 34 -
FOR SOME DAYS after that evening, Mr.
Heathcliff shunned meeting us at meals; yet he would not consent formally to
exclude Hareton and Cathy. He had an aversion to yielding so completely to his
feelings, choosing rather to absent himself; and eating once in twenty-four
hours seemed sufficient sustenance for him.
One night, after the family were in bed, I
heard him go downstairs, and out at the front door. I did not hear him
re-enter, and in the morning I found he was still away. We were in April then:
the weather was sweet and warm, the grass as green as showers and sun could
make it, and the two dwarf apple trees near the southern wall in full bloom. After
breakfast, Catherine insisted on my bringing a chair and sitting with my work
under the fir trees at the end of the house; and she beguiled Hareton, who had
perfectly recovered from his accident, to dig and arrange her little garden,
which was shifted to that corner by the influence of Joseph's complaints. I was
comfortably revelling in the spring fragrance around, and the beautiful soft
blue overhead, when my young lady, who had run down near the gate to procure
some primrose roots for a border, returned only half laden, and informed us
that Mr. Heathcliff was coming in. "And he spoke to me," she added
with a perplexed countenance.
"What did he say?" asked Hareton.
"He told me to begone as fast as I
could," she answered. "But he looked so different from his usual look
that I stopped a moment to stare at him."
"How?" he enquired.
"Why, almost bright and cheerful. No,
almost nothing- very much excited, and wild and glad!" she replied.
"Night-walking amuses him, then,"
I remarked, affecting a careless manner: in reality as surprised as she was,
and anxious to ascertain the truth of her statement; for to see the master
looking glad would not be an every-day spectacle. I framed an excuse to go in.
Heathcliff stood at the open door, he was pale, and he trembled: yet,
certainly, he had a strange, joyful glitter in his eyes, that altered the
aspect of his whole face.
"Will you have some breakfast?" I
said. "You must be hungry, rambling about all night!" I wanted to
discover where he had been, but I did not like to ask directly.
"No, I'm not hungry," he
answered, averting his head and speaking rather contemptuously, as if he
guessed I was trying to divine the occasion of his good-humour.
I felt perplexed: I didn't know whether it
were not a proper opportunity to offer a bit of admonition.
"I don't think it right to wander out
of doors," I observed, "instead of being in bed: it is not wise, at
any rate, this moist season. I dare say you'll catch a bad cold, or a fever:
you have something the matter with you now!"
"Nothing but what I can bear," he
replied; "and with the greatest pleasure, provided you'll leave me alone;
get in, and don't annoy me."
I obeyed: and, in passing, I noticed he
breathed as fast as a cat.
"Yes!" I reflected to myself,
"we shall have a fit of illness. I cannot conceive what he has been
doing."
That noon he sat down to dinner with us,
and received a heaped-up plate from my hands, as if he intended to make amends
for previous fasting.
"I've neither cold nor fever,
Nelly," he remarked, in allusion to my morning's speech; "and I'm
ready to do justice to the food you give me."
He took his knife and fork, and was going
to commence eating, when the inclination appeared to become suddenly extinct.
He laid them on the table, looked eagerly towards the window, then rose and
went out. We saw him walking to and fro in the garden while we concluded our
meal, and Earnshaw said he'd go and ask why he would not dine: he thought we
had grieved him some way.
"Well, is he coming?" cried
Catherine, when her cousin returned.
"Nay," he answered; "but
he's not angry: he seemed rarely pleased indeed; only I made him impatient by
speaking to him twice; and then he bid me be off to you: he wondered how I
could want the company of anybody else."
I set his plate to keep warm on the fender;
and after an hour or two he re-entered, when the room was clear, in no degree
calmer: the same unnatural- it was unnatural- appearance of joy under his black
brows; the same bloodless hue, and his teeth visible, now and then, in a kind
of smile; his frame shivering, not as one shivers with chill or weakness, but
as a tight-stretched cord vibrates- a strong thrilling, rather than trembling.
I will ask what is the matter, I thought;
or who should? And I exclaimed:
"Have you heard any good news, Mr.
Heathcliff? You look uncommonly animated."
"Where should good news come from to
me?" he said. "I'm animated with hunger; and, seemingly, I must not
eat."
"Your dinner is here," I
returned; "why won't you get it?"
"I don't want it now," he
muttered hastily: "I'll wait till supper. And, Nelly, once for all, let me
beg you to warn Hareton and the other away from me. I wish to be troubled by
nobody: I wish to have this place to myself."
"Is there same new reason for this
banishment?" I enquired. "Tell me why you are so queer, Mr.
Heathcliff? Where were you last night? I'm not putting the question through
idle curiosity, but-"
"You are putting the question through
very idle curiosity," he interrupted, with a laugh. "Yet, I'll answer
it. Last night I was on the threshold of hell. To-day, I am within sight of my
heaven. I have my eyes on it: hardly three feet to sever me! And now you'd
better go! You'll neither see nor hear anything to frighten you, if you refrain
from prying."
Having swept the hearth and wiped the
table, I departed; more perplexed than ever.
He did not quit the house again that
afternoon, and no one intruded on his solitude; till, at eight o'clock, I
deemed it proper, though unsummoned, to carry a candle and his supper to him.
He was leaning against the ledge of an open lattice, but not looking out: his
face was turned to the interior gloom. The fire had smouldered to ashes; the
room was filled with the damp, mild air of the cloudy evening; and so still,
that not only the murmur of the beck down Gimmerton was distinguishable, but
its ripples and its gurgling over the pebbles, or through the large stones
which it could not cover. I uttered an ejaculation of discontent at seeing the
dismal grate, and commenced shutting the casements, one after another, till I
came to his.
"Must I close this?" I asked, in
order to rouse him; for he would not stir.
The light flashed on his features as I
spoke. Oh, Mr. Lockwood, I cannot express what a terrible start I got by the
momentary view! Those deep black eyes! That smile, and ghastly paleness! It
appeared to me, not Mr. Heathcliff, but a goblin; and, in my terror, I let the
candle bend towards the wall, and it left me in darkness.
"Yes, close it," he replied, in
his familiar voice. "There, that is pure awkwardness! Why did you hold the
candle horizontally? Be quick, and bring another."
I hurried out in a foolish state of dread,
and said to Joseph:
"The master wishes you to take him a
light and rekindle the fire." For I dared not go in myself again just
then.
Joseph rattled some fire into the shovel,
and went; but he brought it back immediately, with the supper-tray in his other
hand, explaining that Mr. Heathcliff was going to bed, and he wanted nothing to
eat till morning. We heard him mount the stairs directly; he did not proceed to
his ordinary chamber, but turned into that with the panelled bed: its window,
as I mentioned before, is wide enough for anybody to get through; and it struck
me that he plotted another midnight excursion, of which he had rather we had no
suspicion.
"Is he a ghoul or a vampire?" I
mused. I had read of such hideous incarnate demons. And then I set myself to
reflect how I had tended him in infancy, and watched him grow to youth, and
followed him almost through his whole course; and what absurd nonsense it was
to yield to that sense of horror. "But where did he come from, the little
dark thing, harboured by a good man to his bane?" muttered Superstition,
as I dozed into unconsciousness. And I began, half dreaming, to weary myself
with imagining some fit parentage for him; and, repeating my awaking
meditations, I tracked his existence over again, with grim variations; at last,
picturing his death and funeral: of which, all I can remember is, being
exceedingly vexed at having the task of dictating an inscription for his
monument, and consulting the sexton about it; and, as he had no surname, and we
could not tell his age, we were obliged to content ourselves with the single
word, "Heathcliff." That came true: we were. If you enter the
kirkyard, you'll read on his headstone, only that, and the date of his death.
Dawn restored me to common sense. I rose,
and went into the garden, as soon as I could see, to ascertain if there were
any footmarks under his window. There were none. "He has stayed at
home," I thought, "and he'll be all right to-day." I prepared
breakfast for the household, as was my usual custom, but told Hareton and
Catherine to get theirs ere the master came down, for he lay late. They
preferred taking it out of doors, under the trees, and I set a little table to
accommodate them.
On my re-entrance, I found Mr. Heathcliff
below. He and Joseph were conversing about some farming business; he gave
clear, minute directions concerning the matter discussed, but he spoke rapidly,
and turned his head continually aside, and had the same excited expression,
even more exaggerated. When joseph quitted the room he took his seat in the
place he generally chose, and I put a basin of coffee before him. He drew it nearer,
and then rested his arms on the table, and looked at the opposite wall, as I
supposed, surveying one particular portion, up and down, with glittering,
restless eyes, and with such eager interest that he stopped breathing during
half a minute together.
"Come now," I exclaimed, pushing
some bread against his hand, "eat and drink that, while it is hot: it has
been waiting near an hour."
He didn't notice me, and yet he smiled. I'd
rather have seen him gnash his teeth than smile so.
"Mr. Heathcliff! master!" I
cried, "don't, for God's sake, stare as if you saw an unearthly
vision."
"Don't, for God's sake, shout so
loud," he replied. "Turn round, and tell me, are we by
ourselves?"
"Of course," was my answer;
"of course we are."
Still I involuntarily obeyed him, as if I
was not quite sure. With a sweep of his hand he cleared a vacant space in front
among the breakfast things, and leant forward to gaze more at his ease.
Now, I perceived he was not looking at the
wall; for when I regarded him alone, it seemed exactly that he gazed at
something within two yards' distance. And whatever it was, it communicated,
apparently, both pleasure and pain in exquisite extremes: at least the
anguished, yet raptured, expression of his countenance suggested that idea. The
fancied object was not fixed, either; his eyes pursued it with unwearied
diligence, and, even in speaking to me, were never weaned away. I vainly
reminded him of his protracted abstinence from food: if he stirred to touch
anything in compliance with my entreaties, if he stretched his hand out to get
a piece of bread, his fingers clenched before they reached it, and remained on
the table, forgetful of their aim.
I sat, a model of patience, trying to
attract his absorbed attention from its engrossing speculation; till he grew
irritable, and got up, asking why I would not allow him to have his own time in
taking his meals? and saying that on the next occasion, I needn't wait: I might
set the things down and go. Having uttered these words he left the house, slowly
sauntered down the garden path, and disappeared through the gate.
The hours crept anxiously by: another
evening came. I did not retire to rest till late, and when I did, I could not
sleep. He returned after midnight, and, instead of going to bed, shut himself
into the room beneath. I listened, and tossed about, and, finally, dressed and
descended. It was too irksome to lie there, harassing my brain with a hundred
idle misgivings.
I distinguished Mr. Heathcliff's step,
restlessly measuring the floor, and he frequently broke the silence by a deep
inspiration, resembling a groan. He muttered detached words also; the only one
I could catch was the name of Catherine, coupled with some wild term of
endearment or suffering; and spoken as one would speak to a person present: low
and earnest, and wrung from the depth of his soul. I had not courage to walk
straight into the apartment; but I desired to divert him from his reverie, and
therefore fell foul of the kitchen fire, stirred it, and began to scrape the cinders,
It drew him forth sooner than I expected. He opened the door immediately, and
said:
"Nelly, come here- is it morning? Come
in with your light."
"It is striking four," I
answered. "You want a candle to take upstairs: you might have lit one at
this fire."
"No, I don't wish to go
upstairs," he said. "Come in, and kindle me a fire, and do anything
there is to do about the room."
"I must blow the coals red first,
before I can carry any," I replied, getting a chair and the bellows.
He roamed to and fro, meantime, in a state
approaching distraction; his heavy sighs succeeding each other so thick as to
leave no space for common breathing between.
"When day breaks I'll send for
Green," he said; "I wish to make some legal enquiries of him while I
can bestow a thought on those matters, and while I can act calmly. I have not
written my will yet; and how to leave my property I cannot determine. I wish I
could annihilate it from the face of the earth."
"I would not talk so, Mr.
Heathcliff," I interposed. "Let your will be a while: you'll be
spared to repent of your many injustices yet. I never expected that your nerves
would be disordered: they are, at present, marvellously so, however; and almost
entirely through your own fault. The way you've passed these three last days
might knock up a Titan. Do take some food, and some repose. You need only look
at yourself in a glass to see how you require both. Your cheeks are hollow, and
your eyes bloodshot, like a person starving with hunger and going blind with
loss of sleep."
"It is not my fault that I cannot eat
or rest," he replied. "I assure you it is through no settled designs.
I'll do both as soon as I possibly can. But you might as well bid a man
struggling in the water rest within arm's length of the shore! I must reach it
first, and then I'll rest. Well, never mind Mr. Green: as to repenting of my
injustices, I've done no injustice, and I repent of nothing. I'm too happy; and
yet I'm not happy enough. My soul's bliss kills my body, but does not satisfy
itself."
"Happy, master?" I cried.
"Strange happiness! If you would hear me without being angry, I might
offer some advice that would make you happier."
"What is that?" he asked.
"Give it."
"You are aware, Mr. Heathcliff,"
I said, "that from the time you were thirteen years old, you have lived a
selfish, unchristian life; and probably hardly had a Bible in your hands during
all that period. You must have forgotten the contents of the Book, and you may
not have space to search it now. Could it be hurtful to send for some one- some
minister of any denomination, it does not matter which- to explain it, and show
you how very far you have erred from its precepts; and how unfit you will be
for its heaven, unless a change takes place before you die?"
"I'm rather obliged than angry,
Nelly," he said, "for you remind me of the manner in which I desire
to be buried. It is to be carried to the churchyard in the evening. You and
Hareton may, if you please, accompany me: and mind, particularly, to notice
that the sexton obeys my directions concerning the two coffins! No minister
need come; nor need anything be said over me.- I tell you I have nearly
attained my heaven; and that of others is altogether unvalued and uncoveted by
me."
"And supposing you persevered in your
obstinate fast, and died by that means, and they refused to bury you in the
precincts of the Kirk?" I said, shocked at his godless indifference.
"How would you like it?"
"They won't do that," he replied:
"if they did, you must have me removed secretly: and if you neglect it you
shall prove, practically, that the dead are not annihilated!"
As soon as he heard the other members of
the family stirring he retired to his den, and I breathed freer. But in the
afternoon, while Joseph and Hareton were at their work, he came into the
kitchen again, and, with a wild look, bid me come and sit in the house: he
wanted somebody with him. I declined: telling him plainly that his strange talk
and manner frightened me, and I had neither the nerve nor the will to be his
companion alone.
"I believe you think me a fiend,"
he said, with his dismal laugh: "something too horrible to live under a
decent roof." Then turning to Catherine, who was there, and who drew
behind me at his approach, he added, half-sneeringly- "Will you come, chuck?
I'll not hurt you. No! to you I've made myself worse than the devil. Well,
there is one who won't shrink from my company! By God! she's relentless. Oh,
damn it! It's unutterably too much for flesh and blood to bear- even
mine."
He solicited the society of no one more. At
dusk, he went into his chamber. Through the whole night, and far into the
morning, we heard him groaning and murmuring to himself. Hareton was anxious to
enter; but I bade him fetch Dr. Kenneth, and he should go in and see him. When he
came, and I requested admittance and tried to open the door, I found it locked;
and Heathcliff bid us be damned. He was better, and would be left alone; so the
doctor went away.
The following evening was very wet: indeed
it poured down till day-dawn; and, as I took my morning walk round the house, I
observed the master's window swinging open, and the rain driving straight in.
He cannot be in bed, I thought: those showers would drench him through. He must
either be up or out. But I'll make no more ado, I'll go boldly and look.
Having succeeded in obtaining entrance with
another key, I ran to unclose the panels, for the chamber was vacant; quickly
pushing them aside, I peeped in. Mr. Heathcliff was there- laid on his back.
His eyes met mine so keen and fierce, I started; and then he seemed to smile. I
could not think him dead: but his face and throat were washed with rain; the
bed-clothes dripped, and he was perfectly still. The lattice, flapping to and
fro, had grazed one hand that rested on the sill; no blood trickled from the
broken skin, and when I put my fingers to it, I could doubt no more: he was
dead and stark!
I hasped the window; I combed his black
long hair from his forehead; I tried to close his eyes: to extinguish, if
possible, that frightful, life-like gaze of exultation before any one else
beheld it. They would not shut: they seemed to sneer at my attempts: and his
parted lips and sharp white teeth sneered too! Taken with another fit of
cowardice, I cried out for Joseph. Joseph shuffled up and made a noise; but
resolutely refused to meddle with him. "Th' divil's harried off his
soul," he cried, "and he may hey his carcass into t' bargain, for
aught I care! Ech! what a wicked un he looks girning at death!" and the
old sinner grinned in mockery. I thought he intended to cut a caper round the
bed; but, suddenly composing himself, he fell on his knees, and raised his
hands, and returned thanks that the lawful master and the ancient stock were
restored to their rights.
I felt stunned by the awful event; and my
memory unavoidably recurred to former times with a sort of oppressive sadness.
But poor Hareton, the most wronged, was the only one who really suffered much.
He sat by the corpse all night, weeping in bitter earnest. He pressed its hand,
and kissed the sarcastic savage face that every one else shrank from
contemplating; and bemoaned him with that strong grief which springs naturally
from a generous heart, though it be tough as tempered steel.
Dr. Kenneth was perplexed to pronounce of
what disorder the master died. I concealed the fact of his having swallowed
nothing for four days, fearing it might lead to trouble, and then, I am
persuaded, he did not abstain on purpose: it was the consequence of his strange
illness, not the cause.
We buried him, to the scandal of the whole
neighbourhood, as he wished. Earnshaw and I, the sexton, and six men to carry
the coffin, comprehended the whole attendance. The six men departed when they
had let it down into the grave: we stayed to see it covered. Hareton, with a
streaming face, dug green sods, and laid them over the brown mound himself; at
present it is as smooth and verdant as its companion mounds- and I hope its
tenant sleeps as soundly. But the country folk, if you ask them, would swear on
the Bible that he walks: there are those who speak of having met him near the
church, and on the moor, and even in this house. Idle tales, you'll say, and so
say I. Yet that old man by the kitchen fire affirms he has seen two on 'em,
looking out of his chamber window, on every rainy night since his death: and an
odd thing happened to me about a month ago. I was going to the Grange one
evening- a dark evening, threatening thunder- and, just at the turn of the
Heights, I encountered a little boy with a sheep and two lambs before him; he
was crying terribly; and I supposed the lambs were skittish, and would not be
guided.
"What's the matter, my little
man?" I asked.
"There's Heathcliff and a woman,
yonder, under t' nab," he blubbered, "un' I darnut pass 'em."
I saw nothing; but neither the sheep nor he
would go on; so I bid him take the road lower down. He probably raised the
phantoms from thinking, as he traversed the moors alone, on the nonsense he had
heard his parents and companions repeat. Yet, still, I don't like being out in
the dark now; and I don't like being left by myself in this grim house: I
cannot help it; I shall be glad when they leave it, and shift to the Grange.
"They are going to the Grange,
then," I said.
"Yes," answered Mrs. Dean,
"as soon as they are married, and that will be on New Year's day."
"And who will live here, then?"
"Why, Joseph will take care of the
house, and, perhaps, a lad to keep him company. They will live in the kitchen,
and the rest will be shut up."
"For the use of such ghosts as choose
to inhabit it," I observed.
"No, Mr. Lockwood," said Nelly,
shaking her head. "I believe the dead are at peace: but it is not right to
speak of them with levity."
At that moment the garden gate swung to;
the ramblers were returning.
"They are afraid of nothing," I
grumbled, watching their approach through the window. "Together they would
brave Satan and all his legions."
As they stepped on to the door-stones, and
halted to take a last look at the moon- or, more correctly, at each other by
her light- I felt irresistibly impelled to escape them again; and, pressing a
remembrance into the hand of Mrs. Dean, and disregarding her expostulations at
my rudeness, I vanished through the kitchen as they opened the house door; and
so should have confirmed Joseph in his opinion of his fellow-servant's gay
indiscretions, had he not fortunately recognised me for a respectable character
by the sweet ring of a sovereign at his feet.
My walk home was lengthened by a diversion
in the direction of the kirk. When beneath its walls, I perceived decay had
made progress, even in seven months: many a window showed black gaps deprived
of glass; and slates jutted off, here and there, beyond the right line of the
roof, to be gradually worked off in coming autumn storms.
I sought, and soon discovered, the three
head-stones on the slope next the moor: the middle one grey, and half buried in
heath: Edgar Linton's only harmonised by the turf and moss creeping up its
foot: Heathcliff's still bare.
I lingered round them, under that benign
sky; watched the moths fluttering among the heath and harebells, listened to
the soft wind breathing through the grass, and wondered how any one could ever
imagine unquiet slumbers for the sleepers in that quiet earth.
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